I am so, so nauseous today. Fighting to keep anything down. The constant nausea has really worn me out. I'm over 15 weeks at this point, for crying out loud! I'm just praying that it doesn't last the whole pregnancy. I know that I'll get through it somehow if it does, but I get very overwhelmed by the idea of it. As if having a baby isn't overwhelming enough all by itself! I just really hope it gets better soon. I'm really struggling here.
We got to go through the new house yesterday with the contractor so we could get some quotes on different repairs/renovations. I was really excited to go out to the house, because I haven't been in it since the second time we looked at, right before we made the offer, and that was before Christmas! I really wanted to walk around it one more time and get a feel for it and the size of the rooms, etc. before we moved in. The kids' bedrooms aren't huge (but they're a decent size), but other than that most of the rooms are huge. The kitchen is a good size, but the space isn't used well, so there's not much counter space. But, it's fine for now and we will renovate it in a few years. I hope all the details work out and we can close on time and that the whole moving thing goes smoothly.
Packing is going well- there's not too much left to do, thank goodness. The fact that we got rid of huge amounts of stuff and put a lot of stuff in storage before we put the house on the market has been a tremendous help. I think that by the end of this weekend we'll probably have packed just about everything except for the last minute stuff. Obviously we have to leave out some dishes, clothes, etc. because we're still living here for another six days, but we're trying to only leave out the essentials.
I've been feeling some fluttery feelings the last two days that could be the baby. I'm just going to assume they are- it makes me feel better to think that I'm feeling something related to this pregnancy that ISN'T nausea!
I'm having another barfy morning. I hope my stomach settles soon so that I can get some stuff done. I'll be 16 weeks tomorrow... this needs to stop!
My mom leaves today . But my FIL and his wife (they've been married less than a year so I don't know what to call her... she's not my MIL and she's not really DH's stepmom... you get the idea) are coming to help, so that will be wonderful. I'm so grateful for all of our family helping out, especially since none of them live close by!
I am so tired of packing. I don't want to pack anything else. I can't believe that there still is anything left to pack. How can we possibly have this much stuff? We're down to the odds and ends that are awkward to pack. I swear I'm never moving again after this! Lol! Or if I do, I'm selling/giving away everything I own so there's nothing to pack, and then just starting over at the new house!
I'm at the point where I don't know how I'm going to get through the next few days. I need to stop thinking about the big picture and just think about what I need to do right now, so I don't get so overwhelmed. I seriously can't believe it's only Tuesday. I think time has slowed down to a crawl.
I barely have time to remember that I'm pregnant, except when I'm throwing up. I know that things will still be crazy after we move, because we'll be fixing up the house, but I think it will be easier than what we're going through now. In one sense, it's been a good distraction, otherwise I'd be sooooo impatient to find out what we're having, etc. But we've been dealing with this the entire time I've been pregnant, and I'm so ready to just be able to lie on the couch and rest, and not worry about whether or not the house is perfectly clean for showings, or having to pack the dogs and DD into the car and drive around while I feel super barfy because someone is looking at the house, or doing an inspection, or whatever. I just want to exist without a million other worries for a few days. I've done pretty well being laid back about things and not worrying, especially for me since I tend to be a worrier by nature, but moving is stressful on anyone. I really want to feel settled again. Then I can start thinking about fun things, like how I want to decorate the nursery, and how I want to do DD's "big girl" bed, and stuff like that. I'm ready for the nausea and stress to be done, and to really start enjoying this pregnancy, and maybe even being able to focus on it a little bit!
I am having a horrible time getting motivated to do anything today. I've taken care of DD and the dogs, and I took a shower, but that's pretty much it. I'm so nauseous I don't want to move. I'm 16 weeks today, which on one hand is exciting, and on the other, I'm finding it depressing because I'm still sick to my stomach all the time. I'm starting to get depressed/discouraged thinking that it isn't going to get better. I'm trying to remind myself that I was between 17 and 18 weeks with DD when it finally got better, so there's still hope that it could be the same this time. And if so, there's not much longer. I'm sure that being really tired and dealing with the move isn't helping anything. My big ultrasound is only 3 weeks from today! That's exciting! I can't wait to find out what we're having!
We did finally hear from the underwriter yesterday afternoon that the survey cleared up the problem and everything is set for the closing on Friday, so that's definitely good news, and not a moment too soon! Our real estate agent came by yesterday to put a "sold" sign on our house, so that's kind of making it feel official! The only bad news is that the sellers of the new house are not cooperating and doing the things that they agreed to do in the contract. The phone line is still down in the backyard (all they have to do is make a phone call to have the company come fix it... not exactly difficult, and it doesn't cost them anything), and their stuff is still in the house. So freaking annoying! We close in less than 48 hours. Our real estate agent has done pretty much everything she can do, so I don't know what will happen. It's really frustrating. But, one way or another, we will be closing on Friday morning, so that's a relief. I can't wait to be settled again!
Amazingly, in spite of all the obstacles, everything has worked out/gotten done and we are closing in two hours! My alarm went off at 6am... it was still dark out. Actually, it's 6:30 now and the sun has still not made its appearance. I'm SO tired. I slept horribly last night. Probably all the anticipation. I'll be so glad to have this move finished, but I'm sad to leave this house that we loved so much, and I'm a little sad to go from a nicely renovated house to... well... 1973. But, it will be an adventure and we'll get to do everything the way we want it. We got some good news last night. I think we're going to walk away from the sale of our house with more money in our pocket than we were expecting, so that will help tremendously with the repairs/updates we need to get started on in the new house. Not to mention that we have to immediately buy a new washer, dryer, dishwasher, and microwave. I see it as God's provision for us, and a huge blessing. So grateful. Now if I can just keep my eyes open today I'll be doing well. We have the duct cleaners coming to the new house at 7am, dropping Catie off at a friend's (who is watching her for the day) at 8, getting to the closing at 8:30, the movers are coming between 10 and 12, and the invisible fence guy (for the dogs) is coming to the new house at 11:30. Pretty crazy, but we will somehow get through it!
There's a weird feeling that I always get when I have to wake up super early (i.e. when it's still dark out) for a big event of some sort. It's kind of like excitement and anticipation trying to make its way through the extreme sleepiness. And mixed in with that is this feeling that it's going to be a different kind of day... that something big is happening. I used to get it the morning of horse shows back when I competed, or any time we take a big trip. I don't really know how to explain it, but I definitely have it this morning.
In the midst of all this, I've felt the baby move a couple of times. I really hope he/she is kind to me today in regards to the nausea! I am going to be one tired mommy at the end of today!
Note to self- I have to remember to write about Catie's Snow White costume, but I don't have time right now.
It took a week due to AT&T messing something up, but we finally have internet again! Yay! We are more or less settled in the new house... at least as much as we can be when you consider that we haven't been able to unpack the majority of our stuff because we're starting renovations. But our clothes are unpacked, Catie's toys are unpacked, and the kitchen is unpacked, so that's enough for now. I'm really excited for the renovations getting underway. The painting has started, and the contractor is starting on Tuesday. It should only be about three or four weeks of chaos, then everything will be done (for now) and we'll start saving up for the next round of renovations. I am anxiously looking forward to being able to do laundry again! But I did as much as I could before we left the old house, so we can get by for awhile. I was going to do a load over at my friend's house, but a bird started building a nest in her dryer vent, so it's obviously not functional at the moment.
I've been feeling the baby move more over the last couple of days. Last weekend I was worried because I hadn't feel the baby move, but I told DH that he/she had probably been moving plenty, and I was just too distracted with the move to notice. But the last few days things have calmed down and I've been feeling it more. This baby is so much more gentle than Catie was! Catie just walloped me through the entire pregnancy! Only 11 more days until find out what we're having! I can't wait to be able to stick with one pronoun instead of the he/she thing! Lol! If I could choose, I would have another girl, but I know that this is exactly the child God wants to put in our lives, so I'm thankful for whoever they are, girl or boy. I'm just ready to know. I have a hard time connecting to the baby in the early stages of pregnancy, and finding out the sex really helps me to start feeling like there really is a little person in there!
More good news- the morning sickness is FINALLY dying down. I'm 17 weeks 3 days. So a few days earlier than with Caitrin. But it started earlier and was more intense than my first pregnancy. I still have some bad moments, but it's not all day every day like it was. Thank goodness. I was getting to the breaking point with it. It's hard to be that sick for that long. I know some women have it for the entire pregnancy... I don't know how they do it. I was starting to panic thinking that would happen to me this time!
Yesterday I was nauseous, but not as badly as I have been. I'm still a little nauseous this morning, but not terrible. I'm just thankful it's not all the time any more like it was.
We had a fun time last night. We went to our friends house and had dinner and played games. I had a hard time staying awake, though! We had dinner at 6, then let the kids play for awhile before we put them to bed, so we didn't start playing a game until almost 9. Considering that I've been going to bed at the same time as DD (between 7 and 7:30) that was already staying up late for me! We got home at about 11 and I fell into bed and immediately passed out!
I hope I feel the baby move some today. It's starting to get more regular, but not necessarily every day. But, because it's starting to be more regular, I tend to get worried when I don't feel it. Only ten more days until the big ultrasound! Woohoo!
Only eight days until the ultrasound! And today's almost over, so really about seven days! So excited! I'm feeling the baby move a bit pretty much every day now. I have to really pay attention, though. This one is so much daintier and gentler than Caitrin was! Lol!
Today was a busy day. All the plastic got taken down from the room that was painted and the furniture moved back in there. We moved the furniture out of the next couple of rooms that will be worked on, the contractor got his workers started, they delivered the dumpster for the construction, they delivered DH's new lawnmower, the dishwasher repairman came, the AT&T guy came to bury the cable they left strewn across our backyard, the window guy came to give us a quote, and the heating guy came to check out a problem we've been having with our system. I swear the doorbell never stopped ringing! It was crazy, but it's great to be making progress! So excited! The family room (the one that got painted already) looks fantastic and really gives me hope that this house will shape up well! There's a ton of stuff to do, and it will take us years, but it's great to be able to make a good start on it, especially before the baby comes.
DD was slightly less mischievous today, which was good because I wasn't feeling well and needed to lie down. Yesterday she was totally out of control with the mischief. I was beating my head against a wall. She was super sweet today, and much more obedient. I know that the move and having the house torn up with renovations has rocked her world, so I am really trying to patient, but I am pregnant and exhausted, and we're not able to toddler-proof this house like the old one was at this point in time. Eventually it will get there, but right now we're just blocking off whatever room is currently under construction and watching her closely. She has discovered how to open the pantry door, which is a problem. And we don't have locks on the kitchen cabinets yet. There's nothing dangerous she can get into there, just the potential for a giant mess! So with all that, I was so thankful today when (aside from one or two incidents) she just wanted to play in her room!
I'm feeling soooooo tired today! It was really hard to make myself get out of bed this morning, but with two dogs whining to be taken out, a two-year-old calling for Mommy, and construction guys about to show up at any moment, what choice did I have?! Right now, DD is at mother's day out, and I'm lying in bed. Not much hope of sleep since there is lots of construction noise, but I'm just thankful that stuff is getting done on the house! My poor dogs are stuck in the crate again today, because there's no place in the house where I can keep them out of the workers' way. Well, it's not for very long.
I'm so excited that I'm 18 weeks today and that the ultrasound is a week from today! Woohoo! I'm feeling the baby move a little bit here and there... this one is no where near as active as C was, but instead of letting that make me nervous, I'm trying to remember that this is a completely different child who is going to do things its own way! I really cant wait to find out what we're having- that makes it seem so much more real to me.
Things are crazy around here at the moment. We're attempting to deal with a situation where TVA wants to cut down all of the trees along one side of our house (that give us privacy and block the views of power lines) and I get so upset just thinking about it that it makes me sick to my stomach. The whole neighborhood is trying to fight it (we're not the only ones whose trees they marked) but I don't have much hope. Trying not to think about it so much. Ugh.
In good house news, the work is going well. I'm excited to get this round of renovations done and be able to unpack a bit.
The baby has moving more and more lately (well, it's probably moving the same amount... I'm just feeling it more!) Our ultrasound is the day after tomorrow! Can't wait! I'm excited to get a peek at this little one and to find out what we're having!
The weather was gorgeous yesterday so we spent a lot of time outside. I was really hoping it was going to be nice again today, but it looks like it wants to rain. Yuck. Pair that with DD not sleeping well last night, and all I want to do is stay in bed! But, I need to drag myself up and take shower.
Our big ultrasound is TOMORROW!!! Woohoo! I can't believe how quickly the last four weeks have gone. Then again, we did have an awful lot going on! We sold our house, bought a new house, moved, and started renovating the new house! That will definitely help pass the time... lol! The first round of renovations should be done by the end of next week, which means that my brother and his crew can then come in and paint, then we can get carpet in the bedrooms and bonus room, and then we can actually unpack and get a little bit settled! Definitely looking forward to that.
I've been feeling the baby move some today. This kid is definitely more relaxed than his/her big sister. I've been feeling unbelievably exhausted lately. I have absolutely zero energy and all I want to do is sleep. Unfortunately, there isn't much opportunity for me to get a nap in these days, with all the construction going on. And I have to get up early let the workmen in, feed the dogs and take them out, get DD up and fed, etc. I feel like I could sleep for a week.
Well, I think DD just woke up... she has been napping like it's her job today! Probably a good thing, since she's been waking up super early and I had to wake her up from her nap yesterday so we could take cover from a possible tornado . I swear we only get tornadoes while DD is sleeping. I have no idea what's for dinner tonight, so I'd better figure that out!