i had a m/c 1998 at 9 weeks along. it was really bad timing and since then i have gotten married, bought a house, etc. dh has been ready for a family for awhile, so we decided to start trying in august 06. well, within one month we are pregnant! yay for that. the weird thing is that it's exactly 8 years later after the m/c, to the day. "the Lord will return to you what the locusts have eaten" bible phrase my mom told me the other day.
i am at 5 weeks today. i have chronic, gentle pain in my left ovary. i hurt in my right ovary the last pregnancy, and after the m/c i really hurt for over a year. i finally went on the pill and the pain dissapated.
ever since sept, my left ovary has had a gentle pressure on it. it feels similar to the pressure i felt last time before the m/c, so that makes me a little worried about what will happen this time. i have my first dr visit on nov 7, at 8 weeks.
has anyone else had ovary pain? my breasts are tender (and have grown) and i've experienced a little constipation, but other than the positive pregnancy tests and my ovary pain, i feel normal.
i am afraid and excited. it has taken me years to get over the m/c, and i feel foolish for that sometimes. i have a handful of friend sthat have had m/c, and they seem rather nonchalant about it. i still cry sometimes. although i am in a much better place in my life now, i'm still worried and check my tp every time i go to the bathroom. and then i worry that my worrying will affect something, and i worry more. :/ vicious cycle.
It has been awhile since I last posted... almost a month!
I went to the dr on the 7th of November. My OB is so nice... she did an intervaginal u/s and after a moment said "there's spmeone I'd like you to meet" and turned the screen towards me. A little tiny heartbeat - 165 bpm! I wept on the table. She hugged me afterwards and told me what a good mom I'm gonna be.
I think I've been resisting writing in here or getting too excited because this is the same time frame as my m/c in 1998. I was late in Sept, found out I was pg in Oct, had lower hcg levels in early Nov, and m/c on Thanksgiving. (That was a really rough day... I had not told my family I was pregnant and had to eat and hang out with them all day as I was going through labor. Not something I ever care to repeat.) As the days near towards Thanksgiving, and there is still no spotting or cramps, I am getting a little more excited, but still anxious. I spotted through week 6 and 7, off and on, and the OB said that often the blood cyst the baby uses before the placenta is implanted often leaks out when it's not needed anymore. This put my mind at ease somewhat. But being the anxious one that I am, since it's been 12 days since the u/s my mind gets going and I worry that all is not ok. I feel like I've not let myself bond with this little one yet. Only three more weeks, though, and I'll be in my 2nd trimester, and I am really looking forward to that milestone
here's a link to the u/s... I hope this works. http://www.flickr.com/photos/98392407@N00/
I just wanted to say, also, that I've been lurking around for awhile, and I really appreciate you guys. This is by far the most supportive, honest, earnest, appreciative, educated and loving group of online people I have ever come across. So thank you for the education, the laughs, and helping me keep my sanity.