Its funny how something so small can create and conduct all the crazy and wonderful feelings that I am having. I am only eight weeks along and I am insanely in love with what is growing inside of me. It took DH and I a full year to conceive and now it feels as if it was just yesterday that we were married. Its as if I have to check everyday in the mirror for any tiny change in my body that I can detect, or relax and think on how my body feels at any given most. When I close my eyes and sense my body I feel the small pull right below my belly button that tells me my LO is still there.
Isnt it odd how I have to confirm that. I am so deeply scared of miscarriage that I am even afraid to sneeze to hard. No one in my family has miscarried, but its still the thought that lingers in the back of my head.
As for emotions, ha. I yell one second and cry the next. I was baking cookies the other day and had the sudden urge to scream at the top of my lungs. ( I wonder if LO could feel that) I dont want to be touched when I sleep, is anyone else experiencing that? If DH even brushes his leg hair against me I get out of the bed and pace until I think I can go back to sleep, which of course deprives my of my needed 8 hours.
DH has been wonderful these past weeks. He has even painted my toenails...lol. I still dont believe that he has soaked it in that we are actually going to have a baby. We were looking at shoes in Target the other day, and he was bored and wanted to look at sports gear. I think the moment that he hears that heartbeat for the first time, he will know and he will fall in love. He is just that sort of guy. He falls hard.
Well, I am anticipating my first appointment on December 4th. I chose my doctor on my mom's and sister's recommendation. He did the emergency delivery for my niece because my sister's doctor was on vacation. Both of then talked really highly of him, so we will see. I have never been to a Gyno mostly out of fear, so I am sure when the date starts drawing nearer that I will be more nervous, but now I look forward to it.
M/S is a B****! I am seriously thinking about having a pep talk with my stomach. Being out till midnight last night did not help. I am exhausted and have to put in 7 hours at work to day. I forsee a great day. :sarcasm intended:
Quick update: I am running three deals at once right now at work, and my stomach is still in knots. DH called and wants to pick out a Christmas Tree. Do I have enough energy to fuss about the tree tilting or the ever existing argument of light placement. Ah the wonderful world of Christmas.
Picture This: Starving pregnant woman, in Taco Bell drive through waits 15 minutes. People get order wrong, go inside. Stand around for 20 minutes IN HEELS!!!!! Was I pissed?
Last edited by blueyesongod; 11-30-2007 at 02:54 PM.
Howdy. Sorry about not posting yesterday. I slept most of the day away, but here is a break down.
1. Wake up at 11 am at parents house (DH and I spent the night). Get a bowl of cereal. Milk makes tummy sour. Pour it out, go back to bed.
2. Wake up at 1pm. See that there is no one home and mom is still sleeping. Watch TV. Mom gets up. Watch Food Network. Want grapes.
3. DH gets back at 2 pm. Goes and plays Halo. Still watch Tv. Fall asleep around 3.
4. Wake up at 6pm. Decide that I need to get up and take my graduation picture (college). get make up and hair done. Mom (professional photographer) takes pictures. Hate all of them, but choose one to develop.
5. Go to BIL house to play cards. Eat tons of popsicles. Get tummy ache. decide its time to leave around 11pm.
6. Get home, and go straight to bed.
And, now I am here at work. Still tired. Hmm. Guess I better get used to it.
Today is going ok. My M/S is giving my a run for my money. I got an email about being late to work (7 minutes). I am so sorry that I spent the morning hovering over the toilet. Next time, I will rush and have to throw up again when I get back to the office. Grr...
lol. Other than that it has been fine. One of my clients mentioned that I didnt look almost 3 months, so my body image went up a few notches. Well, this evening should be a calm one. I will be finishing up all the cleaning and relaxing with my sweet DH!
hello ladies. Isnt today such a great and fabulous day! I had my first Drs. appointment today, and it went to so well. I love my doctor and the entire office. Everyone was so nice! He is a sarcastic just like me, so we got along great. I had my first ultrasound done and the vaginal probe, which was a new experience to say the least. I got to see my baby's heartbeat, and I cried. He/She is at 165bpm. What a fast little bugger. We are measuring at 8 wks 2 days but my uterus measures at 9 wks which my Dr. said is quite accurate. So, I guess I will be changing my ticker...lol.
I am just so in love! The Doc said everything was normal and looks great, and just that little bit of info makes me feel great.
After the appointment, my parents, DH, and I went to Brousse's, a baby furniture store, to look at different models. I will post a pic later of the set we want. It is a beautiful lifetime cherry wood set.
I had Johnny Carinos for lunch today, which I usually love, but for some reason didnt settle well with me. It was so much fun hanging out with my parents and Dh for lunch. We never get to do that. My dad was a little nervous at the Dr. office b/c he was by himself in the waiting room for a good 45 minutes...lol. DH smiled the entire time like he did something so grand...lol. Well, actually, I guess he did.
Tonight is a calm night of relaxing and sleep. Mmmmmmm.
Last edited by blueyesongod; 12-05-2007 at 05:10 PM.
Reason: horrible typing skills
hola pg.org world! I am currently at work and falling asleep. After picking up my prescriptions and flintstones at Walgreens last night, I took a good long bath (luke warm) and went to bed. It felt so great to be able to relax.
When I took my meds this morning, I did not read the side effects. Yeah, I know smart. Well, come to find out both of the prescriptions have the side effect of drowsiness. GReat! and I took both. I am beyond tired and have fallen into the drained category. I still have 2.5 hours of work today, and I am not sure I am going to make it. The benefit of this is that the m/s is GONE! It is amazing what humans discoveredin order to solve our little aches and pains.
Onto other things, DH and I decided to agree to disagree on the bedding furniture. He likes light furniture and I love the darkest grain of wood that can be found...lol. So, we have to compromise some time, I dont see it in the near furture though because we are both so hard headed.
Everybody that I know is still insistant that the baby is a boy. I can't wait in two months to prove them all wrong. Wouldnt that stuff their pipes? lol Its like everytime I mention the heart rate, or if a certain food make me queesy they insist that it is proof of a boy...hmmm. I will be so happy whether it be a boy or girl, but I wish people would stop predicting my body ya know?
Anyways, we have to grocery shop tonight and we have a budget of $100. Ha. I bet I wil be pulling things off the shelf and cramming them into the buggy just because I see it and then crave it. ha.
I have my next appointment on Dec 22nd which is when i get to hear the heartbeat that I have already saw!
I tell you what ladies. The meds that my doctor prescribed for nausea are miracle drugs! lol. I woke up this morning not worrying about being late because I had to settle myself in front of the potty. I am eating pretzels right now and not thinking about them coming up later.
Hopefully today will go by quickly. I love to moments when I am at home and relaxing so much that I hate getting up and going to work everyday. Sometimes I just pray that God will send us money for me to be able to stay at home. but alas, that hasnt happened yet. Oh, on a better note, I spent 93.76 last night for groceries. YAY! lol.
Anyways, I am sure I will update later on tonight, but I have to get back to work. bleh.
Update: DH should NEVER EVER EVER go shopping by himself. Here is the edited version. He bought something from a peddler in the mall. Its stupid and useless. I went to get money back. No Refunds. I cause a ruckus and got money back. Hormones are on fire.
The fires have been calmed. Sometimes I just wonder what makes males so gullable when shopping. hmmm...something to ponder.
I continually keep looking at the clock on my computer for it to be 5:30pm. I still have an hour to go. Bummer. I have started to notice that I anticipate being able to leave the office more than anything when I work. These things make me wonder if I really like it here, or if Im just staying here because the insurance is phenominal (sp?). I really wish I could start teaching soon, but I have one last class in order to complete my BA. Waiting stinks, but it seems as if it takes up 90% of my life right now.
Last edited by blueyesongod; 12-06-2007 at 06:43 PM.
This morning I am writing with two heartbreaking things on my mind. Right now, my parents have driven over 4 states and have 3 more to go. My sister that lives in Virginia with her husband called last night and ask my parents to come get her and my niece that her husband has beat on her since before they were married. Its just so sad. This is the sister that has gone through so much in her young life. She is only 18 years old and has gone through a childhood rape, had her own child's father disappear after he found out she was pregnant, and then we finally thought with her husband (a previous best friend off hers) would wisk her off her feet and take good care of her, but alas its not the case. My parents are expected to be there around 1 pm, which he will be at work. He does not even know what is happening. Its just all so surreal.
The second heartbreak I experienced yesterday came through email. One of my friends from high school has a friend that had an eleven month old that just passed away due to shaken baby syndrome. The baby's father had decided that he wanted to be in the life of the child, so she let him take her for the day while she ran errands. The next thing she knows the hospital is calling her to see her daughter, that she would not make it past two hours. How would you deal with that? I would go crazy. I guess it just goes to show you that you can't trust even the people that are closest to you. Life is too mean. I guess its times like these that you have to put your trust in God that his plan is right.
I ask those of your that are reading my blog to prayer for my family and the family of this poor baby. Thanks.
Hello pg world. I am currently sitting at home without a care in the world. I love these days when i can sit here at the computer or watch tv, and not worry about work or school. DH and I are probably going to go out to dinner, so I wont even have to cook. Since I woke up this morning, I have done two loads of laundry, watch "Who wants to be a millionaire", read a book, and napped. I should really pick up the house a little bit, but its not that bad.
My parents, sister, and niece are on their way back from Virginia and will be staying the night in Georgia tonight, and Alabama tomorrow night because Sierra (my niece) doesnt do well with car rides, well no 15 month old would. I am excited to see my sister again, and have my niece actually know her little cousin that is on the way! My parents say that my sister seems fine, but the flood gates will probably flow once she is back home. Its just so sad.
Well, I am off to check on my birth club and first tri areas. Hope you have a great day!
Last edited by blueyesongod; 12-08-2007 at 09:09 PM.