I've been delaying writing anything down with this pregnancy. The last pregnancy, I tried to write something down every single day. But, unfortunately, that pregnancy ended with a blighted ovum.
A blighted ovum is when you have a fertilized egg that doesn't grow a baby. There was a sac and placenta...everything to support the growth of a baby, but no baby. I guess knowing that nothing nothing ever actually died made getting through it a bit easier for me. Although, having the gift of a pregnancy taken away from me like that was still hard. I don't know if I will ever be able to get over that. I guess that I can only move forward.
I'm the youngest of three daughters. My oldest sister had her first baby, my oldest nephew, right out of high school. He was such a blessing to me and we were inseparable. She had her next baby, my youngest nephew, about 6 months after she married the father of her first baby. She planned for that one however. She just got pregnant alot sooner than she thought she would. My other sister had her only child, my niece, when she was 21. She wasn't planned for and was quite a pleasant surprise to my family. My niece is my princess and such a great joy to my family. I can't imagine how our lives would be without her.
I'm going to be 35 in October and am currently pregnant with my first baby. After seeing how easy my sisters made it look to have babies, I never thought that I'd have such a hard time. I learned something though. It surely isn't as easy as I thought it was. lol.
I married my husband in September of 2006 and we decided to start trying to conceive in March of 2007. It wasn't until early October of 2007 that I actually found out that I was pregnant. October 5th, to be exact. Oh, that pregnancy was going to be perfect. It would give me a due date of June 10th and I would be off work for the summer months. I just couldn't wait.
Come the middle of November, my pregnancy had come to an end and my world had turned upside down. I couldn't understand why/how it happened. Why did it happen to me? I did everything the "right" way. I got married first. I planned for it. I took vitamins. I did everything right...didn't I?