~New PG development~ Two solid days of the "gags".. All day long, everything and anything with a scent, texture, or a funky look. I was nauseated yesterday BIG TIME (made grocery shopping really fun. But today's "gags" weren't accompanied by nausea, they were just there. Slicing strawberries for Ricky's daddys day dessert*gag*(and I love strawberries!!) opening the veggies to go with dinner*gag*. watching the syrup oozze outta the bottle onto my kid's pancakes*gag*. It's about got me on the brink of insanity. Hope it goes away soon! I have not ever had this with any other pregnancy and I'm kinda wondering if I am the only one on earth who has been blessed with this gift.
I've been feelin alot of movement lately, which tickles me pink! Also, I am beyond "obviously" pregnant to passersby. They all think I'm about ready to pop. I can't count the number of times I was asked yesterday "oh!! Any time now huh?" and the look on the faces when I say " not till November or December!"
Amber came home yesterday~YAY~!! She had a ball at camp and I'm glad she did, but she knew we all missed her, and she even admitted that she cried to come home three times.. Mon, Wed and Fri. I told her tho that I was glad she stayed to have fun!
I've taken a liking to the name Joryn but the problem is that Ricky doesn't like it . What a shame.. That just means that I will have to knock him out long enough to fill out Jory's birth certificate j/k..
~To my Beaniebabes~ I hope you are both still in there. I really want to meet both of you in a few months! Mommy and Daddy love you and look forward to your bouncing each day. I can't wait to see you wiggling and bouncing about on the u/s monitor next week!~
I have been crying on and off all afternoon since I got back.. Nothing but bad news bad news bad news. Twin A is gone, and babygirl(formerly twin B.. that's gpnna take some getting used to ) had a way elevated heartrate. I am on pretty seriously limited activity until there is a decent drop in her heartrate. I am such at a loss for words about all this right now. It's so not fair, It's so horrible, but yet I am grateful that I do have one healthy baby to bring into the world.. Do I sound harsh and *****y for saying that? I hope not because I AM sad that I am no longer an expectant mommy of twins.. God Bless my lil Angel babe.
I just feel so cursed. Why? Why do I have to lose TWO children in a little over 3 years? Another piece of my heart has broken off, never to be found again..
To my bug and my Angel~ Mommy loves you both very much and I know you miss each other, babygirl, you showed that today by your stressed-out heartrate.. Buggygirl, just hang in there and keep growing stronger. I can't wait to meet you in 21 weeks. Love~ Mommy, Daddy and your sibs.
Well, I went to the diabetic lady on Wed.. she gave me my "poker" ( testing pen and lancets) and monitor. Ever since I started monitoring my sugars, my levels have been below target (yay) well, with the exception of after last night's Golden Corrall dinner. BAD DI!! They have a dessert bar with two sugar-free desserts. Jello and masty lookin pudding. Well dummy me looks at all the other stuff too and begin reasoning with myself.. "OK if I just take a small square of cheesecake-twice the size of a jolly rancher candy, mind you- and like 4 of these apple slices from some apple cobbler and OH LOOK!! bananna pudding.. So scoop. scoop scoop they all went on my plate.. (btw it was one spoonful of bananna pudding) Now I'm with my gramma havin dinner and I figure as we chat, I will eat my sugar free jello, and take a nibble at each of the other 3 things. Well, I am ashamed to admit that "a nibble" turned into all of it so my sugar was 3 pts over target after dinner last night.. Still not bad but I feel like **** about it.
OK that's that.. Next!!!!
I had my appt with my new OB today and OMG I wish I would have started seeing her sooner.. She is great! She said with my levels staying (almost always) under target, there is no reason that I need to be seen every two weeks (till 26-28 ) andddddddddd.. **Drumroll please** she is gonna let me try a VBAC!!!!! And on top of that, she gave me a book of baby names cause I told her me and Ricky were havin a hard time picking one. She really takes her patients concerns into consideration and I like that.
Babygirl looks good, she said but the placenta is layin all but on top of her. She was suckin her one hand and playing with her foot with the other. OH what a nice u/s pic that would have made!(too bad it was too light cause I had just went potty before they took me back ) Without me even havin to ask, she stated that it didn't look problematic at this point, but that they will keep an eye on it. How spoiled I feel not even having to ASK my Dr about what's going on. And even more so that my answer doesn't come with a heaping helping of attitude.
Babygirlbug~Your big sister Kenna and I saw you today. Kenna was very excited and so was I! I finally found a doctor who is good to us. And it will only be a matter of 21-22 weeks before you are in my arms. Keep growing and bouncing!
Wow! I can't believe in just 13 days I will be at the halfway point already. I've been noticing that lil miss Buggie likes to lay about 1/2 inch to the right of my bellybutton. That's where I always feel her layin when I poke around for her. All is going well babywise. Been testin my sugars like I'm spose to 4x a day. The only ones I have a problem with are my fasting ones first thing in the AM.. Soooooo the dietician says the endocrinologist is prolly gonna put me on night insulin shots.. As much as I was dead set against it before, I guess once a day isn't that bad, especially if it's gonna help ensure that my lil one is born VBAC and not be too big, or have too much sugar in her system, or taht my sugar isn't gonna go outta control.
It's been hotter'n hell lately here. Wouldn't be so bad if not for the humidity. All this blessed heat has inspired me to cut all my hair off. I feel much cooler with it shorter anyways.
We have the cradle ALMOST done now, so soon I will be able to post pics of it. Well, not really soon, we still have to get the bumper pads and sheets for it first. I want to post the finished product, not half-done.
Names have been the topic of discussion in many of mine and hubby's chats together. There's just so many that we like, so we have decided to let our parents and other kids help with the process. We're gonna make a list of all the names we like, then each of our parents gets to pick out 3 or 4 that they like, then of those, our girls each pick one. From our girls' two, we choose.
Miss buggy~ I feel you bouncin still and each day that passes is another day closer to having you in our arms. Love~ mommy
Holy cow I can't believe I'm already almost halfway there! 5 months and boy am I feelin pregnant now! Not to mention I am really looking the part! Lil miss nameless is bouncin all over the place and spreadin my hips apart like crazy. It hurts soo bad when I turn over at night cause my hips POP and omgg pain shoots!! Just like with Brendan and Madison. My sugars have been excellent to the point that all diabetics I know are jealous of me cause they cant ever get their sugars so low w/o meds.
I have this odd feeling that next week at my u/s my EDD is gonna be moved to some time in November. Maybe that's just me cause when I lie or sit down I can feel every part of this lil girl. From head to knees to feetsies and hands and that is odd for someone my size at this stage in a preg.
I have decided that I am gonna crochet a baby blanket for her, since noone else will make me one.. Meanies Goin to Walmart tonight to get some of that baby multi yarn and some white also so I can alternate stripes. I think that would be cute.. and then maybe scallop the edges in pink..
Maybe someday I will figure out how to get pics on here so I can post my really-5-month-but-looks-9-month pregnant belly and next week's 3-D u/s pics.. lol
Babygirl~ I feel so close to you and I love feelin your little kicks and rolls and such. Just a few more months and you will be in our arms forever.. And please show daddy that you do not hate him, because he thinks you do when you play hide and seek with him.
We love you Jayden and will miss you so much. Your big sister Madison and your twin will keep you company till we can be reunited.
You are so beautiful, my baby boy. I'm sorry things didn't work like they should have for us. Mommy's heart and arms are so empty without you.
Just watch us from heaven and know that my spirit holds you all day long.