I finally got up the courage to begin my pregnancy journal. I have been a little apprehensive about starting it, b/c I had a very difficult pregnancy with my DD (who is now 17 months old). Now that I have reached the 12 wk mark, I feel more confident in the pregnancy, and decided to start my journal. I want to begin by giving some background of my pregnancy with my DD, since that had a big impact on me and how I am feeling now.
When I was about 16 wks pregnant with my DD, my quad results came back 1 in 10 odds for Down Syndrome. Knowing we would keep the baby no matter what, we had the level 2 ultrasound performed. The ultrasound revealed that my DD had a condition called fetal hydrops, which is fluid in the abdomen and chest, as well as severe edema of the skin. This condition is fatal 99% of the time. The perinatologist told us she would likely die within a few days or weeks, or, if she hung on longer than that, would be stillborn. We went for a second opinion which confirmed the prognosis. DH and I were devastated of course. We decided to leave the situation in God's hands and let nature take it's course. We had the amniocentises done because I felt like I really needed some answers as to why this was happening. The amnio confirmed that DD did in fact have Down Syndrome. At that point, the Down Syndrome didn't seem so daunting, as that is something she could live with. We wanted nothing more at that time than for her to LIVE. As the weeks went on, the hydrops began to slowly go away. I don't think the doctors themselves could believe it, but they were persistent in reminding me that she most likely would not survive. She proved to truly be our little miracle, as the hydrops completely resolved before birth and she was born full term, kicking and crying like any healthy newborn. She is now 17 months old and doing great. The hydrops had no residual effects on her health, and, aside from a few colds, has been perfectly healthy. We really were so blessed and so lucky that she defied all the odds. So, here I am, 12 weeks pregnant with a new LO. Most everyone I know, after telling them I am pregnant, after congratulating me follow up by asking... "so, are you going to have a lot of testing done because of Julia (DD)...or something to that effect. I can't blame them for asking this, b/c I have done the same thing to other moms I know who have children with DS or other issues, but it is annoying. It would be nice to hear just "Congratulations" and leave it at that. I have to admit some people have done this, so I can't say it is everyone. I learned now that will be what I do in the future. So, to answer the question, Yes, I am going to have some more testing than usual, to try to best prepare ourselves, but I don't plan on any invasive testing. I'm having the sequential screen done (nuchal scan and bloodwork at 12 & 18 wks). And I plan to have the level 2 u/s at 20 wks. This should give us a good idea if there are any problems. I know I will carry the baby no matter what the results are, and won't love the baby any less no matter what. That being said, I went for my nuchal scan yesterday. The baby was moving around so much that they weren't able to get the measurements they needed, so I have to go back next week. They were able to get one good nuchal measurement, which was 1.2 mm. But, they said they need to get 3 good measurements to use them to determine results. The u/s technician told me that the one measurment that she got looked very good though, and that they aren't concerned until it is 3 mm or larger. The baby's crown to rump measured perfectly for a 12 wk. old baby too. I was in there for an hour - I loved watching him/her moving around for all that time. I'm a little freaked out they want me to come back ( a part of me is wondering... did they see something they don't want to tell me about and want to check again next week??..). But, I'm kind of glad I get to get another ultrasound though. So, for now I have to wait until next Monday to finish the scan and get my bloodwork done. Oh and the baby's HR was 162. I thought it looked like a boy, but I always think baby's look like boys on ultrasound. The tech said it was definitely too soon to tell. (I'll still ask again next week though). As you can tell, I can't wait to find out the sex. I really have no preference - just HEALTHY is all that matters. I suppose a girl would be nice, since I already have all the girl stuff, and after already having a girl think little girls are the best! But on the other hand, I think a boy would be amazing too! For some reason, I always pictured me having a boy, so maybe it will be a boy. My gut feeling is that it's a boy, but I felt that way with Julia too. I truly love being a Mom. I have to say it is hands down the most rewarding thing ever to happen in my life. I am so excited about having another. I just hope and pray that everything goes well with this new Little One!
Well, I'm still waiting on the bloodwork results for the first part of the sequential screen.
First they said results would take about a week, now they are saying 7-10 business days. Today would be 9 business days, so I won't hear anything until at least Monday. The nuchal measurements were normal - that part of the test is done - just the bloodwork I'm waiting on now. When I went back for the u/s, baby wasn't nearly as active as the first time, so they were able to get good measurements no problem. I was a little freaked out at first - the baby seemed so still - but the u/s tech. said everything was normal - we just caught the baby at a "not so active" time. As the u/s continued baby started to move around a little more. Baby's measurements were right on target for 13 wks. I'm a little worried why the bloodwork is taking so long though. It has me wondering if the results didn't look good - so they are re-running the sample...?
Who knows - really I'm not dwelling on it - I'm much too busy getting ready for Christmas. Today was actually the first day I ventured out to the mall. I did some clothes shopping yesterday for myself. None of my regular clothes fit me and it's too soon for the big maternity shirts. I never lost all the weight from DD, so I'm already starting out about 15-20 pounds more than when I started out with Julia. These past few weeks I'm feeling not really pregnant, just fat. I'm in that awkward pregnancy stage now. Really I would rather just have a big pregant belly so I would just look pregnant. That will happen soon enough I know though...I'm past the "feeling sick" stage so that's a good thing! Just a little tired, nothing major. That's all for now....
I Finally got the results for the first part of my sequential screen: 1 in 10000 odds for Trisomy 18 and 1 in 2300 for Trisomy 21. I have to admit that I am quite relieved. Even though my little Julia is absolutely perfect the way she is, (no matter how many chromosomes she has), I am hoping this baby will not have T21. Mostly because I don't want the new LO to have to face all the additional challenges that Julia will have to face, because she has T21. Then again, who knows what kind of challenges any of our LO's will face, regardless of how many chromosomes they have. Although the results look in favor of LO not having T18 or T21, I am fully aware of the error in these screening tests too. I know people who have had very low odds of having T21 and their babies were born with T21. On the flip side, I also know people who have had false positives too. I go back in a few weeks to have the second part of the bloodwork done. We'll just take it one step at a time...
I'm feeling good and am just happy to be into the second trimester
I went for my 16 wk. checkup yesterday. Everything looked good - baby's HR measured high 150s- 160. I gained 5 pounds though since my last appt. (ouch!) Of course I blame it on the holidays in addition to the pregnancy - too many cookies etc.... I really have to start being a little more careful of what I'm eating. My weight now is the same as what I weighed at 20 wks with DD. My overall weight gain so far compared to my last pregnancy is much less, but I started out a lot less last time too. I'm feeling fine - don't really feel pregnant at all, except for tiredness in the afternoons. I thought I felt the baby kick a few times, but not for certain yet. Hopefully I will start to feel it very soon. With Julia, I didn't feel her move until 22 wks, but dr. says I should feel the second pregnancy several weeks sooner. I go on Friday for the second part of the sequential screen. Dr. told me not to be surprised if my odds go up on the second part of the screen. He said they typically do and it's just the way the calculation is performed (whatever that really means). 16 more days until the big ultrasound! DH is taking the day off and we are definitely going to find out the sex.
We found out yesterday - It's a BOY!
I'm so excited - it's hard to believe, but it makes the pregnancy seem so much more "real" now for some reason. I've been feeling him move for about a week now too, which makes it more "real" also. We had the level II u/s yesterday and all looked good. All measurements were right on target for age, and they didn't see any defects, or markers for anything. Second trimester screening came back good too; 1 in 2800 for Down Syndrome, 1 in 10000 for Tri 18, and I don't exactly remember the # for neural tube defect, but it was something like 1 in 10000. I am quite happy and relieved that things are going so well. I don't know what to do with a boy though... I have the girl thing down pretty good, but boys are a whole different story. I'll have to start reading up on baby boys. I remember being nervous bringing home Julia because she was my first and it had been such a long time since I had been around a newborn baby. I was nervous even about changing her diaper. Although I know I'll feel alot more confident this time around, I'm still a little iffy on the boy issues. I'm sure it will come to me though. Time to think about what to do with the room, since they will initially be sharing the same room (now painted a light pastel lavender color). We will have to get stocked up on boy clothes too - I have tons of girl stuff, but nothing boy. I'm sure this will be quite an adventure - I'm really excited!
Had my 20 wk. checkup today. It was a pretty uneventful visit (just the way I want them to be!). Baby's HR was right around 150 and dr. said everything felt the way it should. The bad news is I gained another 5 lbs since my last visit. I wasn't surprised though - my hunger has been out of control the past few weeks. I really need to be more careful with what/how much I"m eating - I don't want my weight gain to get out of control. The dr. I saw today was a different one who I haven't met yet. They want me to meet with all the dr.'s at least once before delivery. He seemed fine - gotta run - Julia needs me...
25 weeks 0d
Not much new other than the fact that I've been incredibly "moody" lately. I don't remember feeling this way when I was pregnant with Julia, but everybody/thing (except for my little Julia of course) seems to really get on my nerves lately. I'm assuming it's just the pregnancy hormones making me a little "off" - I have my next checkup on Thursday so I'll talk to the doctor about it. Maybe it's because I'm pregnant with a boy this time, who knows... I'm reallly dreading getting weighed on Thursday. I have a feeling this is going to be a big weight gain month for me. I think I'm kind of disgusted with the way I look too and that's bringing me down as well. I had some kind of a cold/flu a few weeks back. It went away, then came back again and I lost my voice. I finally went to the dr. and he gave me a prescription for a Z-pack. I really don't like to take any kind of prescribed med. while I'm pregnant, but I just wasn't getting better and this particular one was on my "approved" list from my OB. I am starting to get excited about this LO though. I feel him move so much now it's just so exciting. I had a moment a few nights ago, where he was really tumbling around in there and it all just seemed so "real" to me. I actually started to get really nervous for some reason about taking care of a tiny little newborn again. I think sometimes I (and most pregnant people) get so caught up in things like...what color to paint the room...what do I need to buy...etc... that we forget the reality that there really is a brand new human being growing inside of us. The miracle of life really is just so amazing when you really just sit and ponder for a while. I've been starting to have more of these moments lately and am glad for it. I can't believe I'll be in my 3rd trimester in just 3 more weeks.
Went for my 24 wk. appt. last week. All was well - gained another 5 pounds. I didn't care for the Dr. I saw this time though. When he was probing on my belly to get the heartbeat, it hurt really bad. I don't ever remember it hurting before with Julia. I told him that and all he said was "yeah that's normal - I was really digging in pretty hard"...WTH? Was that really necessary? Aside from that, he just kinda seemed like he was in a hurry. Hopefully this will NOT be the Dr. that delivers the baby. So far, I like all the other doctors in the practice - just not this one. I got my paperwork for my 1 hr. glucose test and my Rhogam injection. It's kind of exciting that I'm getting to this point in the pregnancy! We went to babies r us on Sat. to get ideas on how to decorate the room. Since Julia and the new baby will be sharing a room, we have to find a happy medium between boy/girl. We found a really nice "gender neutral" Winnie the Pooh pattern - I think we may go with that, since the room already is partially "Pooh themed". Of course we will need to paint the room, since it is a pale lavender pastel shade now, which is very girly.... fun stuff...
28 weeks 0d
YAY!! Entering third trimester - hard to believe!! Just checking in b/c I couldn't wait for my ticker to move onto the third to the last box!
My SIL is lending us her crib for the new LO. We already have it set up in the room - still need to get mattress etc..We think Julia will be in her crib for a while, so we're just going to borrow another. This week I have checkup as well as 28 wk. bloodwork and Rhogam injection. I've been sick, and so has Julia - can't wait for warm weather and no more colds!!
Went for 28 wk. bloodwork and 1 hr. glucose test today - followed by Rhogam injection and 28 wk. checkup. It was quite a busy day. Julia tagged along with me and was quite a trooper. Everyone kept commenting on how pleasent and well behaved she is.
First I had to drink the glucose drink and sit in the hospital waiting area for an hour. Then, had blood drawn and had to head to other area of hospital for Rhogam injection. Last time I had to go to L & D department for the injection, but this time I went to maternal outpatient testing. I had the option of getting the shot in my arm or bottom (I picked my arm of course - why would anyone opt for their bottom anyway?). It didn't hurt as much as I remember it hurting last time. While I was waiting for the 1 hr. glucose blood draw, a woman in labor was pushed past me in a wheelchair. She was crying her eyes out and looked like she was in excruciating pain - gave me the chills and a little bit of a scare - not that I'm not fully aware of how much it hurts, but just to be reminded was a little scary. After the injection, I headed to lunch and met up with a friend. Following lunch I headed to the OB for regular checkup. All was well - I saw my usual Dr. today - baby's heartrate sounded good and everythng felt the right size - I only gained about 2 pounds since last visit. I thought it was going to be much worse (especially since I just came from eating a big lunch). I go back in 3 wks for my next checkup. Then, 2 wks after that, at which time I'm going to get an u/s.