I am relaxing in bed with my laptop right now while DH takes care of DD and the dogs. We switch off weekend mornings so we can each have a "morning off." I should probably get up soon though, because we have a huge amount of stuff to do. We have tons of stuff that we need to take to the storage unit, more packing/cleaning to do, and my brother is coming to do some paint touch-ups. Hopefully we can finish everything except for the cleaning this weekend. That's the plan, anyway. DH has some freelance work to do this weekend as well, which is great financially, but adds to the time crunch. Definitely not going to be a restful weekend, but hopefully a productive one. If we can just finish getting this house ready to go on the market, things will settle down a bit.
Still feeling really nauseous and exhausted. Starting to get impatient for my midwife appointment. I just want to be far enough along so we can start telling people, because it's getting harder and harder to pretend to be "normal." If I weren't so sick it wouldn't be a big deal, but it's hard to act like you're perfectly fine when you feel like this.
It's a little hard not to feel like my life is turning upside down when I'm sitting here on my couch... in my kitchen! Total chaos here today. New carpet being installed in the family room, so the family room furniture is all over the house, where you least expect it (hence the couch in the kitchen). We had a meeting with our real estate agent yesterday, and got almost everything that needs to go into storage, into storage, so we were able to start staging some rooms. Now I just have to deep clean them. Joy. And finish packing/decluttering the sewing room/laundry room. All while feeling absolutely awful with this pregnancy. At least we are getting closer to having this house ready to go on the market.
Can I just say that I'm feeling sad about it? I'm confident that this move is going to be good for our family, but I really love our house and I'm sad to leave it. We've lived here for five years and it's been such a good house for us. I know I'll miss it for a long time. Especially during the years that we're renovating the new house... because it will take years.
I called a friend last night to see if she could watch DD today, because I didn't want her here while the carpet was being installed (didn't think it was safe with the tacks and all the chaos). DH dropped her off on his way to work. She was very excited to go- my friend's son is her best buddy- they were born exactly one month apart and have "played" together since they were born. They love each other- it's really sweet! So I know she will have a good day, but I always miss her when she's not here- even when I'm grateful for the break at the same time!
Well, I need to get off the computer and go do laundry, or clean, or find something productive to do. I'm hoping the nausea will give me a break today so I can make some progress on this house. We set the goal of putting it on the market Feb. 1st. DH would love to get it on sooner, but our real estate agent and I didn't think that was feasible, considering how sick I am. So if I can just hang on until Feb 1st, the worst will be over. I will just have to maintain a clean house, rather than packing up 3/4 of what we own and deep cleaning the house from top to bottom. Maintaining should be a piece of cake after all that we have been doing. Not to mention that under normal circumstances I do keep a clean house, so it shouldn't be much out of the way of my daily routine. Fingers crossed that this house sells quickly!
I guess one up side to all the chaos is that it gives me something else to focus on, besides how sick I'm feeling and how slowly time is passing! My first midwife appointment is one week from tomorrow! I'm excited to meet my midwife- I've heard a lot about her from friends. I'm excited to get my prenatal care started and have an "official" due date and all that. I need to remember to bring my chart with me. I'm hoping they'll agree to date the pregnancy from when I O'd, rather than LMP. I've never had a 28 day cycle- it's always longer, and this one was no exception. I think I O'd on CD17, if I remember right. Hopefully that won't be a problem. They don't do a dating ultrasound. I'm starting to feel like I'm ready to tell people, but I really do want to wait at least until this appointment, if not later. We originally said we'd wait until we heard the heartbeat, but with me being this sick, I don't know if that will be feasible. I doubt that we'll hear the heartbeat at this appointment, but I might ask anyway, depending on when my next appointment would be. I know I probably won't be far enough along to hear it, so I'm not going to panic if we don't, but maybe she'll be willing to give it a shot. :-)
I'm currently lying on the bed in the guest room trying to get some rest. DD has a runny nose and some congestion which caused her to be up a couple of times in the night. Plus I slept in here last night because we had our bedroom ceiling painted yesterday morning and the paint smell makes me gag. So I'm feeling pretty tired this morning. DD gave me a much earlier wake up call than I was hoping for.
I was so sick yesterday that I didn't get anything done around the house. This is bad news since we have one week until it's going on the market. Eeek!
We're supposed to be going out with some friends tonight. I will probably end up telling them that we're expecting since we're going out for drinks and I will obviously not be having any. They are some of our closest friends, and I know they will keep the secret, so it's not a big deal. I'm looking forward to some "grown up" time (we're getting sitters), but I hope I feel well enough to enjoy it.
The countdown to my first midwife appointment has begun! Just four more days! Although we're supposed to get snow, so there's a possibility it could get canceled. This city closes down at the mere mention of snow. It is totally ridiculous to me, but I grew up in the north where snow is a normal occurance. I have lived here for almost eleven years now, and this is the snowiest winter we've had in that time. Pretty crazy. I will say that yesterday, even though we only had about an inch on the ground, it was legitimate that they closed the schools, because the black ice was really bad. I mean REALLY bad. Every road was pretty much covered with it.
Well, I'm going to try to sleep for a bit. I'm feeling unbearably nauseous, so I don't know if I'll be able to fall asleep, but I am definitely going to try! How many ways can I say I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE SECOND TRIMESTER?!?!?!?!
I'm REALLY struggling with the morning sickness. This weekend was horrible. Today I don't know how I'm going to do everything I need to do. It's 10:30 and I'll I've managed to do is feed DD, choke down some dry cereal and my zofran, and take a shower. The shower almost did me in. I need to go to the grocery store and I have to get some packing/cleaning done! The house has to be finished by Thursday- that's when the photographer is coming. I don't know what I'm going to do.
I can barely get out of bed- I probably spend at least half the day lying down. Caitrin and I are both congested and have a cough. Caitrin's nose is running and she is completely disgusting, despite the fact that she just had a bath! I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know how I'm going to get through this week with everything that has to happen. I am not physically able to do it, but it still has to happen somehow. I'm starting to get really stressed out. All I want to do is lie down and not have to worry about all of this other stuff. If I can just make it to Feb. 1st things should get better. That's only a week away, but it feels like an eternity.
I do not have words to express how awful I'm feeling. Add to that the stress of having only two days to get the house ready, and I don't know how I'm going to make it. I think DD and I are both getting a cold. I've been up with her since 3:45am. I barely have the energy to sit up, let alone clean my house from top to bottom. Fingers crossed that she takes a great nap today so that I can take a nap. Two days ago she didn't nap at all, and yesterday she only took a short nap. I think it's because of the congestion.
Yesterday I called one of my best friends completely panicking and freaking out. At first the fact that I was crying freaked DD out, then she wiped my tears away and tucked me in with her doll blankets. It was pretty much the sweetest thing ever. It calmed me down to talk to my friend. She and possibly another friend are going to come over tomorrow evening and help us finish up the cleaning. I am so thankful for the help! Normally I would feel bad and not be able to accept it, but I'm so desperate right now I know I wouldn't be able to get it done without them.
I'm supposed to have my first midwife appointment tomorrow, but I don't know if it will happen. It's been raining all night/morning, and it's supposed to freeze and start snowing later, and snow all night, so it might get canceled. This city is not equipped to deal with even the smallest amount of ice/snow, so pretty much the entire city shuts down if we get a single flake. We'll just have to wait and see what happens. I really hope that it holds off- I really need DD to be able to go to mother's day out tomorrow, and I'd really like to be able to go to my appointment! If it could just hold off until tomorrow afternoon, that would be great. After that, I don't care.
My first appointment was today! My midwife is great- I really liked her. I swear they took about a 1/2 gallon of blood for labs... hate that part. I didn't think she'd even try to find the heartbeat with the doppler since I'm only 9 weeks, but she did! It was in the 160's, same as Catie's at that gestational age. So that was exciting. She also scheduled me for a dating ultrasound tomorrow, since I have longer cycles she doesn't want to just go by LMP to get a due date. So tomorrow we get to see the little bean!
In other news, soooooo unbearably sick. This is absolutely brutal. I'm going to bed now because a) I'm exhausted from being up the last several nights with DD, and b) the nausea is so bad I don't know what else to do.
So I finally get a good chance to sleep and I wake up at the crack of dawn! What is that about?! DD finally slept better last night- I think propping her up on pillows helped. I only heard her cough once, and it only lasted a second, instead of going on and on and waking her up. So yay for that!
Ultrasound is today! I'm looking forward to seeing the little bean, but not as much as I thought I would be. I don't really like the process of the vaginal ultrasound... I found it really not pleasant with DD... and there's just not that much to see at the moment. Hearing the heartbeat yesterday would have been sufficient for me. It will still be neat to see what's going on in there, though. And to calm my fears about having twins- lol! I also don't like the spotting after the ultrasound. I know it's normal, but it makes me nervous.
I will definitely update once I get back. My appointment is at 11.
Ultrasound went well. Heartbeat was 160 again. Baby was very wiggly! It was cool to see her/him moving around- waving arms and legs. Everything looks good. Ultrasound tech was really nice. The ultrasound put my due date at 8/28. I'd really prefer to keep my due date at 8/31, so I'll talk to my midwife about it the next time I see her... which isn't until March, but it's not like it's going to matter in the meantime. Photographer comes tomorrow to take pictures of the house, house goes on the market Feb. 1st. Pretty soon phase 1 of the craziness will be over and we'll be on to phase 2. Fingers crossed that the house sells quickly. Here's an ultrasound picture:
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Well, it is done. The photographer came and took the pictures of our house, so it can officially go on the market once he gets them to our realtor. I have never been so exhausted in my entire life. I totally overdid it today finishing up all the cleaning/preparations, I am feeling sooooooo nauseous now. I think we're going out to eat with friends, because the only food that sounds appealing to me right now is a burrito (I know, weird), and there's a little burrito place that we all like to go to, so we're making it a Friday evening outing. Just hoping I can last long enough to get there and get some food into me. I had a snack, but I'm still feeling just awful.
This whole our-house-is-going-to-be-on-the-market-in-a-few-days thing is kind of freaking me out. I really, really love this house and I'm going to miss it. It's so strange to me to think that I won't be bringing this baby home to this house. Unless things go really badly and we still haven't sold the house by then. I'm excited for the what the new house will eventually be, but not really excited for what it is now... it needs a lot of work. But the great neighborhood/school district and the extra space will be worth it. It's definitely a great place to raise kids, and the layout of the house will work better with small children.
I wish I had something more to post about the pregnancy, but other than feeling completely wretched, there's not a whole lot to say. Can't wait to start feeling movement! I wonder if it will happen as early as it did with Catie. If this baby keeps moving as much as we saw it moving yesterday, I wouldn't be surprised. I was on the phone with my mom yesterday, telling her about my doctor's appointment and the ultrasound, and she was saying that she's been praying for a mellower baby this time, but she thinks it's going to be another wild child. Thanks, Mom. Oh well, I love my strong-willed little girl, and being strong-willed myself, I know how to deal with it. But I really love to have an easier infant experience this time around.
Okay, kind of freaking out right now. Just got a call from my midwife to say that I have Group B Strep in my urine, apparently. This means that I'm considered GBS+ for my entire pregnancy. I have to take antibiotics now, and be monitored for it throughout my pregnancy. I was GBS+ when I had DD, but that was at 37 weeks. Apparently this means that I am "heavily colonized" and there are a lot more risks involved. I'm really scared. As soon as I calm down enough to talk without crying I'm going to call my FIL (he's an OB) and ask him about it. I just kind of froze on the phone with my midwife, so I didn't ask her any questions. Then I googled it and got completely freaked out by the information. My FIL will be able to tell me if I really need to be worried or not. I hate this. There is enough stressful stuff in my life right now before this. I had actually been relaxed and enjoying this pregnancy (well, not the nausea, but other than that) and now I'm panicking. I need to remember that God is just as much in control of the situation now as He was an hour ago before I got the phone call. This baby is still in His hands- that hasn't changed and it's not going to change. I need to calm down.