It's a dreary, rainy day here today. But I like an occasional rainy day. Especially when I don't have to go anywhere. And I definitely won't be going anywhere today, since DH's car is still in the shop, and DH took my car to work. We were supposed to get the car back on Tuesday afternoon. This is starting to get old. Fortunately, I'm a stay at home mom, so it's not too big of a deal, just an annoyance.
Today is the rainy kind of day that would usually get me in the mood to work on something crafty... crocheting, scrapbooking, etc. Only problem... all of my stuff is in the storage unit! Aaaahhhh! I'm really ready to get my stuff back. Or to at least know when I'll be getting my stuff back. Well, hopefully only about another week or so of limbo and then we'll know for sure, one way or the other.
I'm thinking about making some cupcakes today, if I can find the energy. I've been craving this awesome recipe I have for chocolate cupcakes with peanut butter frosting (sooooooo good) but so far I haven't felt well enough/had enough energy to attempt baking. Which is sad, because I love to bake and I usually do a lot of it. But I've been so sick with this pregnancy that I've only made dinner two or three times since Christmas, let alone bake anything just for fun.
I'm 13 weeks and one day, so this is my last week in the first trimester. So here's hoping that I feel better soon. Something has got to give here... life has been too miserable for too long. I really need to be able to take care of my family again. And I'm ready to actually enjoy this pregnancy. The nausea/vomiting has been too overwhelming to do anything other than just survive so far. I can't wait to feel this little one move and start to feel a connection with him/her.
So when I first got pregnant, I was totally convinced that this baby was a girl. Now I'm convinced it's a boy. I'm sure I will change my mind multiple times before the 20 week ultrasound. It's so weird to think about. With DD, I tried to tell myself I was having a boy because I really wanted a girl and I didn't want to be disappointed, but even though I tried to convince myself, I was pretty much 100% sure she was a girl, the whole time. So it's weird to be swinging back and forth so much this time. But right now I really think it's a boy. If I could choose, I'd like to have another girl, but obviously we'll be happy either way. I think it would be really fun to have to two girls, but I'm feeling more and more okay about having a boy (it used to scare me). I am happy that I have at least one girl, though. I was terrified of having all boys! Lol! Anyway, I'm looking forward to finding out. The first half of pregnancy is so miserable for me that I have to have that to look forward to, to help get me through. Maybe I'll throw a party like I did last time. After my 20 week ultrasound, I was so happy that I had survived the first half of the pregnancy, and that I had FINALLY stopped barfing, that I threw a party. We had a barbecue and invited our close friends and my brother. We told them we were having a girl at the party. It was fun. If the nausea has cleared up by then (please, please, please) then I will probably do the same thing this time. It's weird to think that I don't know where we'll be living then. We could still be here (permanently), or we could be in the new house. I would really love to know. I'm trying to be patient.
Last night was... eventful. Big storm, tornado sirens going off, DH getting both DD and I out of bed to hide in the "safe place" while the worst of it went over, more tornado sirens, crazy strong winds, epic sinus headache... ugh. I'm tired today! And DD is resisting going down for her nap. Although I shouldn't complain- she's been a champ all morning while I've been super barfy, and even though she's not asleep, she's currently playing quietly in her crib. I am in bed, even though I really need to shower and do about a million other things.
The morning sickness is bad today. I'm so ready for this part to be over. I know I've said that a hundred times, but the nausea started before I was even far enough along to test, and now I'm just over 13 weeks. That is a long time to be puking!!! At least with DD it didn't start until I was 6 weeks. This time, I was begging my father-in-law for medication at 6 weeks because I couldn't make it another three to my first midwife appointment. Anyway, I'll stop whining now.
Not much going on here today. Our car is STILL in the shop, so once again I am stuck at home. Yesterday I didn't mind because it was rainy and gross out, but today I have a couple of errands that I'd really love to be able to take care of. Oh well. This is the third extra day that they've kept it. We were supposed to get it back on Tuesday. What. The. Heck. This is not how to run a business, people.
I'm really hoping that at some point this journal will be more exciting than just me complaining about being sick. I'm really, really hoping that this pregnancy is going to have some enjoyable parts. But, it's nice to have an outlet where I can complain about it. I don't like to whine to DH, since he has to put up with me being completely useless around the house, and I try not to complain nonstop to my friends... although I'm sure they've heard more than enough about my barfiness at this point! I'm hoping for better things soon. I'm really, really hoping that it doesn't last as long as it did with DD. I'm really hoping that by next week I'll start feel better. Oh please oh please oh please!
Today is an odd day. We have a big line of storms moving in. Hoping for no tornadoes... we had two touch down in the area just the other day. So far the storms haven't been bad- at least not here. I checked the radar and they seem to be going around our neighborhood, although most of the area is getting hit pretty hard.
DD was up from about 4am to 7am... no idea why. She's been off her regular sleep schedule lately. I think it might be due to a growth spurt. Anyway, even though she was awake she was happy, so I didn't go into her room. I listened to her talking to herself for awhile to make sure that she wasn't taking her diaper off (she gives herself away by talking about going potty while she does it) then I decided to go back to bed. She went back to sleep around 7, and is still asleep! This is so weird... she's never done this before. She is normally a creature of habit and loves routine. I figure I'll just consider this an early nap and assume that she'll be up for the rest of the day when she finally wakes up. We have to go to the store later anyway, so maybe it will work out better this way. I'm enjoying having a leisurely morning. I got up and got a few things done, then got back into bed.
While I've been lying here, I felt the baby move twice! It was the strongest, most definite movement I've felt so far- definitely no mistaking it for something else! That was really cool. I hope I start feeling it more often. It's pretty much the only part of pregnancy that I enjoy!
Yesterday I had a slightly better day as far as morning sickness goes. I actually felt well enough to go to church, for the first time in weeks! I was so excited to do something that felt normal. We went out to lunch afterward and I actually enjoyed eating! That was also exciting. When we got home, the morning sickness kicked back in and I had to lie down for awhile, but I was really happy that I had half of a normal day. I'll be 14 weeks on Wednesday, so here's hoping that the morning sickness is almost at an end! Please, please, please!!!!
I'm feeling soooo barfy right now . It's been a rough day morning sickness-wise. Ugh. So tired of this part. I keep hoping I'll feel the baby move again today to cheer me up, but not so far.
The appraisal on our house was this morning (just found out last night... not a lot of advance notice). So that is DONE. Finally. Now we get to wait days and days and days to find out the result. And we only have 17 days until the closing. But, I am SO happy to know that the end is in sight. Whether we move or not, we will have an answer by next week at the absolute latest. YAY!!!! I am trying so hard to stay focused on God's will for our family. Because that is really what I want. Through this whole process, I have tried to be focused on seeking God's will, not a particular outcome. So I am trying to stay true to that here in the homestretch. So I am praying for a clear answer, whether it be yes or no. I'm hoping that the appraisal either comes back with a great number, or one that's so ridiculously low that it's not worth negotiating. I'm hoping that they won't come back with a number that's off by just a few thousand, so that we have to go down the negotiation road again. I just want a solid yes or no. So here's hoping.
DD has been such a character today. We've had a lot of fun playing, and she has just been cracking me up. Hopefully she keeps it up and is just as good after she gets up from nap. I could use a day without temper tantrums or crankiness. Not that she's usually cranky or anything, she's just... two. Anyone who has ever had a two-year-old will understand.
I'm starting to get excited to find out if we're having a boy or a girl. Finding out makes it so much more real to me and helps me bond with the baby. Prior to finding out, I have a hard time making a connection with the baby. Most of the time I don't necessarily feel like there's a baby in there... I just feel like I have a never ending stomach virus. So I'm excited to start feeling like there's a little person who I can get to know. It's so different being pregnant the second time around. There are just so many more distractions that I'm not focused on the baby as much as I was the first time. I think this is both good and bad. Part of me feels guilty because I don't want this baby to have less, in any way, than DD. Part of me is grateful, because anything that makes time go by more quickly helps me to deal with the debilitating morning sickness. Like anything, there are pros and cons I guess. I am thankful not to be working during this pregnancy. I don't think I could have done it like I did with DD- the morning sickness has been so much worse. It's been really hard to take care of DD, but at least I can lie down while she naps, and stuff like that. Well, I am starting to feel REALLY sick, so I'm going to sign off and see if I can find a position that helps me feel less nauseous.
Still no news on the real estate situation, which I'm not really surprised about. I figured that the absolute earliest we'd hear would be tomorrow, but more likely Monday or Tuesday. I'm just dreading opening that email not knowing what it holds. Maybe I'll just stop checking my email for a couple days and let DH call me when there's news.
I'm having some nice time to myself today, which is heavenly. One of my best friends (who is a saint) took DD for the day, which is amazing. Not that I don't enjoy DD, but sometimes it's fun to feel like a grown up again for a little bit, instead of being in two-year-old land, you know? When I took DD over to my friend's house, I stayed for a bit chatting with my friend. Also she had me look through her maternity clothes and take whatever wanted, so I'm pretty excited about that. It's nice to have some new stuff to wear, instead of the tired old things that I practically wore out when I was pregnant with DD. Anyway, DD and my friend's son were running around having a ball while I was looking through the clothes. When I was ready to leave, I asked DD for a hug and a kiss and asked if she wanted to stay and play while Mommy ran errands. Her response was to take me by the hand, lead me to the front door while saying, "bye bye Mommy!" escort me out the door, and shut it behind me! My friend and I were totally cracked up! I guess she was pretty excited for her play date! Lol!
After I dropped DD off, I came home and showered, then called DH to see if he was free to have lunch with me. He was, so I got dressed, picked him up at his office, and we had lunch. I dropped him back off and then went to Old Navy and used a gift card that I'd gotten for Christmas. Then I came back home, chatted with my next door neighbor for a bit, and now I'm in bed. I should really be trying to sleep since I didn't sleep well last night (long story) but the laptop is too tempting . Anyway, it's been really nice to have some time to myself today.
It's a rainy Saturday. I don't mind the rain, but I'm not happy about the colder weather that's coming with it. Hopefully it won't last too long.
Still no news about the house. We're down to less than two weeks before we're supposed to close. It would be great to know something soon.
I've been REALLY barfy the last few days. Even with the medication. That reminds me- I have to call my FIL and get another prescription since I'm on my last refill. I was really hoping that by the time the refills ran out I'd be feeling better, but I can't say I'm surprised that it's looking like it will take longer.
We have friends coming over for dinner tonight. They're going to be moving out of state in about a month, so we've been trying to get together before they leave. I wish they weren't moving! Sad!
Yesterday I went to one of the two consignment sales that I go to twice a year (they have them in the spring and fall). I got some cute clothes for DD for summer. She's obsessed with one of the dresses I got- she's been wearing it ever since. She enjoyed trying on the clothes when we got home (complete with a twirl) and got very excited to pick out a pair of shoes to go with the dress she likes. It was cute. The next sale, which is the biggest and my favorite one, is April 8th and 9th. I'm seriously going to try to convince my midwife to schedule my big ultrasound a few days early so that I'll know the sex of the baby a few days before the sale instead of a few days after! It sounds kind of silly to schedule the ultrasound around a consignment sale, but that's where I get pretty much everything, and the fall ones won't be until after the baby's born. So it would be really great to know what we're having. If it's a girl, we don't need much, but if it's a boy I'd definitely pick up some clothes, and maybe some crib bedding. They have the best stuff at these sales, and it's super cheap.
My mom is coming to visit on Tuesday, so I'm excited about that. She's going to help my brother with some stuff for his new house (sewing curtains, etc.) and watch DD so that I can get some rest (or pack, depending on whether or not we're moving). She's coming on Tuesday and leaving the following Tuesday, so it will be a good visit. Also my next midwife appointment is on Wednesday, and I think we'll schedule the ultrasound then, so that's exciting. For now, I'd better get off the computer and get something to eat and take a shower while the munchkin is napping.
I know I've said this a million times, but I'm so, so tired of being nauseous all the time. I'm over 14 weeks... hopefully it will end soon. I really need to be able to function somewhat normally again. This has been really hard. If we hadn't already decided that this would be our last child, I would be deciding it now. I even told DH that if, God forbid, something went wrong with this pregnancy, that I would not be doing it again. DD could be an only child or we could adopt. He actually agreed with me, which was surprising. It's just not feasible for us to do this again. Maybe if we had family who lived close by who could help with DD, but as it is, it's just not going to happen. I can't be this sick for this long again. I feel so guilty for not being able to take care of the child I already I have. I can't cook and clean and take care of my family and house. I can barely get the grocery shopping done, and I can barely drive anywhere without getting severely sick. There have been days when I can't even keep water down. I need this to stop.
Last night we had a nice time with our friends. I wish they weren't moving so far away! DH made his homemade pizza, which I usually think is delicious, but I've been totally nauseated by during this pregnancy. But last night I was actually able to eat it, so that was exciting.
The storm moved through and now it's really cold out. Well, not REALLY cold, but cold enough compared to the 70 degrees that we had two days ago. Once the temperature hits 70, I don't want it to get cold again! I think weather in the 70's is perfect. I wish it lasted longer here, but it always seems to go from cold straight to 98 degrees. Yuck.
DD is being pretty cute this morning. I'm enjoying watching her play. And she's still wearing the dress I got her at the consignment sale. As soon as I got her up this morning she started asking for "pink dress." She's probably not going to happy with me when I change her clothes for church, but it's way to cold for her to wear this particular dress today.
Of course it's waaaaaay too early to tell, but right now I'm thinking that this baby is more laid back than DD. I've felt a few flutters, but they're very few and far between (which of course is normal for this stage... it would be normal if I hadn't felt anything yet). With DD I started feeling her move so early, and then continued feeling her fairly frequently. By the time I was 18-20 weeks, when most first time moms are starting to feel movement, she was kicking so hard that you could see it through my belly. And she never stopped moving- still hasn't. I keep getting nervous that I haven't felt this one move more frequently. I have to keep reminding myself that a. it's still really early to feel any movement at all, and b. this is a different child with a different personality!
Once again, I am so, so nauseous today. I need to call my FIL and get another prescription for zofran- I'm out of refills and only have one pill left. I'll be fifteen weeks the day after tomorrow- I was really hoping I'd be feeling better by now. Now I'm just hoping that it goes away in the 17-18 week range like it did with DD. I'm terrified that it will last the whole pregnancy. I know I'd get through it somehow because really... what choice do I have?! But it just doesn't seem possible right now. I'm just worn out from all the nausea, and DD has been getting up at 4am (!!!!) for about the last week. I'm totally exhausted. Thank God my mom comes tomorrow! That reminds me... I want to call her and see if she can bring me a bagel. I miss NY food! Bagels down here are completely disgusting. It's like they're not even the same food.
I'm supposed to be packing right now, but I'm feeling sooooo barfy, so I'm taking a break. DD is refusing to nap, which is not making things any easier.
I had my second prenatal appointment today! That was exciting! It was quick- I was only there for about 20 minutes or so. The heartbeat was good and strong and the little one was moving around like crazy- she had to chase him/her around with the doppler, and the baby kept kicking it . She went over my lab results, and apparently I am super healthy (apart from already testing positive for group B strep). She talked about how some of my labs were way above what they consider to be good, but it was medical jargon, so I really have no idea what she was talking about specifically... lol! My next prenatal appointment is in five weeks- April 13th. And we scheduled the big ultrasound! Woohoo!!! I asked if we could do it a few days early and she said that was no problem, so that was exciting! April 6th is the big day . Can't wait! I'll find out what we're having two days before the big consignment sale, so that will be very helpful, and our budget will appreciate it!
In other news, my mom got here safe. She is at my brother's house right now, measuring so she can start making curtains. DD is having a wonderful time with Grandma, plus Uncle Pete came to dinner last night, which she was super excited about. I'm pretty sure she has a crush on Uncle Pete- lol!
Well, I guess I'd better get back to work... ugh. Packing/cleaning/moving while pregnant (at least at this stage of the pregnancy) is the WORST!!! But I stop complaining. I'm very happy that we finally have an answer on whether or not we're moving, and I'm happy that it's happening quickly so that it will be DONE! Lol!
Sooooooo the real estate soap opera continues. It's a long story, but basically, because the sellers of the house we're buying haven't gotten us some documents that they are contractually bound to give us, everyone is having to scramble around and try to get the underwriter of our loan stuff that they need in order for the loan to go through... and of course the deadline is quickly approaching. I don't know what will happen if we have to push back the closing date, because the buyers of our house need to move in immediately. I am trying really hard not to think about it so that I don't get stressed out. God has seen us through every detail of this thing so far, and I know He will see us through to the end. It's in His hands. It's fine. But I can't wait until I get the email saying that it's all been taken care of!
In the meantime, we are packing like crazy. I hate living with the house torn up and boxes everywhere. That's one of the reasons why I'm actually glad that this move is happening in a really short amount of time- everything will be in chaos for a minimum amount of time.
I was packing, taping up boxes, and moving them to another room, and I'm pretty sure I had a couple of contractions, so I'm sitting down and taking it easy for a bit. I guess I was overdoing it. Oops. It was only one or two, and everything's been fine since I sat down, so I'm not worried.
This pregnancy has felt like an eternity (mostly because of the morning sickness) and now I feel like I suddenly turned around and I'm fifteen weeks and I'm wondering how that happened! Lol! My belly has definitely had a growth spurt in the last week or so. Part of me is glad to make progress and get out of that awkward stage when no clothes fit, and another part of me isn't happy that I'm getting bigger so much faster than I did last time! I expected it, especially since I haven't been able to go to the gym, but that doesn't mean I have to like it!
I had another crazy pregnancy dream last night. I don't remember all the details- I should have written it down sooner. It was something about the ultrasound. Apparently I had it, and the nurse/tech was going to tell me the sex of the baby afterward, and then made a big deal about being about to reveal it... only to tell me that she didn't know, that they hadn't been able to get a good shot to tell. I was so pissed and I got into a fight with the lady (verbal, not physical...lol!) So eventually I guess they let me have another ultrasound, and we saw that it was a girl! We could also see that from the profile shot that she had my nose, which I thought was funny. In real life, I could tell from the profile shot that DD was going to look like DH... and boy does she! So that would be cool if it was true... that we have a girl and she looks a bit like me- not that I get into a fight with the ultrasound tech! Haha! It's not that I don't like the way DD looks, it would just be nice to have a child who people actually believes belongs to me. People always think that DD belongs to my friend, and that she and my friend's son are twins! Too funny. We go to the same YMCA, and I swear every time I drop DD off in the nursery, one of the workers asks how my friend and I related, because DD looks so much like her and her son!