Originally Posted by dye3737My name is Diana, I'm 24 yrs old my dh and I have been together for 1yr (married). I live in Montclair, CA. I had scheduled an appt. for my annual (as usual) to get my pap done and blood work. It was March 3, 2005 I was about a month late by that time and wasen't really worried, (I was off the depo just 2 yrs) I spoke to my counselor before I went to see the Dr. and I told her my LMP: 1/27/05 she ordered a pregnancy test and it came out POSITIVE!!! I was in complete shock!! My birthday was 4 days away 3/7 wow what a present I thought. I went back to the car because I wasen't able to see the ob/gyn since I was now pregnant. My DH was waiting for me he said "you're done?" I just looked @ him and told him I couldn't be seen because I was Pregnant.. He was so happy, he couldn't stop smiling. I didn't know how to react I was surprised yet scared to show my happiness. I made an appt. to be seen for prenatal care I got all my test done and started my vitamins. I started to spotting about 4/08/05, I didn't want to be paranoid so I let it go... On 4/12/05 there was too much blood when I wiped and I went to the ER with my DH. I had blood drawn and then sent to have an u/s. She couldn't find the baby regualar, so I had a vaginal u/s. She found him and as I waited for results the Dr. came back to tell me the baby had no HEARTBEAT It was the worst feeling ever. After being there all morning I went in to see my primary Dr. and scheduled me for a D&C. My baby was 10weeks and 5days. EDD:Nov.3, 2005. Everything done in one day. So that's why I'm here for some support and understanding. And for someone to listen in my time of need. i'm very depressed this was my first child and this is very devastating..
Originally Posted by tisaboomWell I didnt think I would have another story to post here, but unfortunately I do. My previous loss is listed a few stories ahead. Anyways after my D&C Jan 29 I was waiting for my first AF, before we decided what our next step was. I called the Dr on Friday March 18th and asked how long it usually took to start. The following Mon I got really sick and my DH said maybe your pg, I just laughed him off. There was no way! honestly we had only BD'd twice since the D&C, and yes I know it only takes once. So I took a test just to prove him wrong and whamo I was pg! I called the Dr and she got me in the following week to date my pg, since we had no real clue. The u/s tech warned us that if we were too early she wouldnt have anything to show us. Well she just told us we were too early and put us in a room to see the Dr. The Dr said for me to come in the following week and see how far I was progressing. So the Following Tues. we went in and had another u/s she didnt turn on the monitor again and said well there is a little growth, and something in my heart just knew. Well the Dr walked in and had the worst look on his face. And I just kept saying no. Well it appears we were 7w1d the first appt we had, but they noticed a problem with the sac and I had a blood clot between the sac and the uterine wall. So when I had the 2nd u/s I still measured 7w1d. Luckily I have a Dr that is very aggressive and he told DH that he wanted to run test and find out why I couldnt carry and that it was a treatable thing. He told me the good news was we had no problem conceiving, and he told me I got a good one (referring to my DH). I wasnt able to conceive with my last hubby. I told the Dr I think I preferred the not getting pg it didnt hurt as much. So far I am still trying to lose this baby naturally and its not cooperating, Ive been bleeding for about 2 weeks now and havent passed anything major yet. Im still living in denial and havent been able to grieve yet. Sorry didnt mean to write a novel, it just kinda came out that way!
Originally Posted by 2princessesI am new to this board and wanted to share my story. I have 2 daughters (4 and 2 1/2) and have been married to dh for 7 years. We went in last week for the "regular" 16 week appointment...brought dd's and dh to hear the heartbeat. The dr couldn't find it, but said it was probably that the placenta was in the way and that she could hear movement. SO, they sent us next door for an u/s. The tech immediately said "It's not good" and mouthed to me "There is no heartbeat". I sent dh out with dd's and the tech showed me where the heartbeat should have been and that it had happened at least a couple days earlier. The doctor then met with dh and myself to talk about our options. I was told "a "simple D&C" was not an option at this point and that a D&E could take longer because they had to refer me out. So, my only option left was to have them place some luminares (think short sticks) in my cervix to attempt to open it and sent me home. We went back the next morning to have more luminares put in and sent home again. Finally the next day I was admitted to the hospital to deliver a baby boy (he was 4.4 oz, 4 inches). This has been the hardest time of my life-it was so much harder physically and emotionally than we ever imagined. My heart goes out to all of you...
Originally Posted by chughes15My name is Casey and I am 26 years old. I have been married to my DH for a little over 3 years. We decided in January 2005 that we were ready to start trying to have a baby. I went to the doctor for my annual on Jan 17 and to find out all about what I needed to be doing to make sure that everything was fine when we got pregnant. On March 5, 2005 while on vacation in Colorado I found out that I was pregnant. I have to admit I was surprised, I never thought that it would happen so fast! That was the most wonderful night of my life, especially when my DH reach over and touched my tummy and said "Wow there is a little one in there". Since this is my first pregnancy I immediatly called my mom and dad and my sister to tell them. Never in a million years did I think that I would never see my baby. On March 19 I sarted to spot and by March 21 I was bleeding. I called the doc and when I got there and had the ultrasound the tech said that there was nothing there. I had just had an ultra sound the Friday before and we saw the yolk sac so I thought that everything was going good. It has been over a month now since my angel went to heaven and I have a huge hole in my heart.
Originally Posted by dee7273Hi, my name is Denise and I am 31. It has been 1 month since my 2nd m/c and I believe I am now ready to tell the story.
Last year in January 2004, dh and I had decide to have me roll of the b/c and wait and see what happens. By February, I was pregnant. I couldn't believe it. We were in shock (we weren't trying, but we weren't being safe either). Goes to show what you learn in high school, it can happen on the first try - is actually true. At 11 weeks, we were scheduled for our sonogram. So there I am laying on the bed and they couldn't find the heartbeat. I wasn't panicking because I knew I had a tilted uterus and didn't think anything of it. My doc asked us if we wanted an ultrasound. Sure, i wasn't going to turn one down. We went in and the ultrasound tech kept the monitor turned away from us. She then asked, if I was absolutely postive of my last period. My heart just stopped. I said "yes". I asked if everything was ok, and is there a baby. Her response was "she was measuring the uterus and it was to early to tell". At the same time, the doctor came in and the u/s tech was pointing things out on the screen, and the next thing I know, the doctor laid her hand on my knee and said, "denise, I am so sorry - but there is no heartbeat". My world came crashing in - I was in shock and disbelief. So we had a d&c and the doctor said, go ahead and try again in 2 cycles.
So we did just that. This time, I was wondering when was I ever going to get pregnant again. It took us 8 months, and I was starting to get fustrated. In February, I got that feeling again, so I took a pg test and it came back positive. We were thrilled and estatic. I was jumping all over the house. I was so nervous this time, and at the same time everything was different, I felt more pregnant than last time. so I honestly thought everything would be different, but I kept having this funny feeling and everyone kept telling me "i was worrying for nothing or panicking for nothing." I shouldn't have listened to them because at 10.5 weeks, I started bleeding. We called the doctor and scheduled an u/s for first thing the next morning. Sitting in that waiting room, was hard - everywhere around me was pregnant people and here I was just praying everything was fine. The tech was quiet for a long time, so I asked the tech, "I know you are not suppose to tell me anything, but can you see anything". She said, "sweetie, I can see something is there, but I don't see a heartbeat". Oh my gosh, my world came crashing in again. I couldn't believe it. How could this be happening again. It was living my nightmare all over again, in the same month at around the same time frame. Exactly 1 year apart. For some reason, my body can't grow a baby. My body acts pregnant and my uterus grows but the baby never gets past the 6 week mark. The first time, my uterus was 11 weeks but the baby was 6 weeks, this time, my utuerus was 10 weeks but the baby was 5 weeks. It is so hard to understand but here I am taking one day at a time and hoping for the tests that I am schedule for will shed some light.
Originally Posted by mnlamberMy name is Meredith and I am a co-host of TTC 1-2 years. DH and I have been TTCing for over 2 and a half years. We have male factor problems- DH had a varicocele repaired in June 2003 and he is on Fertility Blend for men and we have just recently started to see the benefits of both.
Early in December I found out I was pg (surprise! after 2 years of TTC!) but sadly I miscarried a couple of weeks later. My hCG was low from the begining and i was spotting the whole time, so from the beginning I knew there was something wrong. The loss was devatating, especially since it was SO HARD for us to get pg to begin with, but the fact that we COULD get pg gave us renewed hope and we tried to put it behind us.
I started seeing an RE who told me that "lighting probably wouldn't strike twice" and prepared us for IVF. In the midst of our preparations, I found out I was once again pg on Easter morning. I really felt like this was our miracle, and I tried to put all thoughts of my previous m/c behind me. But last week I had a slight bit of spotting, and I freaked out. My RE agreed to do an u/s (but I think that he thought I was overreacting, and just wanted me to stop calling his office!). I just knew something was wrong. My pg symptoms were going away and sure enough, the sac was there but it was empty. He said that I probably have a blighted ovum, but he wanted to check me again in a week, since I was only about 6w at the time.
I was hoping to get some closure at the next u/s, but instead we saw a little blobby with a HEARTBEAT!!!! My RE was eating his words about a blighted ovum. I was still developmentally delayed, so he was only "cautiously optimistic". I was scheduled for another u/s in a week to see if my little bean was progressing like it should....But the following week, at 8w exactly, the scan showed a sac that had grown and that the baby was larger, but there was no heartbeat. My insides just sank and the tears started flowing. I knew my baby had died and nothing was going to change that. I was prescribed misoprostol to induce miscarriage a week later at 9w because it wasn't happening on it's own- it was the most awful experience of my life.
We are just so sad to say goodbye to another baby- in a way I feel better now that I have miscarried and physically I have closure. But I find myself thinking about this baby and how much I loved him or her already and it just hurts. DH and I are allowing ourselves to grieve, but we are still looking towards the future and hoping that we will someday be blessed with another little miracle baby. My RE is classifying me as having recurrent pg loss, and I will soon be undergoing genetic, immunologic, and a host of other sorts of testing in an attempt to determine why I am habitually miscarrying.
Originally Posted by ca3478154I married a wonderful man on 9-25-04. All my dreams coming true. We moved out to California before the wedding. Everything was going good. I got pregnant in around April 4, 2005. I found out on April 30, 2005. We were so happy when the reading said Pregnant. I went to doctor on May 3. Yep, urine test says pregnant. We were so happy. I started getting cravings. I also got discharge. No big deal. It's just discharge. It happened almost everyday but it's no big deal. Everyone gets it. It was only brown stuff and some clear fluid. On May 20, the horror starts. The discharge got heavy and turned to bright red blood. Why? What did I do wrong? I took a flight out on May 13 to Houston. Maybe it was too much. I got too tired. I'm too stressed. Many things run through my mind. It got worse on May 21. The doctor gave me a RH shot. There is nothing we can do. Really? Well it hurt like MAJOR cramps. my HCG was 3228. I was pregnant on May 21. They offered narcotic drugs to help with pain. I' m pregnant! I wanted my baby to live. The u/s showed an egg. That was all. Just a 6 week egg. It was in the middle of the uterus. Oh well. I bled for 7 days. I am better now. I want to be with my hubby and have a baby.
Originally Posted by CrazykiddosI'll just copy from my original post here....
After ttc for 9 months, and setting up an appointment to see my dr to find out what was going on, I found out I was pg. I was spotting from the start. Coninued to spot for the whole 2 months I was pregnant (except for 1 short break). We had several U/S and when I was 8 weeks 5 days, they found a h/b. I was only measuring 6 weeks 6 days though. They hoped that I was just wrong about my ovulation date, and told me to come back in a month. Sunday, I felt off. Nothing felt right. I couldn't fall into a deep sleep, I was uncomfortable the whole day. Monday, just 1 day before my next appointment, I started bleeding. Not just spotting, bleeding. When I realized how heavy it was, around 7pm, I left work (I was supposed to be there until 12) and went to the ER. After 5 hours they confirmed that I was in fact going to M/C. An U/S the next day confirmed no H/B, and that no tissue had passed, so I needed a D&C. I am convinced the baby died sometime Sunday afternoon. Tuesday afternoon they inserted some tampon like things in my cervix to soften it. I cramped horribly from it and came close to going to the ER to have it removed, the pain was just so bad. I made it though and last night (Wensday night) had a D&C. The actual operation was uneventful, I felt physically fine afterword, just some light cramping that really didn't last that long. Today I have a horrible headache, but other than that, am ok, physically. One phrase just keeps going through my mind the past few days. Life Sucks. Sometimes. I always add the sometimes in there because in truth, other than this, my life is good. I have a decent job, a loving husband, two wonderful healthy children. And I know that should make me feel better. It doesn't right now though, all I can think about is seeing my babies h/b, then it dying. That just keeps going through my head, over and over again.
Originally Posted by Kianas momWell I had my little baby ....too many weeks too soon. I had to say goodbye to her on Tuesday afternoon.2-8-05 Gracie Marie was 4.6 oz and 7 inches long. She was beautiful from head to toe. Perfect little fingers and a little button nose.
They said it looks like I have an incompetent cervix.
I had been spotting for about 2 weeks. Water broke on Sunday morning went to er and dr checked and said it wasn't water at all. Heard her heartbeat and she kicked the doppler. They released me.
Tuesday 2-8-05 around 5am I started cramping. I thought that I had gas from the chili I ate or that she was just laying really low in pelvis. I tried to poke her to get her to move then the pain would stop but start right back up again. At about 7 am I thought I would try to go to the bathroom. I got on the toilet and gave a push thinking I would release some gas. I had no clue I was in labor even though I already have a 2 year old. I felt something come out of the wrong hole. I thought it must be a blood clot since I had been spotting. So I looked down in between my legs and saw a little leg hanging out. I screamed to my fiance to come. I got off the toilet and put a towel on the floor and layed down. He called 911. I started crying hysterically. They got there fast like within 5 minutes. I went to the hosp in just a pj top. Fiance had to drive since our 2 year old was sleeping. He called my sister and mother in law to be and they all met at the hosp. In the ER a Dr tired to pull her out and only got to her belly. They then sent me upstairs to labor and delivery. My Dr. showed up and told me he wanted to let it happen so push with each contraction. I missed two of them because my bladder was so full. They drained it . The Dr. said he would come back in an hour to see my progress. No more than 5 mins later I gave a big push and out came her head. It was so scary. I got to hold her tiny body and the chaplain came and took pictures of her for us and with us. I held her 3 times that day. then said goodbye.
Tuesday is always going to be the most remembered day in my life. I had to say goodbye to my baby in the morning.....Then I got married as planned that night.
We are holding a little ceremony for her on Monday 2-14-05 which is free. My hubby's parents decided to pay for her name to be engraved on the tombstone. There are already at least 15 other babies there.
Our hospital does not believe in discarding any baby no matter what the age. I am thankful for that...it will help me get some closure. We will start trying again soon as the NEW Dr. gives us the ok.
Gracie will forever be remembered in our hearts.
I have made a scrapbook with all her pictures and mementos and when I feel down I look through it and can't wait till the day I meet my angel in Heaven.
Well with my new Dr I have been told I don't have an incompetant cervix. She believes I had an infection which got to the baby. How I got one I have no clue. My old Dr. Did do a lot of internal exams so who knows. Just thought I would update you.
Originally Posted by ShanynLSI just had my first pregnancy... my first loss. At 10w3d, I had my first appointment. We were scheduled to listen for a heartbeat. I was cautious going into it, because I didn't feel pregnant. Very early on, I had. But by 4w3d, I was no longer feeling pregnant. However, by the time 10w rolled around, I was starting to think I was just one of those lucky women that is spared morning sickness (despite a family history that suggested I should be otherwise).
But my uterus was measuring only 7 weeks. And the dopler could find no heartbeat. I was not surprised when the u/s showed an empty sac measuring 6w4d. My dh was still holding out hope, and it devestated him when I opted for Cytotec vs. waiting for the m/c to occur naturally.
That was on Monday-- today (Wednesday), I still have not started bleeding as much they would have expected, and so they ordered another u/s that showed that my empty sac is still stuck tight and has not shrunk. My midwife administered more Cytotec, and it is now a waiting game to see if I will pass it or have to go for a d&c on next week. I don't want that. I am hoping for the least invasive that is possible.
Now, let's just hope my body wants that too, and will let go...