YAWN! I'm sooo tired these past few days, it takes all I've got to stay awake all day at work. I do believe I was just commenting on my birth board that I've yet to experience much in the way of exhaustion - I'd now officially like to eat those words!
I spotted again last night, quite a bit actually. Although, I'm no longer convinced it's coming from the baby - it seems to be worse when I have to push whatsoever - when I have a bm. So, I'm going to have the doctor do a pelvic at my next appointment, perhaps there is something going on further "down" that is causing me to bleed.
I'm having a tough time not being crabby this time around, too. I was crabby with Brendan, felt great with Halle, and now I find myself getting irritated much too quickly. Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled to find myself experiencing some syptoms!
Ugh. I don't know what to think any more about this pregnancy. Last night, after my bm, I saw the most blood I've seen yet. There was blood in the toilet, filled the toilet paper, and (even though I'm sure this will sound gross) I used a mirror to look 'down there' just in case there was something I could see that could be a source of the bleeding. Nope, all looks normal (to my completely untrained eye).
I'm trying hard to maintain a level of emotional seperation from this baby, which I hate. But, at the same time, I'm so afraid of getting too attached and having something bad happen. This just stinks. It's making me crabby, too, because I'm trying to put on a happy face when all I can think about is, "What the hell is wrong with me?!!" I just want to have a regular, normal pregnancy like I did with the other two. Where I can check websites, post on my birth board, and join in on the fun.
I'm calling the doctor again today - I know she'll probably think I'm overreacting or making something out of nothing (because the standard line is always, "some women just spot during pregnancy and go on to have healthy babies") but I'M NOT ONE OF THEM! I've had two healthy babies and I didn't spot with either one!
I just wish I had access to an ultrasound machine whenever I wanted so I could at least have the piece of mind that the baby is ok. Now would be a good time to be married to Tom Cruise.
I went to the doctor again yesterday and she discovered that I have a small area on my cervix that is very irritated and bled quite a bit when she was checking me. She suspects I have some type of bacterial infection that is easily treated with antibiotics. She checked my cervix and it was completely closed, and she said the irritated spot on my cervix is no threat to the pregnancy!!! YAY!! I'm so relieved!
I'm feeling good today. It wasn't even all that hard to get out of bed this morning! I'm thinking I'm going to be in maternity clothes with this one earlier then with the other two - I haven't gained any weight, but my pants are feeling a little bit tight in the stomach area, lately. I wasn't in maternity clothes until 22 weeks with Brendan, and 17 weeks with Halle, so I guess we'll see. I'm going to do some online shopping this week to see if I can find some cute stuff - all my old clothes are for a completely different season, so I have a good excuse to get some new stuff!
I went online maternity clothes shopping yesterday and actually found a lot of adorable stuff! I'm excited to be pregnant in the summer, short sleeves, cute tops, and no jacket to worry about. I ended up winning a couple of auctions on ebay, so I have a suit jacket coming with pants, a skirt and a cute top (for $8.50!) and a couple cute summer shirts ($6.50!). I will be buying plenty of new stuff, as well, but I was excited to get a few good deals.
I really am getting excited about this baby now. It's feeling more real as each day passes. My next appt isn't for 2 weeks and 1 day (April 5th), and I cannot wait. I'm still having very light bleeding every couple days, which doesn't even freak me out anymore, seeing the doctor last Friday was great peace of mind.
I ordered a Bella Band this morning because the bloat on my upper belly is terrible! I'm hoping this will allow me to wear some of my favorite jeans for awhile longer then I suspect I'd be able to without it!
We got a call last night from one of dh's good friends from back when he was in the Navy. It was so awesome to talk to him! Funny how you don't communicate or see people for years and years (6+!) and when you talk it's just like old times. They live in New Hampshire, but hopefully we can figure out a way to get together with them sometime this summer.
I'm so sad for some good friends of mine. After trying for over a year they found themselves pregnant, due this coming July. At their 18 week ultrasound the tech noticed that the baby's heart looked as though it may have some problems. They went back in for their follow-up ultrasound last Tuesday, March 13th, and discovered the baby's heart was worse then initially thought. Because of this they elected to go ahead with an amniocentesis to make sure there were no other problems. Unfortunately the results of the amnio were not good. Their baby girl was diagnosed with Trisomy 13. The chance of survival with Trisomy 13 is only around 10%, but coupled with the heart defect their baby had, her chance of survival was 0%. Missy was induced on Sunday night, and delivered their daughter, Jordan, stillborn on Tuesday morning (March 20th). We found out yesterday.
I'm just so sad for them. They are wonderful people, and were so excited about this baby.
Big day tomorrow - I cannot believe my little girl is turning 2. I've been running ragged these last few weeks between work and being so tired at night that I really haven't had time to think about it. It's so crazy that 2 years ago (tomorrow) I was going through labor and ultimately delivering our hilarious little girl. Time goes by in a flash.
I'm having a few people over from Dh's side of the family for the birthday party tomorrow. I'm making kabobs, a salad, cupcakes, chips and dip (ok, I'm not making those two things) and punch. We'll eat right away at 1, then open presents, then enjoy the outside! It's supposed to be gorgeous tomorrow - cannot wait!
As for me, I'm feeling great. Bleeding is gone, for the most part, and I'm having no m/s to speak of. I woke up with a bit of a tummy this morning! I know it's not actually the baby, yet, but rather bloating caused by being pregnant - but it's still kinda fun!
I'm finally here! Getting on here this weekend was next to impossible!!
My little girl is officially 2! The party was a blast! It's always so much fun to get together with family to celebrate. The kids, as always, got such nice stuff, and had a wonderful time seeing everyone! I'm always so amazed, and feel so blessed, that people go out of their way to come to our house (usually from several hours!) just to see our family. It's amazing.
I'm feeling great. I got a nap in both days this weekend, which felt so good! My new symptom is nausea - if I don't eat I feel sick to my stomach. Ewwww.... So far, it only happens if I go too many hours without any food, and since I like to eat, I should be able to keep it at bay!! LOL!
I got a gender prediction from a lady on my birth board, and she says, "girl" - so we'll see!! I honestly couldn't care less what we have, and am really excited to wait until the baby is born to find out. We didn't do that with either of the other two, so it will be a new experience!
I'm sooooooo tired these past few days. It's funny, too, how I can justify things away when I need more sleep. Normally I'm up at 5:45 Am so I can shower and get myself completely ready before I go in a wake up the kids at 6:30. Today, in my sleepy mind, I figured if I slept until 6:30, then got the kids up and dressed, that I'd have time to shower while they were eating breakfast. Uh-huh, didn't work. I had to do a super fast body shower with my hair pulled up, so I'm in a pony tail for the second day in a row at work. In my head it made perfect sense, but in reality - DUH! So, tomorrow, no matter what, I am getting up at my normal time.
Talked to my cousin yesterday. She's also pregnant. It's really neat, too - we are due the exact same day! The best part is she was the cousin I was the closest to growing up, so it would be really cool to have our babies on the same day!!
M/S is rearing it's ugly head. I can still eat, but things that I thought would taste SOOOO good before I eat them actually taste ok, but once the food in my stomach, it's NOT happy. I haven't actually thrown up yet, but the almost constant nausea is just sitting in the back of my throat.