Il mio miracolo piccolo- Journey through the fab 40
Well little one, we did it. You won the race of life. You are now 7w 5d inside mommy's tummy and I will be the first to admit that the last 3 weeks have been anything but dull.
My first Dr's appointment was Jan.21st and Dr Polon couldn't find you at all She could see that there was a pregnancy starting, but you had proven yourself a pro at the game of hide and seek.
Today was my second appointment and as she was starting the ultrasound, I was too afraid to look, for fear of what I may (or may not) have seen. So Dr P had me listen since I didn't want to look. The sound of your heart beating was the most beautiful and joyous sound, my little one! I started to cry the moment I heard it. Your heartrate today, 143.. Code for " I love you". How symbolic.
As soon as I heard your heart, I immediately turned, wiped my tears, and looked anxiously at you on the screen. I saw you in your little 1.34 cm splendor with your little bitty heart beating.
Baby, I knew that I loved you from the moment I knew you were there, but today, I fell in love with you.
__________________________________________________ ______________________________________________ On a side note, based on my urinalysis, Dr Polon said I am not showing any of the preliminary signs of GD this time.. HOORAY!!! I go back to the Dr's on March 4th at 11am to see Dr Polons partner, Dr Morey. Both are women and very very personable and professional. Since I started going there in June, I keep wondering what I would ever do without them. Such a great practice I go to!
It was an interesting weekend. Because of what happened last time, every little ache is flippin me out and I hate it. I hate being so paranoid. Why can't I just take my own advice. I tell everyone "dont worry unless your Dr says there is reason to".
My little sister gave me a bit more to ease my mind a bit, even though to the average person it may sound silly. She told me what she thinks this baby is going to be.... She didn't do that with the last pregnancy, and she did with every one before that except for my Madison. The world can laugh at me and call me crazy for finding comfort in that, but I have good reason to. And I kind of think she is right in her prediction, because with my last full-term boy pregnancy, none of my normal heartburn "relievers" worked. With my girls, I could just have a small bowl of a non-sweet cereal (like corn flakes, chex or rice krispies) and the Heartburn would go away. Not with my son, and not so far this time. When I have heartburn I am stuck with it till it decides to go away. (unless I take tums, which I am not big on cause the taste makes me gag) I guess time, my 20 wk u/s or birth will tell, eh?
Morning sickness comes and goes, but I have only really gotten sick sick like 4 times so far. Most of the time I will just be so nauseated I don't want to eat.
Other than that I am feeling great and really taking the time to embrace this pregnancy(since it will be my last) and eager to get to know my little one as he grows inside my belly
Well lil one, you seem to be doing well despite the addition of about 100 tons of stress. Someone tried to break in the house through your brother's window the night before last. I am guessing that him being there in bed startled the person enough to make them leave. Thank God they didn't do anything to him.
So needless to say, all day yesterday I was flipping out about the whole ordeal and very very upset that after 2 1/2 yrs of feeling safe and secure, I am now terrified in my home.
We called the police and they didnt do diddly so I filed a complaint with city hall.
Nothing else to report, I just needed to get that off my chest.
Wow it's been almost 2 weeks since last I wrote. Hello little baby, I can feel you growing. And the amount of gas and indigestional pain tells me that you are doing fine.
I have been searching for an original name for you, because we aren't sure we like Victoria anymore (that is, providing you are a girl) and today I heard a name that I absolutely fell in love with... Marlee. It's cute, it's different and it fits with your siblings' names (*I* think it does anyways).
I see the doctor in just over one week again (I dont think this is the first time I have said that). I will be anxious to see you again.
Tomorrow I go to the Dr. again and baby, hopefully I see you again. I'm not sure if Dr Morey will do a u/s though. She is the only Dr of that practice I have not met. I have dealt with her father, Dr Beck, and her other partner, Dr Polon (who is my reg dr, but in this practice they like you to get to know all the dr's).
Got everything taken care of for the insurance stuff, etc. New insurance is such a pain in the neck! We just got ins thru DH's work in the beginning of December and I guess they cant count or something because they were not gonna cover any of my OB care/expenses claiming that it was a pre-existing condition!!
The nights have been so sleepless for the past few days and I don't know why.. Usually that doesn't start with me untill like 20 weeks when I can't get comfy. Now I just can't get comfy.. Atleast it's all for a good cause.
I will update more tomorrow after my appointment. I love you, sweet baby! Keep growing!
Yes you see that right.. My EDD has been changed again due to u/s.. And speaking of u/s... Here you are!!
You were just a bouncin and flippin all over in there today. It was so cute!
Dr Morey said we could take either the 8th or the 9th or even the 10th for a c/sect, so right away I said the 8th would be wonderful, but let me talk it over with DH when I get home to see what he says. So I get home and he says "lets not do it on 9/9.. that's kind of wierd, let's do the 8th" and I said "I couldnt agree more" So we shall see your beautiful face on september 8th! (and I can't wait!!!) I go back to see Dr Beck on the 18th for my First Trimester Echo (a little late) at 12:30. So I will get to see your tiggeriffic self in two weeks!
Momma loves you, lil one!
Well my little Tigger, you haven't been lettin mommy eat much lately. MS all day long and everything Daddy wants to eat doesnt sound good to me. For some reason, even though I had a baby dream this past week where I saw my son's face, I am beginning to feel boy vibes from you. Of course, either way is fine with me. My last baby will always be just that.. My last baby. Boy or girl you will be loved tremendously! Tho there will be some serious adjusting on the part of your older brother if the vibes are right.. He is so used to being the only boy. He will get used to it though.
Well little one, everyone in the house is officially over the stomach flu, even tho your brother was hospitalized from it. I have been feeling you flutter once in awhile when I am laying down trying to sleep (a sign of what is to come..) and after last time I saw you on that screen I can tell why! I get to see you again on Thursday. Might bring Makenna with me so she can see you too. We are all very excited about you, but you go ahead and keep growing and stay in there! But please, please cooperate with Dr Beck when it comes time for your "big performance" in a couple weeks... Mommy really wants to know what color clothes and blankets and yarn to buy!
Mental note- ask Dr Beck about nausea relief on Thur.. 6 small portions per day just isnt working anymore.
Today will be a double-post day because I have the Dr later on, but I havent even been to bed yet and cant go now cause I am too excited!! Moments ago, I was bopped!! I felt it plain as day! Not a flutter, not indigestion, that was the boppinest bop I ever been bopped! Ohhhhhhhh Tigger I just fell in love with you all over again!!!
Just got back from my appt. Makenna went with me and she was amazed by the movement of the baby. She kept saying "is that MY baby moving? Momma, that's inside your belly? wowww!!!" So Dr Beck did the nuchal fold scan, we are well in the acceptable zone. No apparent sign of defects, which is melodiously wonderful news to me. Baby measures 14 wks, 1 day, right on schedule with the last u/s.. Baby is still kind of down in my pelvis, so he couldn't really get any good measurements on baby's arms and legs. He said that Dr Polon (my usual Dr) will do the extremety measurements at my next appt. And she (dr polon) said that she would sneak a peek for gender then too. Next appt: tax day at 11:00. Although we may end up delivering baby sooner than the 8th, like the 6th or 7th.. Because Anesthesia only works in the L&D OR at 7am daily, so I guess we will see.
Tigger~ you never cease to amaze me, how much you move and shake all over. It was so exciting seeing you again today. I can't wait till mext time so I can (hopefully) start calling you by name!