Chronicles of our second blessing

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Chronicles of our second blessing

4 WEEKS, 3 DAYS PREGNANT

Wow, tabula rasa......what a peculiar and wonderful feeling to be starting a journal for a pregnancy that has been a long time coming. I reflect back to now 18 months ago when a friend of mine and I discussed having our 2nd babies and that it would be great support for each other to go through it together---our other kids are born 6 weeks apart from one another and they have so enjoyed playing with each other. Although DH and I have been admittedly off again-on again about the whole thing we did, for the most part, give it the old college try.

The morning beeping of the thermometer, charts, graphs, ovulation sticks, and crunching data like I was a professor on the subject of fertility ensued......to no avail. Then I decided that if I was to be able to carry on an adult conversation without blurting out to the poor innocent soul that asked me how my morning was that I had gotten a positive ovulation predictor strip and had great fertile mucous that I needed to just give it all a rest. We went back into the dark ages of just timing it best we could based on the time my cycle (and I admittedly used the OPK strips just because I paid good money for 90 of them that sat in my bathroom cabinet). Nothing, negative, BFN after BFN.

Cut to Monday, the beginning of this week. OK, I know for a fact our timing had been good, the fertile mucous was there, then a positive OPK strip followed shortly thereafter. I still have 20 internet cheapie HPT's in the cabinet so I started testing 8 days before I was due for AF. And got 8 BFN's. Crap! One of us is broken. I've had a kid before so I can't be ALL that messed up, right? But alot can happen in over 4 years. I'm 32 now, not 28. DH is a few months away from turning 40 now. But my cycles are regular and I haven't been on the pill since before my son was born. DH.........it had to be DH.

I went to him to explain that it is apparent one of us is not functioning correctly and all arrows point to him. He must go for the lab testing that every man dreads. It is a small contribution compared to what women endure so buck up and just move on with it. Afterall, if the tests come back normal then we can start the long road of figuring out what is wrong with my plumbing, which I promised him was not as easy as a 5 minute trip to the restroom for him. A trip in which nobody would need to see, touch, or stick anything into his hoo-ha. He reluctantly agreed for the greater good of our cause.

AF was due on Wednesday of this week. I woke up at 4:45AM for some strange reason. It wasn't because I was excited about testing because I'd already had so many BFN's. Actually I was quite NOT looking forward to the new daily grind that began with getting a BFN to start my day. For some reason I had to pee and it awoke me from my sleep at that inappropriate hour. That never happens. I tried to get back to sleep but my bladder wasn't having it. So at 5:15AM I grumbled and stumbled my way to the bathroom to get it over with. I waited approximately 20 seconds, saw the BFN, tossed it on the top of the ever-heaping pile of sticks from the past week in the trashcan and thus endeth another 2WW, it was just a matter of hours before the oh-so-timely AF would barge in.

The day went by slowly at work. I checked all day long nearly on the hour for my good AF, she was very unlike herself not showing before work as she normally does first thing in the morning. She must have gotten hung up in her travels. Weird.

Thursday morning I figured I'd test again since AF hadn't shown yet. I'm sure the stress of the 2WW had just delayed her a day but she would be here shortly. I decided to use another brand of test I had floating around the medicine cabinet in addition to my internet cheapie test so I could get 2 BFN's at the same time. What this???? I see a faint, faint 2nd line on my test! And a not-so-faint huge pink plus sign on my other test. As quick as a flash I pulled the test from yesterday off the top of the trashcan pile to look at it------another 2nd line! I hadn't given it enough time to do its thing yesterday. I pulled another one---a very very faint line. And another---even more faint lines. How is it possible to have a line be so faint for 4 days and miss it? I believe it had to do with my impatience and giving the test a whole 20 seconds to show a 2nd line or not. Apparently it is key to wait the suggested number of minutes (not that is plural) and then check the test.

DH was of course laying in bed probably wondering what was taking me so darn long in the bathroom all this time. I came out and said "Good Morning, Daddy" and looked at my sleeping 4 year old (we co-sleep) and said "Good Morning, Big Brother". DH was, of course, very excited. Though it was never discussed I'm sure a fleeting moment or two of his celebration was dedicated to the fact that his little soldiers had come through and would not have to be put under the microscope to prove themselves worthy and capable of fertilization.

I'm feeling good, just sore b00bs, though they were much worse before I ever got my BFP this cycle. I also feel very hungry, which seems early so maybe that has nothing to do with being pregnant.

I vow to myself and the little bean that we will begin an exercise regime in the evenings so I can be in better shape for the big delivery day. I'm a pinch (or a few rolls) overweight so we
need to go on some nightly brisk walks through the neighborhood and perhaps some stretching and/or yoga to make sure all is well.

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This afternoon I told my Mom and Dad. I tried to be creative and had a few good ideas but in the end I just blurted it out without warning. I had looked online at some cute shirts for DS to wear that said "I have a secret" on the front and "I'm going to be a big brother" on the back but with the time for shipping combined with my parents busy schedules I have no idea when that would have been able to come to fruition.

Then I wanted to have DS make some artwork for my parents fridge with a picture of our family and label them Mommy, Daddy, and Big Brother May '08. But I spent last night at the outlet mall knowing I was going to get together my my folks today scouring every kids store for any sort of "big brother to be" shirt. To no avail obviously. And by the time we got home I was practically falling asleep at the wheel so was not able to muster up the construction paper, scissors and glue to begin a late night project.

I told each of them separately and they both seemed somewhat surprised but happy. It was all pretty low key.

We have also told DS and he says he is "not excited" about it. I think it's because he has no idea what it really means to be a big brother or what all will go on. We will need to get some books on this subject and work them into the storytime ritual.

I'm glad the good Lord gave us nearly 35 more weeks to decide on a name for this child as it seems DH and I do not agree on names. Though we stand a better chance of coming to agreement on the girl name than the boy name thus far. Each conversation has ended with me stating "It's a moot point to even discuss it in too much detail until the 20 week ultrasound because we need to know if we're having a pointless debate over a name that is for the opposite gender of the child we will actually have". But we both know that when the 20 week ultrasound comes around this will all start again. And that's OK, we'll get it worked out just like we did when DS was on the way.

When DS was on the way we could not agree on a name we both liked until.....bam.....one day we just did. Nobody had to accept a name they didn't care for---we just finally found one that was just right. And it'll happen again, I know it.

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4 WEEKS 5 DAYS

Hmmm, what a strange turn of events today. I crave "flesh". I'm NOT a big meat eater. But today at lunch I went to Kroger to pick up a birthday cake for my boss on behalf of my team and passed by the area where they keep the cooked chicken all heated up and ready to eat. There sat some BBQ chicken pieces, which would normally send me running the other direction, that for some reason beckoned to me today. Then I headed over to the hot soup bar, which I would normally see as an opportunity for the grocery store to poison me with salt, MSG, and yesterday's rejects. Today, though, I loaded up a bowl of it and off I went. I ate the soup in the car and proceeded to open the family pack of chicken at my desk and start to eat (well, after removing the skins because I do still have my limits).

The people sitting around me gathered in disbelief asking me if I was going to get sick after eating meat since I normally go to such lengths to avoid most meats. They wondered what was causing me to eat pre-prepared meat that had been sitting out and nonetheless covered in sugar-laden BBQ sauce........so I had to spill the beans. They were looking at me like I'd lost my mind.

After the news was out one of the girls confirmed that she had noticed my boobs have become significantly larger recently. We all have a very open dialogue. She is actually the second person to tell me that this week. In the words of Dog The Bounty Hunter I have officially become "racktastic". It happened with my other pregnancy as well. And they will only get larger and larger. We won't even talk about when I'm nursing because they just take on a mind all their own once they are functioning. I do have higher hopes for ol "Low flow Lefty" this go round. I'm hoping she can keep up with "Tidal Wave Righty" but only time will tell. Until you have sat in your car with baby blankets zipped up in the windows and your Medela pump-n-style hooked to the car adapter twice a day for 6 months you might not know what I'm talking about. But that is a whole 'nother story.

I'm feeling surprisingly wonderful. Just more hungry than normal, and especially more hungry for protein, which is a big change. I think I'll start including my weight in this journal so it can discourage me from letting myself go, LOL! Right now I weigh just 6 pounds less than the day I delivered my son 4 years ago, so needless to say I have put on a couple pounds and could stand to lose them. I make no further excuses, it is what it is:

Weight: 154.5 lbs.

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4 WEEKS 6 DAYS

Why are my pants feeling tighter today? I had to secretly unbutton them at my cubicle for a few hours this afternoon after lunch. I'm thinking it was the particular pants I chose to wear today, which are usually some of my tighter pants anyways. Those are forevermore in the "no" portion of the closet. Well, at least until next summer or fall.

My DH took me to a chinese buffet tonight. I couldn't think of anything that sounded much worse than that. I had a single bowl of egg drop soup and that was all the MSG I could bear to subject myself and the bean to. After DH ate two plates of food the inevitable hair in the buffet food surfaced and I hope it is safe to say that we do not have to go back to a chinese buffet ever again. Hairs are in EVERY buffet. They just are. It's almost worse if you don't find it because that means you didn't see it and ate it on down. Disgusting.

Not much else to report on the baby front. I am feeling good. Not queasy or anything. Just slightly bloated and pregnant feeling in the uterus area. I haven't felt tired so far like I did with my last pregnancy in the middle of the day, but I have been going to bed earlier in the evenings and sleeping like a rock the whole night.

Weight: 154.0

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5 WEEKS

Thank goodness for industrial strength carpet at work because I am fearful of wearing a path from my cubicle to the restroom. I kid you not, I must have gone a dozen times today, plus before I left the house and as soon as I got home.

And this will be day two where I had to unbutton my pants after lunch. Besides feeling a bit crampy/bloaty/sore boobs/lots of trips to the bathroom I'm doing great.

I called my grandmother this afternoon on the way home from work to give her the good news. She was thrilled.

Then I arranged to go by my brother's house tomorrow after work to drop off some clothes and I will tell him then.

26 loooong more days before my first OB appointment---that seems so far away. They already told me I'll be having a sonogram followed by a doctor's appointment. She didn't mention the bloodwork so I'm going to have to worry about that until it is over with. As I recall from last time they drained approximately half of my total blood volume into a series of viles. I'm such a horrible giver of blood with my veins that roll and collapse---truly a phlebotomists nightmare. I always end up in a sweaty heap and then wake from passing out feeling all nauseous and clammy. Ugh.

OK, something POSITIVE for the day.........truly it will be a great thing to have a baby born in May, before the heat of the summer sets in. I can enjoy the largeness of my 3rd trimester under the confines of coats, jackets, and sweatshirts. That will be so much better than being big and uncomfortable AND completely hot.

Wt: 154

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5 WEEKS 1 DAY

Not able to tell my brother tonight about the news as he has some other plans and I didn't want it to seem obvious that I was coming over for a major reason. So I told him I could bring the clothes by his house on Sunday evening and so hopefully that will work out.

I'm feeling very blessed that I don't have raging morning sickness and have felt great for the most part. It's still so early on. I'm enjoying this time and am trying to enjoy every day of the pg as it will be our last (planned anyways, I guess you can't really say for certain).

Wt: 154

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5 WEEKS 2 DAYS

This evening we went out to dinner with my parents and it turned out to be a 2 hour meal. Josh was so very well behaved because it's not often we go to such a fancy place where they served a basket of sliced bread and little pots of homemade butter in crocks. He sat there and ate about 6 pieces of bread because he was allowed to handle the butter knife himself and he had his own little butter crock. He never tired of it but was totally full by the time his shrimp dinner came. I try not to stress about the small stuff, because we got the meal to go and he or DH will eat it tomorrow.

Josh is spending the night with his Nana & Papa tonight and was excited beyond belief. So I might watch an episode of Bernie Mac if I can find it on TV and retire to sleep early tonight. I so miss my little snugglebug when he is not here.

I had my first little bout of the heavy-eye syndrome today at work. I had to get up and walk around the office for a bit to get my blood pumping.

Oh, and for the record, Josh declared at dinner tonight to my parents that this baby is a boy baby and was very adament about it, LOL! So we will see.....The whole way home DH and I talked about whether it will be a boy or girl and what colors we will paint the nursery depending upon which it is. The bedding we used with Josh we will re-use because we picked something gender neutral for all the nursery furniture and bedding knowing that we wanted to have more than 1 kiddo someday. The colors are soft shades of primary, just a little muted but not pastels and the theme is jungle animals. We do have a crib bumper but the crib won't even be used until the baby outgrows the Amby baby hammock so will be plenty old not to suffocate against the bumper by that age.

Wt: Skipped it today, oops. But after my huge dinner tonight it is likely to be unfriendly tomorrow........

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5 WEEKS 3 DAYS

Today we (Josh and I) went shopping for a few fall things for Joshua with my mom and DH went with my dad to shop for ammo and pickled garlic, LOL! He came home with some little LED lights to clip onto his ball caps that are pretty neat.

Josh spent the night with my parents last night and I was awakened this morning by my DH with breakfast in bed. He made me my favorite thing, malt-o-meal, and a glass of milk with a West Elm magazine for me to read. He had put it all on a big pewter serving platter with handles, a fancy glass for the milk, and the napkin folded into a triangle. It was so very sweet and unexpected. Then I watched several episodes of "A Baby Story" that I had DVR'd in total peace and quiet. I cannot even relay how wonderful it was.

Then I went grocery shopping this evening and came home with some of our favorite turkey/kidney bean tacos that the grocery store makes fresh and puts on a whole wheat tortilla with all the fixins. I came home from the store also with some "juice boxes" that are organic strawberry milk, which we have never tried before. I nearly fell out of my chair when I told him what it was and he says (keep in mind he is 4 years old) "Mommy, this is going to change my life!". Needless to say he was happy that the milk people now put milk in juice boxes with straws attached. Anyways, we all chowed down on the tacos by the time I got home at 8:30PM and now I am sadly about ready to get ready for bed.

In other big news, I still haven't told my brother about our "big news"......because Josh told him today by accident! We had not told him NOT to say anything but I never dreamed he would offer up that information since we had not even mentioned the baby all day today and he hasn't really been too excited so far. We had gone to my brother's house to feed his dogs while he is out of town and he had called me just to check in and see if everything was OK. At that moment Josh, myself, and my mom were all driving down the road and so he heard Josh talking in the background. My brother asked to speak to him so I handed the phone back to Josh. They were merrily chatting away about the regular stuff when I hear him say "and Mommy has a baby growing in her tummy, and it's a BOY baby"!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aaaauuuggghhhh! I got the phone back shortly after that and confirmed the accuracy of at least the first half of my little bean-spiller's statement. He said he was hoping we'd have a girl this time. Not that he doesn't adore Josh, of course. Tonight I spoke with him again to report in on the dogs and he said he'd been thinking it over and decided that we could name our baby girl "Chrissy" (my brother's name is Chris), LOL! Anyways, I think he was very excited about being an uncle for the 2nd time. It's nice that he lives 5 minutes away so he does get to see Josh quite a bit and Josh and my brother's step-son get to play together as well and get along wonderfully despite an age difference of a couple years. Anywho, it was a great day today!

Wt: Promise I'll get to it tomorrow

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5 WEEKS 5 DAYS

I've been having dreams that this baby is a girl. I'm aware that no 2 pregnancies are alike so even if it were a boy I'd expect it to be different this time.

With DS, I did not have m/s but I'd have an occasional "wave" (as I called it) of nausea and would lay down for a few minutes here and there. I had a very strong sniffer and could smell a cigarette from 4 miles away and would run, hands cupped over nose/mouth, to the nearest getaway area. I would drink gallons upon gallons of fresh orange juice. Oh, and from the moment of conception forward I contracted the male trait of.......well, lots of intestinal activity.

This time around so far I haven't felt any waves of nausea, I haven't noticed my nose being able to detect the lighting of a cigarette 3 towns away, I don't have the same intestinal malady as before, haven't particularly craved orange juice (though it doesn't sound BAD to me), and I have on several occasions wanted meat. I do "feel" pregnant and have had some bouts of being tired. Perhaps it is just too early for much else. I mean, I'm not even 6 weeks along yet and some stuff I have read states m/s doesn't start alot of times until you are 6 or 7 weeks along.

The one thing that IS similar to last time is that my b00bs are actually quite huge.........and sore still. I can't recall if they were sore at this point in my last pg but I do recall they got even larger after nursing commenced. It is a difficult task to tote around such heavy ones in a non-underwire nursing bra, I tell ya!

Just for the record, I have no preference at all between having a girl this time and having a 2nd boy. I would love to have it either way---Josh would be a great protector and big brother to a sister. He would also be a great teacher and big brother to a brother. He asked me in the middle of CVS pharmacy a few months ago for a sister "right now" as we went down the baby aisle in search of flushable wipes. People in the pharmacy thought it was downright giggle-worthy. The last day or so he has mentioned both that he wanted a sister AND a brother. Having two babies at once is a scary thought to me. So besides having a happy and healthy singleton, I have no preference for which gender it should be. But for the moment I'm feeling it is a girl. Time will tell.

WT: 154 (whew!)

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ETA: Ha! How ironic that my sense of smell decided to come around today at work. On the way into work walking through the parking lot I smelled a can of ashes outside a business 100 yards away.

Also I decided to break out in 3 areas on my face today at work. Yet another reason I think its a girl.

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5 WEEKS 6 DAYS

Tomorrow will be 6 weeks, yeah! I haven't yet peeked at the 6 week fetal development info so it can be a surprise tomorrow. Wednesdays are suddenly an exciting day of the week for me, LOL!

Josh made a picture at school today and he drew our house, DH, himself, and Me holding a baby. It was so sweet. He declared tonight that he doesn't want a baby and asked who is going to take care of it. I'm glad we have a long while to work through his fears and anxieties about it all. We are actually trying to be very low key about the baby thing but it is obviously on his mind. DH and I don't talk about pg stuff or baby stuff too much around DS but we have told him which room will be the nursery and that the baby is on the way but we don't know if it's a sister or a brother. And we have told him it will be a long while before the baby will be ready to come out. That's about all. He's just really curious about the whole process and what to expect, which I think is natural. I'm hoping we can take him along to the 20 week ultrasound so he can feel involved in it but it will just depend on how he's feeling at that time as to whether we will take him. He's going to be a great big brother.

WT: 154

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6 WEEKS

So very tired. Contemplating ordering online gender prediction test from intelligender but resigned to wait until after the sonogram to make sure the baby looks healthy, etc. First things first. What would I do if there was more than 1 baby in there???? Brain overload, must go lay down.

Last night I was watching back to back episodes of "A Baby Story" I had TIVO'd and I thought DS was asleep. He rolled over to face away from me and I was just rubbing his back. I touched his undies and he said "Mom, don't touch my baby". I said "I accidentally touched your hiney, not your tummy my dear" and he said "But my hiney is where the baby comes out and that is where my baby is right now" and then went right back to sleep. Note to self, watch this show without 4 year old in the future. It doesn't show any lady parts but from the angle of the view it could certainly appear logical that babies come from that area.

Wt: 154

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6 WEEKS 1 DAY

Today at work I had to give my list of stuff I've done for my development to my boss since we have our mid-year review coming up soon. I sat there staring at my screen wanting to type "today I made progress in hosting and nourishing a human life".

After work Josh immediately wanted to listen to my tummy and he said "hello, little baby, this is your big brother". He topped it off with a kiss and it just made my afternoon.

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6 WEEKS 3 DAYS

Josh's Nana and Great Mom spent the night last night since DH was out of town and Josh had a wonderful time. We went to the swimming pool last night and it was freezing even though it's been warm here. All I thought about was the chemicals soaking into my skin. But Josh had been promised he could go so what could I do?

I had to WORK today, Saturday, which really just kind of puts a big damper on the weekend.

We've made plans to go camping next weekend. Really hope the weather is beautiful. We plan to rent a canoe and go out on the water a little so that should be a very interesting story to report next weekend, LOL!

Still feeling fantastic, except being extraordinarily tired. I barely made it through my customary episode of Bernie Mac before I zonked out last night. And I'm feeling quite ready for a nap at the moment as well.

WT: 154

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6 WEEKS 5 DAYS

Feeling great! Besides needing extra sleep, sore b00bs, and wanting to eat meat more than normal I feel quite like myself. DH ordered me a vegetarian pizza yesterday and for himself a mushroom/hamburger pizza. While he went to the sofa I stole 2 of his pieces and put 2 of my pieces in their place, LOL! He didn't say anything about it.

Spent a long time online yesterday looking for strollers but came up empty handed. Just can't make up my mind at all. Well, off to work I go!

Wt: 154

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6 WEEKS 6 DAYS

Tick tock tick tock........it is taking forever for my sonogram date to come. 13 more days to go. Seems far off. And I'm supposed to drink a ton of water before I go when I know good and well that they are going to look at it for 1 second, say "oh, that's right....you have a tilted uterus" and then tell me to go pee so we can do the sono the "other" way. Ah well, such is life. And I totally don't care because I just want to make sure that everything is OK and the little pea looks healthy in there. Um, and that there is only 1 little one in there, LOL!

I had another dream last night that I was big pregnant and rubbing the belly talking about the little girl. I know people are wrong all the time but I'll be surprised if this one turns out to be a boy. Though that would be fine with me! Familiar territory! I've even thought about getting that navy blue bunk bed from Pottery Barn Kids I like so much with the full on bottom and twin on top and the boys could share a bedroom if they wanted to. But if this one is NOT a boy then so much for that idea because (barring any unforseen surprises) 2 kids will be our stopping point.

I'm going to try to bid on some window valances tonight from ebay that match the nursery set we kept from when Josh was a baby. I'll update with the results Smile

WT: 154

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7 WEEKS 1 DAY

Weepy. Very weepy today and I realize it's not really rational but that doesn't help it go away.

I got Josh a Darth Vader halloween costume today and for some unknown reason we also got the mechanical light saber to go with it. It SHOOTS out this big long light saber about 4 feet at high speed, makes loud light saber noise, and lights up red. I must have had a pregnancy moment as I didn't really consider the after-effects of hearing "hmmmmmmm, HMMMMMMMMM, WHOOOOOOOMMMMM" noises all evening. But he loves it and I truly hope the saber makes it to Halloween still functioning, LOL!

Little pea is the size of a blueberry this week. I like that. At least a blueberry is a tangible, imaginable size. For the past several weeks the books I've been reading list the number of babies the size of my baby that could fit inside the printed period at the end of a sentence. How big is 1/50th the size of a printed period? I can't even really comprehend that size. A blueberry----I can work with that.

Another person at work today commented that I am looking quite "shapely and womanly" as of late and a second co-worker affirmed her statement. That's fine. We all know the ladies are looking quite large these days. Both of these people also went ahead and touched the belly area, smiling at me. I'm 7 weeks pregnant so the only thing you might rub is a load of blubber.

Oh, and I won the valances for the nursery on ebay! I overpaid for them but was NOT going to let them go Smile

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7 WEEKS 4 DAYS

We just returned from our camping trip this weekend. It was so much fun. The first night was a bit hot and stuffy but the 2nd day and night was very nice and we all finally got some sleep. The 1st night Josh had gotten scared because there had been a daddy long legs spider in our tent, which sent ME running out of the tent in a big hurry, which signaled to Josh that they were, in fact, NOT okay despite us telling him they cannot bite people. After MUCH ado, he ended up sleeping in the my parents suburban with the windows cracked. But he did not sleep well.

We went canoeing and ate gourmet food all weekend by the campfire. Hiking I was not up for but just the trip walking up to the restrooms was quite a hike, and I had to go a lot.

The only pregnancy-type things I had was frequent trips to the restroom and a pretty fierce headache last night. Which completely could have been from all the campfire smoke for 2 days or any combination of blooming pollens, sleeping outside, extra activity, etc. And it was also out of the ordinary that the instant I stepped foot into the canoe I was very very seasick. Never had that happen before. Again, not positive that's pregnancy related but just is unusual for me.

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7 WEEKS 5 DAYS

I was feeling a bit humorous this morning. I put on a pair of pants that I couldn't wedge into even pre-pregnancy and went in to see DH to ask him if he thought I could get away with wearing them if I just had on a long shirt to cover the fact that they were COMPLETELY unzipped and unbuttoned, Blum 3 They were so tight you could read a dime in my back pocket and my entire stomach was showing because they were totally unzipped. He just stood there like a deer in headlights not knowing what to say. Finally he said, "why don't we go shopping to get you some more clothes?"

The sonogram is exactly 1 week from today. Finally it feels like we are somewhere near a tangible date. From the time I booked the appointment at 4 weeks to next week (8.5 weeks) just has seemed like such a long time to make sure everything is OK in there. Four and a half weeks is a long time at this stage, even though there is little they could do if everything wasn't OK. Then we can move on to dwell on wondering what KIND of baby we are growing in there, which is far more fun.

I made my first call to a daycare in the area today to ask about their infant room, etc. The daycare Josh goes to does not accept babies less than 18 months so we will not be able to use his current daycare center. Plus, by the time this baby is born he will be just about to start Kindergarten so he won't need full-time pre-K school by that time. I was not liking the thought of having to either make Josh switch pre-K for the last couple months until he starts Kindergarten or having to take 2 kids to 2 different schools. I'm hoping I can just let my maternity leave and vacation afterwards extend until the Fall semester starts for Kindergarten so we aren't taking to 2 different places. Hopefully that will work out.

WT: 154

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8 WEEKS 1 DAY

Finally, we made it to the 8 week mark. It seemed like this week would never come. This is the week of the ultrasound (next Monday), at which I will be 8 weeks, 5 days along according to my LMP. Please let everything be alright in there.

Today felt like a Friday because DH left for a long weekend fishing trip and he usually leaves on Fridays. Tomorrow is going to be a long day at work. I have no idea what we are going to do this weekend. Really I could use a haircut, to go grocery shopping, possibly shopping for a few new shirts I can wear to work that are bigger than what I've got but not maternity shirts (that should be easy to find, huh?). Also I need to organize my closet a bit and organize the kitchen drawers as they have gotten all junked up.

Monday my appointment isn't until 1:30PM so I'll have to wait practically all day. We are not going to let Josh come to this one but want to let him come to the 20 week u/s when the baby looks like a baby, LOL!

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8 WEEKS 2 DAYS

Ewwwwwwwww. I went to watch my brothers dogs after work today and someone had accidentally left the doggie door locked and he had switched one of them onto a different food this week. Need I say more?

I had my first bout of nausea today that I think is pg related but it was my own fault. DH is out of town right now. Josh and I were sitting at the breakfast table finishing our waffles and I heard DH's ringtone on my cell phone upstairs. Ugh, I ran down the hall, up the stairs, and grabbed the phone just in time to miss the call, realize I was completely out of wind, and that I thought I might throw up. Oh. Obviously overdid the sprinting. After a few minutes all was well.

I checked into cord blood banking last night. OMGosh----$2000 plus storage fees per year of $125.00. These people must have lost their everloving minds. Capitalizing on someones fears that they might need to save a family member in the future. That is disgusting. As a humanitarian effort it should be offered as a free service to the public and the health insurance industry should pay for the costs because the cost of them storing and using cord blood to save lives and cure disease would cost them so much less money than years worth of treatments for managing a disease that could have otherwise been cured. I appear to have stepped up onto a soapbox. Sorry, getting off now.

And on a positive note, it's the weekend, time to relax. Then on Monday afternoon the big u/s! Whoo hoo!

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8 WEEKS 3 DAYS

Thank goodness it's Saturday. We had a busy morning. Got up aroun 7AM since I go to bed so early these days, LOL, tinkered around the house, went to the farmers market, picked up some lunch and went to a park to eat it. Then went over for more dog-sitting duties at my brother's house and hung out there for a bit. Now we're back home, it's about 1PM. I am so tired I can barely keep my eyes open. In fact, I think I'll see if Josh will take a nap and I'll take one with him. Oy.

I've got a funny story to put in about the park but I'm so exhausted I might have to tell it later. Snore..........

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8 WEEKS 4 DAYS

We went to church this morning and Josh insisted upon going to "big church" with me instead of his normal Sunday School for 4 year old people. At the beginning it was just as I imagined it would be but one little "talk" in the bathroom about halfway through and he did much better and by the last 15 minutes of it he was doing great. And thank goodness because when we got up to go to the bathroom some people came and took our aisle seats during that 5 minutes. Who comes so late into service? Anyways, I digress.

I am cooking a pot of roasted beets for my lunch today. Is that odd? It feels odd but it's just like any other vegetable so maybe it's fine. Plus they are chock full of folic acid and are supposed to be very healthy.

Suddenly the big sonogram day is upon us tomorrow after so much waiting!!! It feels almost surreal. In 26 hours from this minute I'll be laying down on the sono table. Normally I'm not so anxious but I just want to make sure everything is OK in there and then I'll calm down a tad.

Here's the funny story from yesterday at the park. Josh and I had stopped to get some lunch and took it to the park to eat as a picnic. As soon as I turned off the car he said he had to pee and it couldn't wait. We weren't near home and this park is in the middle of a residential area so not like he could just go behind a tree. I looked around the car and found a Backyardigans tumbler with a lid on it................................you know where this is going, don't you? So he had no problem peeing in the cup, only who knew the bladder of a 4 year old could hold 12 ounces? I really really thought the cup was going to runneth over, literally. But at the last moment he finally ran out of tinkle and I was able to screw on the lid without getting pee on myself or in my car. Needless to say, Backyardigans cup is no longer with us.

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Bad news

I went for my 1st sono today and the baby is not alive. I should be 8 weeks 5 days and it is measuring 6 weeks 6 days with no heartbeat. I will go back on Wednesday for a 2nd sono just to make sure and then on Thursday will go to the hospital for a D&C if I have not miscarried naturally by then.

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