Deidre's little behbeh

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Deidre's little behbeh

Its funny how something so small can create and conduct all the crazy and wonderful feelings that I am having. I am only eight weeks along and I am insanely in love with what is growing inside of me. It took DH and I a full year to conceive and now it feels as if it was just yesterday that we were married. Its as if I have to check everyday in the mirror for any tiny change in my body that I can detect, or relax and think on how my body feels at any given most. When I close my eyes and sense my body I feel the small pull right below my belly button that tells me my LO is still there.

Isnt it odd how I have to confirm that. I am so deeply scared of miscarriage that I am even afraid to sneeze to hard. No one in my family has miscarried, but its still the thought that lingers in the back of my head.

As for emotions, ha. I yell one second and cry the next. I was baking cookies the other day and had the sudden urge to scream at the top of my lungs. ( I wonder if LO could feel that) I dont want to be touched when I sleep, is anyone else experiencing that? If DH even brushes his leg hair against me I get out of the bed and pace until I think I can go back to sleep, which of course deprives my of my needed 8 hours.

DH has been wonderful these past weeks. He has even painted my toenails...lol. I still dont believe that he has soaked it in that we are actually going to have a baby. We were looking at shoes in Target the other day, and he was bored and wanted to look at sports gear. I think the moment that he hears that heartbeat for the first time, he will know and he will fall in love. He is just that sort of guy. He falls hard.

Well, I am anticipating my first appointment on December 4th. I chose my doctor on my mom's and sister's recommendation. He did the emergency delivery for my niece because my sister's doctor was on vacation. Both of then talked really highly of him, so we will see. I have never been to a Gyno mostly out of fear, so I am sure when the date starts drawing nearer that I will be more nervous, but now I look forward to it.

This baby will be loved beyond any measure.

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M/S is a B****! I am seriously thinking about having a pep talk with my stomach. Being out till midnight last night did not help. I am exhausted and have to put in 7 hours at work to day. I forsee a great day. :sarcasm intended:

Quick update: I am running three deals at once right now at work, and my stomach is still in knots. DH called and wants to pick out a Christmas Tree. Do I have enough energy to fuss about the tree tilting or the ever existing argument of light placement. Ah the wonderful world of Christmas.

Picture This: Starving pregnant woman, in Taco Bell drive through waits 15 minutes. People get order wrong, go inside. Stand around for 20 minutes IN HEELS!!!!! Was I pissed?

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I am entirely in the Christmas spirit today. DH and I spent all night putting up the tree and decking it all out. It is gorgeous!!! Smile Here is a not so great picture from my not so great camera:
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Well, since we are the subject of pictures, I figure I can give you a few more!

The day Dh and I found out we were preggers:
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I have 4.5 hours to have the house clean before DH gets home. Better get busy!

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Howdy. Sorry about not posting yesterday. I slept most of the day away, but here is a break down.

1. Wake up at 11 am at parents house (DH and I spent the night). Get a bowl of cereal. Milk makes tummy sour. Pour it out, go back to bed.

2. Wake up at 1pm. See that there is no one home and mom is still sleeping. Watch TV. Mom gets up. Watch Food Network. Want grapes.

3. DH gets back at 2 pm. Goes and plays Halo. Still watch Tv. Fall asleep around 3.

4. Wake up at 6pm. Decide that I need to get up and take my graduation picture (college). get make up and hair done. Mom (professional photographer) takes pictures. Hate all of them, but choose one to develop.

5. Go to BIL house to play cards. Eat tons of popsicles. Get tummy ache. decide its time to leave around 11pm.

6. Get home, and go straight to bed.

And, now I am here at work. Still tired. Hmm. Guess I better get used to it.

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Today is going ok. My M/S is giving my a run for my money. I got an email about being late to work (7 minutes). I am so sorry that I spent the morning hovering over the toilet. Next time, I will rush and have to throw up again when I get back to the office. Grr...:puke2:

lol. Other than that it has been fine. One of my clients mentioned that I didnt look almost 3 months, so my body image went up a few notches. Smile Well, this evening should be a calm one. I will be finishing up all the cleaning and relaxing with my sweet DH!

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hello ladies. Isnt today such a great and fabulous day! I had my first Drs. appointment today, and it went to so well. I love my doctor and the entire office. Everyone was so nice! He is a sarcastic just like me, so we got along great. I had my first ultrasound done and the vaginal probe, which was a new experience to say the least. I got to see my baby's heartbeat, and I cried. He/She is at 165bpm. What a fast little bugger. Smile We are measuring at 8 wks 2 days but my uterus measures at 9 wks which my Dr. said is quite accurate. So, I guess I will be changing my ticker...lol.

I am just so in love! The Doc said everything was normal and looks great, and just that little bit of info makes me feel great. Smile

After the appointment, my parents, DH, and I went to Brousse's, a baby furniture store, to look at different models. I will post a pic later of the set we want. It is a beautiful lifetime cherry wood set.

I had Johnny Carinos for lunch today, which I usually love, but for some reason didnt settle well with me. It was so much fun hanging out with my parents and Dh for lunch. We never get to do that. My dad was a little nervous at the Dr. office b/c he was by himself in the waiting room for a good 45 minutes...lol. DH smiled the entire time like he did something so grand...lol. Well, actually, I guess he did. Wink

Tonight is a calm night of relaxing and sleep. Mmmmmmm.:lovebed:

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hola pg.org world! I am currently at work and falling asleep. After picking up my prescriptions and flintstones at Walgreens last night, I took a good long bath (luke warm) and went to bed. It felt so great to be able to relax.

When I took my meds this morning, I did not read the side effects. Yeah, I know smart. Well, come to find out both of the prescriptions have the side effect of drowsiness. GReat! and I took both. I am beyond tired and have fallen into the drained category. I still have 2.5 hours of work today, and I am not sure I am going to make it. The benefit of this is that the m/s is GONE! It is amazing what humans discoveredin order to solve our little aches and pains. Smile

Onto other things, DH and I decided to agree to disagree on the bedding furniture. He likes light furniture and I love the darkest grain of wood that can be found...lol. So, we have to compromise some time, I dont see it in the near furture though because we are both so hard headed. :rolleyes:

Everybody that I know is still insistant that the baby is a boy. I can't wait in two months to prove them all wrong. Wouldnt that stuff their pipes? lol Its like everytime I mention the heart rate, or if a certain food make me queesy they insist that it is proof of a boy...hmmm. I will be so happy whether it be a boy or girl, but I wish people would stop predicting my body ya know?

Anyways, we have to grocery shop tonight and we have a budget of $100. Ha. I bet I wil be pulling things off the shelf and cramming them into the buggy just because I see it and then crave it. ha.

I have my next appointment on Dec 22nd which is when i get to hear the heartbeat that I have already saw! :woohoo:

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I tell you what ladies. The meds that my doctor prescribed for nausea are miracle drugs! lol. I woke up this morning not worrying about being late because I had to settle myself in front of the potty. I am eating pretzels right now and not thinking about them coming up later. Smile

Hopefully today will go by quickly. I love to moments when I am at home and relaxing so much that I hate getting up and going to work everyday. Sometimes I just pray that God will send us money for me to be able to stay at home. but alas, that hasnt happened yet. Oh, on a better note, I spent 93.76 last night for groceries. YAY! lol.

Anyways, I am sure I will update later on tonight, but I have to get back to work. bleh.

Update: DH should NEVER EVER EVER go shopping by himself. Here is the edited version. He bought something from a peddler in the mall. Its stupid and useless. I went to get money back. No Refunds. I cause a ruckus and got money back. Hormones are on fire.

The fires have been calmed. Sometimes I just wonder what makes males so gullable when shopping. hmmm...something to ponder.

I continually keep looking at the clock on my computer for it to be 5:30pm. I still have an hour to go. Bummer. I have started to notice that I anticipate being able to leave the office more than anything when I work. These things make me wonder if I really like it here, or if Im just staying here because the insurance is phenominal (sp?). I really wish I could start teaching soon, but I have one last class in order to complete my BA. Waiting stinks, but it seems as if it takes up 90% of my life right now.

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Good morning ladies.

This morning I am writing with two heartbreaking things on my mind. Right now, my parents have driven over 4 states and have 3 more to go. My sister that lives in Virginia with her husband called last night and ask my parents to come get her and my niece that her husband has beat on her since before they were married. Its just so sad. This is the sister that has gone through so much in her young life. She is only 18 years old and has gone through a childhood rape, had her own child's father disappear after he found out she was pregnant, and then we finally thought with her husband (a previous best friend off hers) would wisk her off her feet and take good care of her, but alas its not the case. My parents are expected to be there around 1 pm, which he will be at work. He does not even know what is happening. Its just all so surreal.

The second heartbreak I experienced yesterday came through email. One of my friends from high school has a friend that had an eleven month old that just passed away due to shaken baby syndrome. The baby's father had decided that he wanted to be in the life of the child, so she let him take her for the day while she ran errands. The next thing she knows the hospital is calling her to see her daughter, that she would not make it past two hours. How would you deal with that? I would go crazy. I guess it just goes to show you that you can't trust even the people that are closest to you. Life is too mean. I guess its times like these that you have to put your trust in God that his plan is right.

I ask those of your that are reading my blog to prayer for my family and the family of this poor baby. Thanks.

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Hello pg world. I am currently sitting at home without a care in the world. I love these days when i can sit here at the computer or watch tv, and not worry about work or school. DH and I are probably going to go out to dinner, so I wont even have to cook. Since I woke up this morning, I have done two loads of laundry, watch "Who wants to be a millionaire", read a book, and napped. Smile I should really pick up the house a little bit, but its not that bad.

My parents, sister, and niece are on their way back from Virginia and will be staying the night in Georgia tonight, and Alabama tomorrow night because Sierra (my niece) doesnt do well with car rides, well no 15 month old would. I am excited to see my sister again, and have my niece actually know her little cousin that is on the way! My parents say that my sister seems fine, but the flood gates will probably flow once she is back home. Its just so sad.

Well, I am off to check on my birth club and first tri areas. Hope you have a great day!

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I would really love to be one of those people that actually dont mind waking up to go to their jobs. Its as if I have to drag myself here every morning. Hmmmm.

As you can tell, I am in a grumpy mood. I woke up grumpy, and I forsee a grumpy day. The only good thing that is happening today is my parents are going to be home with my sister and niece! Smile I wont be helping much, but I will get to play with my sweet girl. Its amazing how much I miss her! Just thinking about her, makes me so excited about the little person growing inside of me. Biggrin

I will probably update later, gotta get back to boredom, oh I mean work.

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I could have sworn that I posted a new blog this morning. Oh well. It pretty much centered around the fact that I was grumpy. Maybe I should go check to see if it posted in someone elses journal :-O

Uumm. Yeah, it just showed up back where it belonged. I should really have my head examined.

My parents and etc. are in New Orleans enjoying beignets (a cajun biscuit like dessert.)I am so entirely jealous! bummer.

Edit: I am truly an idiot. I just realized that I have two pages...lol. Maybe thats where my previous post went. durrrrrrrrrrr

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hello pg world. I have decided that I will have a good day today. Being grumpy doesnt suit me. After leaving work yesterday, I went to my parents house and was able to see my niece and my sister. It was so great to have the entire family home again. Family is the best thing that God could have given us. Its just so great to be able to have your own support system at all times.

Today I am working 8:30am to 6pm. YAY...lol. I am not going to let this get me down though. Biggrin I am seeing two clients today, so everything should turn out well.

Last night I got to sleep by myself. Now, that may not seem like a great thing to yall, but Dh and I sleep together on a FULL size bed! yikes. Anyways, last night I asked him to sleep on the guest bed because he kept rolling on top of me for the past few nights, and I cant handle that and sweating during the night. Well, it might sound bad, but I got the greatest sleep, and didnt even wake up tired! I might do this again tomorrow night. We are definitely going to have to get a bigger bed come income tax time.

On the baby front, everything is fine. My sister cried over my belly when she saw me. It was sweet. My m/s is starting to go away even without meds. YAY! Instead of constipation, it has now turned into diareha(sp?)...grrr. I also looked at my bbs, and all of my sweat glands are bright red. I dont know if I should be concerned about that. hmmm...

well ladies, got to get back to work.

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Image this. I get to work, and all systems are down. EXCEPT for the internet. Its like Heaven!!! lol. I only have five hours left, and they have been working on this since 9 am, which totals 3 hours.

oops client just came in..

Wow, am I exhausted. After debating with my client for an hour and a half, I now get to eat lunch at 1:30pm. I feel so weak b/c I havent had food in my body since 8am!!! Usually it would matter, but since I am feeding two, I guess my hunger is alot stronger.

Oh, funny story. We had our office Christmas exchange today, so I had to get a present for my secret santa. I had forgot all about it, until yesterday. So, I went on my lunch break, grabbed wendy's, and saw Bath and Body Works. I pull into the parking lot and go in just to turn around and walk out the door tothe payment. The smell was so overwhelming that I started dry heaving right there. Talk about embarrassing. A clerk finally came out and ask if I was ok, she calmed me down and asked if there was anything she could do. I gave her my credit card, and told her to get a thing of lotion and body wash in cucumber melon. I thought it was so sweet that she was willing to help me out so much. I wish all the people in this world were so nice.

Hmm...well, I am going to go peruse elsewhere.

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I have decided that I should never speak too soon! M/S came back with a venegence this morning. I ate my regular breakfast crossaint and still was nauseated. hmmm... maybe its just a one day thing :crosses fingers:

DH is getting alot of extra hours these past two weeks and gets his bonus on this check which is fabulous! Things are starting to fall into placed where they need to, and I love it.

I have my 2nd Dr. Appointment next week and I will be 11 weeks 5 days. I can't wait to hear and see the heartbeat at the same time! I cried just seeing the heartbeat, and now I am going to be able to hear my little sweet. My parents are pampering me more and more when I am at their house...lol. Things like " do you want something to drink, how about a blanket its cold in here, would you like to sit in the recliner instead?" I thnk its sweet, but I dont plan on getting too used to it. Wink

I have 6 hours left of work. grrrr....guess I better get back to it.

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Today is just floating along. Work is going ok I guess. I went shopping with my mom last night. It was fun, and we had three buggies full of stuff from wal-mart! I got all of DH's christmas done! I love buying for him, but I think I am going to LOVE buying for my LO alot more...hehehe.:rolleyes:

My m/s has calmed down, but I am still getting a little queesy every now and then :confused:. I hope it goes down soon, because I would love to start eating without thinking if it is going to make me sick later.

Onto other news, I got a super cute hair cut today! I now have bangs!!!! lol During my sesssion, I got to talk about my pregnancy to my stylist, and I loved that because I never get to talk about things like that unless I want advice, so it was nice to chat with someone that doesnt have children of their own.

I will probably post a pic of the hair later on today so check back!!!

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Sorry I haven't posted lately. Things have been quite hectic. I graduated from college this past Saturday, and my Mil planned a luncheon afterwards. It was so nice. I got two really nice gifts. Later on that evening, my mom, sisters, brother, and I went to my Nanny's house to make Christmas goodies. All the smells were so intoxicating! I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!!!! lol. The only bad thing that happened is my Nanny's older sister came by, and she is one of those loud obnoxious people that wont shut up. She gave me a headache, but the good thing is that she didnt stay long. Dh and I stayin on Sunday morning, and then went shopping later that afternoon. I wrapped presents most of the day, and DH cleaned up. I appreciate him so much!

Today got off to a slow start b/c my computer was acting up. I am thinking about lunch right now, and wondering if there is anything out there that wont make me sick. bleh. :mad:

My belly is starting to stick out a little more, and its starting to round out. I love it! lol.

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Its official. I feel like a teenager again with all the acne I have. Its all on my cheeks and on my chin, but when I was a teen it was usually around my nose and my forehead. I wash my face every day, and take off my make up at night. I guess it is just inevitable. Today should be a good day, and it is going by fast which makes me happy!

I keep feeling a pull in my lower abdomen which has me so excited to be at my appointment this Friday! I just cant wait to hear that little heartbeat!!!! This LO has changed my life already in so many small ways. I am thinking about cabinet locks and plug covers. Discussing feeding patterns with Dh and thinking about bedding options! Its just all so amazing!

Hopefully this day will pass as fast as I think it will, so I can be home and relax!

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PHEW! last night was so busy! After getting off work at 6:30pm, (YES! 6:30 can we say overtime?) I got home and cooked dinner and then finished wrapping presents. All in all I completed it all around 11pm. I was so exhausted!!!! I only slept for 8 hours last night, which may seem like enough, but I would have prefered another 2hours. I have a real estate client coming in today, and am closing another deal within the week, so I am a busy bee. Work is starting to get better just because business is starting to pickup. I dont like twiddling my thumbs.

In baby news, I am feeling like a huge whale today which is NOT cool. I think its because I am wearing regular clothes and they are a little on the tight side. Hopefully DH got me some cute maternity tops for Christmas! That would make me so happy!

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oh goodness! It has been too long since I have updated here!

Everything has been fine. I had my second appointment on Friday, which was a bit rushed because my dr. had an emergency csection right when I got there, so he was trying to see all of his patients. My LO is safe and sound, and boy does he/she move all around...lol. It was so cute seeing the little wiggles and flips on the monitor.

Today is Christmas Eve, and I already feel like the day will never end. I have so much to do and NO time to do it in. After work (yes, work. bleh), I am heading over to my house to finished the prep on my famous chili, and then it is off to the In laws for tension headaches and presents...lol. My parents and family are coming over to my house this evening around 9pm, and spending the night into Christmas morning, so my house is full. I really love this season, but wish there were times that DH and I could breathe and actually enjoy it. Biggrin

We are not allowed to make calls out today, so I am sure I will be lurking all the more on the boards today. lol :rolleyes:

Have a Merry Christmas!

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Christmas has come and gone, and I have learned that not only is my smell ability really sensitive, so is my hearing. Everything seemed ten times louder than normal, and I had 13 people in my house!!! Can you say headache?!? I got to sleep in my own bed last night which was great! It felt so good having family over, but after a few hours, it got old fast...lol. We had so much fun though, and I really enjoyed seeing my niece open all her presents. It made me think of where I will be next year with my LO. Blum 3

I am at work today, and it looks as if its going to be a very slow day!!!bleh. I can't wait to get home at 6pm and relax!!!!

OH! I noticed the other day that if I relax and concentrate really hard that I can feel a little movement right below my belly button. My mom says that I am imagining things, but I realyl think its my LO telling me that he/she is there!

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UGH! I am so ready to be over with work. I wish DH would have a job that would provide us with enough income to hold us over, but for now we both have to work, and it stinks. All I have ever watned was to be a mom or a teacher, I am working on one, and the other one seems so far away even though I am qualified! Maybe after the baby is born there may be an opportunity for me to get out of here.

What I do is solicitation for refinancing of autos and mortgages. When I was hired I was not told that there was any solicitation but that I would be calling "our customers" very rarely. bullsh*t. I have to make at least 50 calls a day to try and get three applications. It sucks because nobody wants you to call them and offer crap. If they want it, they will come to you.

Phew, off my rant!

So, nonetheless, all I want to do is be with my baby when its born, and love and adore it without having to worry about going to back work.

On the baby front, my next appointment is 1/15 and I still havent done my bloodwork yet, or heard the heartbeat yet. I am starting to get worried that this doctor is one of those that are kinda ditsy, and have too many patients to think about the small stuff. hmm...I dont know. Maybe I am just in a foul mood, and am angry at the world. I dont know.

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well ladies, I really apologize for not updating sooner. I have just been so miserable with hating my job and being sick. GRrr. Its like the tummy aches wont go away! I woke up this morning because my tummy had rumbled so hard that I thought I was going to throw up!

I am also having this issue with my lazy eye, and worrying about bells palsy, which my sister had throughout her pregnancy.

I have an appointment in a week and a half, and called the nurse practioner at the office, and she told me to just continue to monitor my blood pressure. Sometimes I wish I could just feel the baby in order to have that reassuring feeling, but that wont be happening for another 3 to 5 weeks. Sad

I am on my lunch break and have to go back to work in 1 hour. :confused:

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It is amazing what a few days of relaxation will do for you! I was at my mom's house all weekend, and it felt great to just be able to watch the food network and see my little niece in her potty training endeavor. Hubby and I came back home Sunday afternoon and felt so refreshed that we started cleaning house with no complaints!!! After about 3 hours of cleaning my body was exhausted and I had to take a nap, and when I got up I found hubby on the couch dozing off. So, all in all it was a pretty lazy Sunday.

I am back at work today, and it doesn't seem that bad. Of course I still hate it, but if I have more weekends like this I will be able to tolerate this job for the next few months.

I am starting to worry about the baby because all of my symptoms are gone and I still dont "feel" anything. My cramping has subsided and the breast tenderness is almost completely gone. I doubt something is wrong, but I can't help but to worry sometimes. I have my appointment next week, so we shall see. I have to get back to work though, but it felt great just to write this down! Yahoo

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I have not fallen off the end of the earth, and promise a update soon!

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I have come to the conclusion that I am a HORRIBLE blogger! I have a hard time keeping up with this thing on a daily basis...dont know why :shrug:

I am currently in my 18th week, and feeling like I have a cork up my heiny...lol. Constipation has NOT been my friend...grrrr. All in all though, I have to think that all of these things are leading up to having my precious LO in the world with me and hubby! We are finally approaching our big U/S date. February 12th here we come! After my appointment we plan on registering for our shower (which is being put on by my mom and nanny). I am so excited!!! Shopping is a great therapy!!!

Well, back to work. Just 3.5 hours left :rolleyes:

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I am just dragging my feet today. I was doing ok up until an hour ago, which is when I finished closing an Auto deal. I also have a killer headache. The good thing is that I only have 1.5 hours left!!! Smile

On a much better note, I find out the gender of the baby tomorrow morning!!!!!!!! Yahoo :thewave:

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less than 8 hrs of sleep
hate my job
extended hours on vday?!?!?
headache
cry

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add to that a stuffy nose, pounding headache, and sore throat. Its like its cr*p on Deidre day... grrr.