I have started and stopped this journal so many times with this one. I was pregnant last month but m/c at 4wks 4d, so I am one day past that and no cramping like the last time so I'm thinking that this little pea is going to stick.
This pregnancy is different then my DD's and the angel I m/c. With the last two I didn't get a positive test back until after I missed my period. This time around I got one at 11dpo. I always crave Subway sandwiches for some reason, but with DD Madisyn I couldn't stand french fries and wasn't really hungry. This time I eat up everybodies french fries and am hungry 24/7.
I don't have a regular doctors appointment yet, but I work for a naturalpath doctor so I'm not in a hurry to go. I have my prenatals and he has done a screen of my progestone levels so everything looks fine this time around. There are some women that go to his office that never needed to go to a regular doctor and they went on to have a successful homebirth. Unfortunatly I can not have a home birth because I am considered high risk. I had a c-section and gestationial diabetes with Madisyn. Hopefully I can have a natural birth though.
Symptom wise I'm just hungry all the time and have sore bbs with big blue veins all over them. No real ms but sometimes I look at some things and it makes my stomach turn. Well I guess that is enough for now.
It's funny that now I'm actually so hungry that I get up to fix breakfast now. I'm a little lazy in the cooking department and when I was pg with Madisyn I never cooked. Now I'm slaving over some cream of wheat (ferina as some might know it as) and let me tell you it's not the instant.
I still have sore bbs, and I feel warmer then what I normally would. I had a dream right before I got pregnant that we were changing rooms because our room is bigger and we were putting a big girl bed in there for Madisyn. Nobody in the dream said that I was pregnant with twins, but for some reason I just felt it. Madisyn room is big enough for a toddler bed and a crib, but def.not enough room for two cribs. I won't wish that it is twins because I was reading all of the complications that goes along with it, but that was a very strange dream and I don't usually remember my dreams at all. When I talk to them(yes I have started already)I say babies just in case to not leave one out! (I know I'm wired)
I know I could be getting to attached to soon, but I just feel like these babies are going to stay. If it is twins I feel it is a boy and a girl, if it is a single I think it is a boy.
Well I said I would come back later and its a whole 4 days later! This morning I had salsa and chips with a poly string cheese for breakfast. Then after I ate it I wanted to throw up. Weird craving isn't it, I don't remember craving things with Madisyn other then Subway.
I had some cramping the other day, but it was very mild and it felt more like streching because it was more in the middle and not on a sides. I got a cute short sleeve coral top from Motherhood for $9. So right now I only have some maturnity leggins I brought when I was pregnant last month and this top. The leggins I use as a extra layer against the cold since I wear nurse scrubs to work. I have a little pouch already but it is not too noticable yet.
6 wks 2d
Well noting new to report. I still haven't told my family yet. They acted so negative when I told them I was pregnant the last time, well just my aunt really. Then when I lost the baby and she saw how upset I was I think she felt guilty or something. I don't know why it would upset her because I have lived on my own since I was 18 and I never had to depend on her for anything. I think she mad because I'm not in college, but I'm the one that has to want to be there. I know I will go back, but right now I do not have the desire to.
Boy did I let this thing slip. At least it was only on the second page so I didn't have to hunt long.
My computer is in the coldest part of my house so I just don't feel like sitting in the cold a lot of the time. Also I seem to be soooo exhausted most of the time that when I get home from work all I want to do is sleep. I actually puked one day last week and my cell phone fell in it so it is not working now. I had insurance on it so I just have to pay 35 to get it replaced just a matter where 35 smackers are going to come from. This pregnancy is soooo different this time, I just feel so PREGNANT! With DD it didn't really feel real until i felt her kick, this baby (or babies) is diffinently making there presence known. Still haven't told anyone, but I feel so excited that I want to tell them so bad. Just don't want to deal with the negativity right now.
22 wks 3days
Ok baby girl it took me forever to load this journal on here. For some reason it keeps on logging mommy out. Well it's been a long time anyway, but things have been so crazy around here, not crazy in a bad or good way, just crazy enough that I couldn't really put my thoughts down like I wanted to.
Your father has a job selling cars now, which I do not like but he really wants to give it a try so I can't knock him for wanting to stick it out and not give up. He works very long hours and I miss him, but he can't make money if he is not there so he is doing what he has to do for you, your big sister, and me. The place that he works for is straight commission so your father has just made it into the black, because they give him $150 a week for expenses but take that right back when ever he makes a sale. Now that he is no longer paying them back he should be able to bring home some money.
Your fathers last job was a job that he liked and would have enabled mommy to stay home with you for a bit, but he lost it and it seems like they are losing business anyway so even if he was still there things may not have worked out the way I wanted them to anyway. I don't know how long I will be able to stay home with you since I bring in the consistent money, but I need to tell my boss what I want to do. Any other time in my life this would be so perfect because he is telling me to take however long I want and I won't have to worry about not having a job to come back to. Somebody that works there is on month 15 of their maturnity and not really thinking of coming back until I leave in August and he is fine with that. I wish finances were better so I could take full advantage of this oppertunity.
Well little one everyone knows about you and are starting to get excited. Your cousin actually came up with the name that seems to be sticking right now which is Dalaney. I think I will spell it D'Lanie but I'm still looking for other spellings and for your middle name. Madisyn is already trying to say it, but when she pronouces it, it sounds like Inanie which is cute too. Your father is so proud when he sees my big round stomach. It took so long with your sister for me to show, but you are really making your presence known. On tuesday we go to the birth center for a pre-natal visit. Hopefully my gulcose test was normal, although I know they will test me again at the end because I had it with Madisyn.
Well D'Lanie let me end this message before the board pulls some bs and say that I'm timed out or something
until Madisyn turns 5
Good morning baby, today your sister has a cold which I knew she was going to get because your auntie had her out all friday night. She said that she didn't have her out in the rain and that she was in the car most of the time but it was so damp out there that I knew it was coming. Your sister is no fun to be around when she is sick so be prepared! Every little thing that fustrates her she has to bawl like its the end of the world and she's only sneezing and have a runny nose right now. Anyway today is mommies late day at work so I decided to write now in case I don't feel like it when I get home.
So far it looks like D'Lanie is still it for your name although your father calls you chunk-a-monk cause your making mommy very chunky Tomorrow we go to the birth center and I will get to hear your strong heartbeat again. We are meeting with the midwife Eileen for the first time. I have heard that she acts like she dosen't care, but I also heard some things about Tina and I really liked her so mommy is not worried. If she acts like a butt then I won't ask her any questions and I'll just save them for the next time. I didn't have any questions about you any way, more of how do things go when you go into labor with a birthcenter. Thats all I can think of for now baby.
Well little one your appt went well yesterday except for the midwife. I actually had an intern conduct the whole visit and the midwife only came in at the end to shake my hand and say see you in a month. The glucose test came back negative which is great but I will have to go in at 28 weeks to do it again
I've been having these weired cramps this morning, or one big cramp I should say cause it doesn't seem to go away. After taking my vitamins and eatting it seems like it is trying to go away now. I'm going to go and read about some signs of pre-term labor to make sure your not trying to come just yet. Mommy is excited to meet you little bug but not before your time.
Update still 22wks 6days
Well after drinking a lot of water the cramp went away so I guess I was dehedrated. Now I can talk more about your appt. Mommy has gained 14 lbs so far which is about average from what I read. Your heart rate was 140-150 bpm and she said you were probably resting sideways.
That mean midwife is only there on tuesday's so hopefully that is her only oncall day too. I hope you don't come on a tuesday cause I would hate for her to be the one to deliver you. We go back to the birthcenter when we will be 26 weeks. I decided to have that appointment with Tina who is the more girl-friend type and then when I have to do the glucose screen again at 28 wks I will get Eileen since it will count toward a visit, but I don't think I will have to have a whole visit with her. After that I would have seen everybody two times so I could then see whomever for a little bit. I need to check and see when you start going every week and then maybe I can plan out who I will get and when.
baby! I talk to the doctor today and he said that my magnesium levels are low and that is why I have been having these cramps so I can take a supplemental Magnesium and after the cramps go away to make sure I keep it in my diet.
I can't believe we will be 6 months next week. Not much else to report, but I promised I would be a good girl and post something every day. Only 118 days left to go. It seemed like Mady's pregnancy dragged on but this is going by so fast.
Sorry I didn't get a chance to write here yesterday but the board would not let me post. I kept getting an Invalid Session message, but I think it is because we are on compuserve. I hunted around the board and found that cleaning out the cookies sometimes helps and after I did that I could post. Internet Explorer is not working for me, so I have downloaded Netscape to see if I can browse and post here better.
You get more and more active everyday. I think you might have had the hiccups yesterday it was so cute.
These three are at 22weeks 4days.
Good morning little one! I do not have much to write about today, but we did go see your cousin who was five months on the 17th. She is getting so big. I have never seen a baby that can just lay there as content as she does. You don't even have to look at her and she will just amuse herself in some way. With your sister you didn't have to pick her up, but she did want some attention. You were not getting away with ignoring her at all.
Your auntie does things a little different then what I would do them, but I know how much I hated for people to tell me what to do with my babies so I don't say anything. She looks very healthy and fat so that is the important thing. I know that if my auntie saw me do some of the things that she does, she would have a heartattack in the street
For example she had the baby over your great aunties house without a carseat. I know your daddy didn't want to do it that way and if he had known that she was going to catch a ride with us he probably would have had us wait and take her home first so she could sit in Madisyn's carseat. Then she didn't have a hat or a jacket on the baby, only a blanket over top of her. It wasn't cold during the day, but we didn't leave till almost 1am so it was chilly by then. Here I go with lugging around two different coats for Madiysn and two for myself and the baby just has a blanket. Like I said she seems healthy and I heardly hear of her having a cold so who knows shes probably making her immune system stronger that way I don't know. I know i will continue to be a layering bundle up freak with you two.
I actually can't wait until it gets warm enough for me not to have to put thermals or undershirts under Madisyn's clothes cause she has the cutest little tops that have different necklines that just wouldn't go with a thermal peaking through.
Well we are suppose to go over auntie's house(the same one who would have a heartattack) but I don't want to. The only reason I would go is because we haven't been over there the past few Sundays and my cousin said that his nephew who is 1 miss playing with Madisyn. I don't know if I'm just an evil pregnant woman, but I just don't like being around them as much as I am. Madisyn is there everyday except for Wednesday's and Saturadays and I think that is enough time, but if we don't come on Sunday, when I drop her off on Monday "I missed you MadyRae and where were you yesterday" like I don't have any other place I could be or something. Then they don't talk that highly of your father and he has since refused to go over there unless it is to pick up Madisyn and I can't blame him. It's a shame when you are a good, kind man and your girlfriends family won't accept you. I wonder if I had a drugdealer boyfriend who could buy me whatever I wanted with dirty money would they be happy. Anyway it's there lost cause your father is a wonderful person if they would try to get know him. He's just so quiet that he doesn't try to butt in or strike up conversations all the time, but if you talk to him he talks to you. Mommy is rambling in a journal that is suppose to be about you right? It just makes me upset because I was so close to my family, but the way they treat your dad makes me see the kind of people they are past the title of aunt or cousin. Until tomorrow.
Well yesterday wasn't too bad. Your daddy, big sister, and I went out to eat together first and then we went over my aunts house We didn't stay too long but they can't say that we didn't come
You have been soooo active today!! Mommy wish she could stay home today but I have to go to work. It looks like the weather is going to bed nice this week, I hope this it and it stays nice from now on. You can never be to sure about April though, it could still snow if it wanted to.
Well baby not much to report today except that it is getting harder for mommy to find a comfortable way to sleep. I try to prop up the pillows but that doesn't seem to work. I can't believe only 16weeks and 2 days left to go.