Well, Mummy just felt the need to vent, and I really didn't feel comfortable doing it on my birth board.
Basically, I am just fed up that you are showing absolutely no signs of wanting to come out. We are so excited to meet you and nothing! I know that I shouldn't moan about being pg as there are plenty of people who would love to be in my shoes, some good friends included. Your Daddy and I were talking in bed the other night and he said to me "but you said that you liked being pregnant" Don't get me wrong, I love being pregnant, but I don't think it matters how much you love it, the last 4 weeks are a drag. I spoke to 3 people that I bumped into in town yesterday. Each one said how they loved being pregnant, but hated the last month.
I guess that I wouldn't feel so bad, except that most of the girls on the June board have either had their babies already or know when they are going in for their section or being induced. One of the girls came on today and said she was being induced on saturday. I guess that this lady made me feel better about being due at the end of the month, as I figured that we would probably both make it to the end (she was due the day after me.) It seems that EVERYONE knows when thier babies will arrive (I know that's not actually true, but it feels like it) I guess that it is just annoying how different countries treat pg woman/pregnancy different. It seems to me that if you want to be in duced in the US that you can be, where as here, you NEED a medical reason or have to be nearly 2 weeks over due. Ok, that's out of my system now, pity party over!!
Anyway, I DO have something to look forward to. We get to see you again tomorrow!! It will be amazing to see how much you have grown, and to see if there is alot of water again that is stopping your head from dropping, or if you are just being stubborn!!! I do hope that they give me a pic, as I didn't get any decent 20 week ones. I also hope that they can just re-confirm that you are infact a boy, as everyone keeps commenting recently that it looks like I am carryig a girl. Personally, I think it's all a load of codswallop. I carried all out front last time too, but higher. People kept telling me that it would be a girl and then low and behold, your brother was born!!! I am fairly certain of the "bits" that I saw at the 20 week scan, either that, or the cord just looked suspiciously like a penis and testicles!!!
Anyway, I am in a bit of a funny mood, nothing really nice to say, but feel guilty for feeling bitchy, so I will leave it at that. I will update again tomorrow to say how beautiful you are ( I am sure that you know this already!!) I love you lots and lots, and am extreamly anxious to meet you. xxxx
Hi sweet baby Jamie!!
We have not long got back from the hospital, but I need to start getting Connor ready for bed, so I have cut and paste this from the June board.
Got back from the hosiptal a little while ago. The routine antenatal appointment went as well as all the others, although my belly measured 40 weeks at 37+4!! I am annoyed that I couldn't talk them into doing an internal, I think that they were just trying to get rid of me as I was the last appointment of the day
As for the growth scan, they were expecting to find a big baby, but instead the baby seems to be of average size, and certainly measures smaller than Connor did at this stage. The head circumfrence, which is what I was worried about is 33.7cm, (connors was 37!) the abdominal circumfrence is 31.3cm and the femur length is 6.9cm. All of these measurements are on the 50th centile. Maybe I just measure big as I am only 5' 1" tall???
Anyway, they confimed that the baby is head down, it was way down on the scan, but I can feel that he has moved up again!! She did manage to get a shot of the face but it isn't great as he was really squashed down there!! I don't have to go back to the hospital now until I am 4 days overdue (if I get that far!!)
Anyway sweetheart, it was really nice to be able to get a good look at you today, we just know that you are going to be soooo cute!! Now we can get down to trying to coax you out of there!! Love you lots and lots. mummy xxx
Not much to update on really, since the scan on Monday. I did take my 38 week belly shots yesterday which I will post at the end.
I just have one question. Is it possible to be pregnant forever????????
I should imagine that this is what an elephant must feel like, being pregnant for 22 months!! I am just sick and tired of people looking at me and saying "I don't think that you will make it to your due date". Obviously these people have no f**king idea what they are talking about. They didn't see me last time. I am definately not as big as I was last time and I went 8 (that's EIGHT!!!) days past my due date. When I think about it like that, it means that I have at least another 3 weeks to go to take me to the same point as I was at with Connor. I can't hack the insomnia for ANOTHER 3 weeks. I am in such a bad mood all the time from lack of sleep and just feel totally miserable. I keep crying for no apparent reason, Mark and I keep sniping at one another and sometimes I find myslef taking it out on Connor, which makes me feel like the worst person on the face of the planet because none of this is his fault. He is such a sweet little boy. He has been really good recently, obviously cutting out certain foods is working. He makes me laugh, every morning for the last few days, Mark and I have asked him how long until Jamie comes and he puts up 10 little fingers and says "this many days"!! I guess it means that I will ALWAYS be 10 days away from having a baby!!
I am starting to get a bit panicky though and have to keep checking and re-checking everything. I think that I am actually quite worried about tomorrow as Mark will be at work, my grandparents are at thier caravan, 1 1/2 hours away and Mark's parents are going to a 40th birthday party in sheffield tomorrow, which is 1 1/2 hours in the other direction!! The to top it all off, my best friend who lives around the corner who agreed to help in this kind of situation has found out that her mother has been admitted to hospital with 2 suspected heart attacks and I REALLY don't want to put any more on her plate. I guess that I can always call my grandparents who could get back in just over an hour if they put their foot down to watch Connor while I ring an ambulance!! I don't know why I am so worried about it all, there is no way that I wil go into labout tomorrow, although Sunday may be nice as it's my birthday!! Although Mark doesn't want me to have you on Sunday as it is Englands first match in the Euro 2004 championship!!!
The only other exciting news (not really) is that I may have lost my plug yesterday. It wasn't bloody or anything, so I don't think that anything is iminent, but at least it means that something may be happening, problem is that the mucous plug regenerates very quickly. Ho Hum......
Jamie, please, please, please come out. We are ALL dying to meet you at long last, especially me!! I just can't wait to hold you in my arms, look into your blue eyes and be able to tell you to your face how much I love you. Don't you want to be kissed and cuddled??? Of course you do!! But this isn't possible until you arrive.!!! Besides, all the other babies on the June board are getting impatient with waiting for you to come out and play!!! Love you lots and lots. xxx
Well, today is Mummy's birthday! It is amazing how so many of my "friends" have forgotten. I know that we are all so wrapped up in when you might arrive, but this is silly. These 2 people are meant to be 2 of my best friends. I can forgive Paula as her mother is in hopsital, so she has other things on her mind, but don't really know what to say about Lisa. But yet as a new Mummy, I will be expected to remember both of their birthday's which are both next month.
Anyway, Mummy is really disappointed today. I had really high hopes of being a family of 4 by this morning. I was having alot of really strong bh's contrax all day yesterday. I guess that this could have been brought on by all the walking that I did, as I decided to walk home from town.
I didn't really notice them becoming more regular until about 9.30pm. By 10pm they were coming every 3/4 minutes and the pain was also radiating into my back as well as into my belly. They carried on at this frequency for nearly 4 hours and then just disappeared. I was so convinced that it was the real thing, and am so upset to find out that it was just false labour.
I did say to your Daddy last night that if you didn't arrive in the next 24 hours that you will probably not show up until after my due date. Now it seems that I have jinxed myself. I really am not sure how much more of this I can take. I am crippled by back pain and am hardly sleeping. I am going to be a complete zombie before you even get here!!
Sorry to be on a downer today, but I really just needed to vent. Maybe the excitement of England's first Euro championship match tonight against defending champions France will get me started (lots of adrenaline and alcohol, and maybe some rumpy will get things moving in the right direction.
Anyway, sweetheart, Mummy loves you dearly. You would have made the perfect birthday present, especially as most people gave me money so that I could buy clothes for after you are born!! I just got a few little bits and pieces from you, Connor and Daddy, which was nice. I guess that there is still plenty of time for you to arrive today. Afterall, it is only 10am, giving you another 14 hours to get your little tush into gear!! Lots of hugs and kisses are waiting for you Jamie!! xxxx
Boy, are you stubborn!! Or is it that I am impatient??? I was really hoping that the contractions would start up again yesterday, but no such luck. I must me mad. Am I the only person in the world who would wish contractions on themselves??!!!
I was really hoping that the excitement of the England - France game yesterday would start me off again, but needless to say, we were winning until 3 minutes from the end and then our worst nightmare happened and France scored 2 goals in 3 minutes and it was all over. Spent the rest of the night mopping around (me and your daddy!!).
Apart from the lack of anything happening to me, I don't have much else to report, but I do have a midwife appointment tomorrow, so I will write more then!! I love you lots and lots Jamie! xxx
Well here is an update as promised. I saw the midwife this morning and things went exactly as we thought and exactly as it has been at every othe appointment so far. BP nice and low, waters are clear, no swelling/headache, so there is no need to induce me early.
The midwife seems to think that I am going to go overdue again.
I have another appointment next tue at 39+5 and then a hospital appointment at 40+4 to schedule my induction. I was really hoping that you would be accomodating and come a little bit early as I am getting next to no sleep, about 2 decent hours a night and then I might have one night a week where I am that exhausted that I sleep for several hours. I know that I won't be getting much sleep when you are here either, but I bet that it would be better quality sleep that what I am getting now.
Anyway, now I have been fairly upset, so I am going to mope and watch tv all day with Connor!!
I just really want you to come out!! As a matter of fact, we all do as this pg malarky is making me evil!! Plus, I can't wait to be able to show you off to all my friends, here and IRL!!! I love you so much Jamie, don't ever forget that.... xxx
Hello my little monster!!!
Well Jamie, you were at it again last night!! We were so convinced that you were coming that we took ourselves off to the hospital to get checked over, but needless to say, we are still here, together this morning!! I just wish that you would make up your mind...
After having contractions 4 minutes apart for 3 hours, we decided to go in to find out where we stand. I got hooked up to a monitor for 40 minutes as we kept losing your heart trace as you moved around. I was having strong braxton hicks/mild contractions but they weren't doing alot to my cervix. Upon examination it turns out the my cervix is still around the back of your head, long and thick and I am 1.5cm dilated. Mark looked at me as if to say that he had dilated to 1.5 while he sat there!!! They did offer to keep me in, but I couldn't see the point as they won't do anything until I am overdue. I was told to try sex, which we did when we got home, but so far nothing!!
Anyway, as you can imagine the phone hasn't stopped ringing today, which in itself is quite annoying. Like I would go to the hospital and not tell anyone??? I have basically told all my family that I am just going to get on with things as if I wasn't 9 months pg. My mil keeps telling that I should be resting with my feet up, but resting just makes me miserable and irritable, I would rather keep busy. Hopefully the stress of tonights match against switzerland might make something happen. I think that Mark is sectretly relieved as it means that he won't miss the match, and I am relieved as it means that I don't have to have all the names of the players as middle names, which Mark did threaten me with should our team win!!! Stay in Jamie, stay in!!! You can come tomorrow instead, unless you want to be named Jamie Alexander, sven, michael, david, gary, steven etc, etc!!!
Anyway, I still love you, even if you are a bit of a tease!! Don't worry, I will get you back when you get here. Maybe I will pretend to offer you the breast and then take it back!!! (Joke!!!) xxxx
Well, sweetie, you are still wrapped up nice and snug in your womb!! I am not going to complain about how you don't want to come out, there must be a good reason why you are still there, plus it is a bit of a compliment to how well I am carrying you!! The way I have to look at it is that you will come when you are ready. Although that hasn't stopped us from trying lots of different methods of getting to know you a bit earlier. Can you believe that your Daddy was moaning about not getting any action for months and now he is moaning that he is getting too much!! I just told him that he should enjoy it before you get here because heaven knows how we will find time with 2 children and the hours he works!!
Anyway, we won our game yesterday, 3 - 0!!! I guess that maybe you could tell by how noisy we were being and you must have wondered what Mummy was jumping up and down for!! At least you didn't arrive yesterday, as Daddy wanted to give you the middle names of all the team. I don't know how serious he was, but I didn't really want to take any chances!
On the down side, I am fairly certain that I have upset your great Nanny Marg(my Nan). For the last week, maybe 10 days, she has been ringing me up every day to ask how I am. I didn't mind at first, but after the false alarms and everything, it is starting to grate on my nerves. Yesterday, she asctually rang me twice. The the phone went at 8.30am this morning, whilst we were all having a cuddle in our bed. I knew exactly who it was so didn't get up (plus it takes me 10 minutes to stop hobbling!!). Then 15 minutes later the phone rang again. This time I went and checked who it was and low and behold, it was Nanny Marg. I rang her back and she said she was getting worried when we didn't answer the phone. In the end, I told her that it was starting to depress me when people ring up all the time, all it does is remind me that nothing is happening and that I likely have another 2 weeks to go. I also said that I wasn't NOT going to tell anyone when the time came. I could hear from the tone of her voice that she was put out, but I can't put up with another 2 weeks of being called twice a day, and that is just from her. This doesn't include the call that will inevitably come from the MIL, although I will speak to here as I would like her to take your brother off my hands for a few hours over the weekend, so that I can get some housework done. It is impossible to do with him under my feet.
Anyway, apart from that, nothing new to report, so I am going to go and see to your brother, who is obviously bored as he is pestering me AGAIN!
I love you so much sweetie. xxxx
Well, I have no idea what is going on, but for the last 2 days, I have slept really well. What I mean by that is that I have only had to get up once and actually had some decent chunks of sleep. I still have to wake up to turn over of course, but I went straight back to sleep. Maybe it's a positive sign that things may happen as my body realised that it would be to tired to get you out!! (Hey, I can dream right??!!!!)
Anyway, this morning I needed to pee at 5.15am. When I got to the bathroom, I noticed that I was losing alot more plug, still snotty/stringy with no blood, but at least it seems to be a step in the right direction. I went back to bed and was having the odd contraction. It is much easier to tell if you are having a contraction when you are lying down as your belly stays pretty soft when you lie on your back. I told your Daddy about what was going on, but we decided that he should go to work until something more definate happens. It is very difficult to pay attention to whether I am contracting or not with Connor around as I tend to have to concentrate on him, so I will just watch out for other signs, bloody show, waters break.........the need to push!!!
I wish I could say that I won't be around to post tomorrow, but that is the reason I sent your Daddy to work. I thik that you are a practical joker and that you have probably taken root in there and won't want to come out without help!!!
If anything does happen and I decide to go to the hospital, I will leave an update, as I will have time while I am waiting for a ride to the hospital.
We hope to be able to see you VERY soon Jamie. Even your brother is excited and we made a picture for you yesterday. I will try and take a picture to post so that everyone can see. We love you lots and lots Jamie. xxxx
Well, you are still with me, no real surprise there!!
Today is father's day and I know that your Daddy would like you to arrive sometime today, so that you can be his present!! I would be happy if you don't show up until tomorrow as I would like to have the opportunity to raise someone other than a Gemini!!! Plus, tomorrow is the summer solstice, although England play again tomorrow and we need a draw to go thru in second place to stay in the tournement.
I had to laugh at a lady that I scary in the supermarket last night. I got into what I thought would be the quickest queue, and as per usual the woman at the front was holding everyone up. So I start rocking back and forth to relieve some of the back ache I had. Then as we got closer to the front and I turn slightly, I heard the woman behind me gasp out loud!! She then said to me, "that's a big bump for such a little person! I wondered if you were pregnant from the way you were rocking, I used to do that. How long have you got left?" You could actually hear a pin drop when I said 5 days. People were looking at me lke my water's were going to break there and then!!! I love it that I can still shock people!!
Anyway, my sweet little (or maybe not!) boy, Mummy is going to leave it there for now as not much to update with. I will update if anything happens. Other than that I may not update until tuesday when my next midwife appointment is. I love you so much sweetie, please come and say hello in person very soon. xxx
Well, still no progress! I am starting to get really hacked off with my body. I had contractions ALL day yesterday and then guess what, they stopped when I went to bed. I then laid there for what seemed like hours listening to your daddy snoring.
Well, we have decided to stop with the sex as dh is moaning that we are only doing the deed to get the baby here (no shit sherlock!! Did he really think that I would be doing it at this stage because I am enjoying it???) Anyway, tonight we are going to try the hot curry, some alcohol and the next England game!! PLus, it is the summer solstice, (longest day of the year), so you never know. I think that Kelly guessed that you will arrive today!!
Anyway, have to see the midwife tomorrow, so will update again then (or later on today if we think that you are going to show up!!) Love you so much. xxxx
Update: Have had a massive bloody show this morning!! Yay!!! Who would think that I could get so excited by something so disgusting!! I guess I am just excited as it finally means that SOMETHING is happening. I have looked it up i my books and they say that labour can start within several hours, or several days. When I spoke to the midwife last week, she said within 3 days. So hopefully Jamie, we will be seeing you by your due date!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!!
Hello Baby Jamie!!!
Well, I know that it has been a while, but as you can imagine, things have been a bit hectic around here, as you decided to arrive 2 days early. So now you are finally here and as of today, you are 9 days old. You are just as gorgeous as I knew you would be. It is hard to believe how much I can love such a tiny little person. and to think that I was worried that I would not love you the same way that I love your brother, Connor. Of course I do, but I do love you differently. It also turns out that I don't have to share my love with both of you, the space in my heart just multiplied and you each have your own supply!
Anyway, I am far too tired to re-type my birth story, so I have copied it from the June board:
It all started after we decided to take a walk along the canal side on Tuesday morning. We took some bread to feed the swans and ducks. While we were feeding them I felt something on my hand, looked down and saw a wasp. Needless to say, I am terrified of wasps, been stung one too many times for my liking. I moved my hand and then it started buzzing around my head which sent me into a total panic. I asked for Mark's help but he didn't hear me, so i did the next best thing.......I tried to run!! Silly thing to do when you can't see your own feet, as I tripped over them and went sprawling to the ground on my tummy. Mark came running over and helped me up. I told him that my right boob was killing me and that I couldn't feel the baby move. We did a quick walk back to the car (neither one of us had a phone on us ) and I rang the hospital. They said to come in for a fetal trace and assessment.
Anyway, I got to the hospital and had to walk up 2 flights of stairs as the elevators were out of order. By the time I got to the top, Jamie had woke up, but they went ahead and did the trace anyway. Jamie was nce and responsive and I was having a few contractions but they had fizzled out after 40 minutes. They said that I could go home but needed to go for a scan to make sure there was no internal damage. I had 2 contractions whilst I was being scanned. I went back to the delivery suite to give them the report. As I was walking back to the delivery suite, I was having terrible pain in my cervix. When I got to the delivery suite, I was told that I could go home to which I calmly replied "I don't think that I can, I feel like my baby is about to fall out onto the floor". The midwife just looked at my skeptically and said "you think you're in labour?? I guess that we can examine you first".
They put me into a delivery suite with a birthing pool. I put on the gown and the midwife did the internal exam. I could see the surprised look on her face. She then turned to me and said "you cheeky monkey, you're only 7cm dilated!!" and as she double checked my waters broke everywhere. In the meantime, Mark and Connor were wandering around the hopsital grounds, not knowing that I was in labour. I rang the MIL and told her to come and fetch Connor and hopefully bring Mark to the delivery suite. Mark eventually showed up with Connor of his own accord, by which time I needed to push. The mil arrived 20 minutes later and took Connor, which wasn't bad timing as Jamie made his appearance 20 minutes after that!! I couldn't believe that I had done it. I had a completely natural delivery, with just a little bit of gas and air.
It turned out that I arrived at the hospital at nearly 1pm, went for my scan at 2.30pm, was admitted onto the delivery ward at 3.20pm and Jamie was born at 4.39pm. On my notes it said that I was in labour for a grand total of 1 1/2 hours!!! Jamie was delivered straight onto my tummy, all wrapped in his cord, which mark cut. Needless to say, I couldn't stop shaking as I was i shock from the speed of the whole process
Anyway sweetheart, this should be my last entry in this journal. I guess that I will have to start up a general journal, but I may not do that until I can find the time!! I have to run now, as I should be getting ready to go to the in laws as it is the fil's birthday today, plus I will probably have to feed you before we go!! I love you so much Jamie and I know that you are so worth everything that I have gone through with your pg and the loss that we suffered to get you. You truely are my little angel here on earth. Love you forever, Mummy. xxx