I've fallen behind on this journal... not surprising, since it feels like I'm behind on everything!
I had my 25 week appointment yesterday. Everything was good. I impressed the nurse with my blood pressure, which was 98/60. Baby was moving like crazy, so he gave Linda a run for her money to check his heartbeat. Belly is measuring right on for 25 weeks. I'm feeling like a whale. I've got to get back into a routine with exercise. It's been next to impossible with the renovations... for example, I've been stuck here all day because the new garage doors are getting installed. But, the first round of renovations is almost done (really, this time... I know I've said that before) so my plan is to get really serious about going to the gym once I can be on a more normal schedule. The outdoor pool at the Y will be opening this weekend, so that will be great too.
I have way too much to do today, and I've had a hard time finding the motivation to do it. We are going out of town tomorrow for the weekend. It's going to be a lot of driving in a short amount of time. Here's hoping Catie is a good sport about it. We're going up to see DH's family and celebrate his grandma's 90th birthday. I'm sure it will be fun, but right now I'm just feeling overwhelmed by everything that I have to get ready, and by all the hours we're going to spend in the car. I need to come up with some creative ideas to keep DD entertained while we're driving... this is making me wish we had a DVD player in the car! Oh well, I'm sure it will be fine.
26 weeks today! Getting close to the 3rd trimester! When I think about it that way it feels like it's going really fast. We went to Kentucky this weekend to see DH's family. It was his grandma's 90th birthday. We had a nice time. My favorite was being at his dad's house, hanging out in the pool with the family. DD loved it! FIL did an ultrasound for us, which was cool. We didn't get any pictures, but we got a much better look at the little guy than we did at my anatomy scan. We saw him yawning, sucking his thumb, sticking his tongue out, etc. It was pretty cool!
In other news, baby boy is freaking me out. He refuses to get into a head down position and stay there. He flips around from head down, to transverse, to breech, several times a day sometimes. I know that it's early and still has time (and room) to move around, but it's really freaking me out that I might not even get a chance to try for a VBAC if he doesn't settle down in there. I really don't know how I'll deal with it if that happens. I know that my VBAC might not be successful, but it somehow seems a lot different to at least get to TRY, know what I mean? Anyway, here's hoping that I'm worrying about this for nothing. I've been on the spinning babies site and started doing the exercises. I'm trying to do everything possible to encourage him to go head down (and stay there). Keep your fingers crossed for me!
I'm still feeling anxious for this little one to get into a better position, but I'm trying to have some peace about it, whatever happens. I know it's still really early. Like I said before, I just REALLY want my chance at a VBAC. In other baby news, we MIGHT have a name for this little guy. I'm working on getting DH on board with it- lol! I love it and I just really, really feel like that's his name. I haven't felt that way about any other name. It actually made me start to feel a little excited about having a boy (instead of scared! Lol!) So hopefully I can get DH to agree. He's definitely coming around.
So the craziness of this week is: starting potty training with DD. It's going well so far, but I'm finding it pretty stressful. I can't wait until it's just DONE, and I've figured out how to take her places without a diaper (i.e. she's started telling me when she has to go). But, we've no accidents in over 24 hours, so she's definitely making progress. And I only started on Wednesday late afternoon/evening. One more step in being ready when baby brother arrives!
Last night I decided to sleep in our bed in spite of the paint smell in that end of the house (it's actually a lot better than it was). It was AMAZING. I've been SO uncomfortable in general and not sleeping well, and the tempurpedic mattress made all the difference. It was wonderful to actually be able to get comfortable! I did have a crazy nightmare which woke me up and kept me awake for a while, but other than that I slept the best that I have in quite awhile. I'm definitely not going back to the guest bed. They finished painting the bonus room today (our room is currently off of the bonus room... until we get more renovations done) and we have the windows open so I don't think the smell will be bad by tonight. Hooray for a good night's sleep!!!
Yesterday was busy, but really good. We finally have a useable garage! When we first moved in, the garage had the original doors... from 1973. They were manual and barely worked. I couldn't open one of them at all- it took a full grown man to be able to do it. So last week we had new doors installed! The garage was full of boxes of all our stuff, since we still haven't really been able to unpack since we moved in (due to starting renovations immediately), so yesterday DH took everything out of the garage, we were able to unpack a few things, and the rest we moved to another storage area in the house. Then he organized the actual garage stuff so that we can fit both cars in! Yay!
Meanwhile, I got to unpack our two million boxes of books. It took me five hours. I'm not kidding. The bonus room isn't quite done yet (the carpet is being installed on Friday) but the painting is done, so I was able to put the books on the built-ins in that room. It was exciting to finally be able to unpack sometime, and make some progress, but I am SO sore today! Lol!
After getting all the house stuff done, we went out to dinner with friends. We all chipped in and got a babysitter, which was AMAZING. It was so relaxing to just sit and have dinner without having to worry about all the kids. Also, Al Roker came in with his family and sat at the table next to us, which was totally random. Apparently his niece/nephew/some relative graduated from a local high school, so he was in town for that.
Baby boy was pretty kind to me yesterday... he definitely protested some of the manual labor I was doing, but other than that I felt pretty good. He's so much quieter than DD was! Although I have to say he has GOT to stop flipping into a transverse position. It is starting to be REALLY uncomfortable. Fingers crossed that he picks a better position soon!
What a crazy weekend. Good, but crazy. We're potty training, trying to tackle a giant "to do" list for the house, and we got together with friends (since it was Memorial Day weekend). We didn't get all the house stuff done, but we got a lot done, and I was totally okay with that because I knew going into it that our list was unrealistic for the amount of time we had!
DH got to feel the baby move a lot last night, which was cool. Usually as soon as soon as I put his hand on my belly baby stops moving! I think the little guy has gone through a big growth spurt, because I am HUGE all of a sudden! Or at least I feel huge. And my back and feet have started to protest this whole pregnancy thing. I'm taking it easy today after all the physical work we did this weekend to see if I can get some relief.
The painters are prepping the kids' bedrooms today, and the carpet comes on Friday! So excited to see their rooms finished! I'm excited to get DD's "big girl" room set up, and to start setting up the nursery. DD's new dresser needs to be painted before I can move her old one into the nursery, but other than that I think everything is ready to go once the paint and carpet are done.
I am enjoying a rare few minutes of peace and quiet, but I need to get up and get my day started. I'm sure DD is awake by now. She's quiet, but she likes to play in her bed for awhile after she wakes up. My dogs are getting impatient to eat and go out. Sometimes I miss the days when I didn't wake up and immediately have people/animals needing a thousand things from me. Sometimes it's nice to be able to wake up and take care of yourself first. Well, maybe it will happen again when the kids are 18 and out of the house .
Baby boy has been moving quite a bit this morning. Either he really likes to stretch out, or he's really long already. I keep being surprised at how high above my belly button I feel him, especially when I feel him at the same time way down by my bladder! I'm not going to stress out about having a huge baby like I did with DD though. I have enough anxieties to work through regarding this birth that I don't need to add another. DH was 9 lbs 9 oz, so when I was pregnant with DD I was terrified that she was going to be huge. She was 7 lbs 6oz, and she was a full week overdue! Not exactly huge. I'm just going to believe that this one will somewhere in that same "average" range.
It's been a busy week, and kind of stressful. I've had trouble holding it together a couple of times (and a few times I didn't hold it together!) I know that the pregnancy hormones on top of everything else that we have going on just puts me over the top, and stuff that I would normally be able to take in stride throws me for a loop. But, we are getting through it. And little by little we are making this house livable, which helps a lot. I also have a weird situation I'm dealing with related to a friend. But I'm sure it will work out and be fine. I'm not allowing myself to get torn up about it, because I easily could. I'm just refusing to focus on anything that isn't positive right now. Everything else can wait. And I'm about 98% sure that I'm just being too sensitive and this is really not a big deal anyway. Either way, I'll be thankful when my hormones/emotions are back to normal!
I need a wall to beat my head against... or something to punch, kick, etc. Today is turning out to be the most frustrating day... and it's only 10:45am. So I'm going to whine about it for a bit. Maybe that will make me feel better.
First of all, I had a midwife appointment yesterday, and had to take the glucose test. Had to pull over on the ramp to the interstate on my way to pick up DD afterwards, because I almost passed out. Felt like garbage the rest of the day. I was praying SO hard that I passed the test. I had to take the three hour test with my first pregnancy, and I really didn't want to have to go through that again. It's horrible, plus I just really wanted to know that I don't have GD, and not have to worry about. No such luck. Had an email from my midwife this morning. Of course I failed. To add insult to injury, by only a few points. Ugh. So now I'm trying to figure out childcare so I can schedule the 3 hour test. SO. PISSED. OFF. I pitched a fit that would have made DD proud when I first read the email.
So now it's just been a lot of little frustrations piling up on top of that one. For example, I had gotten a coupon for Walgreens photos that gave me 40% off my order. Since I needed to order some larger sizes (8x10, 5x7, etc) I jumped on it, because otherwise it would have been expensive. The coupon was only good for four days. So I placed the order. It should have been ready by now, but I hadn't heard anything, so I checked on my order and due to some website screw up it hadn't gone through. Of course now the coupon is expired, so I'm not getting the photos... there's no way I'm paying twice as much because they made a mistake! I tried to contact them, but you can't email them! You can only call. There's no way I'm sitting on the phone on hold for half an hour (at least) over this. I have way too many other obnoxious things that I have to do that for (like a major AT&T screw up, and a brand new dishwasher that STILL doesn't work). It's just been one thing after another like this today. I'm SO done. Is it bed time yet?!
And then, to emphasize the fact that I'm a truly horrible person for being upset over these things, I find out that the friend of a friend who I've been praying for/following their blog passed away from cancer early this morning. He was in his early 30's, and leaves behind a wife and three-year-old. So, so sad.
I guess now I should mention some things that are going well, even though I'd rather just wallow in self pity at the moment . Glucose test aside, my appointment yesterday went well. Blood pressure was 112/62, baby's HR was in the 140's, belly is measuring right on, and I only gained one pound since my last appointment. Baby boy is doing all the things he should be doing. DD is doing GREAT with potty training, and pretty well with the switch to her big girl bed. We had a rough night/morning yesterday when she decided it was time to be up for the day at 4:15am and wouldn't stay in her bed/room, but every other day she's been great with it.
I know I need to pull myself together and MAKE this a good day, no matter what it's trying to be on its own... but I'm so hormonal that I'm having a hard time making myself snap out of it. Okay, time to get DD down for nap and actually get some stuff accomplished. I'm off to do some baking/making meals for the freezer. With the way Murphy's Law is working today, here's hoping I don't burn the house down .
Yesterday was definitely an ill-fated day, but today has been better. For one thing, after three months with a brand new dishwasher that NEVER worked, the manufacturer has finally agreed to stop trying to repair it, and just replace it! Woohoo!!! Can't tell you how excited I am about that! It will still be two or three weeks before we get it, but at least now I know that it's coming in the not too distant future!
Baby boy has been moving well today. Although he keeps sticking... something... a leg maybe? in my ribs which is not my favorite thing. DD was super sweet today- kissing my belly and wanting to sing a song to baby brother. So cute!
I made another meal for the freezer today (for when baby comes) so I'm gradually making progress on that front. The bread I made yesterday turned out sooooooo well! I've made it tons of times before, but this was a particularly good batch. 2/3 of it I made into rolls for the freezer, and the other 1/3 I made into a loaf for us to eat now. So yummy! DD and I had it for lunch and thoroughly enjoyed it!
My 3 hour glucose test is scheduled for Tuesday. Still pretty upset about it, so I'm just trying not to think about it, and trying not to get into all the "what ifs" about gestational diabetes. If I find out that I have it, it will be soon enough to deal with the situation. No point in borrowing trouble. In the meantime, I'm going to try to just relax and enjoy the weekend!
Still struggling not to think negatively about the 3 hour test, or to just completely melt down over the situation, but I'm doing better. Really, really trying to just think positively- that I'm going to pass it and it will be fine. It WILL be. One way or another, this baby will get here, and that's the main thing. Trying hard not to be stressed out about some other stuff too- house/property/renovation related. Most of the time I'm doing okay (my blood pressure is certainly low enough, if that's any indication). Okay, I'm going to make my first attempt at prenatal yoga now... this could be interesting .
I took the 3 hour test yesterday. It was miserable, as always. DH met me for lunch at my favorite restaurant afterwards, which is conveniently next door to my midwife's office. There's no way I was going to try to drive after what happened on my way home from the 1 hour. So we had a nice lunch. I felt disgusting the entire rest of the day and got NOTHING done.
I've given up thinking positively about the outcome of the test. I've just told myself that I have GD, and the only reason I'm waiting for my midwife to call/email is so she can give me diet information. I just can't stand getting my hopes up again like I did for the 1 hour. And I'm trying to come to peace with things not going the way I plan in this pregnancy, rather than acting like my two-year-old and throwing a temper tantrum when I don't get my way. I just want to be at peace with whatever happens. Sometimes that is so stinking hard!!!
I started hypnobabies on Monday and really enjoyed it. I didn't do it yesterday because of the 3 hour test- I had no time at all during the day when I could give the time to it and not be interrupted. So I'm going to have to do a session on Saturday to make it up. Generally speaking, I'm planning on doing it Monday-Friday and taking the weekends off because they're usually crazy. So I'm getting ready to shut myself in the bonus room to practice. The painters are here, but they shouldn't need to come into this part of the house, and DD is down for a nap (at least I think she is... I put her down and I haven't heard a little voice calling "Mommy!")
I got another meal and a batch cookies made for the freezer this morning, so I'm chipping away at my list of stuff I want in there for when the baby's born. Even if I don't finish the list, whatever I can get done will be a big help.
I wish the weather would make up its mind today. It will get dark and I'll hear thunder rumbling, and then the sun will come back out. We could really use the rain. Okay, that's enough rambling for now! Time for hypnobabies and then lunch!