Went to the Dr. today and found out "it" is a "they". Just as I thought.. Womens intuition is rarely wrong! That was the good news of the day.. The bad news~ I have diabetes and didnt know it. The Dr says the sugars in my urine sample were well over 500 which scares me. I don't know what to think. I've never dealt with regular diabetes before. I had Gd with brendan, but it was borderline gd.. I am so upset over this. I tried to dodge it so hard for so long and it still happens.. Thanks alot, father.. Great gift to give your only daughter..
So anyways, my dr says she won't see me anymore and is transferring me to another Dr. who specializes in "high risk" pregs, and my current doc says that because I am havin twins AND am diabetic, I am high risk.. So, yay for me.. She wouldn't even do a FULL u/s on me cause she isn't gonna be my doc. But she did put the u/s thing on long enough to see the two lil circles.. Soon I will know if they are identical or fraternal, and I can't wait!!!
Am I happy about havin two bellybuggas? Hell yes.. Happy about the bedrest that is probably coming soon, no way.
*to my lil buggas- I saw you both briefly today and you look beautiful! I can't wait to hold you in my arms!*
I'm still havin a hard time swallowing the diabetes thing.. And having twins is going to be a bigger challenge than I thought. DH acts like he doesn't want twins, and that kind of bugs me, cause it's not like I made this happen. It happened on it's own. He and I were talkin last night about what to nickname the pregnancy and he said "how about 'too damn many kids?' " I know he was most likely joking, but I didn't find it very funny
Anyways, other than craving everything I CANT have, I am fine. Babies are movin, M/s still in high gear, nausea too..
*To my lil twinkie-lee's Mommy loves you and can't wait to see you movin around inside me again.. And I am even more anxious to hold you both in my arms in 6-7 months!*
We're almost outta 'the zone' now! Another week and a few days and I will feel safer. Of course, then comes risk of premature labor thanks to this lovely gift my father had bestowed upon me. I am finding it hard as hell to eat 6 times a day like I am spose to, but so far, so good. And it's given me more energy, too.
M/S and nausea have for the most part subsided, but here to take their place is.. drumroll please... MY LOVELY OUTDOOR ALLERGIES!! (Stupid &#^#( pollen and mold!!!) My nose is all crappy I just wanna cut it off.. My eyes itch, and my throat hurts from all my sneezing and oh yeah.. my sinuses are so clogged it's not even funny.
Kenna and Amber had dance class *achoo* today.
I wanna go for a walk but I feel crappy, oh so crappy. Maybe we will go anyways. The rain seems to have stopped and hell, if we get stuck in it, we can always take a bus home!
*to my twinkie lee's- I can feel you growing cause I feel the stretching in my tummy! I feel soooo close to you and every time I see a baby I get more excited about your arrival in the fall! Love~Mommy*
Happy Mother's Day to all my readers! It's been good so far. Our church holds a mother's breakfast every year where the women sit and socialize and the men do everything so instead of breakfast in bed, I had that. The my kiddo's pampered me with the gifts they picked out for me. Sweet pea body wash, bubble bath and lotion, and a photo album. I'm all about scented stuff and this sweet pea stuff smells REALLY good! I can't wait to use it.
We've decided to send Amber to church camp for a week in June cause she "REALLY REALLY REALLY want's to go, mom". The more I think about it, the more it's gonna be wierd having her gone from me for that long. Ever since she was 1, I have always been with her and never been without her for longer than 2 days, and that was right around the corner at my sister's house. Where was I till she was 1, you ask? When she was 5 months old I went away to school to get a trade under my belt. I wanted SO bad for my father to be proud of me for continuing the family trade (everyone on my dad's side of the family has been involved in construction, so I took carpentry). I regrettably did that, knowing I would miss a few firsts of Ambers. But in the interest of not being a welfare mom for the rest of my life, I sucked it all up and went. 7 months later I graduated (way ahead of schedule cause I busted my *** there) and came home only to find out that most of the construction places around here wouldnt hire a female carpenter and the one's that would, would only hire you if you had your own truck which I didn't have. So anyways, that's that story. But hey, atleast I could build my own dream home now!
I can't believe it's already almost the middle of May. I hope the rest of my pregnancy goes this fast!
I would have wrote this entry sooner but there has been soooooo much crap going on and I have been super busy (lucky to have time to remember to breathe!!)
I went to my new doc, my perinatologist, on tue and she says there is no chance for a VBAC cause of my weight, reason for my last c/s, and the amount of scar tissue on my uterus (it looks like there is a maple leaf on the durn thing!! I dunno HOW they sewed it up but DAMN!!) And speaking of my weight.. I lost 5 lbs in one week on the ultra-feel-like-you-are-always-eating/pregnancy diabetic plan. The plan: eat 50 zillion times a day (it feels like that anywho) and do either 1/2 hr of exercise or yoga a day to keep everything toned and disciplined.. I opt for yoga cause it relaxes me physically and mentally while I am working and training my muscles.
Anywho, babies look nice and healthy. Their HB's were 168 and 173 on tue. Tho, with the u/s my Dr tried to tell me I was only 8 wks 4 days at that time and tried tellin me she was movin my EDD to Dec 19th.. But I came home and did the math and there is NO WAY that I could be due the 19th cause that means that I concieved on March 28th, but my preg was confirmed 4 days after that.. So, not possible.. Plus that would mean that my LMP was sometime in March.. again, not possible. Why do Dr's act like you don't know when you could have got pg or when your last AF was?!?! AF last showed her ugly head on Feb 26th so two weeks after that is when I got pg, not no damn MArch 28th or whatever.. I'm just kinda worried about what she's sayin cause I dont usually go into labor on my own and she is wanting to schedule a c/s @ 38 weeks.. but her 38 wks is really 40 wks in my case and I just don't want anything to be wrong with my beans!! That's what they looked like on the u/s a couple of lil beans!!
**to my twinkie-lee's- I love you!! Keep growing and bouncin around!! We are starting to get ready for your arrival!! It's coming soon (but not soon enough)**
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh I'm annoyed right now.. All I keep thinking about is the diabetic council lady who called me today informing me of all of this stuff that MY DOCTOR failed to tell me.. Supposedly I need insulin.. HTF can she know that without even giving me a blood glucose test?!?! There is no possible way that I can need insulin.. With as much sugar as I consumed and craved in my first few weeks of preg, I would have been DEAD if I was diabetic enough to need insulin shots..
I am really starting to think that this DR doesnt know her a-- from a hole in the ground.. First she says that "you must have been off with your LMP date, cause you're due Dec 19th by my calc and the u/s" yeah, well that puts my conception date at March 27th, and my next period due on April 12th.. Wanna explain to me then how this PG was confirmed TEN DAYS before my AF was due?? NONE of what she said re: my GA makes any sense whatsoever and I swear to GAWD that if either of the other two hospitals here were worth a spit, I would switch doctors!! What's next? One of my babies "mysteriously dissappears"???? Hell, it wouldnt surprise me, with the way things are going with her.
I am not going by what she said. I know when my LMP was and I know how far along you have to be to have a PG confirmed by a stick test so I am goin by my original DD. So my babies are small, that doesn't mean that I am any less pg than I really am. All my kids were smal at birth(my kids from DH anyways)
Alright, I think I am done yelling and whining for now.. LOL..
MEN!!Ugh! DH has been such a prick today. We are broke as all get-out right now, and he KNOWS this.. what money we DO have has to get him back and forth to his new job and what does he do? Goes out and buys lunch with it!! GRRRRRRRR!! We had JUST enough to get him back and forth (BTW, untill this fall neither one of us drive-- long story) and he knew that! I wanted to reach thru the phone and slap the crap outta him when he told me he had bought lunch!! So now he has to walk to and from work till Wed when we get some money in. HE tried givin me attitude about it sayin "Well I was hungry" and I was like "well we have lunch stuff HERE!" and he goes "well I'm not there now am I?" ... *Well you were this morning before you left for work weren't you** And then he hangs up on me!! So needless to say, he is gonna get the silent treatment today when he gets home..
Babieswise, all is good.. my lil beans are makin me VERY sleepy and givin me very frequent trips to the potty.. Maybe that's their revenge for my laziness in not doing my Yoga for a few days. I really need to get back into that.
I am voluntarily switching doctors soon cause this Peri I see now is jumping the gun too much and it's making me VERY uncomfortable around her. So I am going to start going to the Dr who performed my last c/s. Dr Beaton. He is an excellent Dr! It's rare that a dr can make such a huge impression on me in such a short amount of time as he did. Just in doing my aftercare in the hosp and at 2 and 6 weeks, he was great. And I know several people who are PT's of his who wouldnt see anyone else for all the $$ in the world. I am 100% confident that he will take good care of me.. And I know he doesn't jump the gun like Dr W does.
**My lil beans- you guys should be about "twinkie" size soon!! Keep growing and movin!
I'm really excited about what I have planned to do with the cradle that was given to us. Right now, it is just cream colored so we are gonna repaint it. Ricky has decided he doesn't like Care Bears anymore. So we have decided to go with celestial moons and stars. We are gonna paint the base of the cradle and the straight parts on it midnight blue, and the little stripes on it are gonna be gold, and I am gonna buy some moons and stars stencils and paint those on the flat parts too. I thought that would be different and cute.
Pregnancy is goin well but my Dr wants me to go and get all these new tests for my diabetes and crap. I'm gonna do them, but I am gonna suggest to her about giving me the under the tongue insulin stuff instead of the shots. **keeping fingers crossed** And I gotta do a 24 hr urine collection to make sure my kidneys are still functioning properly. **again crossing fingers.. I don't need anymore complications**
Kinda OT here, but I got something yesterday that I have never had.. Contacts!! And I love them!! Ricky got them, too. It's just odd to see my WHOLE face (and be able to see it :P)
Babywise, I was doing great up till this morning when I woke up crampy and spotty. The spotting is tapering off, but the cramps are still there. Feels like it's in my right ovary.. Yucka!! Hopefully it will pass..
Went to my appt today and she did another scan for heartbeats, and once again only saw one baby(she heard the other last time, but didn't even hear him/her today). She doesn't really seem that worried about it but to say that she is gonna do a transvag u/s at my next appt (June 24th#3:30)to see if she picks the other baby up then.. I am so nervous and worried and stressed and ALL of me hopes I'm freaking over nothing.
But I did get a little silver lining to that grey cloud today. While Dr was searching high and low for the other baby, she was checkin out the one she did find, and happened to notice "what appears to be"her ovaries forming.
Amber is at summer camp till Saturday and I miss the hell outta her.. Figures she is fine and MOMMY gets the separation anxiety