Yucky morning...

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Yucky morning...

So I just about had a breakdown today. That's happening a lot lately. I was in my first morning class and we had to start a new chapter...well, well, of course it had to be on the nutritional needs during pregnancy and every freakin thing that goes along with that. I'm older than most of the students, I am still ONLY 28, but, anyway...I had to listen to a couple of these girls who still live at home talk about their pregnancies and how they will never have another baby, no matter what, they just don't care, they are finished with that...blah blah. I almost had to walk out. I go to a really small school and there are only like 10 of us in that class, the instructor knows my history and helped me a lot right after the loss so she kept throwing in positive things, about how loss can be normal and many people go on to have healthy pregnancies, blah blah some more. So, I skipped my last class and I'm taking a bath. I'm shaving my legs and thw whole bit, maybe some pampering myself will help. Tonight I have to go to a mortuary with another class...what an interesting day....:fallingbricks:

I know it isn't that bad. It's just my mood. If everything is on schedule AF should be here soon and I'm sure that's taking it's toll. Thanks for listening.

:brucelee:~I shall make it through this day! :brucelee:
Amy

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Sorry you're having a rough day. Enjoy the pampering. :bigarmhug:

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Sorry you had such a rough day. I know a little pampering will help you feel refreshed. The day is almost done and you did it!

(((HUGS)))
Robin

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Thanks everyone. It really didn't turn out to be a horrible thing and I actually enjoyed the 'class trip'. That's probably morbid unless you do enjoy the medical field Smile and I did really learn a lot. Thank you for thinking of me. Somedays the women here are all that gets me through the day...

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I am sorry you had a rough day and pampering always makes me feel so much better!

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I'm sorry about your bad day.

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Yes, it is that bad. You have an experience that those women don't and they don't realize how callous and uncaring those words can be. I am sorry that you had such a stressful morning. I hope that you enjoyed your bath. Now, go have some chocolate.

Hang in there hon.

Shelly

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I am sorry you had to endure hearing the younger women in your class go on and on about not wanting more kids Sad I know how hard this is to hear after one has had a loss/es..

I am glad that your field trip turned out well though!!!!

I hope that you have continued to pamper yourself today... :bighug:

Marie

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Those girls don't mean to be callous--they just don't know what we have been through.

Sorry you had a rough day--hope things get better.

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Sorry to hear you had a rough day. Sometimes it seems like the odds are just stacked against us as we try to get on with our lives after suffering the grief of loss, and we face situations that bring our grief straight back to the forefront. I think pampering yourself is an excellent idea. I am taking myself and DD away next w/e, just a girls trip away and can't wait. I hope your pamper afternoon helped.

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It would be awesome to be as naive about pregnancy as those young girls are. I'm so sorry that their comments were insensitive. I hope you're feeling better!

~Amber

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Thank you so much everyone! I know that these girls didn't realize that what they were saying bothered me or even the weight of their words in general and many of them don't understand what a loss feels like, sometimes I just wish people would HEAR what they saying. Pregnancy is a gift, something amazing and even if having children or more children is not for you, it still shouldn't be discussed like it's some horrible thing. They went on and on about morning sickness and it was soooooooooo bad for them...for me, morning sickness sucked too, being sick like that isn't fun, but everytime I had my head in the toilet and DH came in to say "Beautiful, are you ok?", I would say "yeah, I'm ok, it's worth it". We had that conversation word for word, more than once. And I would give anything to put my head right back in that toilet again if it meant we were having a healthy happy baby. It shouldn't take a loss to see that. And I definitely agree that those kinds of things (insensitive comments and such) probably just aren't as obvious unless you've had a loss. I've been wondering lately if I've always seen this many pregnant women or heard the comments and just not noticed until I had a loss. Who knows. But you guys mean so much to me. Thanks for always being here. And yes, I did pamper myself, it was awesome, I even bought myself some new make-up Smile That turned into a rant again, sorry Smile

Amy