I cannot BELIEVE how stinkin' tired I am!! This is so hard! When I was pregnant with Natalia, I got to sleep whenever I needed to, and only had to worry about myself. Let me just say that it is MUCH, MUCH harder when you have someone else to take care of! UGH!! There is always so much to do around the house, that taking a nap when Natalia naps is pretty much impossible.
Besides the tiredness, my body has decided to bloat up like a blowfish. I was really hoping to keep this pregnancy a secret for another month or so, but I think the only chance I have of doing that is if I just let people think that I'm getting fat! I seriously look about 4 months preggo. I am SO not ready to break into the maternity clothes though....not yet. Let me at least make it past first trimester before you make me wear those goofy shirts!
On another note, I have been a major grump recently. I feel bad for Nick because I am snapping at him right and left, and he's not doing anything wrong. My hormones are just out of control. One minute, I'm yelling at him...the next minute, I'm bawling my eyes out...and it's not at a sappy commercial, it's at an episode of LOST! What is wrong with me?? Haha!!
I SOOOO don't feel pregnant. This is so weird!! Besides a little bit of a yucky feeling in my tummy, and the fact that I have no AF...who would of thunk I was knocked up?? I have to keep reminding myself that at this point in the pregnancy with Natalia, I hadn't even taken a test yet...and I didn't even start getting symptoms with her until about 8 weeks or so. So...this isn't abnormal for me. I just don't feel anything, and it's weird. At least when you have symptoms, you can blame it on the little bug growing inside....but I have no symptoms...so I'm not blaming the little bug for anything, so I don't really feel a connection with him/her yet. I probably did not make any sense at all just then, did I??
I do have some GREAT news to report!! I found a doctor who does VBACs!! They are actually the ONLY group in the entire Tampa Bay region who does them, and I'm so glad they had room for me as a patient. They haven't reviewed my records yet, so I will find out at my appointment on the 31st of March whether or not I am a good candidate. I wonder what the criteria are?? Maybe I should look that up, huh?
Well...I have to have some "ME" time before the two munchkins wake up. (My daughter and nephew, who I babysit.) Ciao!
Definite yuck nausea grossness starting to set in now. All day today I'd get really hungry really fast. If I don't eat within 2 or 3 minutes, I get to the salivating gonna puke stage. I never actually got around to puking (thank God), but felt disgusting until I ate something which I didn't even want.
On the bright side....cravings are HERE!! So far, I've craved crabmeat (which I got to eat at a birthday party...YAY.) I've craved a buffalo chicken sandwich which I bought from Applebee's Curbside ordering last night, and tonite Nick brought me home a crunchy taco supreme from Taco Bell. MMM...there's nothing like fulfilling a good craving!! When nothing else sounds good, a craving can make me feel so happy inside!!
I'm also super happy because I get to sleep in tomorrow!! After a long exhausting week with Natalia and Jayden, Nick is listening for the baby monitor tonite in the spare bedroom, and I get to sleep all night with the fan on as high as I want it because he's not in here to complain about being cold!! Yay!! With that said, time for nite-nite!
I know I haven't written in a little while, but I just haven't been feeling that witty, or up to it I guess. I'm so overly exhausted and fatigued. I'm sad, because a friend of mine has been going through fertility treatments trying to get pregnant, and AF found her....again. I was hoping we would get to be preggo together! Such is life, eh?
Thanks to the wonderful girls on my November birth board, I am now craving chicken fingers, a greek salad, and a baked potato, and I have NO money to go out and satisfy my cravings. Nick and I are really in a tight spot right now, and money is hard to come by.
On the bright side, I tried on my bridesmaid dress for April's wedding, and I think it will still fit by May! Hooray! I was worried about that one.
I go to the doctor on Friday, and I hope everything is okay!!
I also had a dream last night that I was in labor and it only took 3 pushes to push my baby out, and I didn't have any tearing at all!! Woo hoo!! Let's hope that was a prophetic dream
Hmmm....so I'm sitting here still trying to arrange my thoughts from the day. It was an interesting one, full of good surprises and not-so-good surprises.
Today was my first prenatal appointment. When I found out I was pregnant, somehow I got hooked up with the only practice in the whole Tampa Bay area that does VBACS. I don't know...I guess I was just so sure that I was led to this place by God, because I never would have found it on my own. I was so excited and sure they were going to accept me as a VBAC candidate....I mean, why wouldn't they?
So, I get to the office, and everyone is so nice. I didn't wait for very long and got called back. Peed in the cup Then, they took me straight back to meet the doctor. She stayed in her office talking with me for quite awhile. She had very good bedside manner and seemed like she was actually listening to me when I talked, which made me feel good. We talked about Natalia's delivery. We talked about why I thought it ended in c-section, and why I want a VBAC. I told her that the major reasons I wanted a VBAC was because of the horrible recovery I had with my previous c-section, and also because I would like my options to be open if I decided to have a large family. Basically, she told me that any kid I have is going to end in c-section because my pelvis is small, and I make big kids. I don't buy it, but what else can I do? I'm so sad.....but I know God is in control.
On the BRIGHT SIDE (aren't you glad I am ending this happily?) I was telling her how I wasn't sure of when I ovulated, and she took me in for a SURPRISE ultrasound! YAY! I never got an early one with Natalia, so it was so fun to see! The ultrasound tech was SOO sweet and nice, and I was far enough along for her to do it on my belly and not transvaginally. There is definitely only ONE little bean in there (YAY!) and the heart was just beating away. I was sad that Nick couldn't be there, but she printed out about 6 pics for me to take home to him, so YAY for that!!
All in all, I really like the doctor's office. I am going to keep looking around....but I'm not real sure if I have any other options. I'm going to continue going to this office in the meantime, and if I end up with a section...it'll be right around Halloween! Yikes!!
I sat down to go to the bathroom a little while ago (as I do quite often these days)...and I noticed a black spot above my c-section scar. I wiped my hand across it....somehow thinking that I got dirt in my pants...
ANYWAYS....it wasn't dirt!! It was a TICK! EWWW!!!! I freaked out! I've never seen a tick except on a dog, and that was a LONG time ago....never on my dog, BooBoo!!
I don't know how long it had been there, but it wasn't very fat, and it came out really easily....so it must not have been to tightly latched. I squished it to death, and killed it, and then I washed my little dot on my body a million times and squeezed to try to get whatever that tick left in there out, and swabbed with alcohol a whole LOT. It's still freaky though. Some of those things carry really bad diseases, like Lyme's disease, and I guess I'm even more freaked out because I don't want the baby to be hurt!!
I probably sounded like a lunatic, but I called the OB/GYN and left a message on their answering machine telling them all about my tick experience. I don't really think there is anything they can do, but I guess I just wanted them to know.
UGH! I just feel like a big, fat lazy bum. I am too pudgy in the belly to fit into my regular clothes and be comfortable, but I look ridiculous in maternity clothes, because I so obviously don't look pregnant. I have nothing to wear!! I don't know why that is getting me down so much, but it's just annoying not to be able to go anywhere because you have no clothes....or because you don't feel comfortable in them.
Sorry for the rant. What a nice way to start off this post, right??
Besides that....I guess everything is the same old, same old. I'm still super tired all the time, but my nausea is starting to let up some. I'm usually nauseous only every 2-3 days instead of every day. Some foods are starting to look good to me again. However, some foods I don't care if I ever see again.
I'm really trying to enjoy this stage of pregnancy, where I can still do active things without huffing and puffing and getting a backache. I can clear the kitchen sink without turning to the side because of a big belly. I really am trying to remember what is so good about first trimester, but I'm finding it hard.
I saw a friend of mine last night who I haven't seen in about 9 months, and she was 5 months preggo. She had the cutest little baby belly, and it just made me wish I was further along.
*SIGH* It's okay, Amy. You'll get there soon enough....and I'm sure when that baby comes, I am going to be trying to shove it back in a couple days later.
I know most of my first trimester posts have been negative...but I'm SORRY!! First trimester is kicking my butt!!
My face hurts SOOOO bad! I was looking forward to pregnancy because when I was pregnant with Natalia, my face cleared up and looked so pretty for one of the only times in my life. Oh. My. Goodness. This has got to be a boy...or one very hormonal little girl, because I am breaking out as bad as I did before they put me on Accutane. Every inch of my face from my nose down is covered in zits. And not just little zits. They are the big green and yellow infected ones that you can't even pop because they just spread like wildfire. It hurts!! It's ugly!! And I just feel gross all over!!
Phew...now that my zit vent is done. My morning sickness is pretty much gone, and my energy is returning. Yay! Happy dance for Amy!! Now...if only I could start showing and then maybe I'd feel pregnant or something...
Just needed to document that I can't stand the SMELL of my deoderant or onions. UCK!! Nick cut up some onions last night to put in a salad, and I swear the smell is permeating all through the kitchen. I can't get rid of it!! It's just making me so grossed out feeling!
Just had to share.
Mmm...and a Subway sandwich sounds super yummy right now...