EDD 24/6/04: A souvenir from Menorca!

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EDD 24/6/04: A souvenir from Menorca!

4 weeks

Hi baby Pootle!

This is your Mummy here. I knew about your existance on Tuesday, but decided to wait until today to start your Journal.

We are all so excited to learn about you. I just knew that you would soon be gracing us with your presence. Mummy and Daddy have been back from our holiday for a week, so that make you our holiday souvenir, something that can't be found in any shop and something that no one else will have, because you are very special.

As well as Mummy and Daddy, you have a big brother, Connor who is nearly 2 1/2. You also have a little angel that watches over you. Her name is Boo. This is the baby that Mummy lost before I got pg with you. I say Her name because I felt that she was a girl.

I told your Nanny & Grandad Morgon about you yesterday as it was Grandad's birthday and he lives in the US, so I don't get to see much of him, but he said that it was the best present that he had! I also told your great grandparents and my best friend. I only have my Mum and Your Dad's parents left to tell. Daddy and I thought originally that we weren't going to tell anyone this time in case the same thing happened as last time, but I feel so positive about you, plus, I would rather have all the support I can get!!

Mummy went to see the GP yesterday to tell him about you and see if we can get an appointment to see you soon. I expected to have to fight with him about it, but he just said that I can have an early scan whenever I want, I could go in on the morning that I chose and probably have the appointment in the afternoon of the same day!! I am thinking of November 4th, when I will be 6+3, as it is a tuesday and it means that your daddy can come too.

At the moment, Mummy is feeling good, the only real sysmptoms I have are sore dollies and needing to pee more. I am not moaning, in fact I truely am enjoying every moment.

I already have a feeling that you are a boy, but Nanny Marg thinks that you are a girl. I guess that I should get a poll going after the scan!!

Anyway baby, I have to go. I need to go into town to get Connors new shoes fitted and look around for ideas for xmas. I love you lots already. xx

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5w+0d

Hi sweetheart,

Mummy is quite cross now, I have just finished writing a really long entry with personals and everything and now it is gone :evil:

Anyway, I would have wrote earlier in the week, but there really isn't much going on at the moment, so thouhgt that I would update on a weekly basis unless something happens.

The good news is that I have told all of our family about you and they are all thrilled to hear about you. I had originally thought that I would like to keep it a secret until we had our early scan, but I decided that everybody would want to know and plus, if anything happened, I would want the same support that we had last time, not that anything is going to happen to you (do you hear me??!!!!) Plus, I promised myself that I would enjoy every moment that I have with you, and I totally enjoyed telling everyone!!

As for Mummy, I feel great. My bb's are so sore that I would probably drop kick anyone who accidentally brushed passed me!!! I have no real m/s to speak of, although the heartburn has kicked in alonf with the tiredness. But do you know what sweetheart? I don't care!!!! I am just so happy that you are with me, hopefully growing srtong in the comfort of my tummy.

I guess that Mummy had ought to go to town and see if she can find something that will keep me busy for the next 10 days. IT'S ONLY 10 DAYS UNTIL MUMMY AND DADDY GET TO SEE YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME ON A SCAN. WE ARE SO EXCITED. IS IT OBVIOUS??!!!!!

Anyway, sweetheart, I have to go now. I have to get your brother dressed, and then go into town and get another xmas present for your Daddy. I am trying to get all the main xmas shopping done by mid november.

I love you very much already pootle, so please grow strong for me, ok?
Mummy xx

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5w+4d

Well Pootle, today mummy is very worried. This time I am not worrying about you (well just a little bit). I am worried about my dad, step mum and sister (your Nanny & Grandad Morgon & Aunty Kirrah). They live in Victorville in California and they have been forced to leave their home today because there are forest fires rampaging. I am sure that they will be fine, but I still can't help worrying.

As for you, my sweet, you have been making mummy feel sick on and off. Yesterday I felt quite queasy most of the day, today I have felt much better, but felt a bit queasy about half an hour ago, but it has eased off again. I know that this is supposed to be a good sign, but it is a long time until 12 weeks!!! I have also noticed that my boobs are nowhere near as sore today (I hope that this is not a bas sign, just a case of my body getting used to the hormones). Mummy and Daddy are getting more excited and anxious about hopefully meeting you on Tuesday. I am going to have to keep myself busy until I go back to work on Moday, so that the time will hopefully fly by.

Anyway, this was just a quick update, to get my fears off my chest, and also because some of Mummy's old TTC journal buddies wanted an update, you know who you are!!!!) So I will leave it there until either saturday, ot until something else happens. I love you very much Pootle, please grow strong for us. xxx

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6w+2d

Hi Baby,

Well, you have Mummy really scared right now. I have had to go and see the Dr because I have had some lower abdominal pain for the last 2 days. Mummy and Daddy are going to the hospital to have our scan a day earler than anticipated and we want to see that you are growing in the right place. I am trying to remain positive that the pain is just where I may have pulled something either when I turned over in bed the other night, or from all the sneezing that I have done and not anything more sinister.

Anyway, sweetheart. I hope to be able to see you growing strong and healthy in just 2 1/2 hours time. Please know that we love you very much, and I hope that Boo is looking out for you. Mummy xx

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Hi Baby!!!

Well, needless to say, Daddy & I have never been so relieved. We got to see you on the scan, and I have to say, you looked wonderful. You are measuring exactly right for 6w+2d and we got to see your little heartbeat flickering away.

The only bit of bad news that we got is that the sonographer saw a little bleed in my uterus and has warned me that I may bleed, but it has nothing to do with the baby, although she did say that if I got at all worried that I could go back and get scanned again. If all goes well, I will definately see you on 16th Dec for your 12 weeks scan, if not sooner.

Anyway, Mummy has to go and check on your brother as he is sick with a cold at the moment and I can hear him tossing and turning in his sleep. You keep growing strong for us sweetie, we know that you can do it. Love you lots and lots. Mummy xx

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6w+6d

Hi Baby,

I hope that you are doing better than Mummy. It seems that your brother has given me his cold, so needless to say, I am feeling quite miserable at the moment. I think what bugs me most is that I can't breathe!! Connor seemed to get better but his nose is running again today, so I will have to wait and see how he is. At least he can take cold meds.

Mummy & Daddy can't agree on your nickname at the moment. Your Daddy wants to call you Pootle, I want to call you Pip (becasue that's the size you are right now) and we toyed with Nemo. We thought about Nemo because with Connor I had an excess amount of water for him to swim about in!! We decided not to go with Nemo though becaue Connor is obsessed and we figured that he will probably be really upset when we bring home a baby and not a fish!!!

Not much going on this week, apart from Mummy's cold. But I did notice yesterday that you are making your presence known to my body, as my tummy has "pooched" and I have suddenly been visited by the titty fairy!!!

Keep growing strong for us baby, we love you dearly. xx

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8weeks

Hello Baby!

I'm sorry that it has been a while since I updated, but I have not been with it enough to post much!! I had 4 days last week where I felt sick as a dog all day, then I started to feel better and natuarally panicked that something wasn't right!!

I have also been really tired, and have really not felt up to posting much, I haven't even kept up with any of my old buddies. I am just counting down the days to my next appointment. I have my first appointment with my midwife at 9+3 (25th nov) and am hoping that she will send us for another scan based on te info that it was in week 9 that we found out that we lost Boo.

Aprt from that I have been feeling alot of stretching/cramping pains. At first I was worried, but there is no blood, so figure that it is just my uterus growing. I have also been toying with the idea of renting a doppler, but still haven't made up my mind, I guess that it will ave alot to do with what Mark says. I know that he wants me to stop worrying, but he doesn't understand how hard it is to try and relax and enjoy.

Anyway my love, Mummy is fighting a loosing battle against tiredness, so will end it there for now. Please contunue to grow strong for us. We love you very much. Mummy x

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9w+1d

Hi Baby!!

I am sorry for not updating sooner but it hasn't seemed appropriate to update over the last few days. I was quite worried on Friday (8+6) because that was when I started spotting with Boo, but thankfully I have had no spotting. Then yesterday was the same time in weeks that we found out the Boo was gone, so it has been a bit of a stressful week.

Mark & Connor have been great. Connor has no idea about how I have been feeling, but his little face is enough to make me smile and feel better, and Mark has been cheering me up with his positive attitude.

Apart from that, I am feeling much better, I had about 4/5 days where I felt rougher than a porcuppine's bottom and then it kind of wore off and I feel pretty normal now, apart from the bigger boob's, which is making it increasingly difficult to sleep on my tummy (wanted to enjoy being able to do this before I can't do it for many months!!!) I am now just anxiously awaiting my first midwife appointment on Tuesday. I am hoping that the midwife will be supportive and send us for a second reassurance scan, as my next scheduled scan isn't until 16th Dec.

Tha's pretty much all from me for now, Baby. Please continue to grow strong. We love you very much. xx

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9w+4d

Hi Baby,

I was going to update yesterday, but was not in a very good mood, so didn't think that I would bother taking out my anger on your Journal!!

Anyway, I went to see the midwife yesterday for what was meant to be my booking in appointment. Needless to say, I was extreamly disappointed as the woman who saw me informed me that she was not my midwife, my midwife is on long term sick leave. Go bloody figure. All she did was check my blood pressure and a sample check, which were fine. Then she said that someone (couldn't say who) would come out to my house to do a proper booking in appointment next friday (5th Dec) When I asked about another scan, she didn't even acknowldge me or seem bother about my concerns about my previous m/c. It just made me soooo mad. I came home and was really upset, but Mark cheered me up by saying that I could rent a doppler for a month, so that we can try and find the heartbeat. Hopefully this will put my mind at rest while I have to wait another 3 weeks for my next scan.

That really is all on the baby front, apart from some of the girls at work commenting that I seem to have developed a little belly in the last week!! I guess they keep forgetting that this is my second pregnancy this year. I will update soon baby, please keep growing strong and be a good little baby, so that Mummy can pick up your heartbeat easily when the doppler gets here!!! love you lots xxx

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9w+5d

Hi Baby!!

I know that I only wrote yesterday, but I was so excited that I just had to write today.

The doppler that Mummy ordered arrived this morning. I tried for about 10 minutes this morning before I got out of bed and nothing. So I decided that I would go for a pee and then try again. When I tried for the second time, I picked up the beautiful sound of your heartbeat within 30 seconds. I was so strong and fast, about 170 bpm, so you are either a very active little thing or maybe a :sleepygirl:

I rang your Daddy straight away, but because I was using my mobile, it kept interfering with the unit so he couldn't hear you, so you will just have to be a good little baby this evening as well, becasue your Dady would love to be able to hear you too.

Anyway sweetheart, we are all really glad that everything seems to be great with you, especially after all the worrying that Mummy has been doing, but now I feel like I can totally relax, enjoy you and get to know you better. We love you so much. xxx

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10w+6d

Hi Baby!!!

Well, I said that I would update when anything happened. Today the midwife came to visit us at home to finish off the booking in appointment. I was really pleased to see that it was one of the midwives that I saw when I was having your brother. She took all of our family history, details of your brothers birth and explained all about the various tests that need to be done. Thankfully I don't have to have my bloods done until I am 16 weeks!!! The next big thing for us is the next scan on 16th Dec at 12w+3d.

I know that you are growing well because we listen to you at least once a day, mainly Connor and I. Connor won't go to bed until he has listened to the baby!! It is quite sweet, not sure what we are going to do when we send the doppler back!!! When we were listening last night (your Daddy was there too) we could here you kicking and moving as well as your heart beating, it is such a marvellous sound!!! I can't wait until I can actually feel you move inside me. I felt Connor's first movements at 16/17 weeks, so am hoping to feel yours a little bit earlier.

Anyway Sweetheart, have to go now, as I promised Connor that we would do some arts and crafts today. We are going to make some decorations for christmas, maybe some glittery stars that we can hang from the ceiling, or maybe we should just cover Connor in glitter and hang him from the ceiling?!!! Love you lots and lots. Mummy xxx

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11w+6d

Hello my sweet baby,

Well, Mummy is in a fantastic mood!!! This is the last day that I will be in the first trimester! As of tomorrow, I will be 12 weeks. I have to admit, that for a while, it seemed like this day would never come, it seems to have taken forever!!

Also, a good friend of Mummy's has found out that she is going to have her first baby. I couldn;t be more excited for her if I tried. It is just such fantastic news and has brough so really cheer to this holiday season.

As for how you are doing, we still listen to your heartbeat everyday. We are hearing you kick about and swim away more than anything at the moment. You seem to be so active. I can't wait until I can actually feel you moving about. I really don't think that it will be too far away now, as I have had a few weird feelings just above my pubic bone, but nothing that I could say for definate that it was you.

We are all getting really excited now, we get to see you again on Tuesday, after 6 long weeks of waiting after the last scan. Your Daddy and I can't wait to see you again, and we are going to take your brother along with us. The when we get home we are going to celebrate by putting up our Christmas tree and all the decorations. Connor always gets excited when we put the tree up, and we couldn't think of a better way to enjoy the rest of our family day. After the scan on Tuesday, I will have an appointment with an OB consultant on Thursday and thanfully don't have to have my bloods done until I get to 16 weeks!!

Anyway my precious one, the washing machine waits for no one, so I will leave it here for now and update on Tuesday after we see you. We all love you very much. xxx

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12+3 (or 12+5 by scan!)

Hi Sweetheart!!

We are so excited. We got to see you on the scan today and just as we imagined, you are beautiful!!! What we weren't expecting was for you to look so much like Connor did at his first scan. It is so cute to see how alike you are. I know that there is lots of time to change, but we thought that it was cute.

As you can see from the top, they have amended my due date slightly, now instead of the 26th June, they reckon the 24th. I'm not holding my breath as your brother was more than a week late!!

One of the best things about today was Connor's reaction to seeing you. He kept pointing to you on the screen (blocking my view!), telling us to look at the baby and then kept asking to see the pictures. Then as a celebration, we all put up the xmas decorations and tree when we got home. It truely has been a wonderful day.

Anyway, not much else has happened since the last entry, so I will leave it here until Thursday as that is my next appointment.

The photo's that I got are attached below.

We love you lots and lots, little one. Oh, by the way, before I forget, we will get to see you again on 10th Feb, when we will hopefully finding out your sex!!! xxxxxxx

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13weeks today!

Hi Baby!!!

Well, Mummy had a consultants appointment today, which turned out to be be little more that a routine antenatal appointment, but at the hospital instead of the dr's. I was kept waiting for 40 minutes. There was another woman who had brought her child with her. He was screaming and crying when I arrived and he was still screaming and crying when I got called for my appointment. Needless to say I have a HUGE headache now!!! I purposely left Connor with the mother in law, but to be honest, he has never, ever been that badly behaved. I would have died in embarrasment as everyone was talking about and shooting daggers at the screaming child and his parents.

Anyway, about the appointment. First of all, the midwife tried to tell me that I was 16 weeks! I just told her to work it out again. Duh, since when should I be telling the health proffesionals how to do their jobs?? The the Dr came in an took my blood pressure, tested my urine, explained my blood tests and palpated my uterus. She said that I didn't need to see the consultant as I was a second time Mum who has no history of problems. The she advised me that she wasn't going to try to hear the heart beat as it is too hard to find until 16 weeks. To be honest, I wasn't that bothered as I had listened on my own doppler before I went as I just knew that they we not even going to try.

All I have to do now is make an appoinment with my midwife at the Gp's for 16/17 weeks and just go from there.

The only other bit of news that I really have, is that I think that I may be starting to feel some of your more vigorous movements. I know that it is very early and that you would have to be doing a double somersault or something, but I know what I felt. I have onlt felt it a few times, mainly after eating and quite low down, on the left hand side. Your Daddy's not sure what to think, but like I said to him, I can't possibly have wind all the time!!

Anyway sweet baby, I am going to go and just chill out until Connor wakes up, then we are going to make some more decorations while we wait for Daddy to come home (Connor hasn't seen him since yesterday morning). We all love you very much. Just keep doing what your doing. Mummy xxxx

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13w+6d

Hi Baby!!

Well, today has been a busy day, but a nice day none the less. We all went to the Srvern valley railway and went on the Santa steam train. The train goes from Kidderminster and ends up in Arley. Then we got off and quesed up to see santa in his grotto. I was so proud of your brother. Last year he was scared, but this year he sat on Santa's lap and told him that he wanted some toys for xmas (so cute!!) We went with some friends of ours, and a nice time was had by all, you included!!

I know that there isn't much of an update that is pg related, but to be honest, bot much is happening at the moment and I wanted to update before xmas. The only thing is that I hope that I am going to get to feel you move properly in the next week or so, as we are at 14 weeks tomorrow.

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15 weeks!!

Hi Sweet baby!

Mummy, Daddy & Connor wanted to wish you a happy new year!!! I can't believe that it is 2004 already. I can now finally say that I am going to be having a baby this year.

As for you, I can only guess that you continue to grow strong for us. We returned the doppler after our 12 week scan, so I haven't be able to listen to you when I want. I can say that I have been feeling some of your wriggles more and more regularly, but I think that your Daddy is getting impatient as he wants to be able to feel you too.

I got home from work yesterday to find a letter from Walsall Hospital to say that I have an antenatal consultant appointment with Mr Head on Monday at 2pm. I know that I already had an appointment at Cannock, but I intend to go to this one also, otherwie it will still be another 3 weeks before I see a midwife again. I guess I am just being greedy wanting to be seen again, but this pregnancy lark isn't that much easier second time around!! You still have the same worries and concerns as with your first. Plus, I am hoping to be able to hear your precious heartbeat again!!! I asked your Daddy if he wanted to come with me, but he said that he wasn't that bothered. I was kind of upset about that, but didn't let on. I understand that we have been through this before and that he would be the one left looking after Connor and that we could end up waiting for a long time as appoinments ofter run over, but a little bit of support wouldn't go amis. I also don't like the looks that some people give you when they presume that because you are there by yourself, that you must be a single mother.

Anyway, I think that is enough ranting for now. I really should go and get dressed and start some housework. I won't have time to do it tomorrow as Daddy & I are off to see LOTR: ROTK, for a lovely, Connor free afternoon. We don't go out very often without him, as we are of the opinion that you don't have children to always be palming them off onto someone else. We didn't go out last night, instead we had a little party here with just the 3 and a bit of us!!!

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15w+5d

Hi Sweetheart!!

Well, thought that I should update with news of how yesterdays appointment went. As it was the first time the Walsall Manor has seen me, it was like starting from scratch. I first of all saw the midwife, who did all the usual checks. She then advised that there were not measurements in my notes from the 12 week scan and that they like to have measurements to see how things are progresssing. So the surprising, but nice part of yesterday was that I got to see you up on the screen again!! You seem to have grown so much in 3 weeks, you little legs wouldn't fit on the picture (although I suspect that she purposley didn't spend too much time in the leg region, just in case I saw something I shouldn't have done, besides, the big scan isn't for another 5 weeks!!)

Then I had to have all my bloods drawn for all the various tests, AFP, Triple test, HIV, And routine bloods for blood count and grouping. I have to give the woman credit where it is due, although it took her a while to find a vein, it only took about a minute after that and I hardly have a bruise!!

Then I had to see a dr, who did the fundus height, listened to my heart, previous history and then listened to your heartbeat. It took her almost 10 minutes of trying to hear you, all we could hear were swishing movements of you swimming away!!! Then when we could hear you, it lasted all of 6 seconds before you were off again. I wasn't so bothered as I had seen your heart beating away on the scan about 40 minutes earlier!! As for the scan photo, it is nowhere near a clear as your others, it looked like you had hiccups and it's a bit too dark to add today.

All in all, a very good appointment. They now want me to have my next scan there instead of Cannock, which is fine by me as they could get me in a day earlier!! All I have to do now is practice telling people that we are not going to say what you are!!

My next update will probably be at the weekend, when I take my next belly photo.

I love you lots and lots xxx

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16w+1d

Hi sweetheart,

Not much new going on, but I did say that I would update when daddy took my new set of belly pics, which he did last night.
I spent last night watching the video of Connor as a newborn baby. He was soooo cute and I couldn't get over how small he was. I so can't wait to see if you look anything like he did as a baby or if you are going to have a look all of your own, although I am certain that it will be just as cute.

Anyway, I have to go, your brother is driving me nuts at the moment, trying to twirl the chair while I am sitting on it!! I love you lots and lots. xxx

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16w+6d

Hi baby!

Well, not much to update with as I don't see the midwife until next week, but felt the need to write to you. I have been feeling really crap since Sunday, when I started to come down with a cold, which of course, has got worse over the days, so I have been off work all this week (only work Mon, Tues & Wed). Miraculously, neither your Daddy or Brother have shown any signs of getting the cold so far, but then again, I have tried to keep us to ourselves!! I am sure that you are doing fine, but I can't help but worry that feeling miserable has had some kind of effect on you.

Also, some of the ladies on the June board, have started to find out what they are having at their scans which is all very exciting. One lady even posted the theme for the baby's nursery and it was so cute, but it did make me feel kind of sad. All of the things that we did for your brother, decorate the nursery and buying the necessities (pushchair, car seat etc) we won't be able to do for you. Now before you get totally offended, it's not because we love you any less than Connor, it's just that we are going to re-use all of our big things as they are in near perfect condition, although you will require a stoller of your own, as Connors is filthy, plus, I would like you to have something brand new!! As for the nursery, we live in a tiny 2 bed house and Connor has his own room. We told him that he could choose what he wants to have his room decorated in when he turns 3, 3 1/2. You will probably sleep in our room until you are 4/5 months, just like your brother did. The only thing is that now I am having a panic that you are infact going to be a girl and that you would not get to have the pretty nursery that I would want you to have and this makes me very sad

I don't know why I am getting myself into such a state, we aren't due to find out what you are until 9th Feb!! Although we have asked Connor what he thinks and he says that Mummy is having a girl and that he is going to have a sister!! It is very cute to hear him talk of a little sister. I just hope that you show us the money at your scan, so that we can prepare Connor for a shock if you turn into a brother!!!

Anyway, Connor is at Nanny Marg's today, so I should be doing loads of stuff as I have the house to myself for a change!! I will update on Tuesday when I see the midwife if I don't do it before then.

I love you little one. xxx

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18 weeks!!!

Hi Baby!!

I am getting about lax about updating your journal and for that I must apologise. The weeks just seem to be flying by, I can't believe that we are nearly half way there.

Anyway, I had an appointment with the midwife on Tuesday. She basically said that there was no real need to see me as I was only seen by the hospital 2 weeks ago, but she did the usual checks and I got to listen to the beautiful sound of your heartbeat. I also got the results of my bloods back and everything seems fine, all my results came back as low, which I am quite glad about because the thought of having a needle inserted through my belly gives me the heebee jeebees.

I know in my last post I was getting worked up about not being able to decorate a nursery. Well I have pretty much resigned myself to that fact, but I have had a bit of fun going out and getting you a few outfits instead!! I will add the pics at the bottom of the post. I have also taken some more belly pics today. I know that it was only 2 weeks ago since my last ones, but I have really grown in the last week.

I have no idea what I am going to do to occupy myself with in the next 2 1/2 weeks until our big U/S. I am sooooooo excited. Connor keeps telling all and sundry that you are a little girl, which is getting embarassing as people keep asking if it' true and then saying that they didn't want to know!! Even though we have no idea yet, I do wonder if he perhaps knows something that I don't!!!

Anyway, I have no more to talk about, so I will call it a day there. We love you lots and lots (as Connor would say!!) xxx

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19 weeks!

Hi baby!!

I can't believe that I only have one more week until I am half way through this pregnancy, it seems to have gone so fast, must faster than when I was pregnant with your brother.

I don't really have much to report as I have had no appointments or anything, and our life is pretty boring so not much has happened. It is only 11 days including today to our big scan and we can't wait.

Your father had been complaining recently that he hadn't felt you move yet as you always seemt o stop when he puts his hands on you, but he finally got what he wanted on monday night when you gave him a right kick, several times over. I was able to feel what you were doing through your daddy's hand as my hand was on top of his. You must be growing stronger with each passing day and this make me happy to no end.

Connor and I were talking about shadows last night and he said that he could see his shadow and also could see mummy and the baby!!! It was so cute. I think that it willbe another few weeks yet before he can feel you kicking and moving, as he is not the most patient person!! I guess that comes with onlt being 2 1/2!

Anyway, I think that we are going to have a couple of days at home, as we have had a really cold snap with snow and ice, and I really don't think that it would be worth me having a fall, so we will just wait unil it melts.

Anyway my precious, I will leave it there for now as I was in the middle of making a cup of tea and forgot about it, so now I have to make another!!! We love you very much sweetheart. xxx

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19w+3d

Hello sweetheart!!

I know that it has only been a few days since I last wrote, but I have a couple of things on my mind, and this is the best place to get it of my chest so to speak.

First of all, I noticed yesterday that my boobs have started to leak!! This isn't bothering me, but I had hoped that I would be able to get away with it for longer. At least it isn't bad enough to warrant breat pads at the moment!!! Needless to say, I am sure that your Daddy will be horrified when he finds out!!!

The main thing that is on my mind at the moment, is how things are going to change when you come along. Now don't get me wrong, I am very excited that you are going to be joining our crazy little family, but I can't help but think about how I am going to feel as a mother of two and how Connor is going to feel about suddenly not being the centre of attention. I know that I am not going to have the same kind of time to spend getting to know you as I did with Connor. Even now, I don't feel as bonded to you as I did to Connor. I do love you, so much that it hurts sometimes. I guess that it all comes down to time. This pregnancy is going so fast and I want to make sure that I have time to savour every moment of this very special time, when you are still a part of me.

I guess that this has been dredged up by a post on my birth board. Many of the wonderful ladies are going to be first time mothers and a post was started saying how excited they all are. I am excited too, but am also terrified of suddenly being responsible for 2 little people. I am also worried about how my relationship with you brother is going to change. We have such a special bond and I know that that is going to change. It's not that it won't be as special, it's just that it will be different.

I found this poem on the net, which totally expains how I am feeling:

Loving Two

I walk along holding your 2-year-old hand,
basking in the glow of our magical relationship.
Suddenly I feel a kick from within,
as if to remind me that our time alone is limited.
And I wonder: how could I ever love another child as I love you?

Then he is born,
and I watch you.
I watch the pain you feel at having to share me
as you've never shared me before.

I hear you telling me in your own way,
"Please love only me."
And I hear myself telling you in mine,
"I can't," knowing, in fact, that I never can again.

You cry. I cry with you.
I almost see our new baby as an intruder
on the precious relationship we once shared.
A relationship we can never quite have again.

But then, barely noticing,
I find myself attached to that new being,
and feeling almost guilty.
I'm afraid to let you see me enjoying him -- as though I am betraying you.

But then I notice your resentment change,
first to curiosity,
then to protectiveness,
finally to genuine affection.

More days pass,
and we are settling into a new routine.
The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast.

But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just we two.
There are new times -- only now, we are three.
I watch the love between you grow,
the way you look at each other, touch each other.

I watch how he adores you -- as I have for so long.
I see how excited you are by each of his new accomplishments.
And I begin to realize that I haven't taken something from you,
I've given something to you.
I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you.

I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are,
but equally strong.
And my question is finally answered, to my amazement.
Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you -- only differently.

And although I realize that you may have to share my time,
I now know you'll never share my love.
There's enough of that for both of you -- you each have your own supply.

I love you -- both. And I thank you both for blessing my life."

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I guess that I am just having a really emotional day. I have already cried twice!!! I know that everything will work out just fine in the end. I am not expecting the transformation from 3 to 4 to be easy, but I know that it can be done, otherwise there wouldn't be people who go on to have 3 or more children!!!

I love you so much my precious, I really can't wait to see you and hold you and drink in that wonderful baby smell. I guess that I will have to settle for being able to see you again in 8 days time at our next u/s scan, where hopefully we will be able to give you a bit more of an identity!!!
xxx

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20 weeks!!!

Hello sweetie!!

Woo Hoo!! I feel like celebrating as we have finally reached the half way mark today

To celebrate I went to get my hair cut and boy did it need it. I haven't had my hair cut in like a year and the ends were really horrible from where the perm grew out. Mark said he would divorce me if I got another perm, so now I have nice sleek hair (at least for today, I don't have the patience to blowdry my hair like this!!)

I have also gone around the estate agents this morning to see if I can get some ideas of whatwe are looking at for a 3 bed house in a nice area with good schools. I did pick up some details, although we are in no position to see this house yet. We are going to decorate in March and then do the garden up and replace the fence panels in the back garden and do something about the front garden. The guttering on this place also need to be cleared and the windows re-painted as well as the rendering on the front. So as you can see we have alot to get done. Ideally I would like to put this place on the market in late spring/early summer and hopefully move after you arrive and before Connor is due to start nursery in September. I know that your Daddy was thinking of waiting until 2006 (!!!) but we have no space as it is, what does he think that we are going to do with you when you come?? Keep you in the shed???! I also get the feeling that he thinks that we are going to struggle financially, but we will make do, everyone else does.

Anyway, we are on the big count down to seeing you again on Monday. Connor is convinced that you are a girl. I would be happy with either, but deep down I think that I would like a girl because I think you will be the last baby, but then again, it would be nice for Connor to have a brother for rough and tumble play! I know that my grandparents want you to be a girl, but I guess that it's too late to put an order in, you will be what you are and we will all be exstatic!!! Anyway, I have taken another belly pic, but I am going to have to wait until Daddy gets back to actually post it, as we have had a new computer and I don't think that he has connected the cable!! So I will be back later.

I love you lots my precious little (or not so little as it seems at the moment) bundle. xxx

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20w+3d

Hi Baby!!

Mummy really doesn't have anything to update with, but hope that this might be a good place to express myself, as your Daddy is at work and your brother is having his nap.

I am so excited about tomorrow that I can hardly contain myself!!! I got all og about 5 hours sleep last night, and can't decide if I should put it down to just sleeping bad because I can't get comfortable and keep getting backache, the really bad, windy weather that we had last night or my excitement keeping me awake!!! I have to admit that I am not expecting to get much sleep tonight, but am hoping that my tiredness may help!

Your Daddy is very excited too and we had to admit that we would be more than a little disappointed if you don't play ball!! Oh well, I guess only time will tell.

Connor made me laugh this morning, you were being very active and sticking your little feet out about my belly button. I asked Connor if he wanted to feel you move around, but he point blank refused and was much more excited by the cot matteress that was leaning up against the wall in our room!! We plan on bringing with us tomorrow so that he can "meet" you again.

Can't wait to see you again tomorrow. Lots and lots of love. xxx

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20w+4d

Hello Mummy's little man!!!

Yep! Your heard me right, we found out at our scan today that you, my precious are a beautiful little boy!! I still can't get my head around the fact that Connor is going to have a brother!! Now I just have to find a way to break it to him that he is not having the sister that he has been telling everyone about!!!

Everything looked great at the scan. The lady who was scanning me was obviously not long out of training as she was under the supervision of someone else, but she was lovely and really took her time making sure that everything with you was just perfect. I knew that you were a boy before your Daddy even asked. The lady was measuring your thigh bone and I kept thinking, I have seen that shape there somewhere before!!! Turns out that I have seen it on your brothers scan, your boyhood was unmistakable!! She said that you are growing spot on for dates, although it looks like you are going to be long, like your brother as your length measured 21w+4d. Unfortunately, the scan photos are not very good, nowhere near as good as the 12 week ones, but I will come back and post them later anyway and my 20 week belly picture.

All we have to do now is think of a name for you, but at least we don't have to refer to you as it anymore!!

I love you so much little man. xxx

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21w+6d

Hi my sweet little man!!

Sorry for not updating but things have been a tad hectic. Mummy has had some kind of cold bug since last thursday and have now pretty much lost my voice (which I am sure pleases Daddy and your brother no end!! )

I have also started the decorating. I have glossed the bannister so that it is white instead of brown. I am also going to do the front door and kitchen doors like this. I am hoping to have the living room done before your Daddy and I have actually booked the time off to decorate. It would be nice to spend some of the time of our 2 weeks actually doing things as a family!!

Not much to update on you. You had a very quiet day yesterday, but are certainly making up for it today!!

I have to go, your brother is driving me nuts to watch Kipper!!

Love you xx

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23 weeks today!!!

Hi my sweet little man,

I know that Mummy is bad for not updating sooner. I was ill last week and this week, your brother has a nasty cold, so finding time to myself, or time to spend some quality bonding time with you, is hard to come by.

We have started decorating the lounge and hallway. We both have 2 weeks off in March to do this, but I wanted to get a head start so that we finish earlier.

We have been talking alot about moving, as we really want you to have your own nursery/room, but houses near good school are so expensive. Dady came up with another one of his brilliant ideas (you will understand what I mean in a few years time!!!), he has now decided that we are going to find a plot of land and build our own house. In theory, this is a good idea as it would not cost us as much as it would to move to a house that we would "make do" with. The practical side though, is much harder, as plots of land are snapped up as soon as they come on the market.

Anyway, my little man, there really isn't too much going on at the moment. I should have more to write about on Tuesday as I have a midwife appointment. I am looking forward to hearing your heartbeat again. Plus, only one more week to go before you are classed as Viable. I don't know why, but I have always thought that this is an important milestone to reach.

I love you lots my little guy! Try not to keep me awake too long tonight please!!!! xxx

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23w+6d

Hi my little man!!

Well, first of all I has a midwife appointment yesterday. Everything is going well with you. I heard your heartbeat straight away. We sorted out all my forms, including the one that I had to give to work to confirm that I am in fact pg and havign a baby!!! The one thing that did annoy me though was that The lady I saw yesterday was one that I have never seen beofre. Now this in itself doesn't bother me as I have community based midwife care, so it is normal for me to see 3 different midwives in 9 months. The thing that got to me was that when I was asked to get up on the couch to listen to your heartbeat, she just had to comment on the spectacular size of my belly and said that it is probably becaue my stomach muscles are all shot to pieces from having your brother. What gives people the god given right to think that they can make insulting comments on your size, just because you're pg???

The decorating is going very well. All that I have to do in the living room is all the glossing, although that may have to wait until I can open the window without freezing to death because of the smell. Then it will be the finishing touches. I also made a start upstairs, but the one wall Mark will have to do as it is far too tall or me to reach.

Anyway, I probably had more to say, but I am being distracted by your brother as he is in the Kitchen, but I did want to include my latest belly pic (my spectacular belly as it was yesterday at 23+5!)

I also just wanted to say that I can't believe that my old boardies on the march board are starting to have their babies!!! It's kind of sad to think that I would have been due in 8 days time

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24w+3d

Hi sweet little man!!

Ok, this post isn't so much about you sweetheart, but I need a place to vent alot of my feelings at the moment and his is the only journal I have, so please don't expect alot of pg related stuff in this entry.

Anyway, this is basically what I have just copied from the June board. Don't get me wrong little guy, I love you to pieces, but this pregnancy seems to be a bit harder going than when I was pg with your brother. At least I know that you are well from the way that your kicked the crap out of me this morning, it's so sweet the way that you tell me to get up!!

Anyway, here is the post from June 04:

Ok, I am getting a bit fed up of this pg malarky!! I feel like I am trapped in someone elses body and can't get out!! My whole body feels like it is falling to pieces. I have started to notice over the last few days that I have started to get restless legs in the evening. I also had this with ds and it got to the point where I cold barely sit down and ended up pacing and standing around to get my legs to co-operate!! I have also started to get cramps in my legs in the middle of the night. I did not get this first time around, and they hurt like hell. I know that this baby ain't cooked yet, but I am so ready to have him!! I just want to go back to normal!

Also, I wanted to have a bit of a rant about my husband. Today he has gone to see an exibhition about homebuilding and renovating. This is an exhibition that I really wanted to go to, but he didn't even think to invite me. The best of it is, that he is supposed to be at work today and he wants me to cover for him when work ring up. I am so mad that it would be very easy for me to say that he had better things to do than go to work. Although if he lost his job, we would lose our house and our car, I just don't understand how he can be so irresponsible . Plus he has recently spent a bit of money on himslef for a new shaver, spent money on Connor for a new toy and what did I get, jack sh*t. I just feel like I am constantly being looked over. So last night I burst out crying because I am so fed up. He then says that he didn't think that I wanted to go to the exhibition being "as pregnant as I am". What does he think I am, an invalid??? I turned around and told him that his problem is that he doesn't think full stop. Even imagining the ice cold bucket of water wasn't helping!!

I feel really bad for moaning about being pg when I know so many people who sould give anything to be in my shoes, but I just really needed to get it out of my system! I am going to make a concious effort to enjoy this time that I have left, because I know that when you get here, I will wish for this time over again! Now then little man, how do you fancy a nice big chunk of chocolate, to make us both feel better??!!!!!

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25 weeks!

Hi Sweetheart!!

Well, I am feeling better than I have been. Your Daddy has been making a bit more of an effort after the weekend. I guess what also makes me feel better is that I brok up from work yesterday for 2 weeks. I now don't have to go back in until March 28th!! Your Daddy will break up for his holiday on Saturday. Hopefuly we will get the decorating done next week and then can spend the second week as a family, do some outings and the like!! The only major news the I have with regards to you, my sweet little boy, is that I THINK that we may have finally settled on your name. What do you think of Jamie Alexander???

Anyway, I do feel a little bit weird writing to you today. Today is an important day to Mummy as this is the day that our little angel in heaven was due to be born. I am sad in my heart and feel like I have a hole to fill, but I know that "Boo's" sacrifice means that I could get to have you instead. But I can't help but wonder what s/he would have looked like and what little personality Boo would have had. I know that we are being looked down on from heaven's little playground and I do find that to be a comforting thought. I have found myself giving Connor lots more hugs and kisses than normal today. I am going to wait until Mark gets home before we light a candle for our angel and then as we will both be off this sunday, perhaps get that memorial tree that we meant to get months ago. Although you are no longer on earth with us, doesn't mean that we love you any less Boo. We will always have your little footprints engraved into our hearts. PLease continue to watch over us. Mummy xxxx

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25w+2d

Hi Sweet Jamie!!! (I love being able to call you that!)

There isn't really alot new going on with you sweetheart, but I just wanted to say that I am feeling much better after the last 2 days that I have had. It's amazing what a full nights sleep will do for you!! The one thing that I have noticed is that you can now reach my ribs when you kick!! I can't believe that we are at that stage already, in some ways it only seems like yesterday that I found out about you.

Anyway, we did light a candle for Boo on Thursday, we waited until Connor was in bed and then just sat and cuddled on the sofa. We are going to go to some garden centres tomorrow to see if we can find the kind of plant that we were looking for as a permenant reminder of our time with little Boo.

I didn't have a great day yesterday. I am not going to write it all out again but I have copied the post from the June board. I know that it is not pg related, but I don't have a general journal to write about these kinds of things. I used to have one and hardly ever had the time yo update both, so I decided to just keep one, so you will have to share with your brother Jamie!! Anyway, here's the post:

Ok, here's the deal. I am exhausted. Connor had dh and I up 3 times between 1.20am and 4.30 am. He woke up screaming about pain in his feet. This is not the first time that this has happened, as a matter of fact it has been going on for more than 6 months. I saw my health visitor about 4 months ago and she suggested that it may be attention seeking, so we tried to ignore it. I then took him to the dr 3 months ago and he said there didn't appear to be anything wrong. Anyway, things have been getting steadily worse, with him complaining about pain during the day. I can't go anywhere without his stroller otherwise he says his feet hurt after walking for 10/15 minutes and wants me to carry him.

Last night was the straw that broke the camels back. I made another appointment with the dr for this evening and went to see the health visitor again this afternoon. I saw a different lady this time, one who I used to see when Connor was a baby. She looked at him wothout shoes and socks and said that his right fot appears to be flat (all babies have flat feet at birth) still but that his left foot appears to rotate inwards so that he walks dlightly on the inside part of his foot. She suggested that we get refered to a specialist to rule out onything more serious and get treatment. So I took him to my dr to get the referal and the dr says "in my opinion there is nothing wrong with him". Now I know that I am no dr, but I am a mother and there is ALOT to be said about a mothers intuition. My son is not the kind of child to cry for no reason (he can fall and hit his head quite hard and tell me he's fine). After telling the dr this he agreed to refer him, but who knows how long the waiting list is to see the paediatrician??? I have medical cover through work and may just take him private and get it sorted out once and for all. I just can't believe how crap the NHS really is.

Anyway, I am going to ring the people who do my medical cover through work and see if I can take Connor private and recoup my costs from them. That way, we just jump to the front of the queue. Normally I wouldn't do this, but so far, Connor is the most important thing in my life and I will not see him suffer any longer than I have to.

Anyway Jamie, I must be off, your brother is asking for another bowl of cereal!!! I can't complain as he eats so well for his age (something I want you to learn from him!!!) I love you both very much. xxx

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25w+4d

Hi Jamie,

I know that I only wrote on Friday, but I have had a bit of worry over the weekend and I have a bone to pick with you young man!!!

I don't know what it is with my family, but it seems to be one thing after another. There's your brother with his feet and recurrent bouts of diarrea (not sure what is causing this. I will have to ask the health visitor when she comes around on thursday). The there is the argument between me and my body. All I can say is that you have to stay put for several more weeks to come, do you hear me??? I will now explain.....

At about 6.30pm last night I noticed that I was having braxton hicks contractions, which is nothing new as I have been having them on and off for weeks. What did get us worried was when I told your daddy that they were one on top of another and were quite uncomfortable. I tried sitting still and drinking a couple of glasses of water, but it wasn't helping. I rang the hospital at 8pm to get some advice. The midwife suggested a nice warm bath and relaxation. I couldn't get in the bath as your brother was in there, so I just pottered about in my room until Connor went to bed. The contractions were easing off until i had to clean the bathroom at 9.30pm after one of Connors episodes!!! In the end, I went to bed and they did ease off.

I know that we tell you all the time that we can't wait to see you, but we would rather have you healthy, so we don't want to be seeing you before 37 weeks, understand??!!!! Besides, we are nowhere near being ready for you. I haven't packed my bag, you have nowhere to sleep and your carseat is still in the loft!!!

Anyway my sweet little man, I have to go and see to your brother. We love you lots and lots. xxxxxx

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26w+5d

Hi Sweet Jamie,

Sorry that there hasn't been any update for a while, but our main computer is broken and I hate using the laptop, but for today, needs must!!

To be honest, not much has been going on with you. I have an appointment next week on Tuesday to check up on you. The main thing that I want to ak is about allthese bh contractions. I get alot more than 4 an hour, but so far, have tried not to let it worry me too much.

We have finally managed to pretty much finish the decorating, the only thing left to do is the skirting board in our bedroom!!! We have even bought all the little finishing touches off for the lounge and hall, just the bedding to get and mabye another picture for our room, as it looks a bit bare. We even had a man come out and clean the carpets today, can't believe how much dfference it makes.

As for Connor, we took him privately to see a paediatrician last Friday. He check him out and said that he was a very healthy little boy, and as for the pain in his feet, it is more than likely being caused by cramps. This happens mainly during periods of rapid growth spurts and if the weather is cold (which it almost always is at the moment!!! I was told to let him sleep with his socks on and to go in and comfort him when he does wake in the night as the pain is very real to him. Also asked about the toddler diarrhea. It seems that children who drink alot of clear, sugary drinks tend to get it, so we have had to cut out all the apple juice he was drinking (and we thought it was being healthy!!!) and so far he seems ok, but it has only been 2 days, so we will see.

Anyway, my sweet baby, I hate laptops, so I am going to cut this short, but I will update again on Tuesday, as we are going to be very busy for the rest of the week taking you and your brother out and about!!! Love you lots! xxx

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Opps!

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and again!!

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I knew that I hated laptops for a reason!!

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27w+6d

Hello Jamie!!!

Well, here is my update as promised.

We had a really nice time last week, just chilling out and having a nice family time. I think that Connor really benifited from having both his Mummy and Daddy at home, I can't believe how much his speech has come on. Some of his sentences are truely amazing. He is growing up so fast, I am afraid that if I blink, I might miss out on the last part of his babyhood as he will be 3 in 8 weeks time.

I had my 28 week appointment yesterday, which went well, although the midwife was running 30 minutes behind. Your heartbeat sounded like a horse galloping which was quite funny. My bp is great and nothing out of the ordinary is happening. I asked about my bh's contractions and was told that I seem to be dealing with them in the best way possible by resting when they come on strong and close together. I don't have to worry unless I have a bloody show or my waters break!! I was also told that I measure spot on for being 27+ weeks, so that is a big 2 finger salute to all the people who think it's ok to tell me that I am huge/the size of a hippo!!!

I also had to have my bloods drawn as it is routine at 28 weeks. I was told that the results wouldn't be in for a week, but I had a message on the machine when I got back from work today to tell me that I am anemic and a prescription for iron will be ready in the morning. I could have told them that I was anemic without the bloodtest as I feel so drained again these days, but hopefully I will feel better by this time next week.

Here are my belly pics from 2 weeks ago at 26 weeks. I may take some more tomorrow, but not post them as I don't think that I look that different (I will have to wait and see!!)

Well sweetheart, the weather here is beautiful and warm for a change, so I think that I am going to grab myself an icecream and go sit in the garden and enjoy the peace and quiet before Connor wakes up from his nap!!! Love you lots and lots xxxx

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28w+5d

Hi baby Jamie!!

This is your over tired, emotional Mummy here!! I know that this is your journal, but I don't keep a seperate one for Connor, and I just need to vent about the last couple of days. I know that you don't mind sharing. As for you, you are getting SO strong, your kicks, rolls, pushing and shoving are starting to come sharp, not that I mind really as they put my mind at rest that everything is ok with you.

Anyway, I am far too tired to repeat myself, so I have copied this from a thread on the June board.....

I haven't had the best of weekends. Connor was running a low grade temperature on Sunday. It started at 4 am and lasted all day. He was fine all the while he was medicated but very clingy. Couldn't put my finger on what was wrong with him as nothing else seemed out of place.

I went to work monday morning as per usual. Connor had no temp when I checked on him this morning. Then I had a message about midday to say that Connor had an accident at the park and banged his head but he seemed ok. (He fell about 3 feet onto concreate....) Then I get a call at WW at about 6.30pm to say that Connor has been sick, so I come straight home. He was sick again about an hour later, so off we went to accident and emergency. Several check ups and a head xray later, we are finally home. Connor seems to have perked up. Hasn't been sick for 3 hours and he is now asleep in bed. Just have to keep our eye on him overnight and keep him fairly quiet (yeah right, he's nearly 3!!) for the next day or 2.

Needless to say, I am feeling a bit emotional and exhausted. So I may be a bit scarce over the next day or 2.

As you can see, it is now 7.50am as I sit here. I am waiting for Connor to wake up to see how he is. I am supposed to have my appraisal at work today, but my precious boy comes first. PLus, I have no idea how I am supposed to manage on the pitiful sleep that I did manage, I was lucky if I got 1 hour of consecutive sleep and I know that I was still awake at 3am. I guess that I wouldn't feel so bad if I wasn't still tired from bein woken at 4am on Sunday morning. I guess that I had better get used to being awake all the time again!!!

Anyway, I am going to go and make myself a drink as I don't remember having anything to drink since 3.30pm yesterday.........opps!! I may update later with how he is. I love you both very much, Mummy xx

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30 weeks today!!!

Hello my sweet little baby Jamie!!!

Sorry that it has been a while since I updated, but with the holidays and not feeling so good, this is the first opportunity I have had.

I am feeling really positive today. I am finally 3 quarters of the way through my pregnancy and that the maximum number of weeks left before I will finally get to hold your warm little body in my arms is 12!!! Although, I will of course start trying to evict you from about 38 weeks!!!

Anyway, we had a nice easter. Your Daddy was off sun, mon & tues, so we got to spend a nice break as a family. We had an easter egg hunt for Connor on sunday morning and took him to the park in the afternoon. Then on monday, we took him to Hednesford Hills Raceway, to watch the mini stocks races and destruction derby. Connor is absolutely car mad, so it was right up his street!!!

On tuesday, Mummy wasn't feeling very well and had diarrhea. I had a midwife appointment which I went to and Daddy and Connor came with us. The midwife was concerned about protein in my water but said it was probably down to the fact that I wasn't feeling well. I was basically told that I was having an adverse reaction to the iron tablets that I had been put on. I have been told to stop taking them for now and that they will review the situation in 2 weeks at my next appointment. I have to say that I am feeling much better now that I have stopped the tablets, but am feeliong quite tired. I am trying to combat the anemia with an iron rich diet, but I don't know how much good it will do at this stage.

We are all starting to get really excited about meeting you. I keep trying to imagine what you look like and what kind of personality you will have. The cutest thing ever is that Connor includes you in almost everything. He tells me that he loves me, and Daddy and Baby Jamie!!! And if he has anything new, he wants one for Baby Jamie as well!!!

Anyway, I took my 30 week belly shots this morning, so here they are

Anyway, gotta run and get some lunch for Connor and myself, before taking a nice relaxing bath while Connor has a nap!! We love you lots and lots. xxx

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31 Weeks!

Hi sweet baby Jamie!!

Well, here we are again, another week down, only 9 more to go util you are due, although I doubt that you will be that accomodating for me!! We have had a discussion on our birth board about how much longer we think that we have to go and I said that I would start trying to evict you from 38 weeks, but I am not so sure now. Daddy doesn't want you to be another gemini as both myself and your brother are gemini's (must be like living with 4 people sometimes, what, with our split personalities!!!). Plus I can't help but think that if this is to be my last pregnancy, then I should enjoy every last minute because I will never get to experience it again (somehow the though of never being pg again bothers me, but I am fairly certain that I only want 2 children, how weird is that? )

Anyway, I know that you are growing really well. You have started moving in a way that lets me see what body part you are sticking out!! You made me yelp out loud when you stuck your little foot out by the side of my ribs yesterday!! I felt sorry for the customer on the phone though, goodness knows what he thought!!!

Your brother is just the cutest when it comes to you. As I know that I have mentioned before, Connor is car mad, always watching racing cars on the tv and playing with his toy cars on the floor and anywhere really! His newest place to play with his cars is on top of my belly!!! Because you are so low down Jmaie, it means that the top of my belly is pretty flat (I could rest my dinner plate on it!!) and my belly button has popped out, so he runs his cars over my belly button as a speed hump and then parks them at the top!! I always knew that you two would play nicely together. I finally managed to get soem pictures of Connor and myself (and you of course!). I can't wait until you are old enough to show you how much your brother loved you before you got here.

We are getting so excited about your imminent arrival. Connor is always talking about you, hugging you and stroking you when we are having a cuddle. As for me, I can't wait to hold your warm little body in my arms so that I can cuddle you for real. I also want to be able to breath in your sweet baby smell. I know that I will be really emotional when you are born, because I know the kind of joy that you will bring into our lives. I think that is something that comes as a surprise the first time around, but now I just can't wait. I never thought that I would be looking forward to giving birth!!

Something else wonderful happened this last week. My friend, Dayna, finally got her dream come true and she and her husband are expecting their first bundle of joy as a Christmas present!!! I couldn't be more happy for them if I tried. I knwo that they will make wonderful parents, I hope that their baby knows how lucky he or she is!

Anyway, I have to run for now, as I have to get Connor dresses and ready to go to the post office, I need to send my mothers day card to the US before I forget! We love you so much Jamie and can't wait to meet you. These last 9 weeks are really going to drag.........! xxx

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31w+5d

Hello Sweet baby Jamie!!

Well, just to update that Mommy had another midwife appointment this morning. I was kind of dreading it as I had been ill again with diarrhea all friday night/saturday morning.

Anyway, it turns out that everything is going good at the moment, my bp is nice and low, my water was clear and, you, are growing like a weed. I was told not to expect a small baby as you are already a decent size. She thinks that you will be a bit bigger than your brothers 8lb 1oz !! There were a couple of things that were worrying us both, one is my weight as I have obviously lost some weight after being ill 3 times in 2 weeks. I think that the main worry is that I had not put on much weight to start with, so I am currently standing at 10.5lb weight gain, or 7lb gain between 4 weeks and now as I put on 3.5lbs the week I found out!!!

The other thing that we are worried about is my iron levels, so I have been prescribed a different iron tablet and was told to take it with food and see how I get on. I will have to have my bloods drawn again at 34 weeks to check up on this. The other worry is the reccurrent diarrhea. I was basically told that I should ring the hospital and tell them that I am coming in if I get it again.

But aside from all that, I feel good for the time being. You are doing great and the girls at work have asked me when I leave work so that they can arrange my shower, so it won't be a surprise, but at least I am getting one!! They asked what I wanted, but as I have to carry whatever I get home on the train, I think that I will tell them to get vouchers for mothercare, it may be boring, but then at least I can get what I want and Mark can come with me to chose.

Anyway sweetheart, your brother is pestering me to get off the computer and I am due to take some more pictures at 32 weeks, so I will write again in a couple of days. I love you so much, keep being strong for me.xxx

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32w+1d

Hello sweet baby Jamie!!

Well, today is our boards secret shower day! It was so exciting to be able to open a shower gift, as I never has a baby shower with Connor and I didn't think that I was getting one this time, btu the girls at work have hinted that they are going to do one for me on my last day at work.

Anyway, my gift came from a lady called Kelly Anders. I can honestly say that I am astonished at her generosity. I was wondering why the gift came in such a big packaging box and now I know, there was loads in there, she must have spent more than the suggested amount. As a matter of fact, I feel a bit guilty now as there were only 2 things in my lady's gift, although admitedly, things are much more expensive here.

Anyway, here's a list of what I got. There was:

- A blue and white winnie the pooh outfit with a little pair of white socks with dragon flys on.

- A yellow vest (undershirt?) with a little blue elephant on with matching socks.

- A playtex ventaire bottle

- A chewy water soother shaped like a duck

- A johnsons take-along pack (fantastic idea, they don't do anything like that here, it's definately going into my hospital bag!!)

- A toilettry set with jasmine shower gel, moisturizer, puff and little mirror

and for Connor:

- A playdoh hand tools set. (he currently has the playdoh in the oven, he says that he's making dinner for his baby doll!!! Such a domesticated little boy!).

Anyway, I am going to include pictures, but the photo gallery is down at the moment. Mark took loads of pictures of Connor and I opening the gifts this morning, and we also took my 32 week belly photo, so I will come back and edit when I can

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34weeks

Hi Sweet baby Jamie!!

I am sorry for not writing sooner, but have been quite busy. There has been a second birth on our birth board. Miss Olivia was born on our secret shower day!! I guess that she was the best shower gift of all!!!

As for our life, it has been going pretty well. I have been feeling well in myself. The only problems that I have been having are excrutiating back ache which was waking me up within 2 hours of going to bed. Then I wouldn't be able to get back to sleep for the rest of the night. When I saw the midwife on tuesday, she suggested taking painkillers right before I went to bed. I have done this for the last 2 days and have slept much better, although how much of that was due to utter exhaustion is beyond me!! The problem is that I don't like taking medication at the best of times, and I certainly don't want to be popping pills everynight for the next 6 weeks. In the end I made an appointment to see an osteopath, which is for tomorrow at 9am. I am hoping that wil some gentle manipulation to my back that I won't need to take them all the time.

I have also start to notice the onset of symphisis pubis dysfunction, were your pubic bone seperates too far and causes pain in the groin and inner legs. It makes walking up the stairs painful and it is nearly impossible to stand on one leg! The thing that worries me most is that you are not supposed to spread your legs too far if you have this, but if this is the case, how am I supposed to push you out??!!!!! Hopefully the osteopathy will help with this too!

As I said earlier, we saw the midwife earlier this week. I am doing well, with low bp and clear water and they even managed to draw my bloods on the first try!! On feeling the fundal height, they are under the impression that you are going to be a big boy, as you have shot off the charts!! I expained about my fear that your head might be even bigger than Connors. Your brother had sores on the sides of his head where it scraped against the bones at delivery. The midwife said that I would probably need another scan to determine your size and we will make a decision from there as to how to proceed with your delivery. Oh, and the dr's receptionist just called to say that my oron levels have not improved, but they have not got any worse either, they have settled at 9.9, although I think that me not taking iron tablets isn't helping!! I have them in the house, I just can't bring myself to take them as they make me feel bad! I may start taking them again, as they are different from the last lot and see how I get on.

As for the rest of our lives, that has been fairly hectic too. We decided that we wanted to move house as we only have 2 bedrooms and the house is small for 3, never mind 4! But after much deliberation, we have decided that the house market is just too sky high at the moment for us to be able to afford a house with the amount of room that we want. So we have now decided that we are going to extend our current house, that way we get more room than we would with a house in our budget at a fraction of the price. I know that this is the long way around as it takes so long for these things to go through, but hey, we don't need the space straight away! We have also just part exchanged our car for a people carrier!! We are now the proud owner of a citroen xsara picasso! It is the same age as the car we already have (18 months), but has acres more space in the back and we could get both pushchairs in without any problems and still have room left over.

Anyway, I have rambled on for long enough. I may come back and do a quick update after I see the ostoepath tomorrow. But for now, here are my 34 week pics!! Love you lots.

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34w +1d

Hi Baby Jamie!!

Here I am as promised with an update from my appointment this morning. I am not going to write the whole thing out again, so I will just copy what I put on my birth board.......

Well, I had my appointment this morning, which I was really happy about as I still had bad backache inspite of taking painkillers before bed.

The lady started off with my medical history etc before getting me to remove my top and doing an examination. SHe said that she could tell straight away were my pain was, as the muscles in the left hand side of spine were so knotted that it looked like a thick piece of rope. Then she carried on examining me and said that I was also tipping. I started to panic a bit thinking that this was bad news. I was then told that it is good as it's my body's way of preparing for labour. Apparently when the sacrum (boney bit at the base of the spine/top of the bum) tips, it makes your pelvis even bigger to allow the baby's head to drop. The only problem is that the tipping makes the vertebrae at the bottom part of your spine kind of lock up, but that this isn't really a problem, and not where my problem was stemming from.

Anyway, she did some very gentle soft tissue manipulation and showed me how to show Mark to do it. She did say that I have some grumbly parts in my pelvis, but that she woudl touch it until after I have the baby as I am too close to delivery. At the moment I feel wonderful, but the real test will be overnight, when I am in bed. I hasn't touched the pain from the SPD but I didn't really expect it to, plus it doesn't hurt as much as my back did.

At the moment, I would recommend it to anyone.

I was quite surprised by how much I learned about my body that I haven't read in my pg books or been told by my midwife. The lady showed me a moving model of the spine and pelvic area and actually showed me what tipping looks like and how it affects different area's of your spine. She seems to think that at this rate I may not have as long to go as I think, although I guess that it could just be because my body already remembers what to do from last time. Oh well, I guess only time will tell, but I ma hoping to get a good few decent nights of sleep from this treatment!! I will update when I know if it has worked or not.

Oh, and another thing that I forgot to mention is that we collected our new car today. Unfortunately they messed your Daddy around a little bit, so he wasn't able to see how to do the massage himself or pick me up, but I did get a ride in the new car, as he decided that he wanted to show it off to his parents before he went to work. I am going to get to work on it tonight, putting your car seat in and replacing the baby on board stickers.

I love you so much sweet Jamie and can't wait to meet you at long last, just a few more weeks and then you can come when ever you are ready (and we can't wait.!!)

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34w+2d

Hi Baby Jamie!!

Just to update that yesterdays appointment seemed to do the trick as I slept ok without the use of painkillers, I did have a bit of backache, but nothing that I couldn't cope with!

Now, if only getting rid of the pain in my butt, namely Connor, was as easy. He has suddenly hit another "naughty" phase. I wouldn't mind, but I only seem to have a week or two of having my sweet little boy back before he starts into another phase. At the moment, if he can't get what he wants, or things don't go his way, he throws himself on the floor and wails like a banshee!! Everything that I ask him to do, no matter how simple is meet with a fight, or totally ignored. He is driving me around the twist. If it wasn't for the fact that he is so damn cute to look at, I may have tried to swap him for clothes pegs from the gypsies!!! I just want him to grow out of this before you get here Jamie, although the more I think about it, the more I wonder if it is your impending arrival that is starting to play on Connor's mind??? I know that he only does the things that he does for attention, but he is going to have to get used to sharing me. At least I finish work this week, so will have a few weeks of quality time to spend with him, and hopefully get him to feel more secure in his knowledge that I will always love him as much as I do now......

Anyway, I had better go and get ready. I am supposed to be taking Connor to his friend's 3rd birthday party when he wakes from his nap, but I need to get changed as well!!!

Mummy loves you so much Jamie, it won't be long now before I can tell you in person!!!

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34w+6d

Hello sweet Baby Jamie!!

I feel like celebrating!!! Today is my very last day at work and to be honest, I am soooo ready to finish. All this getting up at 6am, hobbling around like an old woman for about 20 minutes, walking 15 minutes to the train station with electric shocks down below (thanks for the description tiffany!), then trying to sit still at my desk for 6 hours whilst trying to find something to rest my swollen ankles on before having to do the same but in reverse order to get home!

I don't think that I will get much actual work done today as there is alot of paper work that has to be filled in for my release (I work for the government), plus I plan on taking some chocolates and some food in for everyone to share, so we may have a little party!!

Only 7 more hours to go until I am a free woman, and become a full time SAHM again!!!

I will probably come back and update again later, after I get home sweetheart. Mummy loves you so much. xxx

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[35 weeks!

Hi Baby Jamie!!

Sorry that I didn't get around to updating again yesterday, but your brother was being a pain in the bottom again, and the easiest way to keep him out of trouble is to spend every waking moment with him!! So far today he has been quite good, so fingers crossed, I can get this done before he notices I am on the computer!!

I have now finished work, although I don't officially start maternity leave until Monday as I only worked 3 days a week!

I took in some doughnuts, muffins, and chocolate for all of my team to share and that seemed to go down a treat!! I could barely see my desk for all the streamers, balloons and confetti (shaped like little blue diaper pins!! Sooo cute). One of the girls also made some banners on the computer. One of them read "You did want a 13 lb'er right?" and the other said "18 hours of labour isn't that bad" I just told her that I would remind her of all this when she had her own children!!

Anyway, I got loads of cards, some gift vouchers, bibs, about a dozen onsies, a cute little outfit, a sleepsuit, a little t-shirt and a cuddly toy. I would take some pictures to post but with all the problems with the galleries, I don't think I can be bothered right now.

As for spending time with Connor, I am glad that I have this time to spend with him, but am wondering if we will drive each other nuts?? I guess the main thing is to keep telling him how much I love him and explain that that won't change just because of the baby.

He is being really funny right now because it is his 3rd birthday in 6 days time, everytime he sees an advert for something on the tv, he asks if he can have it for his "burfday"!!! I am actually really pleased as his new leapfrog book for his leappad arrived this morning and it's Dora the Explorer and I know that he will be really excited about it!! I just can't believe that it has been nearly 3 years since I had my "baby" I look at him these days and want to cry because he seems so grown up (even if he does drive me crazy and argues back at me about everything!! I knew that I should never have taught him to talk, but it is so worth it when he comes to me and tells me that he loves me, and baby Jamie and Daddy!!)

As for you, my sweet baby Jamie, you are doing great, dropping into my pelvis just like you should be!! It's fine with me as I hardly get heartburn but I do need to pee every 10 minutes!! I will say this, you are not allowd to arive until after Connor's birthday and preferably not until 39 weeks as we are nowhere near ready for you and we have both started to panic a little bit, thinking that you can pretty much arrive any time you want. I guess that I can really get a move on now that I have finished work!!

Anyway, I had better go before Connor notices! I love you lots and lots and am getting really excited about meeting you nd being able to hug and kiss you to my hearts content........

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35w+6d

Hi Baby Jamie,

Well, just to update that I had another midwife appointment yesterday, and really, there is nothing new to tell. I won't be scanned this week after all, although you are still growing along the same curve which is off the chart. I was told the they wanted me to come back in next week (which was strnage as I thought that the clinic was onlt on every 2 weeks???) and that they will re-assess me then, probably send me to my delivery hospital for a scan and then decide from there if they will leave me to go natural or induce at term. Anyway, that is all the news to do with you, apart from the fact that I have your little corner of my bedroom set up and ready to go. We finally got the moses basket off Paula and it has all been washed and dressed and I have even put up a bit of matching border paper where you will be. It looks so cute. I will post some pictures tomorrow when I post my latest belly pic!!

Anyway, today is your brother's birthday and I have been having a bit of a tough day and am not really sure how I should be feeling. I posted about this on the June board and I will just copy it to here to save time as I have to get Connor up from his nap.

I can't decide if I want to sit and cry, snap at dh or laugh my head off (I have already done all 3)

As most of you know, it is Connor's 3rd birthday today. I just can't believe that my "baby" isn't a baby anymore. It is hard to believe that this time 3 years ago I had just given birth and was staring lovingly at the little bundle in my arms and couldn't beleive that he was mine. (sometimes I STILL can't believe that he's mine, but for other reasons!!!)
If anybody would have told me about the kind of love that you feel as a mother, I would never have thought it true, but it is. Having a baby is the most magical, wonderful thing that has EVER happened to me, and I feel so honoured and proud to be able to watch him grow and develop, but it makes me sad too. I am sad because they aren't babies for long, it doesn't take long for their little independant streaks to show, Connor is not the cuddly little boy he was 6 months ago, and I can see him pulling away from me to be more independant

Anyway, we decided to take Connor to a local canal boat cruise. It was meant to leave at 12, but when we got there and enquired it turned out that they weren't running. I can't even begin to tell you how bad I felt at his obvious disappointment. He cried and kept saying that he wanted to go on a boat. How on earth do you explain to a 3 year old that we didn't know that they wouldn't be working?? Anyway, we soon put things right by taking him to wimpy (like mcdonalds, only better!)

I guess I just wanted everything to be perfect for him, and it seems that the harder I try to make these last few precious weeks as just the 3 of us a great experience for him, it gets totally messed up in someway. Maybe I shoudl stop trying so hard and just enjoy this last bit of time that we have together........

Anyway sweetheart, I love you and your brother very much. I will leave it here until tomorrow. Mummy xx

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36 weeks

Hi Sweet Baby Jamie!!

I have no real update from yesterday except to say that I am not as emotional!! I just wanted to post some pictures to bore everyone with. The first 2 are my latest belly pics, taken today, about 20 minutes ago. The other photo's are of where you will be sleeping for the first couple of months! Unfortunately you will not have your own nursery as we live in a 2 bed house, but I felt bad so I set up a "nursery corner".

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36w+5d

Hi Sweetie!!

Just going to copy and paste this from the board, as I need to see what Connor's up to!!

Well, I had my nearly 37 week appointment. Everything with me was fine as always. I was laughing with the midwife saying about how some of the people I used to see in the reception have suddenly disappeared!!

Anyway, baby's head is still floating free, and I can tell because my belly sways from side to side as we drive over speed humps in the car!! I can also move my belly from side to side. Anyway, I was told that the baby is still measuring off the chart (I'll see if I can post a pic of the chart!) and she tried to get me in for a scan at the antenatal department of my delivering hospital, but alas, they are still closed today after the holiday .

The midwife said that she will call them in the morning and try to get me in for a scan to check growth. Plus, it will just be nice to see Jamie again!! I did also mention the lack of movement over the last few days, which I know is meant to happen, but it is no less scary if you know, but needless to say, the little bugger has been really active since my appointment!!

So hopefully I will get to see my baby again tomorrow, which should make it a really exciting day as dh & I are leaving Connor with ther grandparents while we got out on a "date" to see Harry Potter!!

Hopefully I will get to see you tomorrow!!! Love you so much. xx

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37 weeks today!
T -21 days and counting!!

Hi Sweetie!!

Well, we didn't get to see you yesterday afterall, but we will be seeing you on Monday instead!! Our appointment at the hospital will take the place of my regular midwife appointment, which is a shame as I really like Wendy, but this is important. I was telling Wendy yesterday how I need to have my mind put to rest because if you are bigger than Connor was, I may need a section as I really sruggled with him. I pushed for 3 hours and needed an episiotomy. Connor had sores on the sides of his head where the bones had scraped against my pelvic bones. Hopefully we will find that you are just going to be a long baby, like your brother was and that you will weigh about the same.

Anyway, yesterday your Daddy and I had what could possible be our last bit of time alone together. We left your brother with Nanny Marg & Grandad Rich and decided to go to the cinema. We went to see HarryPotter 3, which was great, and then we went out to luch and just wandered around town for a while before going back to pick Connor up. As for your brother, he has been really good these last few days, now that we have started regulating what he is eating. We have been trying to cut out foods that are high in additives and E numbers as they were turning him into a monster. I finally have my sweet little boy back, and boy am I glad!! I was all ready to donate him to the local zoo!!! Don't get me wrong, he is not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but he is much better!!

Anyway, I have to help your Daddy wash Connor's hair (he's in the bath!), only Mummy will do at this point, although I am always worried about toppling in head first as I am so front heavy!!!

I will see you on Monday my precious. We love you so much and can't wait to meet you. xxx

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