*Finally Expecting Baby #1*

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*Finally Expecting Baby #1*

I think I can finally feel confident enough to start my own pregnancy journal! My name is Ashley (22) and I've been married to my DH (25) for 2 1/2 years, but we've been together for over 5. We started TTC in June last year and figured it would happen overnight. It was a little more complicated than that, but thank goodness we ended up conceiving on our own on our 6th cycle. It seriously felt like the longest 6 months of my life, but I am thankful every day that we were able to conceive that "quickly" compared to what many girls have to go through. We had decided to start trying because it was "good timing" - I was about to graduate from college, DH has a really good job, we were planning on looking for a new house in the fall, etc. It just seemed like the right time. But I don't think we really considered the fact that getting pregnant = having a baby...forever. I mean obviously we knew that we'd get a baby out of it, but it's hard to grasp what a change this is going to be. But all the time we spent trying, I had plenty of time to evaluate this & how it's going to change our very active lifestyle, and now I know we won't regret it for a moment. Now we just get to patiently (or not so much!) wait for the arrival of our first little one! :Whistle:

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First Trimester

As I just started this journal and I'm almost through my first trimester, here is my attempt at covering the past 12 weeks...

Week 1-2: Wishing and hoping this cycle would end up in a BFP, although I had lost most hope by this point. I actually though I was doomed to infertility.
Week 3: Starting to feel a little "off", but I have really random PMS symptoms every month since stopping BCPs back in February, so I chalk it up to that.
Week 4: Weird symptoms continue. I let me hopes get up again. At 8 DPO, I test with a Target test that results in a BFN. An hour later, there is a definite 2nd line, but of course I didn't trust it. Still got me a bit excited though. 10 DPO, I see a funny dark vein my shoulder that I haven't noticed before, and think "that has to be a sign"...I test & get a BFP on a Target test. Unfortunately, I read they give false positives, and don't get my hopes up until after work when I purchase a FRER...BFP!!! I also had a digital lying around that I swore not to use until I needed confirmation...and it said "Pregnant". I was so excited, but so nervous that I would lose the baby. I told DH that night with a baby name book & he said "You're pregnant? Are you sure?!" He was thrilled.
Week 5: Obviously, AF didn't show, which made me feel a bit better (at least I knew it was a chemical pregnancy). However, my pessimistic side still held strong, and I feared m/c most of the time. Every twinge made my heart stop. Had to find an OB with no help (since we hadn't told anyone). Scheduled first appt for January 7th, only to discover DH would be out of town, so I moved it to January 12th. Started getting super moody at work & also breaking out in cold sweats.
Week 6: Told DH's parents & siblings. They were all thrilled and it was the first time this felt "real". Starting to get a touch of nausea every now and then, but really mild. Boobs started getting a bit sore (never was a PMS thing for me), but definitely manageable. Still trying not to get too excited in fear of m/c.
Week 7: Told my parents/siblings on Christmas Eve. Left for a vacation to Mexico Christmas Day. Nausea hit hard on the vacation, as well as exhaustion. Had other family there who didn't know, so I had to fake that I felt good. It was a hard week and I wanted to be home. Also...ruined Mexican food for me (still @ 12 weeks, makes me nauseous just to think about it). Got home New Year's Eve, but went to dinner with friends & then went home and to bed by 10 pm. Didn't have the energy or stomach to stay up later. DH was a good sport about it. Had a dream baby was a boy.
Week 8: Nausea and exhaustion continue. Work is getting hard to get through with how busy I am plus being so sick. Almost threw up after eating an apple, but ended up only dry heaving for 5 minutes. I start eating a ton of carbs to keep nausea at bay. Digestive system is officially shot (lol). Had another boy dream. Weird cramps in my left hip. Anxious for first appointment next week!
Week 9: Nausea and exhaustion continue, as well as digestive distress. Finally, my first OB appointment arrives. Got to have u/s and see our one baby and his or her heartbeat. It was such a great moment to see that baby pop up on the screen. We decide to tell friends that night. I'm on Cloud 9 for the rest of the week :cloud9:
Week 10: So tired, and get nauseous frequently. Have a hard time making it through my day at work. Start to get funny little crampy feelings, but they aren't at all like AF cramps, so I don't worry much. Boobs feel bigger although I'm not sure they actually are. Some of my pants no longer fit or at least aren't comfortable, but I'm not showing at all. Still worry about m/c daily, but I have a bit more faith this will work out now.
Week 11: Nausea goes away for a entire day...I am glad, but then start to worry. Comes back the next day in full force, so I don't worry any more. Starts to fluctuate a lot more, but when it comes, it comes hard. I am hoping this is a sign that the placenta is starting to take over. A lot of twinges, but I'm writing them off as round ligament pain/uterus stretching. Next appointment is in 2 weeks and I'm getting ancy to hear my baby's heartbeat so I know he or she is doing okay. Dream that baby is a boy again.

Now that I'm caught up...on we go with the adventure Biggrin

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12w2d

We are on a trip right now, but I can't do a lot of the activites, so I'm just getting some much needed relaxation. My nausea is getting a lot less horrible. I think I have learned to manage it a lot better though by eating a high carb breakfast. Our next appointment isn't for a week and a half, but I am already getting nervous. I'm sure with all the symtpoms I've been having that everything is fine, but it still is cause for worry. I still am not showing yet, but I think I can feel my uterus now. I have only gained 1.5 lbs so far, which is a miracle considering the amount of food I have been putting down in the morning. At night, I am hungry, but my stomach doesn't want to hold very much before telling me I'm full. I'm grateful that I've made it this far without actually throwing up...I think I might be clear of that threat now. I'm excited to feel baby start moving soon...even though that could be a month or so still. I read that the external gender differences will be completed in a matter of days! I still think it's a boy and so does DH. We'll see!! My doc says they usually do the gender u/s around 18 weeks. I'm excited to know for sure!

I still have a hard time remembering I'm pregnant sometimes. I really can't grasp the idea that we'll have a baby here in 6 short months. Maybe it is how much I've been focused on the possibility of m/c. I think feeling the baby and knowing the gender will get me over that a bit. I'm so thrilled to have made it this far! I don't know why, but I really thought we'd never stay pregnant this long. But now I'm trying to be positive and think about the future with baby.

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12w5d

I think the nausea is finally starting to let up. I haven't throw up once, so I don't get much sympathy from my friends who've been through it, but the constant nausea was awful. But the last few days, I have gotten it less than normal. So I'm crossing my fingers! I still haven't told my work that I'm pregnant yet. Probably will next week if everything looks good at our appointment next Tuesday. That'll be nice to off my chest! The girls at my work bug me constantly about when we're going to have kids, and are always talking about what their pregnancies were like. It's actually quite annoying. I'm sure it'll be even more annoying when they find out, but at least I won't have to act dumb the whole time.

I'm starting to have a hard time sleeping because no position is comfortable. Sleeping on my stomach hurts after a while, same with my back, and my sides just aren't comfy anymore. I don't know what the deal is. My body needs to suck it up and deal because it isn't going to get anything but worse in the next 6 months. Oh, and having to pee 2 times a night isn't helping the matter! :rolleyes: LOL!

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13w1d

Only 4 days until my second OB appointment. I am getting so anxious for it to come! It doesn't seem like my last appointment was only about four weeks ago, but it also feels like it has been forever. I'll feel so much better knowing our little bean is in there safe and sound.

I had the weird few cramps 2 days ago. I was getting dressed to go to the gym and got a couple of really painful twinges across what I'm guessing is the top of my uterus. They freaked me out, so I sat down for a moment and they never came back. :shrug: I wonder if it was just adjusting or something. I've heard BH's can happen this early, but I'd really like that not to be it....I'd rather not have those for at least 20 weeks! LOL!

Lately I've been lying in bed at night *trying* to feel baby move...too bad it is super unlikely, but I figure it could just maybe happen. No luck though. I'll definately keep paying attention for them until it happens though. I'm so excited to almost be done with the first tri! I'm finally starting to get excited!

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13w3d

I'm officially in the 2nd trimester!! Yahoo

Even better news...I got my doppler (finally!) in the mail yesterday & found baby's heartbeat after probably 20 minutes of searching (then it only took about 5 today now that I know where to look!). It's hard to count, but I'm guessing around 160 bpm. I guess we'll find out in a few days. Our next appointment is Tuesday & I'm so excited!

Almost had a completely nausea-free day yesterday other than a short spell in the afternoon. So far, nothing today. I can only dream this is the end of it! :violent2: nausea! Wink Been a bit crampy, but nothing exciting. Just anxiously awaiting my appointment and to start feeling baby move!

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13w5d

I think baby was kicking the doppler yesterday Smile I found the heartbeat really quickly & it was loud (baby must have been positioned close to the front) and then I got some "thumps" in my ears. So cute! Anyway, getting anxious for my appointment tomorrow. I'm dreading weighing in! :eek:

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13w6d

Had a very uneventful dr's appointment Smile

Baby's HB was in the 160's, I've gained 3 pounds :shock:, and all my bloodwork from last appointment came back clear, so I'm very happy with my appointment. Hopefully these darn headaches will go away soon so I can actually start enjoying my 2nd trimester! I was also able to schedule my BIG u/s for March 12th!! Just have to be patient for a month and we'll know whether we have a little girl bean or a boy bean in there! Biggrin

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14w6d

Not a lot to report...the nausea continues to decrease by the day. I have had a few sudden bouts, but nothing a Tylenol & some carbs couldn't fix. I know it is still really early, but I'm bummed that I haven't felt the baby move at all yet; it seems like 1/2 of the girls on my BB already have! I have been playing with my doppler listening to the heartbeat & then I get some "thumps", so I know baby is moving, I just can't feel it darn it!

This whole thing still doesn't feel "real" to me. Maybe that is why I so deperately want to feel baby move, but I just feel like I'm getting fat because I have been lazy (which is probably also true). I just can't imagine that we're going to have a baby in under 6 months. Maybe finding out the gender will do it for me. DH & I picked names for a boy and a girl on Valentine's Day or at least finalized our decisions (unless something better comes up! lol). The 2 names we had picked out before we started TTC are off the list, and 2 new random ones are on. We promised not to tell anyone the names until the baby is born (my idea...I don't want to hear negative feedback on a name I love), so I'm not even going to post them on here in case someone I know IRL reads this. But I'm very excited about our name choices Biggrin Like I said though...it is hard to imagine still that I'll have a little being to use one of them very soon. Only 23 more days until we'll know (if our little one cooperates that is!). I have felt the baby was a boy the whole time up until the last few days, now suddenly I'm thinking girl. So I guess I don't trust my instincts at all right now & will be pleasantly surprised either way!

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16w0d

We just got back a mini-trip to Florida on Sunday. It was a work trip for DH, but I decided to go too to get some relaxation and time away from work. We hit a few of the Disney spots, and I walked more in a few days than I have since getting pregnant (thanks to nausea for killing my previous 5 day a week workouts). I could tell the whole flight home that my uterus had just had it with all my walking; it was soo achey and heavy feeling. Then yesterday, I had to do some really fast grocery shopping, and I guess the combination of it still being tired from the trip on top of pushing around a cart in heels just did me in; DH & I went to another store after and I could barely walk around. I felt 9 months pregnant trying to hold my hardly-existant belly "in" so stop the pain. I've wondered a few times whether I might have a cyst on my left side since all my pain seems to be there, but it isn't bad enough usually to be an issue, so maybe I'll just ask the u/s tech to look for "something" at our big ultrasound in 2 weeks. But it could just be because I think the baby is mostly nestled on that side based on where I find the heartbeat with my doppler.

On our trip, I was lying in bed and was leaning over to DH & felt a "pop"...I thought maybe it was baby, but it's hard to say. The last 2 days, I've had a few weird sensations again, sort of like a kernal of popcorn popping inside my belly, and then today I had a few within a few minutes, so I think it has to be baby moving! Biggrin I can't wait for a "for sure" kick or punch...it actually makes the whole pregnancy thing feel more real.

I also haven't been nauseous for 2 days...hope that continues! It's been fabulous. And for once in a week, I'm not a moody bee-otch today! Wink

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16w1d

Definitely felt a few movements today. I'm sooo excited!! :woohoo: I can't wait for the first hard kick, but for now I'm totally enjoing the flutters.

Today, I actually leaked some clear fluid from one of my nipples. :shock: It kind of freaked me out even though I was trying to see if anything would come out, but I really didn't except anything to. Anyway, I just hope I won't be one of those girls who starts leaking badly before the baby is born.

2 weeks until the BIG ULTRASOUND!! Yahoo It'll be here before I know it!

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17w0d

Still feeling little flutters here and there. Sometimes there are weird "pops" too, but I have a hard time deciding for sure if they are baby or digestion! Lol! But I'm thinking mostly baby! Smile Only 8 more days until our big u/s - I thought time was going to crawl, but it is flying by. It'll be here before I know it! DH had a dream we found out it was a boy over the weekend...we'll see!

This is mostly a vent post, so I apologize if anyone reading is offended. I've had a couple of weird conversations with people since making it public news that I'm expecting. Mostly it's people giving me a look of pure shock :shock: when I tell them how far along I am (but you are sooo tiny!). That doesn't bother me because I know my baby is getting plenty of food, and I'm not built very big, so I never expected to get a big ole belly right away. Not to mention, since my m/s went away, I've been back at the gym trying to prevent my thighs from doubling in size Wink But I do find it funny that people seem to think that they are the proper authority how big pregnant women should be. I also had a friend who told me I wouldn't sure until at least 22 weeks because that is when she started to show. Again, everyone is different (and by the way, that is a total lie on her part...I was there! lol). But today, I had a really awkward conversation with a coworker. She asked if we were going to find out the gender, and I told her we were hoping to next Thursday (followed by the :shock: face because I "don't like like [I'm] far enough along to tell yet!"). She then told me that she didn't find out with any of her kids (she is my mom's age BTW), and that way is the best way to do it. Well, excuse me for not waiting. Then she asked if I'm planning on getting an epi...hello lady, I'm not even half way through this pregnancy! I'll make that decision when I'm giving brith. So I said I wasn't sure, I'm not ruling out either an epi or a natural birth. She responded that she didn't have any medication for any of her kids. Good for you. :rolleyes: I'm sure this was just the beginning of everyone throwing out their opinions, but sheesh! I'm not a public forum for you to voice your thoughts...I'm an adult who is capable of making her own decisions! If you want to give your opinion, voice it in a more appropriate way. OK..rant over.

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18w2d

After 4 1/2 weeks of waiting (which went really fast oddly enough), we found out yesterday that we're having a little GIRL!!! I just sat there totally shocked! I would have said before the appointment that I was thinking probably boy but wasn't feeling really strong one way or the other, but I guess I felt more confident in the boy vibes than I thought because I was just totally stunned when she said "there's your daughter." She let us look at her for a long time while she did all the measurements & it was just incredible. The u/s tech said she was measuring normal all around, so that was a huge relief. She's a little wiggle worm and was moving around the entire time. We tried to get a good 4D shot of her face, but she didn't want anything to do with that, so she hid in "the corner" and covered her face with her hands. :rolleyes: Lol! So I'm still getting used to the fact that I'm going to have a baby girl after planning on a boy, but I'm completely thrilled despite being a bit nervous suddenly to raise a daughter. DH is beyond excited to have a little girl, so that makes me really happy. He said that he's ready for her to come out now so he can play with her (haha). Guess he'll have to sit tight for at least 20 more weeks (hopefully!). Hopefully that'll give me time to let it sink in that my little kicker is a girl. :cloud9:

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19w1d

Our little girl has been quite the squirmer the last few days. Still soft little kicks, but very noticable. It's so cute, I just love feeling her! :grin: I'm really looking forward to her getting a bit stronger so DH can feel her too. I've been able to feel her from the outside only a couple of times, but it never happens 2x in a row, so I haven't bothered to get DH excited about it. I think that is just around the corner though. He isn't all that excited about movement, but I think it's because he hasn't felt it, so hopefully that'll be fun for him.

I wish the whole pregnancy could be like the last few weeks. I feel really good, get to feel baby move, am not ginormous yet (although running out of options when it comes to the pants I can fit into!), and not sick anymore. I eat nonstop, but that's expected...right? :eating: The weird thing is that most food doesn't sound that great, but I just eat it anyway. I don't want a hungry little baby in there! But seriously, I feel so good lately, it's been fabulous!

I didn't notice until the other day, but my BBs sure have grown in the last month! I have a few larger bras that I've been wearing because they are more comfortable than my "normal ones", and the other day, all the comfy ones were dirty, so I put on a different one, and it didn't even come close to fitting properly. I guess I hadn't noticed my BBs growing because they've had some room in the other bras, but they are definitely much larger. It's pretty entertaining, but I'm a bit worried about how big they'll be when they are full of milk :eek: I'm a pretty small chick so I'm worried I'll topple over Wink Haha, okay not really. But going from a full B to a full C now to who knows what down the road...yikes!

Sorry...this was kind of a rambling post. I'm really busy at work, but can't seem to get in a groove to get stuff done, so I'm on pg.org instead :roll: It seems like I can always find something on here to distract me...

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19w2d

I have to vent for a second, so sorry if this gets long-winded (I mean long-typed)...so it's been over a week since we found out that we're having a girl. I'm really starting to settle into the idea and of course am super excited (would have been either way...she is healthy and that's my main concern!). My family is generally pretty excited about a little girl, especially my mom who is just over the moon. But I'm really hurt by DH's family's response to the gender news...well, mostly his dad & a few other male members of the family. His dad hasn't even said congratulations or anything to me since finding out the sex (DH told him over the phone, so I didn't hear his original response). In fact, it's like he's totally ignoring the fact that we're having a baby lately. The kicker is that we're having only the 2nd grandbaby on his side of the family (my niece isn't even 1 yet). Everyone really wanted my niece to be a girl because DH comes from a family of boys, so of course, everyone was THRILLED when my BIL & SIL found out they were having a girl. It was all my FIL could talk about. Even a lot of DH's extended family were sooooo happy they were having girl. I seriously had people talking to me about it non-stop (not to mention, we were TTC during the last 3rd of their pregnancy & it was really not what I wanted to talk about). So you would think they'd all be just as happy for us? Wrong. The only people who seem that excited are my BIL & SIL because they're little girl will have a girl cousin close in age. But to everyone else in his family, it's just "another girl". I think it's upsetting DH a bit also, but he's not one to open up about it. Basically he just told me that if they aren't excited for us to have a girl, that's their problem. While I do agree, it just makes me really mad that they are acting that way. You would think they would recognize a baby is a miracle and blessing whether it's a boy or a girl. The more annoying thing is that BIL/SIL are going to start TTC again somewhat soon and I bet a million bucks they have a boy then everyone can just be thrilled for them all over again. :roll: OK..rant over.

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19w6d

DH finally got to feel the baby kick last night! Biggrin I've been able to feel her kick from the outside (very softly) for a while now, but she is so inconsistant that I can never feel it twice in a row so there's no point in trying to get DH to feel her. But last night, we got into bed & I was laying on my back & she was moving around like crazy. I mentioned to DH how weird that was because I usually can't feel her if I'm on my back, so he half-jokingly reached over to "feel her" and she gave him a HARD kick. Seriously, it was the hardest kick I've felt yet. I was just like "Wow! Did you feel that?!" LOL! It was too cool. I'm really looking forward to more of those strong kicks, although her cute little ones are very easy to ignore when I want to sleep! Wink Anyway, just had to share. It was so cool!

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Nothing too new and exciting to report. Baby is getting really active & I can easily feel her from the outside (and even see the kicks if I'm watching my belly!). She actually gave me the hardest kick yet last night and my whole belly moved. I can also feel her rolling around in there & sometimes I'll get really hard areas in the front of my belly & I think it's her head or bum. Smile It's all so cool, I love it! Part of me is getting really anxious for her to come out though (although I want her fully baked!). I'm just ready to be done with this stage & onto the next, but I have a lot of pregnancy time left, so I'm just trying to enjoy feeling her move around. My uterus has reached my belly button (it is so easy to feel now) and I feel like my stomach is being engulfed - lol. I can't believe I have 4 more months of growing to do! :shock: That's probably for the best though since we still haven't gotten anything for baby & probably won't until I have my baby showers (I'm getting two since I have family at two ends of the state).

Eww...baby showers. I'm not looking forward to those. I don't like being the focus of a party for whatever reason, and I was so glad to be done with my bridal shower that I didn't consider I'd be in for it when I got preggo! :roll: Oh well. I am grateful that my mom & SM are throwing them for me, but it's just so awkward. Blah.

I have another appointment next week with my OB, but I'm not really looking forward to it...just seems like all the cool stuff is over now. I still use my doppler on occasion (although her moving has replaced most of the need for it), so it's not like I don't get to listen to her heartbeat whenever I feel like it. Oh well...hopefully everything will look good & it'll be a "boring" appointment.

Maybe I should mention that I have been feeling really awesome. I actually forget that I'm pregnant a lot (until she moves or I see my "gut"). But my big thing lately is tingly breasts & serious hunger. I could eat all day no problem. My body must be trying to pack on some weight since I didn't have a lot of "extra" pre-pregnancy because I put on 2.5 - 3 lbs in the last 2 weeks. It's kind of hard to see the number on the scale keep rising, but I know it is for good reason, so I just rub my belly and get over it. Here's to hoping I can actually get it off after the baby comes!

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22w5d

I've been pretty bad about updating in here lately, so I apologize if anyone is following along. I had my 22 week doctor appointment last week & everything seems to be going great. He sort of joked around about how much weight I'd gained since my last appt, but I think he was more pointing out the fact that I hadn't been gaining much from appointment to appointment, then suddenly went up like 5 or 6 pounds. But still...I'm not loving packing on the pounds, so I wish he'd been a bit more sensitive about it. DH thought it was hilarious of course & has been making fun of me ever since. :roll: But my blood pressure is great & all the results from our u/s seem to be normal, so we are very happy. We got to hear the heartbeat for a minute, but it took the OB forever to find it since she was moving around like crazy. I secretly hoped he'd let us look at her on the u/s machine, but no such luck. DH found the whole thing pretty boring. At my next appointment, I'll get tested for GD so I got to take my lovely sugar drink home with me. Should be a thrill....

Bean is moving around like crazy now. She is getting so strong...I can't imagine what it'll feel like for her to boot me in the gut later in the pregnancy! Her new thing is doing "flips" when I lay on my back at night. Last night, I felt her entire body turn around...it was cool, but honestly a little creepy to have this "huge" thing moving around in there. She just feels so big already. My entire stomach moved and my gut sort of lurched for a second from the intesity of the movement...kind of like when you hit a big dip in the road and your stomach goes "woooo", KWIM? lol... Then I got heartburn :roll: But I'm more than happy to have her dance around in there rather than not move and freak me out. I definitely have an active little girl on my hands. I can feel her inching her way slowly up to my ribs, which I'm not looking forward to her reaching since I have one rib that is messed up from a previous injury and I'm not sure how it's going to react to being kicked. Oh well...it is all worth it for our little girl.

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23w1d

All is good in preggo land. I think I'm finally getting comfortable with "showing"...it's ironic how that is what I was most excited for, but then I had sudden insecurity over it once it really happened. If I was in public, that was a different story, but for some reason I wanted to still "suck it in" in front of people I know. Well, there is no chance of hiding it now, so maybe I've just accepted it. I have to say though, I don't understand people's comments. A simple "you look cute" would go a lot farther than "wow, you really popped!" I've just always been a smaller chick, so I don't want to suddenly be made to feel like a cow. I certainly feel like it when I get on the scale these days. I'm up almost 15 pounds now :shock:, but I am 23 weeks along, so there is no reason to freak out. It seems up to this point that I gain weight for a few weeks, then nothing for a few, so hopefully I'm on a low right now for a while. I found out the other day a friend is expecting in mid-September (thank goodness for the internet or I'd never know anything!)...it was a big surprise, but they are excited & I'm really excited for them. Another friend is due in a few weeks...she was about as far along as I am now when I found out she was pregnant, so that makes me think maybe time will fly by...right. Wink Maybe it is because I'm in the middle of the pregnancy, but I'm so ready to be closer to the due date. The good news is that baby is only a week away from "probably viable" status so that is comforting. A lady I work with had a 26 weeker who survived back in the 90's, so you just never know. Of course, I would like our little girl to stay in until she's fully baked, but at least I know that she has a chance if she were to jump ship early. My little ticker in my space moved to the 6th of 9 babies, so I'm getting close to the third tri as well. When I think about it that way, it seems like I'm really making progress.

Yesterday I gave my unofficial estimated leave day for July 31st. I don't kno whether I'll want to leave that early, but this way we have a plan in motion to get a new person hired in time for me to train him/her before I leave. It is exciting to have an end in sight even though it is 3 1/2 months away.

I've been pretty lax on my caffeine intake lately, although I still don't think I'm exceeding the recommended limit. I even let myself have a carmel frappuccino from starbucks on Tuesday. They don't make them decaf, so I've been avoiding them, but I have a Starbucks gift card from Christmas that normally would have been used up by New Years, but the aversion to coffee in general has made it last until now. But that frap was so good that I'm sure I'll go back for another 360 calorie treat. On that note, I'm trying to watch my food intake a bit more carefully considering the amount of weight I've put on in the past month or so. I'm not really concerned about gaining weight in general while I'm pregnant (totally different story when I'm not), but I am trying really hard not to gain excess weight that is totally unnecessary. KWIM?

Little girl gave me quite the kicking this morning when I got to work...feeling her move is just about the best thing I've ever experienced despite being a little weird sometimes. It is just really hard to imagine that there is a baby right under my skin (and a few more layers ;)). I can't wait to see her face & see who has been in there playing around! Last night when I was in bed, so was moving around a lot too. I was trying to figure out which end was her head/feet, but it is hard because she seems to have quite a punch too. But I think I figured out that she was diagonal with her head towards my upper right. It is really hard to know for sure though...maybe when she gets bigger and quits flipping around so much. I've been putting my ear buds on my ipod up to my belly for her lately...not sure if she can really hear it or not, but it makes me feel like I'm sort of interacting with her. As much as I can at this point anyway.

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Wow...my little floating baby ticker says 16 weeks to go until my EDD :eek: That doesn't seem so far considering how fast 0-16 weeks of this pregnancy went. At the same time, August seems forever away. I'm looking forward to moving into May so I feel like my due date month is closer.

It's funny how your perspective changes when you start getting bigger & bigger. I felt like a whale at 14 weeks, but looking at the pics, I was still tiny. I can't even fathom how much bigger I'm going to get, but then again, it is hard to say if I'll get beach ball belly where it consumes my torso or watermelon belly where I stick out infinately far in front. I don't really care either way at this point, I am just happy to have made it to 24 weeks Yahoo It makes me feel good that baby could possibly survive if she was born today. But let's hope that she stays put for a few more months!

I've been really good about going to the gym the last few days & have had a ton more energy because of it. I'm giving myself a "day off" today and am going to take my dog for a walk instead. He has gotten so fat (as pugs tend to do), and could really use the exercise...he doesn't get much in the colder months since he tends to stay inside all day, not to mention that he is being restricted to a small area of the yard until we get our fence in. At our old house, he had a huge backyard to run around, so I'm sure this is contributing as well. Anyway, we've had lovely weather the last few days so it will be nice to enjoy it rather than be indoors.

Girly is becoming a wild woman in the mornings. She's been kicking me on and off since 8:30 this morning (it's 11:30 am now)...sometimes it's a full on kick & sometimes it feels more like a shiver through my whole belly. I wish I knew what she was doing in there. She'll probably doze off pretty soon & I won't feel her much until later this evening. I think she moves a lot in the morning because I'm sitting at a desk and hardly moving. I don't really enjoy my job, but I'm sure I'll be thankful for it come June & July when I don't have to get up much. Anyway, back to the grind...I've been off task way too much at work today. I even tried to look at baby clothes for a while, but am having a hard time getting excited about it. Maybe it is still too soon or maybe I just know I'll get a crap load at showers so I don't want to find tons of things I want.

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I'm in such a funk the last few days. I really want time to speed up & for baby to be here already! I mean, I'm in no way prepared for her right now since her room is empty & she has one onesie, but I'm so ready to see her little face and just have her out. At the same time though, I love being pregnant, so I'm trying to just enjoy it. Can't have your cake and eat it too, right? I think I'm just in that "nothing to look forward to for a while" stage. I have 2 friends who will be having babies in the next 2 weeks :eek: so hopefully I'll be able to go hold their LO's and decide that I'm okay with baby girl staying in for a few more months! LOL! If nothing else, at least I'll get a temporary baby fix.

Girly hasn't been really active the last few days...I mean, she is moving enough that I'm not at all concerned, but she isn't being totally crazy either. I love when I can feel her whole body rolling around, and lately I'm just getting feet and/or hands. As long as she's moving & okay, I'm happy, but I just want some action! Wink I'm sure I'll have plenty of that to come though. Maybe she is just feeling a bit squished right now.

DH & I were talking about our one friend who is giving birth soon & he was "reminding" me how we still have a long time before our daughter will be here. Thanks a lot DH! I am finally starting to feel like we're making progress & then he has to say how it's going to be forever before our girl arrives. Blah. I'm sure it'll be one of those things that seems to take forever at the time, but goes really fast too. I just hope we are actually ready when she does arrive. I don't think DH has any clue how much our lives are going to change.

On a "fun" side note, I've been breaking out out of nowhere. I've had great skin the whole pregnancy until maybe a week ago. Awesome! :thumbsdown:

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25 weeks!! Yahoo

I made the mistake of weighing myself this morning. I'm up 18 pounds from pre-pregnancy! :eek: I looked at my "space" and saw that I was only up 6.5 at 18 weeks, so that means in 7 weeks I've put on 12 pounds. WTH?! I've been doing really good working out and trying to eat right, so I just don't get it. And I don't look like I have gained a bunch of weight, so I just don't get where it is going...:?: Please say I have a lot of fluid or something like that! lol After my doc gave me a hard time for gaining so much weight at my last appointment, I'm stressed about my next appointment in 6 days. Hopefully it won't be a huge jump again. But seriously, where is all this weight going?! I can't figure it out...I can still fit in my pre-pg pants other than my belly being in the way of buttoning them. I have definitely expanded in the boob department the last 2 months, but not 10 pounds worth! Okay, I'm just going to try and let it go and not worry about it. All I can do is make sure I'm getting exercise and eating well...right?

I was totally freaked out last night because baby still was being really lazy all evening & I was worried something was wrong. So I slept horriby thanks to stress (and the fact that I'm getting sick :sick:)...but then at 2 am, I was rolling around and I got a huge kick! Then she started rolling around and I felt so relieved!! She had me so worried. She kept me up until about 4:30 moving around like a crazy girl, but I was happy to be awake for that reason. Unfortunately, I'm not doing so hot at work today. I am stuffy/congested, groggy, and really really sleepy. 4 more hours until I can leave...hopefully that works out. It is almost end of the month & with my job, I get really busy the last days of the month. But I would really like to leave close to "on time", go to the gym, then go home and take a nap. OK I probably won't take a nap because then I won't sleep tonight, but it still sounds appealing. What I really want to do is stop by the library & get a good book...I haven't read a book in ages.

On a side note, I could use a week long vacation...so sick of work right now.

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Today is my big GD testing appointment & I am a bit nervous. I don't think I have it, but it'll be really hard for me if I do because I'm such a sugar junkie. Not to mention I'm a bit nervous about my weigh-in for my appointment. I haven't gained any weigh this past week, but still I swear the number on my scale will say one thing & then the doc's office adds a few pounds to that. :rolleyes: Oh well, it is what it is.

99 days to go! I looked at my ticker yesterday & saw it was at 100, so now I'm in double digits, yikes! That is so exciting! I have got out of my downer funk a bit lately & am enjoying being pregnant again for what it's worth. I finally broke down last weekend & bought 2 pairs of maternity capris...they are sooo comfy that I can't believe I waited this long! They were under $10 each too, so I don't feel bad about buying them. My belly is really starting to poke out lately, so it is nice to have some comfort. I actually have to double check my shirts when I stand up to make sure they are showing the bottom of my stomach. Can't imagine what I'll look like in 3 months!

Girly has been super active the last few days & it is really fun to "play" with her. I like to feel her move around and try to guess what I'm feeling, although it is really tough to figure out. She is getting pretty dang strong too & sometimes I feel like she is going to stretch a bit too far and cause damage! OK, not really, but it really feels like she could.

I have 2 friends having babies this week & I'm so excited! Biggrin

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I had my monthly OB appt yesterday. It was really boring...I got to hear her heartbeat & she kept kicking the doppler, and he measured me & I'm right on track for how far along I am. Plus they took my blood for the GD testing & I got a grumpy chick who slaughtered my arm. Usually I totally don't mind giving blood, but yeeeooouch! This chick was horrible. I won't find out for a few days whether I passed or not, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I had gained less than 2 pounds since my last appointment according to their scales, so that is good.

The doc said I don't need to come back in for 4 more weeks, then I'll start going to bi-weekly appointments. That sure came up fast! I can't believe my baby will be here is 3 months!

People at work today were giving me a lot of crap for not spilling what we are naming her, but I'm sticking to my ground. I actually got a positive reaction from my aunt this weekend who had a bad experience sharing her daughter's name before she was born. She told me that if she could go back and do it, she would have kept it a secret too, so that made me feel like I wasn't being totally irrational. Anyway...better do some work!

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I'm totally in a grump mood today...maybe because it is Monday, maybe because I didn't get enough sleep, IDK. But I'm totally in a "no one talk to me or I might say things you don't want to hear" mood. :mad:

DH & I were up until almost midnight last night trying to clean up for a painter who is coming to do our garage this week. We had to get all the crap off the floor since we are having the floors coated with epoxy, and there was plaster all over them from the prep work done on the walls/ceiling. It took so long to get everything clean. Then of course, I didn't sleep awesome, had to get up 2 times to pee, and then wanted to throw my alarm clock out the window. I really didn't get enough sleep. I was half-tempted to call into work and say I was going to be late, but I managed to get up. Of course I had to get asked a slew of annyoing questions from one of my coworkers as soon as I got here - I thought I had "don't talk to me yet" written all over my face, but I guess it wasn't as clear as I thought. She was like "So did anyone tell you Happy Mother's Day this weekend?" WTF?! What kind of question is that? I'm like "yeah, my mom did" even though DH also did and a few other people, and she replies "Yeah I figured she would." You don't even know my mom, how could you assume that?! Grrrr. Then she asked if I did anything fun over the weekend...lady, it isn't even 8 am yet, I didn't get enough sleep & I don't want to talk to you. Wow, I am grumpy, huh? lol

Baby freaked me out a bit last night. I got up out of bed to get a pillow to put between my legs to I can sleep somewhat comfortably on my side without immediately rolling to my back & snoring (DH's new favorite thing BTW), and when I was about to step back into bed, I had the worst pain run through my stomach...like a really bad muscle strain. So I lay down thinking "that was freaky" and fell asleep. Usually when I get up to use the bathroom in the middle of the night, baby will go crazy from me "waking her up". Last night, she didn't move either time I got up. So then when my alarm went off this morning & I hit the snooze button & got back in bed, I realized this and got nervous that something was wrong. I remembered the weird pain & thought what if that meant something. :eek: So I poked and prodded at my belly and rolled around until I finally got a little kick. Just enough to make me relax because I knew she was alive in there still. She has since gone back to her normal kicking, so I'm not really worried anymore, but yikes, I was so scared!

There are 3 new babies in the world after last week & we got to go see our friend's twins when they were a day old. Oh my gosh, it made me soooo excited for our little girl to come out and join us. It made DH a little nervous because he realized how much attention the baby needs, but I think he'll be okay when the time comes. 13 more weeks!

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My little ticker baby in my space moved to the 7th baby today! :eek: Hello third trimester!

Nothing too much in preggo land to report. I think I grabbed baby's foot the other day...sort of creepy, but I loved it! I had this rock hard spot next to my belly button & when I poked at it gently, it moved a little. So I sort of grabbed at it a little & she moved it across my belly then pulled it away. It really made me go, "Wow, there is a whole person in there!" I know that sounds weird since obviously I know I'm pregnant, but it is hard to grasp the whole concept of this little person growing inside me.

I think I passed my GD test!! Yahoo The OB said they'd call within a few days if I needed to come do the 3 hour & it's been a week, so I'm guessing I don't have to worry about it. I am hoping he can tell me what my #s were at my next appt because I'm wondering if they were really low since I have been suspected of being hypoglycemic in the past.

DH is continuing to be more & more friendly with my belly. He will sometimes give it a little rub & say "hello baby". Smile

My ab muscles have been killing me the last few days. I'm wondering if she is going through a growth spurt or something because man she feels heavy. I was reading on the couch last night & could not get comfortable. That happened over the weekend at my mom's house too. IDK...hopefully my body will just get used to it because I have 13 more weeks (give or take) of this & she is going to get a lot bigger!

I still think she is going to come a little early. I'm thinking the first week of August. I have absolutely no problem with her staying in there the whole time, but I was just have a feeling she is coming a little early. We have a trip planned at the end of June-beginning of July (I'll be 34-35 weeks), so I'm really hoping she doesn't try to come that soon because we will be pretty far from home! :shock:

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I must say that people need to keep their opinions to themselves. I'm sick of hearing "the facts" about being pregnant from everyone. Today I was saying that I wish it wasn't so cold (it's been in the mid 70s lately, but today and yesterday it's in the low 50s)...so instead of a normal response, I get this from a coworker: "No you don't want it to be hot because you are pregnant and you're always going to be hot." :mad: What...seriously, WHAT? If I didn't want it to be warm, I wouldn't say so! And on that point, I haven't been hot this whole pregnancy, I'm still always cold like before. Jeez. I've also been told that I will get swollen all over, get larger feet, have permanently worse vision, and end up with smaller boobs in the long run. I will break-out, hate the last month or even more of my pregnancy, wish I had put the baby's room together before my third tri, never get back into my pre-pregnancy jeans because my hips will widen, and be too exhausted to work until the end of July. These have all come from women who have been pregnant before & think they know what everyone else's experience is going to be like. Well, so far I've proven quite a few points wrong, but whatever....apparently, I don't know anything about being pregnant. :doh:

OK vent over Smile If I wasn't such an opinionated person myself, I don't think this would bother me so bad. It's like when I was engaged and everyone told me how awful planning was going to be constantly...yeah, it had it's moments, but I mostly enjoyed the whole process. So I'm set on the same thing for my pregnancy. Honestly, minus the nausea in the first tri & the getting "fat" thing (which I can live with), I LOVE being pregnant! So a big :fu: to everyone who wants to tell me otherwise. LOL Biggrin

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I found a dress for my formal event later this week yesterday at Target...I don't totally love it, but at least I have something if I can't find anything else. I also bought a swimsuit for $25 (score!). I just got some mismatched bottoms that were on clearance to go with a top I found & voila! Plus the bottoms sort of match a bikini top I have that don't have bottoms anymore because I ruined them last year by throwing them in the dryer (oops) so now I have 2 suits! DH will probably freak if I try to wear my bikini while pg (the new top I bought is a tankini), but I may end up doing it anyway. I had to buy one size bigger bottoms & two size bigger top! :eek: Not to mention my thighs are quite cellulite-ridden, but oh well!

TMI...I recently discovered I now have hemorroids! :shock: It totally is freaking me out & I hope I don't get more...how not cool! I wouldn't have noticed had I not been looking "down there" with a mirror to inspect a bump on the inside of my thigh, but now I'm all annoyed with it. Maybe I should stop wearing thongs...but man I hate having an undie line through my pants! Anyway, I'm very annoyed with that.

Tomorrow is 28 weeks! Yahoo

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Let's see...I had my first dream about our little girl a few nights ago (I hadn't had a baby dream since finding out the gender). I dreampt I was in labor and it was really mellow and quiet, and they had a mirror above me so I could see & I saw her little head pop out and she had a ton of dark hair and big beautiful eyes. Of course, she didn't look all gross and covered in gunk like babies really do when they first emerge - lol. Then they handed her to me & I woke up. MAN, I want her to come out now! Oh well, 10 weeks isn't much longer to wait, especially considering I am in no way prepared for her arrival yet - her room is totally empty! I do have quite a few clothes for her thanks to my mom, but that's about it. No furniture, no bedding, no monitor, nadda.

I have a bit of a dilemma going on with my out-of-town shower next month. The day we were planning on isn't going to work out for whatever reason, so they wanted to bump it to the next weekend...unfortunately, I have stuff going for the next four weekends after that, so it looks like we'll probably move it up a week, which means I'll be traveling for that next weekend. :shock: The good thing is that I get to pick up her crib since my dad and stepmom have it, but I feel bad because now I think my stepmom is rushing to get this shower thrown together. Oh well...nothing I can do about it. I'm really excited to get some stuff though!! I can't wait to have her room done. Plus I think we are going to go look at bedding, so that'll be exciting.

The last 2 days, I've had an evil backache & haven't been able to sleep (not a good combo). Finally, I got an okay night of sleep last night, and so far no back pain today. I skipped the gym yesterday although I really do want to go because I feel like I'm growing an extra layer of fat from inactivity, but I think not going was a good idea. I went home and rested on the couch for a bit and dinked online instead. I think I forget that my body is working really hard right now & needs more rest than before. I hope this isn't a snowballing problem because I will not be a happy camper if I'm totally exhausted the last month of pregnancy.

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Before I say anything negative, I must say that I'm really so grateful to be carrying this baby & that I'd go through any and all of this again in a heartbeat. But I need to whine for a minute because oh my freakin' gosh MY BACK IS KILLING ME!! My uterus finally reached my ribs & the one thing I've been dreading in the back of my mind happened - it is pushing on a rib I fractured snowboarding years ago and causing some seriously discomfort. I now hurt constantly from my rib on my right side all the way to my spine. It feels like my rib is literally on fire! Man oh man I wish I could get this thing removed or something!! It doesn't hurt me if I'm standing, but I have a job where I sit all day & it's killing me. I guess I'll be popping the Tylenol at work now. :rolleyes: And little missy is so sweet & not kicking me in the ribs hardly at all, but I think a hard kick to my "bad rib" would put me on the floor. I feel bad complaining to anyone other than my mom (who had a miserable pregnancy with me, so she feels empathy for me!). All and all, I've had it so good thus far & I want to believe that will continue...maybe my rib will shift out of the way and/or just get used to the pressure. Boo hoo for me :cry: OK I'm done.

I have an OB appointment tomorrow. Once again, dreading standing on that scale, but I did weigh myself this morning & it wasn't as bad as I thought.

On another note, I'm so glad I talked DH into keeping the baby's name a secret. Suddenly out of the blue, he has decided there is another name he likes (one I liked in the beginning, but he didn't). So now we aren't "set" on our name anymore. We may just end up waiting to see what she looks like then picking. Who knows. I can't believe I'm almost 30 weeks...that seems so far! A cute old man asked me today how far along I am & when I told him 7 months, he's all "oh, almost there!" I don't feel like I'm almost there, but it made me smile. Smile

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I had my 30 week OB appointment today. Everything is still looking great! Biggrin Baby's HB was in the 140s, doc says she is head down (please let her stay that way!), my BP was good (124/80), and I found out that I barely passed the glucose test (by one point! :shock:). He wanted me to start doing appts every 2 weeks, but I have a trip coming up, so my next appt is in 3 weeks & then we go to 2 weeks.

I have to say that I am such a space cadet when I go to my doc appointments; I seriously always forget all the things I was planning on asking! The big thing I was wondering is whether I'll get another u/s before the baby arrives & if so, when? DH hasn't been coming to the doc appts lately because they are kind of boring (I don't blame him, how fun is it to watch your wife get her BP taken & uterus measured?), but now he's all concerned they'll do a u/s & he's going to miss it. I told him that IF they do another one, it probably won't be until near the end. So hopefully I'm right.

Still in rib pain hell. I'm working on my posture & that seems to help a bit. It's all worth it for this little baby though! Biggrin

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9 weeks to go! Holy cow, I remember celebrating BEING 9 weeks. :eek:

Ribs are still killing me, but I found a solution to make it more tolerable. I just undo my bra anytime I'm sitting & the lack of pressure from the underwire seems to help a lot. We have a lot of driving in the next few weeks & I was dreading it because of that, but now I think I can survive okay.

Sleeping is also getting just flat out awful. I can't get comfy & when I finally do, I get weird muscle cramps in my thighs from all my new acquired body weight (my guess anyway). Then rolling over is like a circus act. :rolleyes: I now sleep with a pillow under my belly at all times. I actually found some stretchmarks on the side of my bum/thigh a few days ago & think it is from sleeping since that is the only place I have them so far & they are mainly just on the one side. So now I'm paranoid that I'm going to make them worse. Sheesh! Oh well, what do ya do?

I don't mean to complain so much, I really do think it is all worth it. I just have a hard time seeing my reward right now, KWIM? Sometimes it suddenly hits me that I have a baby in there & it totally freaks me out (in a good way) & I get all excited again. I feel her moving all the time, but it is hard to imagine that it's a person doing all that moving. SO excited to see her!

My shower is in a week and a half!! Can't wait to score some goodies (especially since we still own nothing!). I've had a few people call with questions on stuff I need & it sounds like we're going to get some great things.

Work is pure he!! right now & I can't wait to leave. Only 6.5 weeks left & it can't come soon enough.

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It's been a rough past few days. I did some heavy house cleaning on Saturday including cleaning my wood floors with this huge heavy mop. Saturday night, I started feeling a bit "off" at dinner, but figured I was just dehydrated. Sunday morning I woke up with the worst back pain & just attributed it to the mopping. Sunday night, I couldn't sleep at all because I was in so much pain. I eventually gave in and started taking Tylenol (I've tried really hard to tough things out and use as little medication as possible during this pregnancy). Monday I was full on miserable, and started getting nauseous, lightheaded, crampy, & cold sweats. Didn't think much of it until someone mentioned the flu was going around the office...great. Then I started having a TON of Braxton-Hicks contractions and that really freaked me out. Ended up leaving work early because I was afraid I was going to pass out & went home to take a bath. That helped a bit, but not a ton...afterwards I just sort of rotated between the couch and the bed to try to sleep, but no luck; I was just miserable. Tried to drink as much water as possible, but it was making me more nauseous. Just before bed, I took some Benadryl to see if that would help me sleep & luckily I was able to sleep somewhat decently. Was still having the BH's, but not as frequently so I decided to wait a day to see what happened before I called my OB's office. Today I woke up feeling pretty crappy but I knew I couldn't skip work because I'm the only person who does my job & I am so busy right now. At work, I went back and forth between feeling okay and feeling horrible - it was really weird. But the BH's slowed down and didn't come very often, so I wasn't too awfully worried. I should also mention that I have been feeling my little girl move a ton during this whole thing which I decided was also a good sign. Finally left work this afternoon once I got enough done to justify doing so & started having BH's again! :roll: So I called my OB's office and spoke to his nurse who told me that I'm probably just really dehydrated & to drink a ton of fluid, eat popsicles, and take a warm bath. I thought it was kind of interesting that my body "knew" what to do before being told by the nurse since I'd been doing baths & fluids. She also told me that as long as the BH's don't increase in intensity and/or get painful or start getting into a rhythm, that I should be okay to just relax it out at home if I feel comfortable doing so, but that I was welcome to come in if I felt like I needed to. I told her that I think I can get through it, I just needed reassurance that the BH's weren't going to start labor to which she responded that my uterus was probably just telling me it was irritated. So I guess I just need to relax a bit for a few more days until this all goes away. I can't believe how miserable being sick is while pregnant - I can't take anything for it & I can't sleep it off because I'm uncomfortable sleeping anyway. *sigh* I'm feeling so-so right now, but as far as I'm concerned, that is a good sign because it means it WILL go away eventually. This back pain is awful though...I can hardly stand to sit at my desk at work. Anyway...we'll see how the next few days go. I have my first baby shower this weekend! Biggrin

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Not a whole lot going on. Finally over that nasty flu bug or whatever I had...of course, now I have a UTI. :rolleyes: Oh well, it is nowhere near as awful as what I had last week!! I have an OB appt this afternoon, so hopefully he can give me something to clear it up. I had my first baby shower last weekend! It was pretty small since it was with my family that lives out of town, but still very nice. Got a lot of cute outfits (mostly in bigger sizes too!), a pad & sheet for the crib, a jogger stroller (from my dad & stepmom :D), a bouncy/vibrating chair, some diapers & wipes, and a few little blankets. We still need a lot more stuff for her, but it is nice to feel like we are at least started. Not to mention, we were able to pick up the (free!) crib and we now have that all set up too. Now I just need to pick the bumpers and stuff...I found a set I really like, but can't decide if it is "the one" or not Lol I have such a hard time committing to "big" things like that. Maybe I'll have a little spare time to look online today for a few things.

I have all next week off work & I'm soooo excited! Seems like everyone is just passing sicknesses around the office right now, so it'll be nice to not be around that for a bit. Plus we are going to the lake so that'll be really nice. I'm going to spend as much time swimming/floating as possible...that should improve my body aches! It's going to be really hot (100+) but I don't care...it's a heck of a lot better than working! Wink When I get home from vacation, I only have 4 more weeks of work, but I'm not sure I'm even going to stay that long; it all depends on whether the girl that is taking over my job picks up on her new duties quickly or not. Honestly, if I stay until the end of July like I'm planning on, I'll be just over 38 weeks. :eek: I can't believe how fast that is coming up! I'll be 33 weeks tomorrow...time flies when you're getting fat I guess! Speaking of getting fat, I have tons of broken blood vessels on the side of my butt! :shock: I thought it was a bunch of stretchmarks, but on further examination (lol), I can see that it is really blood vessels. So hopefully those will eventually go away because my bum looks like a war zone right now.

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35w0d

I haven't updated the journal in a while. The last few weeks have been pretty uneventful, but life itself has been quite busy. I'm working on training my replacement at work & that is stressing me out to the max, not to mention causing me to work a lot of extra hours. Hopefully it will all pay off soon. We were able to take a nice long vacation over the 4th of July & it was much needed!! I was able to relax & swim everyday & that made a world of difference in how I feel; my back/ribs felt normal again, the little bit of swelling I have went away, and I got some great sleep. Now that we are back to the "real world", the relief was short-lived and I'm back to being uncomfortable, but that's okay - I'm soooo close now! I am starting get a bit of the "nesting" bug if that's what you want to call it. I just am suddenly worried that baby girl is going to come early & I won't be ready for her as far as "stuff" goes. Mentally, I am totally ready for her so that's good, but I don't have the bare essentials for her arrival like onesies, diapers, receiving blankets, etc. I have a 2nd shower in a week and a half, so I'm trying so hard to hold out from buying things until after that, but it is really hard because I know I'd feel better if I just bought a bunch of things. But I know that I'll get a lot of them, so I need to just hold tight for a bit longer. Anyway...little girly's name has finally been settled on & I'm really excited about it. Biggrin And she is moving like crazy still which I love despite it actually hurting sometimes. 5 more weeks!!

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35w5d

My last shower is this weekend & I'm soooo excited to get it done and over with so I can go buy everything else I need and finally be ready for our little girl to come! Wow, 30 days until my due date. :shock: I am starting to freak out a bit...I mean, in a month we will have a baby! I just cannot fathom that happening. I don't think I'll believe it until she's here. Yikes. Plus I've been pretty relaxed about the whole labor thing this whole time but am starting to get just a bit nervous. I really don't handle pain all that well, so we'll see how it goes.

Anyway, things are going pretty well. I'm starting to feel very pregnant and ready to be done though. When she moves around, my whole stomach has to move with her....she's just getting so big! Plus I'm starting to get wicked muscle aches and pains all over in my abdomen & pelvis. Have I mentioned that my rear looks like I got attacked by a lion?! :mad: Still no stretch marks on my belly (not holding my breath just yet), but my behind seriously looks haggard. Oh well, at least that is easy to hide. I am getting tired from the smallest tasks now, although I feel better than I thought I might at this point. Cleaning takes me almost twice as long because I have to do it more carefully and slowly now so I don't hurt myself. Honestly, I am a bit sick of needing so much help to do everything, but at least I'm getting better at accepting it. I only have about 2 more weeks of work left then I'm done Yahoo

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Just thought I'd do a quick update on my last doc appt. Blood pressure is good & I'm up about 30 pounds :shock: but they are happy with the number so I just grit my teeth. Baby's heartbeat is strong & I asked him if she had twisted around since I'm feeling jabs on both sides now (before I was just feeling her bum on my right), but he says she is still facing the left, so she must just be super flexible! Then he did the Strep B test (which was just horrible IMO...worse than a pap - never thought "a quick swab" could hurt!), and he checked to see if I was dilated (also not the most fun thing, but probably worsened by the swab he did 2 seconds before). He said I'm sealed up tight, so I guess that is good since we are so not ready for her to come out yet, and quite honestly I would like her to bake at least 2 more weeks to be closer to term (especially since I think her due date is 5 days ahead of what it should be). But I did have a small ounce of hope that I would be at least a weeeee bit dilated so I felt like something was happening. Oh well, I'm trying to not get my hopes up until my 38 week appointment for any type of progress. I kept saying I thought she would come about a week and a half early, but suddenly I feel like she is literally never going to come unless we force her out. I guess we'll see what happens!!

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37w6d

Haven't updated in a while...

Been having a lot of pressure and soreness "down there" and the occasional contraction (what I think are "real" ones because they are a lot more uncomfortable than the BH's that I've been having). At my 37 week appt, I didn't get an internal check because the doc was out on a delivery, so I'm hoping at my appt tomorrow I'll have made a bit of progress. Just something so I feel like I'm not going to be pregnant forever (because it sure feels like that right now!). My newest "trick" is swelling over that last week or so...my feet, legs, and ankles are getting it the worst & look like I've inflated them at the end of the day - it is seriously ridiculous. Hopefully that'll all disappear once little miss comes out!

I'm getting nervous because I know the "big day" is going to be here very soon! I think I'm more nervous about having a baby to take care of than labor itself, but honestly, the labor thing is making me a little anxious too. All I can do it hope that everything goes smoothly. A lot of girls on my BB have had their babies already, it's crazy! I guess it really is happening...yikes :eek: I've said all along that I think she'll come early, but now that I'm down to the wire, I'm worried I'll have to get induced because she won't want to come on her own. Oh well, at this point, I don't care how she gets here as long as it is safely.

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38w0d

Just got home from my OB appointment. She is doing really well still & her heartbeat is in the 140's as usual. The "bad news" is that I'm not dilated at all. The doc said that could mean I just will go into labor without dilating before hand and just have a really long labor (great!) or maybe I'll get lucky and something will happen in the next week or so. IDK, I'm just so ready to have her here, I was really hoping to have made some progress...even a fingertip dilated would have made me happy. Oh well...I guess she is just too comfy in there to come out anytime soon.

DH told me last night he thinks she'll be one day late. I'm rooting for the 8th of August (8/8 is a good birthday!), so we'll see who is closer - hopefully me because I think I'll cry if I still pregnant on my due date. Sad

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38w3d

After being pretty down about my lack of progress at my last doctor appointment, I've finally accepted that she is going to come on her own time schedule & not on mine. I also realized that every day she isn't here is one more day to get things done and one more night of good sleep that I can take advantage of. So life is good and I'm trying to get everything I can possibly think of done before she does decide to come out. It has just hit me the last few days that she is going to be here really, really soon and that this is all really happening. I'm sure that sounds a bit crazy, but it has all been so surreal up to this point that I can't even imagine that change that is about to happen in our lives. I'm so excited for her to come join us, but at the same time, I'm totally going to miss being pregnant. I've had it pretty darn easy and haven't gotten so big that I feel like I'm going to explode or anything, so I just haven't gotten to the point where I just want to not be pregnant anymore & doubt I'l get there in the next week or two before she comes. I'll miss feeling her wiggle around constantly and trying to figure out how she is positioned in there. And the last few weeks of constantly wondering if every little thing is a sign of labor has been oddly exciting. It is just sad that it is all going to come to an end, but I'm really looking forward to moving on to the next phase with our baby. I'm thinking she'll be here by next Saturday at the latest, but who knows....only time will tell! I have a hair cut scheduled for Tuesday which I desperately need, so hopefully I make that at least or else I'll probably end up with sad hair for another month!

DH was asking some birth questions last night, and somehow we got talking about induction in case it were to come down to that & I mentioned that a good friend had gone a week over her due date, so they induced her and her baby was like 9 1/2 pounds! DH looks at me and says, "is no way there is a 9 pounder in there!" I get told a lot that I look really small, but I assumed DH thought I was huge! It was cute. He was also like, "You really haven't gotten that big. I mean, you can tell you have a belly, but you aren't huge like a lot of girls seem to get." :bigarmhug: Thanks DH for making me feel less whale-like for a minute!

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39w2d

No baby yet :confused: I really thought she'd be here by now! Anyway, I have been having a lot of contractions but they are really inconsistent. They are starting to get a bit painful, so I can only hope it is just a matter of days. I started losing my plug Wednesday as well and have been losing a bit at a time ever since. It just looks like a big glob of EWCM and is mostly clear. Kind of weird... Besides that, we finally have pretty much everything ready for baby, now we just need HER to be here! :rolleyes: Hopefully she'll show up soon, we are dying to meet her!

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Still preggo! Yesterday & Sunday, I was very grumpy because of it and didn't want anyone to say more than 2 words to me. Today I'm feeling okay about it besides the fact that we have to go to a family party on Thursday if she doesn't come before then & I'm dreading all the questioning from everyone. :roll: Oh well. Tomorrow morning is my 40 week appt/due date & we'll be setting an induction date. I was so anti-induction from even before I got my BFP, but at this point, I could not care less. I just want her to come out already! Smile

Lots of contractions still, feet/legs swelling like rising dough, and serious insomnia. Boy oh boy, I wish I had delivered at 38 weeks when I still felt great. Wink

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I had a pretty awful appointment yesterday. First of all, my blood pressure is really high (first reading was 160/92, second was 150/96). Then I find out my cervix isn't making any progress still. So my OB tells me I need to come back in the next day (today) to get my BP rechecked and see if it has come down (this came with strict instructions to come home and basically lay around all afternoon). If not, we might be forced to start an induction despite my cervix not being ready & the increase risk of a c-section that brings. So I am really bummed out. I thought for sure I'd be able to go through with a vag delivery considering my little girl has been perfectly head down for over 10 weeks. Sad Now all I can do is wait for my appointment today & see what my fate is.

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The Birth!

I went to my appt on the 13th and we discovered my BP had gone up to 170/106. My OB says "Time to get this baby out." So he scheduled me to go in and get started on Cytotec that night to ripen my cervix, then I was to start Pitocin the next day. We arrived at 9 pm & they hooked me up to monitors to track contractions and monitor baby's HB. Once they watched my contraction monitor for a minute, it was clear that I had a decent contraction pattern going already, so the hospital called my doc & he decided to just have me start on pitocin right away & skip the Cytotec. So I got hooked up to that around 10 pm (also got checked & was still not really dilating and baby's head was low but not firmly engaged). They were also monitoring my blood pressure really closely since that was the reason behind my induction. Contractions gradually got more intense and painful, and by around 4 am they were bad enough that I was having to huff & puff through them (it doesn't help that I had a great view of the contraction monitor so I could see them building before I even felt it!). The nurse checked me again & I was more ripe, but only a 1. About a half hour later, the anesthesiologist came in and gave me my epi (which I've heard bad things about getting them in & I didn't think it was hardly painful at all). It was nice to get some relief...except that it only took on the left side of my body. He had me laying on my right side to try to get the drugs to spread, but I had a huge area that wasn't getting any medicine. Basically he said there's a chance there are damaged nerves in the area & they are having a difficult time going numb, so about an hour after getting the epi in, he gives me this huge straight dose of numbing "stuff" into my epi line. Still nothing. I am not in much pain though, definitely manageable, so I just figure hopefully it'll kick in soon.

Fast forward an hour and a half, and I'm having contractions that made me wish they would do a c-section and just knock me out (which is crazy since I was so avid about avoiding one). I was actually making whining sounds during each one and had tears rolling down my face...not to mention they were really close together & were very strong (thanks pitocin!) according to the monitor. So I tell my new nurse (shift change) & she says she'll get the anesthesiologist in and see what he can do. So then a new anesthesiologic comes in (also went through a shift change I guess) and he gave off the impression that he didn't believe I could be in that much pain since I have an epi; I'm sure he thought I was just one of those girls who thought a little pressure was pain. He ends up doing the same thing as the previous one & gave me the huge dose right into my line. Well that again didn't do a thing & at this point it seemed my whole epi was wearing off because my skin wasn't as numb and the area I can feel is 10x bigger than it started. But they made me wait it out 45 minutes to see if it would kick in before they would go talk to the anesthesiologist again. During all of this, my doc showed up & does a quick check and I'm between 3-4 cm dilated. He also broke my water which I guess was in a really thick sac and was super warm and weird coming out. The nurse finally sends the anesthesiologist back in & he says he'll pull my old epi out and put a new one in but "it probably won't work" since the first one didn't. I tell him I would still rather try, so he essentially rips out my first one & then I get the new one placed. Within 10 minutes, instant relief. This is about 7 or 8 am, and I finally got to close my eyes and relax a bit.

About 10 or so, I started feeling a ton of pressure down there (it felt a lot like the lovely pregnancy constipation pressure I've been having on and off the whole time). I wanted to get checked again, but decided to wait until a nurse came in to check on me (since they had been in a ton between baby's heartrate & my BP). Well, go figure, no one came in for about 30 minutes. When the nurse finally did come in, I told her about the pressure & she checked and was shocked that I was a full 9. So she's like, "We're going to have a baby here very soon!" so I made DH call our parents so they could head over since we'd told them an hour earlier it could be a while still. After the got the room prepped for delivery and informed the doc probably took 20 minutes), I got to start pushing which was a totally bizarre, out of body experience. Baby very slowly progressed down the birth canal until suddenly she stopped coming. She was coming down sort of sideways & they had me lay on my side to push for about 15-20 minutes and finally she budged and started inching her way out again. Finally she was right there & they called the doctor and told me to stop pushing but rather just leave pressure there to keep her from going backwards. Well the doc seemed to take forever (maybe 5-10 minutes) and when he got in, he's like "whoa, we're right there"...uh yeah! So he gets his gear on and tells me to do a few pushes then tells me that I need to push gently - I guess he was trying to help guide her head out with minimul damage to me. He decides he needs to do an episiotomy (which he had guessed before I started pushing for him), so on the next push he does that and within maybe 2 more pushes, her head was out (although I still tore a little bit beyond the cut he made). He sucks her out and has me push her shoulders out (which felt huge BTW) and then out she came almost 14 hours exactly from the start of my induction. She didn't cry right away and he had to suck her for a good 15 seconds before she made any noise, but as soon as she did, he put her on my stomach. Poor little conehead baby!! She grabbed my finger immediately and I couldn't believe that she'd just come out. DH was totally in awe and all emotional, it was cute. Anyway, they got her cleaned up & me stitched up, and got moved to the postpartum room where we got to start getting used to life as a family of 3.