I finally got up the courage to begin my pregnancy journal. I have been a little apprehensive about starting it, b/c I had a very difficult pregnancy with my DD (who is now 17 months old). Now that I have reached the 12 wk mark, I feel more confident in the pregnancy, and decided to start my journal. I want to begin by giving some background of my pregnancy with my DD, since that had a big impact on me and how I am feeling now.
When I was about 16 wks pregnant with my DD, my quad results came back 1 in 10 odds for Down Syndrome. Knowing we would keep the baby no matter what, we had the level 2 ultrasound performed. The ultrasound revealed that my DD had a condition called fetal hydrops, which is fluid in the abdomen and chest, as well as severe edema of the skin. This condition is fatal 99% of the time. The perinatologist told us she would likely die within a few days or weeks, or, if she hung on longer than that, would be stillborn. We went for a second opinion which confirmed the prognosis. DH and I were devastated of course. We decided to leave the situation in God's hands and let nature take it's course. We had the amniocentises done because I felt like I really needed some answers as to why this was happening. The amnio confirmed that DD did in fact have Down Syndrome. At that point, the Down Syndrome didn't seem so daunting, as that is something she could live with. We wanted nothing more at that time than for her to LIVE. As the weeks went on, the hydrops began to slowly go away. I don't think the doctors themselves could believe it, but they were persistent in reminding me that she most likely would not survive. She proved to truly be our little miracle, as the hydrops completely resolved before birth and she was born full term, kicking and crying like any healthy newborn. She is now 17 months old and doing great. The hydrops had no residual effects on her health, and, aside from a few colds, has been perfectly healthy. We really were so blessed and so lucky that she defied all the odds. So, here I am, 12 weeks pregnant with a new LO. Most everyone I know, after telling them I am pregnant, after congratulating me follow up by asking... "so, are you going to have a lot of testing done because of Julia (DD)...or something to that effect. I can't blame them for asking this, b/c I have done the same thing to other moms I know who have children with DS or other issues, but it is annoying. It would be nice to hear just "Congratulations" and leave it at that. I have to admit some people have done this, so I can't say it is everyone. I learned now that will be what I do in the future. So, to answer the question, Yes, I am going to have some more testing than usual, to try to best prepare ourselves, but I don't plan on any invasive testing. I'm having the sequential screen done (nuchal scan and bloodwork at 12 & 18 wks). And I plan to have the level 2 u/s at 20 wks. This should give us a good idea if there are any problems. I know I will carry the baby no matter what the results are, and won't love the baby any less no matter what. That being said, I went for my nuchal scan yesterday. The baby was moving around so much that they weren't able to get the measurements they needed, so I have to go back next week. They were able to get one good nuchal measurement, which was 1.2 mm. But, they said they need to get 3 good measurements to use them to determine results. The u/s technician told me that the one measurment that she got looked very good though, and that they aren't concerned until it is 3 mm or larger. The baby's crown to rump measured perfectly for a 12 wk. old baby too. I was in there for an hour - I loved watching him/her moving around for all that time. I'm a little freaked out they want me to come back ( a part of me is wondering... did they see something they don't want to tell me about and want to check again next week??..). But, I'm kind of glad I get to get another ultrasound though. So, for now I have to wait until next Monday to finish the scan and get my bloodwork done. Oh and the baby's HR was 162. I thought it looked like a boy, but I always think baby's look like boys on ultrasound. The tech said it was definitely too soon to tell. (I'll still ask again next week though). As you can tell, I can't wait to find out the sex. I really have no preference - just HEALTHY is all that matters. I suppose a girl would be nice, since I already have all the girl stuff, and after already having a girl think little girls are the best! But on the other hand, I think a boy would be amazing too! For some reason, I always pictured me having a boy, so maybe it will be a boy. My gut feeling is that it's a boy, but I felt that way with Julia too. I truly love being a Mom. I have to say it is hands down the most rewarding thing ever to happen in my life. I am so excited about having another. I just hope and pray that everything goes well with this new Little One!
Here we go Baby # 2