Ok ok, so we're not sure if you are formed yet, but we are hoping! I miscarried a baby a few weeks ago, and didn't know I was pregnant till after the fact. BUt I could see the baby in my dreams. It was a little angel boy and I could almost feel him in my dream. I can't wait to know you are inside of me, and growing and dream of the day I will hold you. You will be my last child, and I intend on cherishing my final pregnancy. I thought that with your big sister too, but I got really sick and almost died. It was hard to stay positive through the hard times. I'm praying that God has different plans for me this time. ANd I want you to know that even though I won't know for a few days if you are even in existence yet, that you are wanted. You are loved and mommy knows just how fragile life is. I am so looking forward to keeping this journal for you. So you can see all the feelings I have with you inside of me. And someday soon, I'll be writing about your first little kick on this page. And maybe I'll get to write what gender you are! Your sisters didn't want to reveal themselves till birth! Tonight, Arielle kissed my belly and said there was a "baby brudder" in there. Boy or girl, I just hope that you *are* in there now!
Love momma (5/18)