12 years later

well, today i'm 8 weeks pregnant... feeling exhausted as ever..
i'm very excited, but also nervous... it has been 12 years since my last baby... my kids are very excited... my son is 15 and my daughter is 11 going on 30!!! between my husband and i this will be child #4... lots of things are changing... quickly... trying to adjust to the fatigue.... no morning sickness... not with my other 2 either... so, for that i'm grateful.... just soooo tired all of the time...
next week is my first baby appt (actually second, but first official)... i'm excited to hear the baby's heartbeat.. i think that will make everything feel more real... right now i just feel like i'm gaining weight and living in a dream...:)

ok.... today was a day quite different from the rest... POTTY BREAKS... must have taken 6 or more in the first hour i was at work... :( i think i'm up to 12 or more already for the day... and it's like niagara falls EVERY time.... don't remember this with the other 2... :( well, i'll be sure to mention it to the doctor next week... FIRST U/S appointment :) i'm sooo excited... cant' wait to see that little hearbeat.. and maybe some ovaries!!! haha...

more potty breaks today... :(
i'm starting to feel more emotional.... like everything bothers me... i want to cry all the time... but i have to carry on with my day.... i don't feel depressed, just that the littlest things make me want to cry... an argument with the husband, the kids... the DOG.... i know it's common with all of the change in hormones, but how much longer will this last...
anyway... still happy... can't wait until the ultrasound next week :)

well, the most unfortunate has happened... we lost our angel on October 26, 2006... EDD 5/15/07... I have been very sad since you left... but remembering that God needed you for a special reason...

love,
Mommy