Words cannot describe how I am feeling. This has been quite a journey and I am overjoyed and feel truly blessed to be where I am today.
A little history: Married 7 1/2 years TTC for 13 months After 3 months of TTC, we were told that we may never be able to conceive due to a dx of adenomyosis, endometriosis, elevated FSH, elevated Estradiol, and a blocked left tube We beat the odds in May 07 and conceived our first - we lost this little one on June 9, 2007 After many failed treatment cycles, including the use of Clomid, Follistim, Estrace, Progesterone, and IUI, I was signed up to do IVF. After going through IVF stims, I unfortunately only produced 3 eggs (2 were on the side of my blocked tube) between my two ovaries. It was recommended that I have an IUI and cancel my IVF cycle Lo, and behold, the IUI worked and I saw my second ever BFP! My first number was 247 and the second number at 16 dpo was 661 I experienced spotting at 5 weeks 2 days and was called in for an u/s - we learned of yet another miracle - we had twins!!! (Truly a miracle, an egg got around my blocked tube!) I was monitored weekly by u/s - At 8 1/2 weeks DH and I sadly witnessed the last few beats of my second baby's hb - he will always be loved and forever missed At 12 weeks, I was released from my RE and was given the 'ok' to stop taking my hormone supplements I met my OB on 12-13 and we heard the baby's hb - 164 (everyone says girl, but it doesn't matter to me!) Now is the hard part - waiting until my next appt which will not be until 1-11!!!!!
It feels great entering my second trimester. Aside from my daily worrying, my first trimester was great. I never experienced any m/s - only the occasional queasy feeling. I was very fatigued, had 2 corpus leuteum cysts that gave me a lot of pain, I have been very hungry, and I continue to experience the stretchy, pulling sensations in my abdomen. I had some spotting off/on but have determined that it was caused from irritation due to my progesterone suppositiories.
I started to "show" around 6 weeks and my OB said that was likely because of the twins. I'm now wearing larger shirts and using a rubber band to hold my pants up. I love it! My prenatal exam showed my uterus measuring larger and most of my b/w came back "normal". I'm O+ and Rh-. I also learned that I am a CF carrier. DH went to be tested and just this week we learned that he is NOT a carrier - woo hoo!!!
I've recently ordered a doppler and am expecting it any day now. I figure this will help alleviate some of my worry until my next appt. I've also been able to schedule my "big" u/s which will be 1-29.
I had an interesting Christmas week. We started our celebrations with family last Thursday and they continued daily until yesterday. Saturday, we were at a party and I came home with a horrible migraine. I took some Tylenol and fell asleep. We had IL's coming over for the night but DH took care of everything which allowed me time to rest. The next morning, I woke up to some spotting! I was so scared. I called the on call dr and he said to just take it easy. My OB's office has been closed until today - I have a message and am awaiting them to call me. Thankfully though, the spotting was limited to only Sunday morning. I'm wondering if it was from a poor diet at the party, not resting properly, or maybe taking the Tylenol?
I just spoke to the nurse - she said I likely suffered a ruptured blood vessel in my cervix. She said this can happen by straining the abdomen. She also told me that there is no need to be as scared about possible m/c being that I am 14 weeks. She didn't see a need to be worried and I am to keep my regularly scheduled appt on 1-11. (I can't wait!).
Good news is, I'm 14 weeks pg today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so thrilled and love the way it sounds!!!! Every day pg is a blessing
15 weeks today! I'm feeling well. I am off work and am taking advantage. I enjoy having the time to relax. DH and I have been using our doppler close to every other day for just a few seconds. I love hearing that soft little heartbeat!
I was updating my "June Space" and wanted to document some of my early dr visits somewhere so I am posting them here. I can't believe I won't have another u/s until Jan. 29th. I hope this month flies by! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
October 26th (my birthday!) - Emergency u/s - So far so good. We saw two gestational sacs!!
November 2nd - We saw 2 beautiful HEARTBEATS!!!!! First Twin Shot at 6 weeks 2 days
November 5th - Emergency u/s - babies are measuring well, two strong heartbeats! Baby A 7.7mm
Baby B 7.0mm
November 9th - u/s - 2 strong heartbeats, all is measuring well Baby A 12.0 mm (first wave with little arm bud!) Baby B 10.8 mm Twin Picture
Things are going well. I'm glad to be off of work. DH and I listened to baby's heartbeat again last night - it sounds so much stronger! It is awesome! I'm so glad we have the doppler I'm feeling well. Just very tired. It's going to be hard going back to work.
Last night around 10:15, I felt a strange bubble/flutter feeling in my lower abdomen. DH thinks maybe it was gas ( ) but part of me wonders if it was movement. I'll be 16 weeks tomorrow - so who knows?
I get nervous whenever I *feel* something and I don't know what it is. I think I am feeling stretching as the sensation (I don't want to call it pain) is either on my sides or on the top part of my abdominal region.
I was resting this afternoon and believe I *felt* something just below my belly button. I hope I start to feel movement more obviously within the next few weeks!!
I go in for my prenatal appt tomorrow morning. I will be meeting with the NP. I have a few questions - I think I should write them down. I'm not sure what to expect out of tomorrow's appt's. I'm still getting used to not seeing my RE and getting my weekly u/s. That's ok though as long as all continues to go well!!!! I have less than three weeks until we find out the gender! I am getting very excited for that!!
I had my prenatal appt this morning with my NP. Things went really well. I like it when I can leave feeling good and confident!!
The NP said the top of my uterus is at my belly button and the baby is just below. We heard the heartbeat and she said it was VERY strong. It measured consistently within the 150's. She asked if I have felt movement, as it is common to feel baby between weeks 16-20. I told her two times I think I felt the baby. She said it may have been baby, but will become more obvious in the future. (BTW- last night DH and pulled the doppler out and put it on my abdomen where I was feeling movement, we heard the hb right away!!).
The NP was great in answering all my questions:
She said it was common to gain about 1/2 pound per week. That would mean I would have gained about 8 pounds. I started out pre-IVF at 110, pre pregnancy (after starting stims) ended approximately 115-120! This morning per the dr's scale I was at 131 (at home at 127 - at night). So, I'm not sure exactly how much I've gained, but it sounds approrpiate - the extra weight gain from the hormones is throwing me off....
She said to eat about 6 times per day. I told her I was eating really healthy and she said to also consider quantity. She also said exercise is necessary for all pg women. (Which is hard after being told not to for 12 weeks!)
My urine test came back as overflowing with sugars. She said last month there was some sugar. She inquired what I had for breakfast and lo and behold she thinks that is what caused the sugar. Instead of eating my healthy cereal - I splurged on a sugar filled cereal. Regardless, she said to avoid cereal and milk together! Oh my... I have to increase my protein. If my next test comes back high in sugar, she may consider early GD testing.
She said hip pain was normal and will likely get worse. She said to position yourself at night with a lot of pillows. She said to avoid sleeping on your back (but it's ok to prop yourself up) b/c as the baby gets larger, baby will put pressure on the main artery b/w the heart and placenta.
I asked about having difficulty breathing/allergies and she said shortness of breath is common in pg. She said my lungs are being pushed up as my uterus is making room for baby.
She inquired about the AFP test. The nurse said "it tests for deformities". I then corrected her and verified with the NP that is tests to determine if you are at an elevated risk for only a select few disabilities, and she said yes. Having this info, DH and I shared that we are not interested in an amnio, but would like the test and would consider a level II u/s if necessary. She let us know that if we were to determine that an amnio was necessary, it isn't as scary as we may believe. Regardless, she said the decision was ours. She said to consider the level of anxiety we may experience if our test comes back as elevated. I shared that I will always have some anxiety and even if the test comes back negative, it doesn't mean baby may have some other abnomality. So, we decided to go ahead with the AFP blood screening. They will call next week if there is a need for additional testing. If we don't hear from them, we can call next Friday. In the meantime, we will continue to pray for a strong, happy, and healthy baby!!!!
I've been feeling good - I've been having trouble getting comfortable at night and I've been waking up to use the restroom, but mostly I've been feeling good. I also believe I've been feeling movement!
Well this afternoon I had more spotting. It was pink, but it was not fun to see. Earlier in the day I had a moment of pain that I believe was from round ligament stretching, but it did hurt for a minute. Then to see the blood freaked me out. I've seen pink spotting 2 out of the past 3 times I've used the restroom.
We pulled out the doppler and thankfully heard a strong heartbeat.
I don't know if I want to go to the ER for a reasrruance u/s. It would be great, but part of me knows they would say, just rest. (That's what the on call dr told me a few weeks ago when I had similar spotting). I guess we'll just wait to see what happens. If we feel the need to go to the ER, we'll go.
Praying that all is well and that my baby A is still healthy and strong!!!!
Sunday (while getting excited over the football game), I experienced some awful pains. After, I had a lot of pink spotting!!! I freaked! DH grabbed doppler and we immediately heard a strong hb. We decided just to take it easy the rest of the day and to call the dr in the am. I had two other episodes of spotting on Sunday and one on Monday morning.
I called the dr's office and even though they suspected that I had burst blood vessels in my cervix, they wanted me to come in to check out my placenta and to rule out bladder infection.
I was thrilled to have an u/s for reassurance but DH and I were so scared. I was having flashbacks to the day we lost baby B. Good news is, Baby A is ok and looks good! I don't have a bladder infection. I did learn that I have a low lying placenta. The tech and nurse said my LO may be hitting my placenta and blood may be seeping through my cervix. They weren't sure though. The tech and nurse also feel my placenta will move away from my cervix as my uterus continues to expand. Worst case, the tech said, is I would require a c/s if my placenta was near my cervix. I don't feel that will be the case.
My dr reviewd the results and her only recommendation was to put me on pelvic rest. I was told to take it easy and the nurse said to avoid stress.
At our u/s yesterday, the tech said she was only going to look at my cervix and not my LO. I thought she was crazy for saying that (I think she was worried for me). So while looking at my cervix, she saw my LO's hand waving around. I think she thought it was "safe" so she then scrolled over to check out the heart and as she was scrolling by she said "Oh".... DH and I saw what she was talking about.... she didn't want to tell us the gender b/c she said it was too early, but she said "Well, this is pretty obvious, do you want to know?"... DH and I were like, "uh yeah" even though we could see. Before the u/s we were convinced our little one was a girl. Yesterday we SAW that we are having a ......
We are so thrilled!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is so overwhelming. We were so scared the entire time and to get this great news just emotionally drained us. We are so excited. I get to go back on the 29th for my official big u/s, but the tech said that usually "that thing doesn't pop back in!" hehe