I finally joined a small group with Kevin. Its so funny. Three out of the five girls in there are pregnant. We are laughing so hard aobut this. Its such a huge thing. We are talkling about inviting couples with infertility over to drink the water. We just started laughing over that. But boy, three pregnant women in one small room with one more TTC, move over boys, there are going to be some serious hormones running around there.
I am tired and feel rotten and to top things off I think I'm getting a cold. Not fun. I have never been one to not take medication. I don't believe that it harms your body and I don't beleive that you heal faster without it, so bottom line, I take cold pills. Now I can't. I want to take some day quil. I want to suck on a cough drop, but all I can do is just sniffle into the kleenex. Some days this pregnancy rocks, other days its all I can think to do to get through the next few months.
Yep, definitely a cold. I woke up at 12:30 last night with such a sore throat I could not swallow. I was crying. It was horrible. I stumbled out to my family room to watch tv land and nick at night. I was so tired and cold. I had wonrn a t-shirt to bed. Big mistake. I need to remember to get a long sleeve shirt that isn't so heavy so I don't have the night sweats but I don't get chilled either. I pulled the afghan over me and cuddled with my sweet furbaby kitty Mia. I kind of dozed through the next hour and a half of Night Court and Fresh Prince. I was uncomfortable. Finally after about an hour and a half at 2 am I went back to bed. My throat was still sore but at least it didn't feel like it was on fire anymore.
This morning in the shower I couldn't even stand up. I sat down the entire time. I was so dizzy and yucky feeling. Towards the end I started to feel nauseated so I jumped out and stood naked over my toilet while I dry heaved. Finally something came up, but I panicked. Combined with the bile were streaks of red. Bright red blood. I panicked and called Kaiser. This couldn't be happening. The nurse said that it was probably a combination of the sore throat and the wretching from this morning but she set up a doctors appointment for tomorrow mornning just in case, but if it doens't happen again I'm cancelling.
By te time I got to work I was feeling so lethargic. It was all I could do to get on the Richmond bound train and not the train headed back to Pleasanton, to home sweet home, but I did. Immediately my head started pounding. My nose started running, my sneezing began. I feel like a fog horn.
I really hate colds.
I'm doing a lot better today. This cold is really lightening up but yesterday was a really hard day. I was really sick all day long. I had to have DH come pick me up from work. Thats bad. I was too sick to take the train. I couldn't handle it anymore. I spent the rest of the day on the couch. My fever was spiked and I just couldn't wait to get to bed that night but I was in so much pain. DH came home and rubbed my shoulders and I finally fell asleep. The fever broke but I still have decided not to go to work today to give my body that extra day to recover. I just want to feel normal again.
Well I am finally beginning to really recover from whatever that bug was. I'm still coughing things up but not as often and I actually feel somewhat human. I'll be glad when this is completely over.
Today I am really scared because today is my first official appointment with a high risk specialist. He's the one who will decide for sure if I'm high risk or just insane. I think I'll probably be considered high risk just because of my past. Chrons disease has played a large part of my life and I don't want it to affect my baby. Hopefully he will keep that from happening. I'm going insane waiting for 2:00 to come around here. Its 10:30 now and I keep looking at the clock every five minutes. Tick tock.... could this day go any slower? I want to know what my fate is going to be. Am I going to get to continue to see Dr. Peggy Hsu or am I going to have to see a specialist for the rest of my pregnancy. Either way, I hope Dh gets to see the heartbeat today and maybe we can hear it.
I had a nightmare last night that I had triplets. I can't even begin to imagine how much work that would be. I woke up in a panic. I haven't done that since the beginning of this pregnancy in week four. I'm hoping its not true. One healthy baby is more than enough for me for right now.
Well, I have one perfect baby. I couldn't be happier about that. DH saw the heartbeat for the first time. He had tears running down his face and my baby is huge. At least compared to what it was. I went from having a baby 1/3 the size of a grain of rice and now its a kidney bean. I can't beleive how lucky I am right now.
Thanks, maybe your mom is right, but more than likely its just something she wants. I think its because I was a multiple that I've had those dreams. At least I'm hoping. Twins would be a blessing. I'm not denying that in any way shape or form, but for right now, I think one is enough.
Okay I swear someone had posted something here, but it got removed, thats why I'm editing this a couple days later. Her mom had kept yelling about twins but she thought she was only having a single.
Happy Monday! I just wanted to say that. Everyone has rotten Mondays and today my boss handed me a huge project that I've never done before and is due by 1:00 today so I better get back to work on that, but I wanted to check in here too. Baby and I are doing well. Saturday I had no morning sickness. Sunday morning I was sick as a dog. Sunday afternoon my mom took me shopping to Motherhood. No we didn't get anything yet, but we will in a few weeks. I'm sure I'll be needing it in early July.
More to come later, I just wanted to say hi.
I have hardly slept the last two days and I don't know why. Things are good right now for the most part. My morning sickness seems to be lessening and I am not spotting. I finally kind of popped out a little bit more so its more obvious that I'm pregnant. I'll put my picture on here later. I'm still wearing baggy clothes at work so no one has noticed, but today I wore a tank top under my shirt and it won't stay put. It keeps riding up over my belly. I think I may have to invest in some maternity tank tops soon. I heard they have them at Old navy. Maybe I'll go there sometime this week before Saturday.
I do have a LOT to do this week. Vacation is less than a week away and I'm nowhere near prepared. Normally I start getting ready months in advance and I know exactly what I'm going to bring. This time, Im scatterbrained and I can't think straight let alone figure out which suitcase to bring. It doesn't help to know that most of the clothes I have won't be fitting real well down in Mexico either. I have no clue what to bring down there. Oh shoot, and I forgot my dress. I need to get that dress into the taylors asap. Its a gorgeous dress, but it has a satin trim that has kind of seperated from the dress. Two or three stitches should fix that right up, but right now, I'm going insane.
Plus I just signed up for Avon which means that I'm going to sometime before Saturday morning I'm going to have to input all of that information in to get it on time.
No wonder I can't sleep. My subconscious is going crazy!
Okay, so I got my dress into Alterations and it will be ready by Thursday night. I'm mostly packed and I even had a chance to look though my Avon stuff although I'm still not entirely signed up for it. Hopefully I can do that at lunch today.
The only thing thts really bothering me is the fact that I know I have three pairs of good shorts and I can only find one.
Now I admit, I'm not the most organized person in the world. All right I'm a slob. I live in CHAOS (Cant have anyone over syndrome). Especially in my bedroom. You cant walk through there without stepping on something. My DH is no help in this category either. From time to time we clean it and we do it well but then the clothes get dumped on the floor instead of being hung or folded or dumped in the hamper and within a week, it looks again like Hurricane Katrina hit it. The rest of my house is not quite that bad, but its not good either. One of these days I will figure out Flylady's system, but not in my first trimester. I'm too tired to do 15 minutes a day, although, I did do a 15 waterbottle fling from my room yesterday. It was bad. I keep waterbottles by my bed so I don't have to get up to get a drink and then when they're empty, down they go, into that pile of clothes again. Its amazing I can even find anything clean to wear each day.
Okay so now that you get the idea of how bad I am, you can understand how I can't find my other two pairs of shorts. I wore one on Sunday and I think it may be in the actual laundry pile, but thats not the pair I was looking for. Those are green. I want my khaki. I'm wondering if I should just go to Target and buy some maternity ones anyways, just for the rest of the summer. After all, it won't be too much longer that I can fit into these pants.