So far, the pregnancy is still good. He is an active little one. I think he parked himself right on top of my bladder though. The crappy thing that sucks is that I am going to have to transfer my care so late in my pregnancy. I won't be able to get seen again before I leave, and when I get home, I will have to wait until my records get transferred. It took me three weeks to get them transferred when I was pregnant with Nani. The place that I will be going, wont see me until they have my records. I ended up going into preterm before they got them the last time though, and then they were kind of forced to see me. I just hate that I wont be able to establish a good relationship with my ob before delivery. Not that it matters much though because only once has my ob delivered me. Usually it is just some random person that's on call that night. Living about an hour from the hospital is going to suck as well. I almost had Ari in the car.
I called and talked to my brother today, and I guess the brain damage is really taking it's toll of my stepdad. One minute, he is lucid, and another he isn't making much sense. He started talking about him grandma supposedly coming to pick him up(she has been dead for like 30 years) and how the b*tch always forgets him. He told me niece that she was a useless piece of sh*t. He keeps pulling his tubes out. I guess he was smearing poo everywhere because he took that tube out. I feel bad for him. Nobody should have to live like that. I guess they still have no clue what is really going on. All they know is his blood sugar went up over 1,000, he went into a coma, and is now having a lot of issues because of it. I don't think I want to take my kids to see him. They are to young to understand what is going on.
So far, Josh and I are still getting along. Which is a miracle. I think he has had a few people give him **** because he is now offering to help do the move since I am pregnant. Since I don't have a car he is having a friend drop him off at the storage place so he can pick up the truck and bring it here. He wants to handle all the moving himself, but um don't think that is a good idea. I am just worried about how he handles moves. Chucks everything in, and doesn't worry if it gets broke or not. He refuses to take any of the stuff. He says he can't have any of it in the barracks and since he will be gone for a year anyway, there is no point in him keeping it. I feel bad about taking it all though. I would just be happy with my computer, clothes, my grandmothers china cabinet I have, the kids stuff, and my tv. He wont even take the other big screen. Again, this is him being nice. It's hard to have him go so hot and cold, it just leaves me confused.
Anyway, back to packing.
I feel like a mooooooooooooooooo cow.
26 week belly shots. Ignore the fact that I don't match. With moving and being so big, I go with comfort. When I cart my bum out of the house, then fashion comes in.
And the old Josh is back. He was supposed to show up the other day, never called, never came. He had come in to the Best Buy where my cousins works earlier during the week because he broke his phone and had to get a new one. Now I have a great relationship with my cousin, but it's one he has never been a part of. Her dad and his brother are actually my first cousins, and they are two of my favorites. Her grandma (my aunt) and grandpa (my uncle obviously) are my favorite ones. So when she moved out here, and her dad told her I was here as well, it was really cool for us both. We didn't get to see each other much growing up because her dad was military. When her dad and mom split up she ended up staying in Cali with her mom so I only saw her a few times. Now we have been hanging out for 3 years and live 2 miles from each other. She has been really awesome and letting me borrow the car to go to the store. We really bonded the most when the boys(her dh and Josh) went to Iraq (they left within months of each other). So anyway, he acts like she is part of his family as well. Nevermind the fact that they have maybe been around each other twice, or that she is my cousin and is watching all of this go on. So I have told him in the past that her disount only applies to her, and she could get fired if she used it for anyone else(not that I would ask, but he has in the past), he tracks her down and asks her to use her discount to buy him his new phone. She was nice about it, but she said she wanted to just be like you want me to help you buy a phone, when you can't even supposedly afford to do anything for your kids? And then she asks how he feels about his kids moving so far away, and he just shrugs. Not even a simple I don't like it, but it has to be done. Just a shrug.
To top it off, when he first added text to his phone, I had borrowed it to text her to ask if she still needed me to watch her boys. He wound up texting her "good morning beautiful," a few days later. He tried to say it was him being friendly, but I explained to him that he was creeping her out. She is my cousin and he is fricking hitting on her! Not to mention, even though they are seperated, her husband would kill him.
So I get an email from his today saying that this new phone he got a few days ago is broke as well. He supposedly can't remember my number(which is funny since before he had it memorized), so thats why he didn't call. If you ask me, he should have my number stored somewhere because his kids fricking live with me. And even though he has to check his email daily at work, apparently this was the first time he has had a chance. He also I guess is not spending time with the kids this weekend either. He is dropping off the duffel bags tonight, I am making him give me $300 from this paycheck since we are only living here for less than two weeks, and he said he will bring me some more boxes tomorrow. He wants me to pack the entire house and then he will help us move, but it is a bit difficult to get boxes when I have no car. The downside to using my cousins car is that I can't fit food, kids, boxes, and groceries in it.
So please tell me when prepaid cell phone companies started replacing lost or damaged phones. I have the same carrier Josh does, and found nothing saying they would replace the phone. They did however say they would suspend your account while you wait for the new phone you purchased to be sent. So I try to call him today just on the off chance it would be working, and lo and behold it was. He claims he bought another phone and will take that one back. Sure, ok.
So instead of coming in the morning to see the kids like he promised, he took the bus, went out, and bought another phone. So now he won't be here until after 4pm, if at all. Of course, I am the bad one for reminding him that he said he would be here in the morning and that it would be nice if he had because he doesn't have much time left to see the kids and seems to be putting it off as much as possible. Whatever, he doesn't see them, its his loss.
In Michigan now. Missing Mike and Nani. There was no way I could take three kids being pregnant all by myself, so we decided to split up. The train trip wasn't that bad. The boys did really well for being on it 2 and a half days straight. Can't wait until Mike and Nani get here though. Two weeks.
Got to see my stepdad today. He is out of the hospital and in a nursing home to recover. He went on about how glad he was that I was home, and how this is where we should be. He also asked me to not have an abortion. I was like uh.....???????
He's a bit out of it still. I had to remind him that Mike was coming out here and that we plan to very much keep this child. Even if I wasn't this far along, I would never be able to have an abortion.
So I am now beginning day three of being home. I still haven't figured out what I am going to do about a doctor. I am waiting for my dad and stepmom to get back from Cancun(poopy heads go twice a year and they come back today which is my b-day), because my stepmoms bff works at an ob clinic as an RN. I want to find out which one because it would be really cool if I could go where Lesile works. I can't wait to see my dad!!! I got to see my mom once since moving to WA but I haven't seen my dad for over three years. Hard when you're a daddy's girl like me.
It's been nice and strange to be back home. I saw my nieces and nephews that I hadn't seen in 6 years as their dad and my stepdad had a falling out. But apparently the live with their mom, not that far from here and after they visited Bob at the nursing home, they stopped at Walmart, saw my mom, and found out I was home so they came to see me. Kind of crazy that the little girl I held when she was a baby now has one of her own. I haven't gotten to see my other brother, his wife, and my nephews yet, but my bro Jon, his wife, and her kids were at the train station. I guess Ethan says that my sil told him that he was never leaving her again(he is her favorite).
Yesterday I went to see my grandma and grandpa. It kills me to see how sickly my grandpa is looking. I know he doesn't feel that way, as he made my cousin go get him a beer, but he has seemed to age a lot in the time that I was gone. Going to dialysis three times a week must be taking a toll on his body. My niece and her boyfriend went to the nursing home with us yesterday. Bob seems to have really taken to her boyfriend. He seems really nice and he sat down and let Bob teach him how to play cribbage. Kayse and I caught up and kept making jokes about how I am her aunt as I am only two years older than her.
Baby moo is still doing good. He has now decided that he owns me. I am not allowed to have anything touch his space or her will kick the hell out of it. Right now he is beating on my leg as I have it up to my stomach. It takes me about two hours to fall asleep because he wont stop kicking whatever side I am laying on and he absolutely hates my body pillow being next to my stomach. Seems he is a lot like his daddy with the whole mine, mine, mine. I can't believe that I only have a bit over two months to go. It still amazes me how easy this pregnany has been except for the bleeding in the beginning. No preterm labor at all. Hopefully he stays put.