I am so exhausted the last 2 days. Yesterday I slept 7-8 hours during the day plus the 6 hours the night before plus the 7 hours last night, now today I slept another 4 hours.
I have never been so exhausted without actually feeling like I have flu and outside of the exhaustion and the nerve pain I feel fine.
Part of me wonders if it is study avoidance but my study avoidance has never been this intense. I normally feel like a total zombie after sleeping so much but I still feel like I could sleep more. That's why I don't think it is entirely study avoidance. I just hope DH understands this, at least a little.
So the exhaustion seems to have abated slightly although I still don't have the energy I had on Monday. Maybe it has to do with the lowered dose of my meds? I'm down to 75mg now!! 3 more months and I'll be off it entirely :) then I have the option to BF when Squishy arrives.
I have started doing prenatal yoga at home. I hope it helps keep my moods balanced as well as stretches out this damn pinched nerve. It has not gone away this whole week.
I'm also feeling rather full-up all the time. Like I have eaten too much and have a full bladder at the same time. Squishy can't be big enough to be squashing all my organs already, can he/she?
Oh! I can't wait to find out pink or blue!!! Tomorrow is my monthly check up so I will get to hear the heartbeat again and they will also tell me the date of my anatomy u/s. I really can't wait!!!!
Urgh, but I have to start studying. Still no word on my work visa and I wasted this whole last week. This coming week needs to be more productive in the studying department. But I feel like I've lost that spark I had at the beginning of the week. What if my actual studying technique is still not adequate?? I just don't know how to properly get the info into my head :(
I think it's going to be a very strange day... dog woke me up before my alarm but I felt more awake than I have in the last 2 weeks. Then I had sciatic pain and round ligament pain from the moment I stood up. Got home from the dog park and made DH toast and coffee (which I never do) as well as some breakfast for myself. Weird. But great to have so much energy, even if it is only going to be short-lived.
Belly is growing quite rapidly. Some days I swear I can feel it growing. Today it just feels like it's in the way of everything. Looking forward tot he Big Anatomy Ultrasound on Wednesday. I just hope Squishy cooperates and shows us the goods.
The last couple weeks have been hard on me. I think I'm battling a little bit of depression over my lack of work visa. I have nothing to keep my mind properly occupied so I just keep worrying about the work visa, and the resident visa, and how it all affects us. I just wish there was some way to get an update...
And I've been rather homesick for SA lately. Been having flash-cravings for things you can only get there. And been thinking about whether or not to have a baby shower.
I wish I could channel all this energy I've put into worrying into studying instead. I am still struggling greatly with the lack of motivation.
Today was a little better in the belly department. At least I didn't feel like a balloon blown up to it's limit! But I still can't imagine how I'm going to get thru the next 20 weeks when I don't have any space left in my body already. This belly better start sticking out forwards or I'm going to be in trouble!!
So today we had the big Anatomy Ultrasound. W-O-W! It was amazing all the stuff they can see.
The first thing we saw on the screen was Squishy opening and closing her mouth like she was gabbing away. Yes. I said SHE!! We're having a baby girl. I'm so excited by the news, but I don't think any more excited than I would be if she'd been a boy. I'm just thrilled that all her measurements are perfect. She's weighing in at about 15oz right now which is a little bigger than 20 weeks. She gave the docs great pics of her brain and spine and there is absolutely nothing wrong! Her heartbeat is still strong and good. She was not in the mood to be photographed tho and kept her hands in front of her face. And she almost didn't show us the goods because she had her legs crossed.
I'm changing the official EDD to 12/23 now because the ultrasound Dr concurred with my OB. So now today is 20w2d
So things have been pretty uneventful these last couple weeks. Squishy is growing nicely but I'm a little worried because I'm still not putting on any weight. Doc is not going to be happy with me when I see him next week, but at least I don't think I'm losing anything. I've started upping the protein content of my meals so we'll just have to wait and see. It's also helping with more sustained energy which I really really need seeing as I have only 8 weeks left before my first exam.
I just wish I could stop worrying about the visas. It always pops into my head and it always distracts me.
Things have been going much better this last week. My energy levels are better and more lasting now so I think the protein-filled breakfasts are doing their job. I did a decent amount of studying although I'm not sure if I can actually remember anything but we'll just keep working on that. I haven't had any round ligament pains or sciatic nerve pains (touch wood).
On Friday night while we were out at dinner I felt her kick!! Like a real kick, I swear if I'd been looking at the belly I would've seen it move. DH still hasn't felt her move yet but I don't think it will be much longer before he does (providing he is patient enough to keep his hand on the belly for more than 2 min)
So we had a professional family / bump photoshoot today...
It was a bigger mission to get there than I thought it would be, especially since we had to take extra outfits and the dog with. We had to take 1 subway and 2 regional trains (with only 5 min between each transfer) to get there which took about 90 min, but it was loads of fun in the end and I think the photographer got some great shots but now I'm all disappointed because I just looked at their price list for prints.
They're out of their freaking minds!!!
The only reason I booked with them is because I went to the New York Baby Show back in May and they had a special offer of $50 for the session (supposedly valued at $500) which includes 1 framed print. Now I'm feeling all scammed about the whole thing because the "framed print" is only a 8 x 10 size and also they want to charge $1000 (!!!!!!) to put only 10 of the images on a flash drive. Are these people nuts??
And to top it all off we will have to travel the 90 min (1 subway & 2 trains) there and then back again to choose the picture/s.
DH thinks we could find it for more reasonable costs nearer home but I think he's delusional. The photography session alone will be $250+ and then the prints/frames will be over and above that. At this stage I'm leaning towards cancelling the follow up viewing session and writing off the $50 as experience costs.
DH felt Squishy kick at 8:45am this morning!!!
The belly feels so large right now.
It was so cool! Last night DH & I watched as Squishy made my belly bulge out to one side.
I feel so bruised today. I totally overdid it on the housework yesterday. And I think just being up late with our friends and talking and laughing has also taken a toll on me.
I might even be having some Braxton Hicks, it feels tight really low down.