This is my first journal but here goes, I am 28. I have three kids, 2 boys Daequar 9, Erik 7, and a daughter Rain 2. I just found out I was pregnant yesterday at work I kept adding up my numbers and 28 days past some days ago. I say this is bad timing because my husband and I are seperated. We still have sex but we don't live together. I am in nursing school and I am try ing to buy a house this summer. I am due either the end of Feb. or first week of March. I don't have any symptoms except every thing stink, and I am hungry
I made an appt. with my Dr it's on the 5, I'm not to sure how far I am it's either 5 or 6 weeks. I am just going through so much BS with my husband. I found out who the girl he is seeing and I told her to stop calling my phone well his phone leaving messages, because I am the only one with access to the voicemail. She told me to not call her house because I need to move on because my husband don't want me, and how they had sex last night. Then she goes into she know where I live and is coming to my house. I goes to my husband's job for and explanation. He says she's lying and he loves me and don't want a divorce. I know it's crap, he wants his cake and eat it to. So I think I am officially stressed to the max. This girl don't know how close she is to meeting her maker, but I just count to ten and thank god for the three blessing I already have and this one on the way.
Well my Dr. appt. was changed to the 12th because I have to start a new job tomorrow. Nothing is going on with me no pregnancy symptoms, I almost forgot I was pregnant. My husband want me to stop the divorce proceedings, but until he come back home that's not going to happen. So therfore he has until Sept. 7 to grow up oor be without a family. I'm not sad or anything I just want him to make up his mind. I guess I report if anything new happen.
Well i had my Dr appt I am due March 2, giving my track record with my babies that mean I will either deliver in January or Feb. Every thing looks good except my weight, Every time I get stressed I lose weight, so I went from 125 to 111, not good. The only symptoms I have is major gas. I have finnally cursed my MIL out. My husband is a huge mama's boy so whatever she says goes. Well she tells my husband since we're seperated the baby isn't his and I'm just lying to keep him and I should get an abortion. She also disrespects me every time she sees me, saying how my husband has this girl and that one how he is just using me for sex, how she is going to kidnap my daughter and this baby when it's born. So I just lost it and cursed her out. She has tried to get me committed in a hospital, and called protective services on me to take my children. So the cursing was well over due.
Well I just had my second appt something they call a profile appt where they ask a million and one questions. I also had my blood drawn yeah they only took 8 vials of blood. I asked my husband agin if he have any regrets about this pregnancy he says no but our divorce is still scheduled in 5 weeks. I just found out that I can't get any more money for school and I have to pay out of my pocket, so I have to buy a new house, pay for school, and dig out of the financial hole my husband left me in this summer is very eventful. My next appt isn't until 18th of Aug so I'll write more then.
I haven't been on here in a while. I am 21 weeks now, baby girl is doing fine. Thats right I am having a girl. I am so glad I don't think my husband would be a good influence on a boy. We are still seperated. We went to our divorce on sept 7 and he had the nerve to show up saying he loved me and he didn't want a divorce so we didn't get one. He was telling me how he loved me and wasn't with that girl until he got my daughter and I asked her where did she stay at and I fussed him out ant he has not had her since he doesn't even have the nerve to face me. I don't care I am through with him. I was listening to church last night and the pastor was saying how God sometimes takes people out of your life so that you can get to the place he wants you to be, and sometimes you may think it's bad tming for a baby but God placed that baby in your lif so that yu can focus on his plan for you. I know that's right because if I was with my husband right now then I would probably not reach my goals in becoming a nurse, but being pregnant with my fourth child and having to be on my own has made me want to work harder. Who knows maybe we'll get back together later, or maybe God has taken my husband out of my life so that the man he has planned for me may come in.
I just can't keep up with this journal. I am now 25 weeks. I am suspose to be on bed reat but I have to work. Baby is doing fine moving all the time. My doctor says that I will not carry this baby to term she says she will be happy if I get to 35 weeks because all my other kids came early and I've already started having contractions and my cervix has started softing and I am 1cm dilated so if thats the case I need to start buying things I wanted to wait until after christmas, so that I can get the other children taking care of. I can't wait to have this baby so that I can start working more hours, but I want her to be healthy. I havent decided on a name yet. I want something special and unique since this is my last child. My other daughter name is Rain so I need something that is different like that, my niece name is Envy and I think that is the cutest. I like Patience and Serenity but Serenity doen't go with Kelly.
Well I took the glucose test and I moved into the every two week visits. I am in more pain, I am not that big but the baby feels like she is falling out. I'm trying to finish up this semester of school, I have 1 week left. My teacher's husband passed away. So I have to get an incomplet for clinicals. I don't remember if I mentioned it but I am in nursing school, and I graduate in Aug. I was telling my mother the other day that I was going to call my job and tell them I want fulltime but yesterday I had to laugh because I could barely walk the school halls. I am a nursing assistant so I don't know where I am going to lift, pull, push or anything else. I am 28 wks and my girl will be here soon. I just came to peace with the fact that I am pregnant, I was so angry at my husband and my situation thinking it was all his fault for everything that was going on with me and that if I wasn't pregnant then things would be better, so I had to forgive him and ask God forgiveness for my sins so that I could grow and move on. Now I am okay with my husband being with his girlfriend, the way I figure he is no better off then I am. He is'nt working, he doesn't see his child, and he is miserable. I am only suffering financially, as soon as I have my baby and go back to work fulltime I will be fine.