Baby shower today! Fun! At first I was bummed because so many people are out of town that it's going to be really small. I wanted to see everyone! But, it's the middle of July- people go on vacation, so what can you do? Now I'm just really excited to get out of the house by myself (as in without DD, as much as I love her). With DH being away on business for most of the last two weeks, I just haven't had a minute to myself, and I'm tired! I adore my daughter, but I'm having trouble finding the energy to keep up with her. Can't wait until I have this baby and even if I'm sleep deprived, I can at least move around normally again!
I got two packages yesterday from people who can't make it to the shower, so that was fun... a little pre-party present opening . So far it's all been stuff off my registry! I'm so excited about that! With DD, I got tons of beautiful things, but hardly anything off my registry. I think that's the difference between having a girl/boy, and the first and second baby. So far I've gotten the booster seat, baby monitor, sound machine, all three blankets that I registered for, a lovey, a crib sheet, and the changing table cover. So excited! All stuff that I needed!
Today was kind of rough. I didn't get the rest I had expected to get. It was supposed to be my "morning off" but DH forgot that he was singing in church this morning... oops. DD was up at the crack of dawn. DH also forgot that he was supposed to feed the dogs/take them out/etc. this morning so I was frantically trying to do everything and make it to church before the service was half over. I had some more light-headed/low blood pressure issues and just generally felt icky. But we still had an okay day. We had some nice family time, although DD was testing the boundaries again, big time. I lost my temper a couple of times and raised my voice and then felt horrible about it. Ugh. I hate that. Well, all I can do is try to be better about it tomorrow. No one is perfect, but I feel like a horrible mommy when I do that. In other news, the baby is back to moving normally, so that's happy! I still need to keep pushing the water. I think I'll pick up some gatorade or something along those lines when I go to the store tomorrow. Hopefully that will help me keep up with hydration.
I have a meeting with my doula first thing in the morning. Looking forward to that, although it's at 9am, so we'll see how I do getting myself and DD ready and out the door in time to drive to her office. If I didn't have to work around DH getting ready for work it would be fine, but that complicates matters. Hopefully I'll be on time! I'm looking forward to meeting with her. I'm hoping I can borrow the Hypnobabies VBAC CD from her as well.
I just realized that I hadn't posted anything about my baby shower yet. That will have to wait until tomorrow because it's 9:25pm and I can't keep my eyes open any longer! Goodnight!
Since it's the middle of July and almost everyone who was invited was out of town, my friends who were throwing the shower decided to change the venue to a restaurant that we all enjoy. So we had brunch there (there were seven of us) and it was really nice! I was so stinking excited to get out of the house and have some "grown up time" after being home alone with DD while DH was away on his business trips!
I had gotten some notes and packages from people who weren't able to make it, which was really sweet, and I got some wonderful gifts! It was so exciting to get stuff off of my baby registry that I really needed! I was a little bit anxious about the stuff we still needed to get (even though there's not too much since this is our second baby) because money is tight right now with all the renovations on the house. So it was such a blessing to get things that we really needed (baby monitor, booster seat, etc.) I am so thankful for such wonderful family and friends!
So we had a really nice "girl time" at the restaurant. It was a lot of fun! Now I'm getting fat(ter) eating the rest of the cake! Lol!
Yesterday I had a meeting with my doula... can't believe it's time for that! I'd basically starting feeling like I've been pregnant forever, and I'm going to continue to be pregnant forever! Lol! It was a really good meeting. She works with so many moms that she knows the midwives at my practice really well, and she also knows the hospital really well. She's actually going to be on a committee to help write a protocol for a more family-centered c-section at the hospital. Pretty cool! She's helping me write my birth plan, which is awesome, because she's talked to the midwives and nurses about what is helpful to them in a birth plan, from the actual contents to the way it's laid out, so that you have the best chance of it being helpful to everyone involved. Anyway, it was a good meeting. My daughter just started freaking out, so I have to go!
I had my 34 week appointment today. Everything was fine. I brought DD with me which was a first. I think she enjoyed getting to hear "Baby Brother's" heartbeat.
In other news, today is my dad's birthday. I can't call him because we are currently switching cell phone providers so I don't have a working phone. I've been trying to find a way to get a message to him all day so that he doesn't think I've forgotten. Difficult to do since he's not much for technology (email, etc.). I asked DH today if we've decided "enough" on a name that I could get something with the baby's initials on it, and he said yes! That was very exciting. So this little guy has a name! I'm going to keep it to myself for now, though .
It is so stinking hot today. I sat on the front steps of my house with my brother for about five minutes and just about melted into a puddle. I laid down for a little bit earlier, but unfortunately it's not helping me to have any more energy. I'm so frustrated with that- I have a lot of stuff I need to be doing, but I think I need to go lie down again because I'm feeling really woozy. Trying to drink enough water, but it's hard to stay hydrated when it's this hot. Ugh. Baby boy is moving really well though, which is a relief because yesterday he was apparently very sleepy and I was starting to get a little nervous. He's been a little jumping bean today, so that's good.
I think I've just about finished up the baby laundry! At least, I've finished up everything I currently have. There are a couple of things that I still need to buy, and I know I'm getting some hand-me-downs from a friend soon, but everything is currently in the house is washed. Well, except for the carseat covers/jumparoo cover. But all the clothes/blankets/sheets/towels are done.
Still don't have a working phone. I can't decide if it's nice or if it's an annoyance . Maybe a little bit of both! At first it made me nervous not to have a way to call someone if anything were to happen, but since the painters (including my brother) have been here that hasn't been a worry. But I would really like to have the ability to communicate with people again soon!
I'm finally feeling a little better today. I had been feeling physically awful, and had some swelling the last few days. Today the swelling seems to be gone, and I actually have had some energy to get a few things done... something that hasn't happened for about three weeks! I'm hoping it lasts through the rest of the day!
Not much to report. Baby freaked me out and made me think that he turned breech, but now I *think* he's back to being head down, or I'm just crazy and he didn't flip at all. Working on setting up my second appointment with my doula for next week. It is really helping me to feel more confident to have such a great doula. And not only is she good at what she does, but she works with my midwife group/hospital so much that they know her really well and she knows all the nuances of how that particular maternity ward works. She's even sitting on a committee to help them come up with a protocol for a more family-friendly c-section.
DH is sick, so I'm REALLY hoping that DD and/or I don't get it. I really don't need to deal with a high fever when I'm 35 weeks pregnant. He's back at work today, but he took the last two days off. I'm glad he's bad at work- it's stressful having him here when he's sick- I have to try to keep DD quiet, and can't let her play in the bonus room (too loud- he can't sleep) where all her toys are, and all she wants to do is see Daddy, but she obviously can't. So it's a relief to be able to go about our normal day. I'm sure that sounds horrible, but it's the truth! I love him dearly, but everything is harder when he's sick. I'm thankful that DD is taking a good nap today. She usually does, but I really needed a little time to myself today, so it's been particularly nice.
So this little guy seriously freaked me out this weekend with his acrobatics- he flipped positions several times. I *think* he's back to head down now, but this really needs to stop! I'll be 36 weeks tomorrow! Time to settle down in the vertex position and STAY there little man! No more stressing mommy out!
I worked on the nursery some yesterday, so that was good. I could have gotten more done if DD wasn't "helping" but it was really sweet that she wanted to be part of it. I need to get myself and DD dressed so we can run to Target and pick up a few things. I need some stuff for my hospital bag, and I want to get some organizers for the baby's closet/dresser. If DD doesn't melt down, we might swing by Home Depot and look at curtain rods for both of their rooms. Then I'd have the nursery pretty much done! Yay!
I'm scared of my midwife appointment this week for two reasons: 1. I'm afraid to see how much weight I've gained, even though I know some of it is water weight because I'm having a little swelling. 2. I'm afraid to find out what position this baby has gotten himself into. Hopefully it will be good news on both counts!!!
I'm 36 weeks today! How crazy is that?! And I have a lodge! I can't believe I'm finally to this point!
Still nervous about what position this baby is in... he's flipping like crazy. But at least that means there's still room for him to flip? I don't know. I'm trying not to worry about it. I have a midwife appointment and a meeting with my doula tomorrow, so we'll see what the midwife has to say once she feels around.
In other stressful news, my horse is lame. Not what I needed right now. He'd been a little off, but it looked like he was getting better, so we rested him for a few days then checked him today and he's worse again, so now we're trying to get in touch with the vet. I'm hoping and praying that it's just an abscess or something minor like that. Ohpleaseohpleaseohplease!!!!
So that's my story right now... I have to run, but I'll be back (hopefully with good news on all counts) later.
Yesterday was just not a good day. EVERYTHING went wrong, and I didn't deal with it well. I'm just really hormonal/emotional right now and I don't have the stamina to cope with... well, much of anything to be honest. But, I'm putting it behind me- today is a new day.
I did get some good news at my appointment this morning. The baby is head down again. He's not in the greatest position- his back is along my right side, with his legs and arms towards my left side. But I can deal with that- I can deal with pretty much anything that doesn't mean an automatic c-section. I really just want my chance at a VBAC. I just want my chance. Everything else at the appointment was fine- heartbeat, blood pressure, weight, etc.
DD was SO good all through the appointment, only to have a major meltdown on the way home. I'm ashamed to say that I didn't deal with the meltdown well, but I think we recovered okay. She's down for nap now. We had a good morning aside from the meltdown, and I'm determined to make it a good afternoon for the two of us.
We're having leftovers tonight, so I don't have to cook, so I can just work on cleaning this afternoon. I need to make the house at least some what presentable, because my doula will be here at 7pm for a meeting. I heard from the midwife I saw today that Sarah (my doula) attended another successful VBAC with them this weekend! This will be the first time DH has met her (although oddly enough he used to work with her husband) so I'm excited for a good discussion.
Now if I could just pull myself together emotionally I'd be doing well! This thing with my horse is really worrying me. The vet comes tomorrow morning. I'm trying really hard not to worry about it/focus on it until after he comes, because until we know more, what's the point? I'm praying that it's nothing big. In 16 years of horse ownership, this is the first time I've had a horse come up lame. I know I've been really lucky as far as that goes. I guess this was inevitable .
I'm so, so tired today and I'm having a hard time holding it together. I'm at the point where I'm not sleeping well, and DD got up really early. I'm just really emotional and hormonal. Well, I'll get over it. I just really, really wish I had energy for today.
So many things going on this week. Meeting with our doula, dentist appointment, midwife appointment, other things I'm sure I can't remember... you get the picture.
I wish I was a coffee drinker... I could really use the caffeine.