Thread: Your Story, Remembrance Calendar, Our Memorial Websites

Share Your Story

Please use this thread to share the story of your loss and read about others who have experienced something similar.



Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Calendar

We have a calendar where you can list important dates you would like to remember, such as EDD's, birthdays, the anniversary of your miscarriage or baby's death etc.

Pregnancy & Infant Loss Support Remembrance Calendar

Instructions - To insert an annually repeating event

1. Go to the month you want to add the event to.
2. At the top where it says 'Add Events' click 'Periodic'.
3. Then choose create (top left).
4. Enter the details and choose a category if applicable.
5. Where it says 'How To Repeat' choose the day of the month to repeat on and select 'Every Year'.
6. Above that where it says 'Until' choose the date you want the event to stop repeating. Please note that there is no repeat indefinately option. To get the event to keep repeating year after you you must click 'Submit' and then go back in and edit to choose the next year 'up' and so on.
7. When you have finished click 'Submit'.



Our Members Memorial Websites

Some members have created a website in memorial of their lost children. If you would like yours to be listed here please send me a PM and i will include it.

www.thealmons.com
Created by C.C. (thealmonfamily)

Jack's Website
http://jackkendrickjohnson.blogspot.com/
Created by Joey (joeythegirl)

Jeremiah's Website
www.jeremiahamir.memory-of.com
Created by Sheena (Shee_na)

http://www.geocities.com/deebaby68/
Created by Dee (Dee68 )

Sebastian and Sebanna's Website
www.myforeverangels.com
Created by (motheroffive)

Zane's Website
www.sarah-chambers.co.uk
Created by Sarah (Uropachild)
WARNING - Also includes new pregnancy

Peter's Caring Bridge Site
www.caringbridge.org/visit/peterjames
Created by Julie (sweetpetunia)

Nataley's Websites
http://nataleygrayceyoung.memory-of.com/
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/nataleygrayceyoung
Created by Karen & Gabe (karenj)

Cayman's Website
www.caringbridge.org/visit/caymansinjin
http://tchin.org/portraits/cayman-1.htm
Created by Kelly (frosty's girl)

Lachlan's Website
www.caringbridge.org/visit/lachlanscotthoulianglam
Created by Marcelle (marcelle)

Isabella's Website
www.isabella-gondolfo.memory-of.com
Created by Kristen (MomtoLuca&angelbella)

Rebecca's Website
www.Rebecca-Allison-Hall.memory-of.com
Created by Robin Hall (rh1430)

Angel's Website
http://abbysangel.memory-of.com/
Created by Abby (abbyrocks2427)

Originally Posted by Carey_78

My name is Carey and I am 25 years old. My husband, Nathaniel, and I have been married since April 7, 2001. I am a Title I reading teacher for 2nd and 3rd grades in west central Illinois. My husband was laid off in September from his job at a local factory which is moving to Mexico. He is currently looking for a job. We have been trying to conceive since September 9, 2001. I became pregnant in July of 2002 and miscarried in September of that year. I went on to become pregnant again in the beginning of 2003 and miscarried in March. I became pregnant in June of 2003 and miscarried for the third time. I had D&C's with my first two pregnancies and miscarried naturally the third time. After my third miscarriage, my doctor discovered that I had a septate uterus and in late November of 2003 I had surgery to remove the septum from my uterus. My doctor believes that the septum had been the cause of my miscarriages since when an egg implants on the septum, which has poor or no blood supply, it dies once it gets to the point where it needs a strong blood supply. Since the septum is right as the egg comes out of the fallopian tubes, that is usually where it implants. I have also been tested for diabetes, thyroid problems, and progesterone problems. Those tests all came back fine. My husband and I are ttc again. That is my story and I look forward to getting to know, meeting, and helping any newcomers to the group. Words cannot express what the ladies here have done for me. This is such an emotional home for me. I don't know what I would do without it. ~Carey

Originally Posted by maxwellmom

Hi. I'm Lee. 31. I lost my baby girl on 8-8-03 at 13 wks. At 12 wks, we had gone in for an ultrasound test called the Nucal Translucency screening. (It is not yet standard of care in the US, but is becoming more common.) Basically, they measure the small space in the back of the fetus' neck to determin a RISK (not diagnose) for Downs and other chromosomal problems. Well, our baby showed an extreme amount of fluid build up in the head, neck, back and abdomen. It was a condition known as Cystic Hygroma. It is caused by malfunction in the lymph nodes and heart and is not compatible with life, especially considering how severe it was so early in our baby. Although the Cystic Hygroma is related to chromosomal problems about 50% of the time, our baby's condition was not (as shown by a CVS). We had a series of more tests (more ultrasounds and the CVS) over the next several days to confirm the results.

Here is the part I have never shared before, except with close family. But I gotta think that someone else out there has gone through the same thing and I hope it helps someone to share my story...

We saw or consulted 5 Doctors. The two neo-natal specialists that I saw, my regualr OB, my SIL OB and my BIL OB. They all told me the same thing: that our baby girl would not survive beyond 20 wks inutero. Eventually the baby's heart cannot keep up with the added burden of this fluid and it also does not allow the spinal cord or brain to ever fully develop. We made the most difficult decision of out entire lives (OMG, I am crying so hard right now) - to let our baby go. We had a D&E to save me the pain of as much as 8 more weeks of mental anguish and a more complicated late D&C or stillbirth. I know that there are people who would disagree with this decision down to their very core; but fortunately, I haven't come across too many of those.

We named her Bailey, because it is a name that too me, sounds forever young and so beautiful as I know she would have been.

Thank you to all you ladies who have been here for me.

Lee

Originally Posted by ~Sabrina~

Well this is my first time posting over here. I actually thought my sadness had passed. but has come back horribly these last few days. So I guess here's my story.

I thought I had gotten a BFP on July 19th. So I went in to have a BT done and it was BFN. So I thought nothing more when AF started the next day. Then what I thought was CD 12 I had been spotting and cramping almost every day since AF and just on a whim took a hpt. And it was blarring +. I was thrilled because my first two I had normal AF's and late + hpt. So it gave me no reason to worry other then the spotting. I had never done that before. So I called my CNM, it was a weekend and she was out of town so I had to talk to the OB in practice with her. He told me he was sure it was an ectopic and to go in and get another BT but to not get excited when it was +.

So I went in and did the BT. level was 117. I couldn't help it, I got excited. Went back in on Tues. to get another draw and I went ahead and asked my CNM to order my OB blood work so I didn't have to get poked twice. Later that day I started cramping again and bleeding red. Up to this point my spotting was all brown. And this was running red blood. I called my CNM and she told me that my results were not good. My HCG was sown to 71. I of course cried like crazy all night. I had to see her that Thursday to be checked and make sure everything was passing naturally.

Thursday I went ot see her and to out surprise my bleeding had stopped and my cervix was shut tight. Wondering what was going on my CNM ordered another BT. This time my level was 85, I was shocked! How could that be? She explained to me that either placenta tissue was still trying to produce or I m/c a twin. I had to do another BT in 2 days to see what leve,s were doing.

So on Saturday I went in again. Results came back at 168!!! I was jumping up and down. I was spotting brown off and on but they just assumed it was from implantation since my levels were doubling.

I went and had another BT done on Monday and that didn't double. Level was 235. So they scheduled my U/S only to find that they couldn't see anything because the baby wasn't big enough yet.

Another set of BT and it was 255. Then another U/S It was ectopic. So I couldn't leave the drs until I got my first round of methotroxate. I was devistated. I never would have though that after having 3 normal babies...that this would ever happen to me.

Lost my angel on Aug. 11th 2004. And to make matters worse, as DH and I were lying aroung the house that evening being sad, we got a phone call that his uncle (Who lived 2 miles away) Had just died in a tragic farming accident. All my sadness about the ectopic was gone. And I actually didn't get really sad about it much more after that until these past few days. I guess maybe I didn't grieve everything out because I was distracted.. I don't know.

Anyways, that's my story. Oh, and my name is Sabrina and DH is Jeff.

Originally Posted by revlaurie

I am new to this site, but would love some words of support.
My husband and I were expecting our first child this last Nov, and my pregnancy was wonderful, perfectly healthy. When I went into labour we were excited to go to the hosptial right on schedule! When we arrived I had an U/S, but the nurse paged the doctor on call, who turned to us and told us there was no heartbeat! This was a shock to us, as I had been to the doctor 2 days earlier and everything was fine as ususal.
I then had to undure 22 hours of labour to give birth, full term, to my baby girl Angelina knowing she was already gone. It was a heart-wrenching labour of love.
We were able to hold her, 8 pounds and perfdctly formed, and have here baptized. But leaving the hopsital with emtpy arms was tormenting. Coming home to pack up a nursery was equally devastating. It has been 3 months,and we still struggle to stay positive. We want to try again, but am afraid we will be iflled with fear. To this day, no cause has been found for her death.
Laurie

Originally Posted by PINKBOW

I am new to this site, and my heart goes out to everyone who has experienced a loss! I too experienced a loss, and would like to share my story. I am 27 years old and have a two year old little boy and we were expecting the birth of our daughter this past Christmas. We all went in for my 24 week appt. thinking everthing was fine and were told there was no heartbeat. I was sent to deliver right from my doctors office and after 14 hours of labor we got to hold our beautiful little angle. My son picked out her name and he named her "Abby". Abby was lost due to Placenta Abruptia on Sept. 15. 2004. She is forever in our hearts and our minds!

Originally Posted by eniper

I became pregnant with twins in Sept. '04. Everything was progressing wonderfully. On Feb. 8th I had an u/s and they measured my cervix. One baby had more fluid but nothing they were overly concerned about. On February 15th I wasn't feeling very well. I felt like the babies were thumping on my cervix. Later that night I started feeling crampy. An hour later I started bleeding and the cramping increased. It turns out I was contracting. This was my first pregnancy and didn't know what it felt like. I got to the hospital already dilated 10cm with one of the twins legs in my uterus. Both boys were born by 11:10pm. They survived until 8am and 11am the next morning, Feb. 16, 2005. We are burying them Tuesday, Feb. 22, 2005. As you can imagine my husband and I are devastated. I just don't see how we are going to get past this. I know time will heal but it seems impossible at this time.

Originally Posted by July-Moonchild

[LC mentioned]

I'm new here too and wanted to share my story. I hate that any of us have had to endure what we have! I'm Lisa, mommy to one living child, a son and three angels.

My first angel was the result of a blighted ovum at 9 weeks in April 2003.

My second angel, ~Ryan Joseph~ was born still on 10/27/03 at 22.4 weeks after my water broke. He was a perfect little boy, weighing in at 1lb, .09 oz and measuring 10 inches long. I had some very serious complications after his birth when the placenta wouldn't detach. I ended up hemorrhaging and required surgery, but thankfully, my uterus was saved!! I did end of having to have 5 blood transfusions and two fresh, frozen plasma transfusions. Since there was no reason discovered for the preterm premature rupture of membranes (PPROM-the medical term for what happened to me), my OB's felt after a year, that it was safe for me to get pregnant again.

As scared as DH and I were, we decided to forge ahead and got pregnant the first month of trying and I got my BFP on ~Ryan's~ one year Angel Day, 10/27/04. All was going well, despite me being very nervous. My OBs were watching me pretty closely and I had no signs of infection at all and had several U/S to monitor baby's growth and development. I had pretty bad morning sickness, so unlike my first two pregnancies, so I had a feeling this was a girl. Had a level II u/s with a perinatologist at 13.5 weeks and the doctor said that he couldn't be 100% sure, but if he had to take an educated guess, than he said it was probably a girl...our little Princess. We came up with the name Mallory Nicole and I was sooo excited. My excitement came to a screeching halt on 1/18/05 when, out of the blue, my water broke again. I went to the perinatologist and he revealed that yes, I had had PPROM again, this time at 15 weeks and that I had only a few pockets of fluid left..not enough for lung development. We were devastated. He suggested that try to drink plenty of fluids, stay completely off my feet and see if I would reseal, but that was not to be as I started cramping and spotting and when I went to the doctor, I was already dilated to 2 and labor was inevitable. Because of my previous history, the doctor's didn't want to chance me having to deliver, so she performed a D & E on 1/21/05. More complications ensued and I had to have a D & C on 2/6/05 because the first doctor (not my regular OB) didn't get everything and I started bleeding like crazy over the course of three days. Called my OB and she had me come on a Saturday night at 11PM, did an exam, found that I was still dilated and shuffled me off to the OR.

So, in 15 months, I lost two pieces of my heart. I'm hurt, confused and numb. Since I had two PPROMs in a row, they are sure now it's not just a "fluke", so I'll be having some extensive testing done in the next few months.

DH is adamant about not wanting me to get pregnant anymore. I would really LOVE to get pregnant again, but don't know how to convince my DH of this. He's not wanting to discuss it right now. He just says "No way will I put you and our family through this again!" On one hand, I can see his point...we have a three year old to consider and I can't keep putting my life in jeopardy..he needs me. But my heart is wanting to get tested, "fixed" if that's possible and get pregnant again. I don't think that's unreasonable, do you?

We have been talking about adoption, but we don't have thousands of $$ to do a private one and I'm scared to death of foster parenting and I get attached and they reunify the child w/ his/her natural family..I'd just DIE!

So...that's my long story. If you've gotten this far, thanks.

Originally Posted by schapman

Hi,

My name is Sharon and I am married to Nick. On Dec. 7, 2003, our beautiful baby boy, Benjamin, was born prematurely @ 22 weeks due to a Group B Strep infection causing premature labor. I had an Incompetent Cervix, which dialated to 1 cm, allowing the GBS bacterial to invade Ben's placenta and amniotic fluid.

You can read his story @ http://benjabean.yellowlabdesigns.com/

Originally Posted by mommie182b

OM..... that was soooo sad i got major goose bumps at the end... well here is my story not very long but i had trouble with the hospital to lol...
well chris and i have been together for awhile and i found out i was pregnant officially in july. we were so excited but really scared because we were teens and i was starting college in the fall and really didnt know what to do. I was kicked out of my foster home because i was pregnant and his family took me as there own. I had very light spotting around 4-5 wks and i really didnt think anything of it because it was around my period time. It was onlt when i wiped and i thought possibly it could have been from the intercourse the night before so i just reasted and it went away. well on about the ummm 7th of august i started bleeding the same way so i did the same thing but the blood didnt go away. I waited till firday the 8th to go to the Er cause i was still bleeding but i had NO cramps. They had me there for over four hours. when we got there we were the first. we sat in the waiting room for 25-30 min and finally i was called then they checked for temp and blood pressure and it was fine. after that we had to wait another 30 min to even go into a room. Slow here for a little town. we went in and they took my blood(good thing im ok with that) they had to waite a hour in a half to get the results. SLOW then they told me to pee in a cup. i did and it took them a while to come and even check in on me and they finally got the pee and examined it. we were sitting for about another hour and a lady comes and we go get a ultrasound. We heard the heart beat and it was 138.. GOOD they said and we were able to it. very small and hard to see due to bladder being full then i became Gassy GRRRRRRR... we were told that there was really nothing wrong with me and the bleeding should satop. well the bleeding did after a day and i was so happy. But i still had a dr. appt on monday to be examined. i went and the doc said i closed up fine and there should be no worried. well about 9 hrs later im back at the ER... THEY were getting to know me. i had passed the baby at home and had to get checked out. i went at 11 and we didnt leave till about 2ish. i hated that.. i dont have to get a dc done cause i am passing it normal but i still have to get my blood drawn every three days it seems like. well this is my story so far... its only been ten days and im STILL bleeding... is there something wrong with that???
angel