Nervouse would be how I am feeling right now. Excited, Estatic, Nauseated, Tired, and of course, Grumpy is how I feel the majority of my days.
I found out that we were expecting on June 18th. I took the test and in less than five seconds, literally, I found out I was pregnant. With my husband at work and my oldest children playing in their rooms, I started to cry. It was not a simple sobbing cry either. It was a "What the hell are we getting ourselves into" kinda cry. My husband has wanted another baby for as long as I can remember and I simply did not want anymore children. Not because I did not want to have another baby, but because I have had two C/S and did not want to have any more recoveries like those ever again. But apparently we were not careful enough and ended up pregnant.
Needless to say, I called my hubby on the phone as soon as I found out and could barely talk because I was sobbing so hard. He sounded joyed but concerned for me.
I next called a good friend of mine Jennifer to ask for her opinion and advice on all of this. She was very supportive of how I was feeling and was able to calm me down considerably.
The next day, I traveled 300 miles to be with my best friend and to have some tests run on me. I had been having severe pain in my abdomen and right sided pain all week long and we were worried it could be etopic. So we ran some Betas on me and my HCG count came back at 27000. Next they did a vaginal ultrasound on me and I got to see the yolk sac and see how far along I was. I measured at 6 wks and 2 days along. My uterus is tilted, so she could not see a fetal pole yet. But she said not to worry as my levels were up and everything seemed fine.
So I felt a bit better after that and spent the night up there before traveling home on Monday. This week has been a complete blur for me and I am estatic now that I am pregnant. I think once I am able to see my doctor I will feel alot better.
This pregnancy definately was not planned, but it is definately welcome and I cannot wait to post more on my journey as it will be my final pregnancy journey and I look forward to cherishing this one as much as I did my other two childrens.
More soon.............................................. ........
Last night I had a terrifying situation happen to me. I fell asleep on the couch and awoke about 3am with very severe pains in my stomach, really low towards my uterus. I was really worried that I might be trying to miscarry our baby. I went to the restroom to see if that was the problem and that did not seem to help any. So I climbed in bed with my hubby and told him what was going on. He mumbled ok and went right back to sleep. He was so exhausted that he did not hear me cry myself to sleep. The cramping was so intense, I almost had him take me to the ER. So anyhow, I placed a pillow under my left side and curled myself into the fetal position to see if that would help. Eventually I just zonked out. I awoke this morning with no pain, but worried that I had bled last night. There was no blood and no more pain. I think it might have either been ligament pain or gastrointestinal cramping.
I am praying that everything is ok with this pregnancy and I am worrying over the slightest abnormal pain. You would think since I have bore two children that I could be more advanced with this, but I honestly do not remember having this type of pain with my other two pregnancies. I cannot see my doctor until July, so I am keeping this journal to ease my mind.
Anyhow, My hubby is really happy about us having another baby and I think I am starting to really feel happy as well. I am just being really cautious about it.
I had my first ob appointment yesterday and I was a little worried about somethings I found out with my last sono, so my doc redid my sono for me. It took about 45 minutes to find the babies heartbeat, mainly because my uterus is tilted really far forward and up. He said that he had some concerns that it was not a viable pregnancy, but after seeing the baby and the heartbeat, everything looked fine.
I am so excited!!!!!!!!!!
I am 8wks and 1 day along and see him again on July 22 for my 12wk eval. I will get to hear the heartbeat then. YEH!!!!!!
Could this be the baby I never had in February 2002 but was eventually meant to have?? I was over in the miscarriage and stillbirth support area, basically lurking, and I begin to think about the strange things I have been feeling. My due date is FEB 2006, exactly four years after I lost my second beanie. I was completely suprised by this pregnancy. We were under the impression that it was not viable, but found out it is. So I think that this could be the baby I was meant to have four years ago but never had. I just keep thinking that there is something amazingly special with this pregnancy, that something is really unusual. Not in a bad way, but positively more attaching then what I felt before with my other two children. Could I possibly be losing my mind?
Was so sick today that I had to keep a huge bag of peppermints near me. I actually got sick in the toilet this time, the first time all pregnancy.
I am suffering from insomnia and paranoia as well. Not a good thing. I cant sleep and when I finally fall asleep all I think about is, did I hear something, what was that. it really stinks but at the same time, once I fall asleep, I sleep like a baby for the most part. Not much else to report today other than I just feel really tired and nausous.
We are having a little boy. We have had four sonograms, two of which have shown a little boy. We are so overly excited and happy about his impending arrival. He is a mover and a shaker in there and his favorite spot to nail me right now is my bladder. I think he makes me pee more now then in my earlier months. I have been feeling really sad alot lately. I guess mainly because after he is born, I will be having a tubal performed. It just seems so final. But it is a just decision. He will be our third child, one that I was destined to have and never thought would have. We have decided to name him Quinlan Erich Burton. It just fits him, in all his uniqueness and wonder. He is already so precious and cute. Keegan and Shaylah seem to be happy about him and about him coming. Shaylah, our youngest, is a bit jealous. She occasionally will come up and kiss my belly and say hi baby and then other times she will run away from me and not have anything to do with me.
Keegan in all his Adhd glory, seems to be adjusting pretty well for the most part. He is more enamored with my growing belly than anything. He has had the luxury of feeling the baby kick where as shaylah has not yet.
We have since moved from Amarillo to Olney, Tx. I have had to change doctors, I have had to see a specialist and so far have had four sonos. The last one was a precaution due to my family history of heart disease and the surgery I went through as a child. But our Quinlan was looking great. I have not a worry about him any more and I know that this birth is going to be miraculous and special. Though it will be my third C-Section, I am feeling better about it all the same.
Suffering from a cold while you are pregnant is not fun, at all. I feel so tired and achy. But Quinlan still seems happy, no matter how mommy feels. He hasn't been as active today and it could be because mommy was up and down last night and when I would lay down to get comfy, he would kick me and tell me that where I was laying was not going to work.
My daughter is my live entertainment today. She is on a dressing up spree. She took her daddys tube socks again today and put them on. The she put on Keegan's huge yellow shirt and her pink shorts. Matched with a super runny nose, she is as cute as she can be. Oh the joys of toddlerhood.
Keegan is currently playing outside with his neighbor friend, who like him, is also homeschooled for the time being.
Not much else to say other than I cannot wait until my next appointment on November 2nd when I can hear the heartbeat again.