This is your Mummy here. I knew about your existance on Tuesday, but decided to wait until today to start your Journal.
We are all so excited to learn about you. I just knew that you would soon be gracing us with your presence. Mummy and Daddy have been back from our holiday for a week, so that make you our holiday souvenir, something that can't be found in any shop and something that no one else will have, because you are very special.
As well as Mummy and Daddy, you have a big brother, Connor who is nearly 2 1/2. You also have a little angel that watches over you. Her name is Boo. This is the baby that Mummy lost before I got pg with you. I say Her name because I felt that she was a girl.
I told your Nanny & Grandad Morgon about you yesterday as it was Grandad's birthday and he lives in the US, so I don't get to see much of him, but he said that it was the best present that he had! I also told your great grandparents and my best friend. I only have my Mum and Your Dad's parents left to tell. Daddy and I thought originally that we weren't going to tell anyone this time in case the same thing happened as last time, but I feel so positive about you, plus, I would rather have all the support I can get!!
Mummy went to see the GP yesterday to tell him about you and see if we can get an appointment to see you soon. I expected to have to fight with him about it, but he just said that I can have an early scan whenever I want, I could go in on the morning that I chose and probably have the appointment in the afternoon of the same day!! I am thinking of November 4th, when I will be 6+3, as it is a tuesday and it means that your daddy can come too.
At the moment, Mummy is feeling good, the only real sysmptoms I have are sore dollies and needing to pee more. I am not moaning, in fact I truely am enjoying every moment.
I already have a feeling that you are a boy, but Nanny Marg thinks that you are a girl. I guess that I should get a poll going after the scan!!
Anyway baby, I have to go. I need to go into town to get Connors new shoes fitted and look around for ideas for xmas. I love you lots already. xx
Mummy is quite cross now, I have just finished writing a really long entry with personals and everything and now it is gone
Anyway, I would have wrote earlier in the week, but there really isn't much going on at the moment, so thouhgt that I would update on a weekly basis unless something happens.
The good news is that I have told all of our family about you and they are all thrilled to hear about you. I had originally thought that I would like to keep it a secret until we had our early scan, but I decided that everybody would want to know and plus, if anything happened, I would want the same support that we had last time, not that anything is going to happen to you (do you hear me??!!!!) Plus, I promised myself that I would enjoy every moment that I have with you, and I totally enjoyed telling everyone!!
As for Mummy, I feel great. My bb's are so sore that I would probably drop kick anyone who accidentally brushed passed me!!! I have no real m/s to speak of, although the heartburn has kicked in alonf with the tiredness. But do you know what sweetheart? I don't care!!!! I am just so happy that you are with me, hopefully growing srtong in the comfort of my tummy.
I guess that Mummy had ought to go to town and see if she can find something that will keep me busy for the next 10 days. IT'S ONLY 10 DAYS UNTIL MUMMY AND DADDY GET TO SEE YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME ON A SCAN. WE ARE SO EXCITED. IS IT OBVIOUS??!!!!!
Anyway, sweetheart, I have to go now. I have to get your brother dressed, and then go into town and get another xmas present for your Daddy. I am trying to get all the main xmas shopping done by mid november.
I love you very much already pootle, so please grow strong for me, ok?
Well Pootle, today mummy is very worried. This time I am not worrying about you (well just a little bit). I am worried about my dad, step mum and sister (your Nanny & Grandad Morgon & Aunty Kirrah). They live in Victorville in California and they have been forced to leave their home today because there are forest fires rampaging. I am sure that they will be fine, but I still can't help worrying.
As for you, my sweet, you have been making mummy feel sick on and off. Yesterday I felt quite queasy most of the day, today I have felt much better, but felt a bit queasy about half an hour ago, but it has eased off again. I know that this is supposed to be a good sign, but it is a long time until 12 weeks!!! I have also noticed that my boobs are nowhere near as sore today (I hope that this is not a bas sign, just a case of my body getting used to the hormones). Mummy and Daddy are getting more excited and anxious about hopefully meeting you on Tuesday. I am going to have to keep myself busy until I go back to work on Moday, so that the time will hopefully fly by.
Anyway, this was just a quick update, to get my fears off my chest, and also because some of Mummy's old TTC journal buddies wanted an update, you know who you are!!!!) So I will leave it there until either saturday, ot until something else happens. I love you very much Pootle, please grow strong for us. xxx
Well, you have Mummy really scared right now. I have had to go and see the Dr because I have had some lower abdominal pain for the last 2 days. Mummy and Daddy are going to the hospital to have our scan a day earler than anticipated and we want to see that you are growing in the right place. I am trying to remain positive that the pain is just where I may have pulled something either when I turned over in bed the other night, or from all the sneezing that I have done and not anything more sinister.
Anyway, sweetheart. I hope to be able to see you growing strong and healthy in just 2 1/2 hours time. Please know that we love you very much, and I hope that Boo is looking out for you. Mummy xx
Well, needless to say, Daddy & I have never been so relieved. We got to see you on the scan, and I have to say, you looked wonderful. You are measuring exactly right for 6w+2d and we got to see your little heartbeat flickering away.
The only bit of bad news that we got is that the sonographer saw a little bleed in my uterus and has warned me that I may bleed, but it has nothing to do with the baby, although she did say that if I got at all worried that I could go back and get scanned again. If all goes well, I will definately see you on 16th Dec for your 12 weeks scan, if not sooner.
Anyway, Mummy has to go and check on your brother as he is sick with a cold at the moment and I can hear him tossing and turning in his sleep. You keep growing strong for us sweetie, we know that you can do it. Love you lots and lots. Mummy xx
I hope that you are doing better than Mummy. It seems that your brother has given me his cold, so needless to say, I am feeling quite miserable at the moment. I think what bugs me most is that I can't breathe!! Connor seemed to get better but his nose is running again today, so I will have to wait and see how he is. At least he can take cold meds.
Mummy & Daddy can't agree on your nickname at the moment. Your Daddy wants to call you Pootle, I want to call you Pip (becasue that's the size you are right now) and we toyed with Nemo. We thought about Nemo because with Connor I had an excess amount of water for him to swim about in!! We decided not to go with Nemo though becaue Connor is obsessed and we figured that he will probably be really upset when we bring home a baby and not a fish!!!
Not much going on this week, apart from Mummy's cold. But I did notice yesterday that you are making your presence known to my body, as my tummy has "pooched" and I have suddenly been visited by the titty fairy!!!
Keep growing strong for us baby, we love you dearly. xx
I'm sorry that it has been a while since I updated, but I have not been with it enough to post much!! I had 4 days last week where I felt sick as a dog all day, then I started to feel better and natuarally panicked that something wasn't right!!
I have also been really tired, and have really not felt up to posting much, I haven't even kept up with any of my old buddies. I am just counting down the days to my next appointment. I have my first appointment with my midwife at 9+3 (25th nov) and am hoping that she will send us for another scan based on te info that it was in week 9 that we found out that we lost Boo.
Aprt from that I have been feeling alot of stretching/cramping pains. At first I was worried, but there is no blood, so figure that it is just my uterus growing. I have also been toying with the idea of renting a doppler, but still haven't made up my mind, I guess that it will ave alot to do with what Mark says. I know that he wants me to stop worrying, but he doesn't understand how hard it is to try and relax and enjoy.
Anyway my love, Mummy is fighting a loosing battle against tiredness, so will end it there for now. Please contunue to grow strong for us. We love you very much. Mummy x
I am sorry for not updating sooner but it hasn't seemed appropriate to update over the last few days. I was quite worried on Friday (8+6) because that was when I started spotting with Boo, but thankfully I have had no spotting. Then yesterday was the same time in weeks that we found out the Boo was gone, so it has been a bit of a stressful week.
Mark & Connor have been great. Connor has no idea about how I have been feeling, but his little face is enough to make me smile and feel better, and Mark has been cheering me up with his positive attitude.
Apart from that, I am feeling much better, I had about 4/5 days where I felt rougher than a porcuppine's bottom and then it kind of wore off and I feel pretty normal now, apart from the bigger boob's, which is making it increasingly difficult to sleep on my tummy (wanted to enjoy being able to do this before I can't do it for many months!!!) I am now just anxiously awaiting my first midwife appointment on Tuesday. I am hoping that the midwife will be supportive and send us for a second reassurance scan, as my next scheduled scan isn't until 16th Dec.
Tha's pretty much all from me for now, Baby. Please continue to grow strong. We love you very much. xx
I was going to update yesterday, but was not in a very good mood, so didn't think that I would bother taking out my anger on your Journal!!
Anyway, I went to see the midwife yesterday for what was meant to be my booking in appointment. Needless to say, I was extreamly disappointed as the woman who saw me informed me that she was not my midwife, my midwife is on long term sick leave. Go bloody figure. All she did was check my blood pressure and a sample check, which were fine. Then she said that someone (couldn't say who) would come out to my house to do a proper booking in appointment next friday (5th Dec) When I asked about another scan, she didn't even acknowldge me or seem bother about my concerns about my previous m/c. It just made me soooo mad. I came home and was really upset, but Mark cheered me up by saying that I could rent a doppler for a month, so that we can try and find the heartbeat. Hopefully this will put my mind at rest while I have to wait another 3 weeks for my next scan.
That really is all on the baby front, apart from some of the girls at work commenting that I seem to have developed a little belly in the last week!! I guess they keep forgetting that this is my second pregnancy this year. I will update soon baby, please keep growing strong and be a good little baby, so that Mummy can pick up your heartbeat easily when the doppler gets here!!! love you lots xxx
I know that I only wrote yesterday, but I was so excited that I just had to write today.
The doppler that Mummy ordered arrived this morning. I tried for about 10 minutes this morning before I got out of bed and nothing. So I decided that I would go for a pee and then try again. When I tried for the second time, I picked up the beautiful sound of your heartbeat within 30 seconds. I was so strong and fast, about 170 bpm, so you are either a very active little thing or maybe a
I rang your Daddy straight away, but because I was using my mobile, it kept interfering with the unit so he couldn't hear you, so you will just have to be a good little baby this evening as well, becasue your Dady would love to be able to hear you too.
Anyway sweetheart, we are all really glad that everything seems to be great with you, especially after all the worrying that Mummy has been doing, but now I feel like I can totally relax, enjoy you and get to know you better. We love you so much. xxx