I'm pregnant? What kind of craziness is this??

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I'm pregnant? What kind of craziness is this??

Hmm...So I'm starting this journal just a 'leeeedle' bit late. I am officially 18 weeks pregnant today! So happy birthday baby! Or not really birthday because you haven't been born yet, but happy conception day or something like that Smile
So you're probably wondering? Why are you starting now? I DON'T KNOW! Don't ask a pregnant woman why she does anything! Because I feel like starting one now and I didn't feel like starting one before!! Grr. Don't get on my bad side :twisted:
ANYWAYS... thinking about it, maybe I didn't start before because I just wasn't feeling good. So I'll go to the beginning of the story....

My husband and I met at University of South Florida. We were both involved in an organization on campus. He was the band's drummer, and I joined the band to sing and WAH LAH it was love. We dated for 2 &1/2 yrs and then we were engaged for 10 months and then we got married on May 11th 2002.
We had been planning on starting our family NEXT year, and I knew it could take awhile to re-regulate your body once coming off BC pills, so I stopped them in January of this yr (2004) and we were just being careful, and not BDing around that "you could get pregnant" time. SO...the month of May came around, and I'm checking the calendar to see what days we "weren't allowed" to do it, and our anniversary was scratched out. So I'm thinking...forget that!! We had a good old time that night, and just thought to ourselves...just one time won't hurt. Well to all you unmarried teens who want to have sex at a party! One time does the trick just fine!!!
Right around the time AF was due, I started getting really sleepy all the time and then I'd have to wake up in the middle of the night to eat. I just attributed it to stress. Then we went to the beach that weekend, and when we got home, I puked. So I'm thinking....do I have sun poisoning? Then I started having to pee a LOT! Do I have a UTI? Then AF was late!!! I was feeling crampy, so everytime I went to the bathroom....where is it? Did I leave a tampon in last month or something? Is it clogged up? It took me a while (2 weeks actually!) to realize I might have something else going on. So I bought a pregnancy test and took it! And it was positive! AAGGH! What did I do? I was so scared DH was going to be upset, that I waited until we got in bed that night and turned off all the lights because I didn't want to see his face if he was angry. "Umm..Nick?" "Yeah, Amy?" "I'm pregnant." Here I am waiting for the explosion. "REALLY?!?! How do you know? REALLY!?!" He was like a little kid all excited. What a relief.
THe next day was Sunday and we went and bought another HPT to make sure. Positive. I saved it for the baby book. We told his parents who were super excited, and Nick's brother and wife. She was pretty upset because (I didn't know at the time) but they had been TTC for awhile. It's all good though, because 2 months later, they finally did and she is due 2 months after me! YAY for cousins!
Then we went to tell my parents and grandparents and siblings. Of course they all started crying and freaking out because this is the 1st on my side. First grandkid. First niece or nephew. First great-grandkid. My mom is already thinking of what she wants the baby to call her. My dad wants to be called "pappy" Silly boy Smile
Geeze...this story is getting long. Let me finish in the next post..

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OK...back to the story. So 1st trimester was YUCK! I mean, first of all, I was so emotional b/c I was still a little freaked out about being pregnant. Of course I was excited, but we had these fun vacations all planned. We were going to Cedar Pointe, OH in Sept because I'm a rollercoaster-aholic and I've never been there! Then we were going to spend the weekend in New York in December and go shopping and see a Broadway show! Then we had this 4 week trip/cruise planned for Australia next year...and BAM! It's all out the window! So I was excited, but bummed at the same time. Plus I was feeling SOOOO sick. I was puking my guts out every day and trying to work at the same time. I'm a pharmacy technician, so I spend ALL DAY on my feet with grouchy customers. Not a good combo with a moody pregnant lady who doesn't even LOOK pregnant, so the customers just complaing about her because they think she's mean.

Sorry, I had to vent!

So 1st trimester was yuck. I mean...you don't look pregnant, and you definitely don't 'feel' good. I was not a happy camper.

BUT....WHEW! 2nd trimester came around and it started a whole new ballgame! BYe BYE M/S! BUt HELLO constipation!! :constipated:
Bye Bye sore BBS. HELLO Itchy BBS!

THe best part of 2nd trimester so far was at about 16 weeks....UNEXPECTEDLY...I started to feel the baby move!! This is my first pregnancy, and my doctor even warned me that I probably wouldn't feel anything until about 20 weeks, but OH WELL! The baby knew that I needed some encouragement after that grueling 1st trimester!! So I'm sitting in church, right? Trying to listen, and "squirm, squirm.." it feels like snakes in my stomach. WHAT THE HECK IS THAT? And then, there it goes again. So I decided to try an experiment. I've read that the baby moves away from pressure on the uterus..SO I took the pen I was taking notes with (capped it of course) and poked my uterus with it. And then "wiggle wiggle". Sure enough! That baby was in there, and didn't like me poking it. My DH didn't like it either cause he told me to stop pestering the baby! Since then it's been smooth sailing. Go to next post and I'll let you know how I'm doing today!

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18 weeks.
Now that you're all up to date. Here's today. Actually, I'll start with last night. I'm lying in bed, doing my regular thing. (trying to get comfy). I finally figure out some weird way to lay with my belly by this gushy pillow. About to drift off into lala land, when "flick, flick, flick" from the inside! Hello? Baby? Is that you? "Flick" again! So we've made progress! It's no longer the squirmies! It must be a kick!! YAY baby! You're growing up so fast!!
Today at work was hard. I have to give props to all you women who are working full-time and will continue to do so until 9 months. Not me. I'm a wimp and I'm ducking out early. I've already cut down to 4 days a week, 6 hr shifts. I was running around the pharmacy like a crazy cow and my back was hurting so bad by the end. I just wanted to go home. Finally I did. Yay. As soon as I walked in the door, my psycho dogs jumped all over me and my DH went to bed. I felt lonely. But that's okay. He got up at 4:30 this morning for no reason at all. I think I wake him up a lot in the night when I go pee, because he has been having a hard time sleeping.
On the bright side... I leave for vacation to Michigan in 2 weeks! Sept 12th we'll be going up to Lansing area to visit DH's sister. She built a cabin on her land for us to stay in when we go, so it will be private. I'm excited about that! ALSO, September 10th (10 days) is our BIG ultrasound!! HOORAY! I can't wait to find out if we are having a boy or a girl! Blow some pink dust our way, because my DH and I are both hoping for a girl.
My belly is starting to poke out a lot more. I had some early maternity clothes that I borrowed from a friend, and they are getting pretty tight. I am going to have to break down and buy some bigger ones. It's kind of exciting though. I actually look pregnant now...instead of "is Amy gaining weight?" Sometimes...I want to wear a sign around my neck that says "NO! I'm not eating too much these days! I'm pregnant and I just don't look like it yet!"
So far..I've gained 10 lbs. My doctor says that's about average. I'm not happy. GRR. I want to be under-average. Less to lose when it's over right?
Ok..well TATA for now. I should write more regularly now that I'm not so sick feeling. Goodnite!

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18 weeks 1 day

THANK GOD I'm off work tomorrow! Like I said before, I'm a wimp and I'm only working 4 days a week. Today was SO stinkin' hard again! My feet were killing me!!! I think it's because my feet are so little and they are having a hard time holding up the 10 extra pounds I've gained since I got 'impregnated' by that guy that sleeps in the bed next to me Wink

SO..LIKE....I'm SOOO proud of myself. Today, for the first time since I found out I was pregnant, I EXERCISED! YAY for me! I have always been an avid jogger on my treadmill...I mean, I was never super duper muscle queen, but I exercised to stay in shape and healthy, cause if I didn't then I'd blow up like a balloon (I have one of those short and stout bodies that put on weight easily). SO...I've been feeling so out of shape recently and I came home from work today, and all I wanted to do was lay down and put my feet up. BUt I said NO!! And I hopped on my treadmill and power-walked for a half hour. I was quite winded at the end...but I feel so much better. So lets see if I can continue my 1 day streak tomorrow. I'll have the whole day to myself, and I don't even have any laundry to do. So I think I'll sit down and play video games all day Smile Yes, I know...it's a very 'guy' thing to do, but for those of you who don't know me. My DH and I have kind of opposite roles. We even took an online "FRIENDS" test (BTW..I LOVE FRIENDS, hence my screen name), and my DH turned out having Monica's personality, and I have Chandler's. BUt at least we're still a match...however reversed the roles may be. Yeah, so he is very sensitive, and likes chick flicks and decorating, and likes to garden and make sure our outfits match when we go out. On the other hand..I rarely cry, I love action movies, rollercoasters, videogames, but the weird thing is...I'm not a tomboy. I suck at sports. And I don't like to watch them either.

Back to baby. I guess he/she is doing well. I haven't been sitting still all day, so I haven't really had a chance to feel the wiggles and flicks, but I'm sure they'll be there when I try to go to bed tonite.

My DH and I are talking about trading in our Explorer. Long story that goes with that....When we got married, I had a BEAUTIFUL BMW325i. My favorite car in the whole world. And then HE decided that we needed something bigger so we could tote around our 3 psycho dogs and his drumset. SO he traded in MYYYYYYYY car! I was bitter for a long time. BUT, the Explorer we got is a 2 door sport trac, and recently seen on the news as a very 'flippable' SUV. So...out of the blue tonite he asks if I'd ever want to get a BMW Sport Wagon. My first impulse would be to say...A STATION WAGON? ARE YOU KIDDING? BUt then we were looking at them online, and the interior is SOO nice, and quite roomy, and still room to tote his drumset to and fro. I know I won't get my 325 back for a while, since we'll need something bigger for our new "family". And it is a BMW (if you've never test driven one...they are AWESOME!) So..we'll see what happens with that. OK. I'll go for today! 9 more days till U/S!![/img]

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18 weeks. 3 days.

Bleh. Bleh. Bleh. I can already feel the negative vibe entering this journal entry and I haven't even started yet. Why does everything have to GET ON MY NERVES? I know it's atrributed to the raging hormones coursing through my system, but does that help me or anyone else? NO!

Why do people have to procrastinate? And why are people so silly?!?! There's a hurricane coming..and it's going to hit the east coast of Florida tomorrow. THe problem is..I live on the WEST coast, and according to the forecast, we're just going to get the underside of the storm, which is the weakest point. Plus, by the time it reaches our coast, it's not even going to be a hurricane anymore!!! The most we are going to get is a bad thunderstorm!! We get those every afternoon in the summer, and people are FREAKING OUT! From the second I walked into work this morning, there are customers lined up in the store, in the drive-thru....EVERYWHERE! And they all want an extra months worth of their prescriptions because "there's a hurricane coming.." GRR. First of all, do you think the pharmacy is going to BLOW AWAY? Walgreens doesn't close for ANYTHING! We freaking don't even close on Christmas day...HOW DEPRESSING IS THAT? Do you think we're going to close for a THUNDERSTORM? I promise people..you will NOT be stuck without a Walgreens close by that you can go to for your meds!! PLUS..why are you waiting until the day BEFORE the hurricane to come here? You've had ALL week!!! You KNEW this was coming!! THen, all the customers are mad because we've got a 3 hr wait for prescriptions today. I WONDER WHY? The WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD is here!!

Ok...that's my VENT. Sorry if I scared you away. It just gets stressful. Don't you hate it when people don't understand your job. It's like they think they should tell you why and how you are doing it wrong, and they don't even understand how the system works! It's like I want to say...OKAY. If you are unhappy waiting for your prescription to be filled, feel FREE to jump behind this counter, and do my job, and see if you can get it done any quicker!!! OK...I promise that's the end of my vent. Bleh. Bleh. BLeh.

Off to happy land now!! (BTW for those of you who are wondering if I walked on my treadmill yesterday...I'm sorry to say...I'm a loser! I didn't walk on it today either, but believe me, I got my exercise at work today!) So, I'm not happy with the "squirms" anymore in my tummy, now that I've felt the flicks. Last night, I told the baby I wasn't going to sleep until I got a good kick, so I layed on my back and put both hands over my "pooch" and put a little pressure. Soon enough..right into my hand "Thump thump thump". Three good kicks! Then the baby moved down and started kicking into my crotch, and that was a WEIRD feeling. But I'm so excited that the baby is getting big. So far, the baby likes the left hand side of my uterus...so I'm thinking the placenta must be on the right or something.

I wonder what I should have for dinner? I've get chicken cacciatore leftovers, but I've been eating them for the past 3 days. I don't know if I can handle that AGAIN. Wish I had a better idea.

1 week until ultrasound!! YAY!!

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19 weeks. 0 days.

WHEW!!! The hurricane is OVER!! Thanks to Hurricane Frances, we now have waterfront property and lots of tree branches floating around in our new lake! Oh well! At least the water didn't get in our house! The people across the street are on lower ground than us, and they are totally flooded. The kids next door are riding around their yard in a canoe. It looks kinda fun Smile But I'll not try it, since I've heard that there could be poop floating around in the water if the septic system overflowed or something. It was a LONG weekend. My parents and grandparents both had to evacuate to our house because they both live in mobile homes. So, we finally had our house to ourselves yesterday.

I was supposed to have a doctor's appointment today, but when I got to the office door, there was a sign posted saying that they were closed today because of the hurricane. My DH came to the appointment with me, so I met him outside to tell him that the office was closed. I don't know why it is, but men ALWAYS have to check things out for themselves!! Why don't they believe that a woman can be right? ANYWAYS..I was SO depressed because I have my BIG U/S scheduled for Friday, and if I didn't see the doctor, then I couldn't get my prescription for my ultrasound. So I was almost crying when DH and I went back inside the building. He saw that I was so upset, so he starts pounding on the door of the office. All of a sudden, the nurse comes and opens the door. I was so EMBARRASSED!!! Then DH steps back as if I had been the one pounding!! MEN!! So I sheepishly, with my head down, all sorry looking...asked the nurse "so I guess you're not seeing appointments today?" She looks at me like.."Hmm..is she serious?" Then of course, she was nice as could be and explained to me that their computers were down because of the hurricane so they couldn't schedule or access their schedules for the day and so they would be calling me to reschedule for next week. So, I ALMOST walked away, again dejected...but I thought I would try and see if my doctor was there. Luckily, she WAS!! I guess the doctors had to stay in the office in case people went into labor or something. She came to the door, and I humbly explained my situation and that I couldn't wait until next week because I needed my script today, and I would be on vacation next week. She was so nice, and explained that she couldn't reschedule my appointment yet, but she went ahead and gave me my prescription so I can still get my BIG U/S on Friday. YAY!

So anyways, I'm not depressed anymore, because my DH saved the day, by embarrassing me.

Last night, we were laying in bed, and I put DH's hand on my stomach and all of a sudden, the baby starts kicking like crazy. I couldn't believe that Nick couldn't feel it!! I bet he will be able to soon, because those kicks are getting stronger and stronger every week. As far as pregnancy goes...my face is BREAKING OUT!! My face hurts! Their not just like little pimples, their like big old honkin' infected white and green ones that HURT SO BAD!! I know that sounds gross. THEY ARE!!

I think that's about all that's on my mind right now. I'm just counting the days until my ultrasound (3 days) and my vacation (5 days).

I'm gonna go eat my chili now. YAY!

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19 weeks. 1 day.

I called my doctor this morning to see if I could reschedule my appointment. She said to call around 4 pm and I could probably be seen today...so I called at 4 and my doctor had been paged for a delivery. So I guess I'll try again tomorrow. How sad Sad

Okay....WHAT IS UP WITH THESE HURRICANES?!!?! According to the hurricane track on the news, this new hurricane Ivan is going to hit us too!! DH says if the news is right, it's going to be a lot closer to home this time and he doesn't know if he wants to leave and go to Michigan if our house might get blown away. NOOOOOOO!!! I have been looking forward to this vacation. If our house is going to blow away, it's going to happen whether we are here or not, but he doesn't get it! I pray that it turns and doesn't come anywhere near us, so DH doesn't have to act like a hero and 'save' our house.

Also, DH and I had a discussion today about my work situation. I guess he JUST realized that Christmas does indeed exist this year. So he asks me..."how long are you planning on working Amy?" (In all honesty, we have discussed this before, and I was planning on quitting after I got back from Michigan)....BUT...after this nice, fruitful discussion, we have come to the conclusion that I need to try and work until I'm at least 7 months, unless the doctor says otherwise, so we'll have extra money for Christmas. SHEESH. That's fine with me...as long as I can cut down to 3 days a week, because I have so much 'nesting' that I want to do around the house and not enough time. I want to steam clean the carpets and tile the nursery and clean out the closets.....and so on...

So in the end, I guess we'll work things out as it comes.

So... it's off to bed for me Smile Goodnite all you pregnancy journal reading people.

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20 weeks. 6 days.

IT'S A GIRL!!!!!!! We found out about a week ago, but I've been on vacation so no computer access for me. We got to have an extra long ultrasound because first we had an intern do the exam, which counted as a test grade for her, then the real tech came in an did an official exam. When she asked us if we wanted to know, of course we were like "YES YES YES!" and she typed "I'm a girl" on the computer screen. I turned my head and told Nick it was a girl and he started crying. It was so emotional! I was so happy. So....little Natalia Jolie was named that day! We are so excited. She already has two outfits. One from my mom, and one from my Nana (grandma). Both are pink, and one came with a little beret. They are soooo cute!

Since then, I think I've grown quite a bit. I wish I had a digital camera so I could post pics online, but hopefully we'll be getting one for Christmas. I'll want to take lots of pictures of our little baby girl!

On vacation, we went to Michigan, and stayed with Nick's sister and our nieces. It's fun going there, but it's not exactly a vacation, because when you go to family's house you always feel obligated to help. So, it's not as relaxing as it should be. You know? I think the whole time we were there, I didn't ever get any alone time with Nick!! BUT.. on the upside, my sister-in-law did take me to get a pedicure, and I got my hair cut and styled and I got my very first massage ever!! But BOY was I sore the next day! I didn't want to tell DH that I was sore, because he paid 60 dollars for the massage, and what's the point of a massage if you're going to be sore from it? So...I just told him it was wonderful...which it was, until the next day!

The bad news is..when we got home, everything was so hectic. My Papa (grandpa) is in the hospital with some major heart problems. They are going to do surgery on him this week. They have to do 2 bypasses, put in a stint, shrink his atrium, repair two heart valves and put in the wiring for a pacemaker. THe surgeon says that the survival rate for all that surgery is not that great, but there is hope, so we are praying that everything will work out okay. My family is all very close to him, so it would be devastating if the surgery didn't work out.

When we got home from vacation on Saturday, our dogs officially became "outside dogs". It's kind of hard on me, because we have had them for over 3 years and they've always been very close and cuddly, but the house is a disaster! It is SOO hard to keep clean because they shed so much and they are always tracking in dirt and mud. Plus they are all three very BIG dogs, and I just don't want to have to deal with all that with a new baby. So, tomorrow I'm starting my deep cleaning of the house. I just feel so bad for the dogs. I hope they understand. Last night they barked and barked because we've never made them sleep outside. They usually sleep on our bed!! but not anymore! Poor doggies! I don't think they understand.

I'm down to 3 days a week with work now, which will give me more time to work on purifying this dog infested house before Natalia comes. It's also nice not to have to deal with everything I have to deal with at work every day.

I'm SOO excited because I get to see one of my high school best friends tomorrow. SHe is due a week after me, and I haven't seen her since we both found out we were pregnant!! I'm excited to compare bellies. PLUS, she has her BIG ultrasound tomorrow and is going to find out what she is having! YAY!!
OH YEAH! LAst thing. Nick finally felt Natalia kick. I was surprised because the doctor said he wouldn't feel anything until 26 weeks, but lo and behold, she kicked his hand the other night! HE said it felt like someone flicked the inside of his hand. Now, he likes to rub my belly every night to see if she'll do it again! How cute!!


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21 weeks. 1 day.

PHEW!!! What a long week already and it's only Wednesday! So I started deep cleaning the house yesterday getting it all ready. I spent the whole day dusting (well half the day). DH made a list (he loves lists) of all the things we want to do to the house before Natalia comes. We figured out that if we deep-cleaned one room a week, then we'll be done with the house in about 6 weeks and we can spend the rest of the time working on Natalia's room. So yesterday morning, before work, NIck took all the furniture out of the living room, and I spent half the day taking stuff off the shelves and dusting. I tried to make it fun by pretending I was on that TLC show "Clean Sweep" and I filled 2 whole garbage bags full of stuff to throw away. I thought that Nick would be proud when he came home, because he is always saying that I clutter up the house too much, but instead, he wanted to go digging through the garbage to make sure that I didn't throw away anything that had sentimental value to him. So he ends up fishing out these two really ugly pirate ship hats that we wore to the Bucs Super Bowl Party. I'm thinking to myself...how much sentimental value do these have?? But I kept my mouth shut. I only told him that he wasn't allowed to put them on the fireplace mantel and he'd have to find a place for them in his office. They are so ugly!!!
After I finished dusting for the day, my high school friend Mindy came over!! She's so cute and pregnant. I feel like a fatso though. We have both gained 16 lbs since we've been pregnant, but she's still so small (everywhere but her belly) and I feel like I'm getting fat all over! She was a little disappointed because she found out she is having a boy and she really wanted a girl. But I think she'll find that she would never trade him for the world once he comes! We decided that we have already prearranged the marriages of our children. I took her to see my mom and brother and sisters, who she hasn't seen in about 8 yrs, and then she took me to see her mom. It was fun!! When I was at her mom's house it reminded me of all the sleepovers we had growing up!
So then, I went and picked up my sister from my mom's house and we went to the hospital to see Papa. He is in good spirits...he's just ready for the surgery. He doesn't want to stay in the hospital anymore. I can understand. He's been in there 8 days now, just waiting... As far as we know, the surgery will probably be tomorrow or Friday, so I am going to get ready and head up to the hospital before I go to work today because I want to spend as much time with him as I can.

As far as Natalia goes...she made me get up 4 times to pee last night!! Crazy child!! We're gonna have to do something about this!!

In the meantime, farewell and say a prayer for my Papa!

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21 wks. 2 days.

First let me aplogize for my emotional roller coaster. I'm so stressed out and I don't know how to handle myself. First of all, I really wanted to steam clean my carpets this morning, because it needs to be done, and if I'm doing that then I won't be thinking about my Papa. My grandparents have always been such a huge part of my life, and I don't know what I would do if Papa didn't make it through this surgery. well....the stupid steamcleaner isn't working. I actually borrowed it from Nana and Papa, and it's just upsetting me even more, because there is no reason for it not to be working, just like I don't see the reason why Papa has to be going through all of this.
The surgeon finally told us that his surgery is tomorrow morning, and now I'm so scared he's gonna die. I told my boss I wasn't coming in tomorrow, and he said the only way I can have tomorrow off is if I come into work today. So, I was going to go to the hospital after I got off work tonite, because I don't know if they will let us in to see him before his surgery tomorrow morning. Well, DH just called and asked me what I was doing. I told him I was going to go to the hospital after I got off work, and he said "NO!" What the heck? I asked him why and he said because I've been gone every night this week at the hospital. So I said back to him, "Listen...my Papa may not be alive at the end of this week, and I want to see him!!" and then of course like a stupid pregnant woman, I started crying. Dh tried to apologize, but I didn't want to hear it. So then he has the nerve to ask me why I'm bawling like a baby on the phone. So I screamed, "Because I don't want Papa to die!!!!" and then I think he felt bad because he told me to call him later and tell him what I was doing and then he got off the phone really quick. How come he can't just understand? He knows how close of a family we are. Just because he wasn't close to his grandparents doesn't mean that I have the same sort of relationship with mine.

I hope the baby is okay through all of this. I know that stress isn't good for her. And I really am trying to stay occupied until this whole crisis is over, for her sake, and for my own, because I won't stay sane if I sit and think about this all day long.

So anyways...if you are reading this post, please say a prayer for my Papa. I'm so worried about him. Thank you.

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23 weeks. 3 days.

WHAT A CRAZY COUPLE OF WEEKS!!!!!! I really think my life has never been more hectic. Papa had surgery 2 weeks ago today, and the surgeon came out of surgery and told us he didn't think that Pops would make it because his heart was too weak. Well....he did. Now, his heart is working fine, but the surgery did some damage to his liver, and he is STILL in the ICU because they can't let him start rehabilitation until he gets over this hump. It has been SO stressful because I have been up at the hospital every SINGLE day for 2 weeks. It is so sad to see Papa in there. He has always been so tough and strong and good-spirited, and now, he just sits in there and cries and cries and cries. Because of all the medication he is on, he lost his short-term memory and he doesn't even know why he is in the hospital. Plus, he's sick of being in that bed and he just wants to go home. The problem is that his legs are so swollen and sore because even BEFORE surgery he was in the hospital for 2 weeks. So now, he's been lying in bed for a MONTH without using his legs, and he has to recondition them to work again, which is another painful process. THEN a couple of nights ago, my uncle tried to commit suicide because he can't handle the stress of seeing his dad like this. It's been so nuts!! Throw that on top of no power and water for a week due to Hurricane Jeanne!!!

On the bright side though, I went to the doctor yesterday. I only gained 2 &1/2 lbs in 4 weeks!! I'm so proud. I was sure I would have gained more because all I have been doing is eating out these 2 weeks because we haven't had power and I've been on the go a lot. Natalia's HB is strong and steady and I know her kicks sure are. Yesterday she kicked me hard in the bladder and I thought I was going to pee all over the place!! It's so weird that my uterus is growing. Ever since I started feeling her kick at about 16 weeks, she has been contained down under my belly button. Yesterday, I was getting jabbed about an inch and a half above my belly button. A crazy sensation!! I guess I just didn't realize I was far along for her to be taking up so much space. I know my belly is rounder and stuff, but since I can't see her...I still think of her as a little 2 inch wormy thing instead of a REAL baby!! I can't believe she weighs over a pound now! Wow. Time flies. Before you know it..I'll be having a baby! YIKES!!

My friend Jacque just had her first baby yesterday. All I know is that it was a boy. My DH took the message because I was at the hospital with Papa and he didn't think to ask the good questions. Like...what did you name him? Or how much did he weigh? Does he have hair? Etc...

Anyways..I have to go to work today. PHOOEY on that! I hope it goes by quick. It will be nice to have the weekend off.

TaTa for now!

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23 weeks. 6 days.

DH is frustrating me. I guess I'm frustrating him too. GRR. I am the kind of person who likes to do things in my own timing and he is SOO impatient. It feels like he wants me to do everything, and he wants it all done RIGHT NOW!! Especially phone calls. He says he doesn't have time at work to make phone calls if we need to call someone (example: the carpet cleaner), but for some reason, he has time to call me every 20 minutes to see if I've called the carpet cleaner. I don't know why he can't just wait until the end of the day and say "Amy, did you call the carpet cleaner?" and then I could say "Yes, honey..I did, it's all worked out ." Instead, he frustrates himself AND me all day long by worrying all day that I'm not going to do it. Grr. Sorry, that was my vent.

I called into work today. I didn't get any sleep last night. I had such a bad tummy ache. I don't know why! So, when it was time to get up this morning, I knew that there was NO way I could go in being so tired. I don't care if I'm a wimp. I'm not going to make myself feel horrible OR put Natalia in danger by getting overexhausted. You know? I was counting and I only have a month and a half left of work. That's only about 18 actual days of work! That makes me so happy!

Anyways...I guess I just had to vent today. Natalia is doing fine as far as I know. She's just kicking away. She kicks Nick every night. It's reassuring.

Ok...that's it for today.

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24 weeks. 1 day.

So I'm lying in bed last night, right? I'm on my back...and I know, I know you're not supposed to lay on your back. Well, it was just for a minute, because my arm was asleep and I was trying to wake it up. ANYWAYS....so there I am, lying on my back..admiring my belly which still doesn't have any stretch marks (I've been lathering on the cocoa butter like crazy. I've heard it doesn't help, but at least it's worth a try!) Then all of a sudden my belly starts dancing. It started out just twitching here and there, then it looked like there was a snake moving under the surface. Then it was full-fledged bouncing in places!! Natalia is getting so big! I can't believe it!! I called Nick over and he starts staring at my belly like "WHAT THE HECK IS THAT?!?" You'd think he would have been more proud. Anyways..it's exciting now, because now other people can see the baby from across the room even! Not that I'd be sitting there with my shirt up for everyone to watch my belly dance, but at least I know I could if I wanted to!!

I was reading in my Pregnancy Week-By-Week book last night. It said that if Natalia were born today, she would have an 85% chance of survival. That is CRAZY! I mean, I can't believe that I'm only a little over half way and her chances are that good already! I'm just so excited I want to peek in there and see her. What do you look like little baby girl??

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24 weeks. 2 days.

I am SOOOOOO hungry! It's weird. For the past couple of days my appetite has been RAVENOUS! I mean 1st trimester was crazy because I was hungry ALL the time and EVERYTHING I ate made me throw up. Then when I got to 2nd trimester i was back to normal...you know, 3 meals a day and whatnot. Well, the past couple of days my appetite has been NUTS! It's been like eat eat eat eat eat and growling all the time!! My friend Jacque told me 3rd trimester was like a foodfest for her, but I thought I'd be okay. I'm still 3 weeks away from 3rd tri, and here I am HUNGRY AS A COW! :eating: The worst part is that I have absolutely NO food in my house. We still haven't restocked from the hurricane Jeanne where we lost all our food!! And I can't leave to go anywhere because I'm waiting for the carpet cleaner guy to get here!! GRRRRR!!!

My sister, April, soon to be Aunt April (I think we'll just call her AA), came over last night and was looking for her high school flute. What the heck? Anyways...she saw my belly dance. So I know I said that I wasn't going to go around showing people, but I guess I am, cause as soon as I saw her, the first thing I did was lift up my shirt and said "LOOK!!" Oh well. I'm such a dork.

I called the doctor today because I have this really itchy rash. She gave me a cream for it last week, but it's not helping!! I hope they call me back soon! I left a voicemail.

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25 weeks. 3 days.

I thought things could never get more stressful. Papa died at 2:30 am on Oct 18th. I don't know what happened. He was getting better, and then all of a sudden, he started having these horrible pains in his stomach area, and the doctors couldn't figure out what it was. His blood pressure kept dropping and dropping and dropping and they tried to use medication to keep it up, but it didn't work. Eventually, his heart just stopped beating because the pressure was so low. My family was a wreck, and so DH took on the responsibility of planning the funeral and taking care of all the extra stuff that has to be done when someone dies. The funeral was yesterday and I have to say that I was so proud of Nick. It was the most beautiful service and the flowers were beautiful and the casket was so pretty. My sisters and I sang "I Can Only Imagine" which was neat because we haven't sang together in so long. I am so sad that he is gone, but I know that he is in heaven and he is not in pain anymore and we will see him again someday.
Now it's the day after and DH is BEAT. He said that planning a funeral is like planning a wedding in 2 days without any advance notice that you are getting married. He is so exhausted. He had to go to work today, but I booked a couple of nights at the hotel my aunt works at just to get him to relax this weekend. He is the kind of guy who will work if he is at home....and he just needs to rest.
On the baby front...Natalia is still just kicking away. I am so glad that she is oblivious to all the stress that has encompassed our lives over the past month. I feel like I've been neglecting her...mainly because I haven't really had much time recently to think about her or be excited about her because we've been so preoccupied at the hospital and with all the trauma surrounding Papa. But now that we are over this hurdle, I hope that we can get back to somewhat of a normal life. DH moved all the old furniture out of Natalia's new room yesterday, and we got the wooden letters to hang on the wall that spell her name in the mail yesterday. That was a nice surprise after the day that we had. Pretty soon we'll be ripping out the old raggedy carpet that's in there and putting in new carpet. It will be nice.
Well, I have to go run a bunch of errands and tie up some loose ends before we go away tonite. Goodbye!

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25 weeks. 5 days.

Someone pointed out on the Feb board today that we only have 100 days left. That doesn't seem like a whole lot of time. Yikes!! :shock:

DH and I went to stay at my aunt's hotel this weekend. It was nice and relaxing...exactly what we needed. On Saturday, we went to this Italian restaurant called Villa Rina for lunch, and then we just walked through the plazas that were around...kind of just looking. It was so relaxing. We have not gotten to just browse all day long in a LONG time. We went to BabiesRUs and we registered for our travel system, and pack n play, and swing for Natalia, and we bought her a cute little outfit from "mommy and daddy". It was fun Smile We went to Starbucks and I was bad! I know that I'm not supposed to have coffee, but they had this pumpkin spice latte that looked SOOO good, :cuppajoe: so I got one anyways. I've been SOO good on my caffeine, I figured one time wouldn't hurt. It was YUMMY! Then we went back to the hotel for a while, and then we went to Cheddars for dinner. We were going to go to the movies, but I was too tired from all the walking, so we just went back to the hotel. We came home this morning, and DH has been working on the house ever since, so I am so glad that he got a break yesterday!! Right now he is painting the walls in Natalia's room, a pretty lavendar color.

Speaking of the crazy baby...She switched positions on me and I DO NOT LIKE the way she is laying right now!! THe other day, my dad was trying to get her to move around for like 15 minutes and she was being SOO stubborn, she wouldn't even flinch! So my poor dad still hasn't gotten to feel the baby move yet and everyone else has!! Anyways...because of all his poking and prodding, she must have decided that she wasn't comfortable because that night she moved all the way around! For the past couple of weeks, she's been head down, because her feet have been kicking up above my belly button, which has been fine. But last night and all day today I was about to freak out. She is STOMPING and I mean STOMPING on my bladder!! She's kicking me in the crotch...I mean, her feet are down so low it feels like she is going to fall out!!! MY crotch was sore this morning when I got up and I KNOW that it wasn't from DH!! So...I've been poking and prodding all day trying to get her to move back the way that she was, because it is very uncomfortable this way. I hope she listens!!

Enough ranting and raving. Don't get me wrong..I love the fact that I know she's healthy and kicking in there, but COME ON!!!

Oh yeah..I forgot. One of my best friends from high school called me today and said he's getting married. That's so exciting! I haven't seen him in almost 3 years...since I got married! Apparently all of our good friends from high school are coming to the wedding. It's going to be soo fun! I haven't seen everyone in FOREVER!
Anyways..I gotta get back to my schoolwork. If I don't finish this course before January, I'm in trouble!!

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25 weeks. 6 days.

It was back to work today for me. OH MY ACHING BACK!! Sorry! Just had to complain a little bit! I can really tell that I haven't worked for a week. My feet hurt too!!

I don't like the way my tummy looks today. It has been all cute and round, and then today it looks a little flabby. Like I gained fat on top of my baby belly. Yucky. I think I'll have to start watching what I'm eating even closer. According to my Week-by-week pregnancy book, I've gained a normal amount of weight for this stage of pregnancy, but I don't like the little flab....

Geez.. thought I had more to write today than that. I guess not. Back to schoolwork for me.

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26 weeks. 0 days.

I am SOOOOO tired. I have no idea why. I didn't work today, so I spent most of the day sitting on the couch studying. I left for about 20 minutes to go get some Burger King (I know I'm so bad! But I wanted a fish sandwich!) I folded some laundry and unloaded the dishwasher...and that's it! But I'm SOO exhausted!! I just want to go to sleep!

I also went to my little sister's PTA 5th grade program tonite. It was cute. She was a dancer in some Aladdin song and wore a turban on her head. What a cutie pie.

My poor dad! After the program, he tried again...(SO HARD) to get Natalia to move, and he still couldn't make her budge! Everyone else has no problem seeing my belly bounce around and feeling her kick, but my poor dad..it's like everytime he comes around, she goes to sleep and she is SOO stubborn, she won't wake up for him!! But then as soon as I got home, she started kicking away! I think she is trying to walk up the side of my uterus. I can actually see my stomach stick out when she pushes on the uterus with her feet and I can feel the hard spot where her feet are. It's so cool!

Anyways..I'm really tired. I guess i just have to remember that I'm pregnant. I don't think anything's wrong with me...I just forget a lot that I'm not my normal self. OK....goodnite. I can't even think I'm so sleepy. Don't keep me up tonite Natalia!!

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26 weeks. 2 days.

Pow! Pow! Pow! Pow! Pow!
That's what I felt all last night, from one side of my tummy to the other. I don't know what the heck Natalia was doing, but it wasn't fun!! She kept me up ALLLLLLLLL night! I have these huge bags under my eyes from not sleeping! Then, when I finally seemed to drift off to sleep a little bit, I would have this horrible dream that our dogs were getting burned alive in the garage, and our smoke alarm was broken, so when the fire finally got to our bedroom, we couldn't get out, because there were like prison bars on the window! Scary!!

Anyways..I just had to vent. It's my day off so the tired thing shouldn't really affect me that much. I'm going to go and try and lay down again now. Ta Ta!

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26 weeks. 4 days.

I'm SOO sleepy. We just got home from Saturday night church and Las Vallartas mexican restaurant. It was yummy. I had a Quesadilla Mexicana with sour cream and guacamole on it, and I ate the WHOLE thing! What a pig I am!! I haven't seen my friends from church for 2 weeks because we were gone last week (since Papa died) and everyone says my tummy looks so big! I feel gigantic, but I guess I didn't notice that it had gotten that much bigger. My friend Alisha says that I look like I'm carrying around a basketball! A lot of people are saying it looks like I'm having a boy because of the way that I'm carrying...all I can say to that is..I hope not! Only because we've already gotten so much girly stuff. We even got the letters to hang on the wall that spell Natalia, so I guess if this baby comes out and it's a boy, we will have to call him Nate or something similar so we don't waste too many of the letters, and then he'll probably end up wearing some pink clothes for the first few months..LOL.
Wednesday is my parent's 25th wedding anniversary and I'm getting a little stressed out because I haven't planned anything yet. My sisters are lazy bums and won't give me any money to help buy them something, and Nick and I are on a tight budget right now, so I feel like I'm trying to do this on my own. Grr.
Hmm...well I better go take a shower and get into bed. I am so excited that we get to gain an hour of sleep tonight! Yay for sleep!! I don't really crave any strange foods, but I DO crave sleep...all the time! I guess since I'll be starting 3rd trimester next week, it's the beginning of the tiredness syndrome again. Thank God I only have 3 weeks of work left!
Be good tonight Natalia. No bladder jumping, or crotch kicking!

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26 weeks. 5 days.

UUGH! DH's parents just left! I HATE IT when he invites them over without asking me or even telling me they are coming over. Then they show up at our door, ring the doorbell, and DH is like "Ooops...I forgot to tell you I invited my parents over." It drives me NUTS! Then, when they come, they just sit and talk and talk and talk....FOREVER. And all they want to talk about is FOOD! Don't get me wrong, I like food, but they are OBSESSED with food! Their lives revolve around FOOD! All they talk about is where they went to eat today, and if it was good, and if it wasn't, then where they can get it better...and the last time they splurged, and how much weight they gained or what new diet they are on, and how this diet allows you to eat all this junk food and this other one doesn't. Can't we just talk about normal people things? Like your new GRANDDAUGHTER maybe??

Anyways..there was my vent. Nick and I went to the mall this morning, and we are so dumb!! We forgot to change our clocks so we got to the mall an hour early, and we were getting so mad because we thought they were so late in opening the mall...so finally we asked someone, and they reminded us that the time had changed. We felt dumb. We were looking for a new bedspread, but we couldn't find one. By the end of our trip, my back was hurting SOO bad. I had to sit down and DH had to walk to the other end of the mall himself and get the car and drive it around to get me. AHH! And I still have 3 months left!

Well..I'm going to go. DH will be getting home any minute. His parents JUST left, so I asked DH to go and get me some Chinese. I think he felt bad for inviting them AGAIN without asking, so he quickly and sweetly obliged. Yum!

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27 weeks. 0 days.


We only have 13 weeks left, and that's if we make it full-term. I have a feeling you are going to come a little bit early. And that's fine by me. Anytime after Christmas Eve will be fine with me!!

You know what is crazy to think? My little brother was born at 27 weeks. Isn't that nuts?? He was in the NICU for 7 weeks, but he is completely normal (well...physically at least. He is a little nuts!) But anyways, I was thinking that it is a good thing for my mom that he didn't go full term because when he was born at 27 weeks he weighed 3 lbs 4 ounces already!! According to the statistics in my pregnancy books, the baby normally only weighs just about 2 lbs at this point, so he probably would have been a gigamongous baby! I hope that doesn't mean Natalia is going to be a giant!! But wow...to think she could survive now...(but please don't come out yet, Natalia!)

Uggh..my hips hurt from sitting all day doing schoolwork. I need to take a break.

Did everyone vote today? :waveflag: I did! I'm so proud!! I feel all American and stuff!

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27 weeks. 2 days.

So I had to take that NASTY ICKY gestational diabetes screening test this morning. YUCK! I pray that I pass, cause I don't want to do that again! I didn't know they were going to make me sit there and drink the gross stuff in the waiting room, and then sit in those uncomfortable chairs in the waiting room for a whole hour! And then the lab lady had the nerve to tell me that if I got sick and threw up, the test would be over and I'd have to come back some other time. I wanted to take the orange nasty stuff and force her to drink it!

ANYWAYS...so then I went to the mall, and I was trying to find some nice corduroy pants for DH's birthday on Saturday, but instead I found myself a cute red maternity dress from Motherhood. It was on sale for $19.99. I hope that DH doesn't get mad. I NEVER buy stuff for myself, but I figured that I didn't have a dress, and I could wear it for a lot of things...like the wedding I'm going to this month, and when we go see Phantom in December, and then I could wear it to the Christmas Eve service at our church. So...I'll get good use out of it. I did end up finding some pants for DH at Target.
Then I went to my doctor's appointment. I had to wait for like AN HOUR! It was crazy!! The appointment was fine, but my doctor says I've gained a total of 24 lbs since I've been pregnant. She said that was normal, and I don't need to worry, but that scares me!! According to her, I'll probably gain a pound a week until 36 weeks. That's like 9 more pounds! AAGGHH! My next appointment is in 3 weeks, and then I start my 2 week appointments. It's going by so fast!

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27 weeks. 5 days.

Yesterday was such a full day! Yikesamongo!!

I got up yesterday morning, and it was Nick's birthday, so I gave him his present. I got him some really cute cargo pants. He had some that I bought him 2 years ago, but since then he has lost over 100 lbs, so he needed some new ones. He laughed when I gave them to him. We have such a different taste in style. He was turning 29, and because he is outside so much (as a UPS driver) and before that he was a lifeguard, he already looks older than he is, so I like him to wear cute clothes, like American Eagle, and Aeropostale and stuff like that, but he feels stupid in those clothes, because he doesn't think he can pull it off. Well, he laughed when I gave him the pants, because I always buy him clothes that I like for him to wear, instead of what he likes (which is boring polo shirts with khaki pants). Anyways, in the pocket of the pants, I had some tickets for Phantom of the Opera, and he got really excited about that!! He said I surprised him big-time with those! YAY! I'm glad. He knows all the songs off of the Phantom soundtrack that we have, but he has never seen the show, so we are going in December. December 12th to be exact. So...after that, he wa happy, so I showed him the new dress that I bought for myself to go to Phantom in, and he liked it. Whew. I was afraid he would get mad for me spending money on myself.

Anyways, after that, I went to my mom's house and we took my Nana over to a seniors park to check out some houses. Since Papa died, she doesn't like living so far out in the country, all alone, so she wants to get a house in one of those parks for seniors so she can go to all the activities and stuff and not feel so lonely. We saw a few houses that she really liked, so hopefully it will work out for her. If she moves there, she will only live about 5 minutes away from Nick and I. yay! Easy babysitting access when Natalia comes!!

THEN...we went to church, and after that we went out to our friends' David and Michele's house to a wedding reception. It was so cute. It was themed like a hoe-down so everyone was dressed like cowboys and stuff. Michele is so good at that stuff! She is like Monica from friends! The weird thing was, there was this guy dressed like Zorro sitting next to DH and I most of the evening, and he was there with this other girl. He had a mask on, so I didn't know who it was. Then, when they got up to leave, and he started talking to Mark (the guy who got married), I heard his voice and realized it was my ex-boyfriend Jon!!! AAGGH! It was sooo weird. I haven't talked to him in SOO long. The last time I talked to him, he called me up the night before I got married, to let me know he wouldn't be coming to my wedding because he didn't want it to be awkward for me, but he wanted to let me know he would always love me. So..it was kind of strange having him standing right next to DH. I mean, I am SOO happy I married Nick and I love him so much, but Jon will always have a special place in my heart. We were next door neighbors for so long, and we were more like best friends than anything else. So anyways, I felt like a butt when they left, because he was sitting there the whole time and I didn't even say one word to him cause I didn't know it was him. I wonder if it was weird for him to see me preggo.
On the flip side...DH looked SOOOOO cute last night. He wore the new cargo pants I bought him, with an Aeropostale hoodie sweatshirt that his sister got for him (way to go darlene!) and he was sooo adorable. A lot of the people who were there haven't seen him since before when he weighed almost 300 lbs, so they were all shocked when we came walking in and here he is, all 180 lbs of him. Of course, we got the usual jokes about how he lost all the weight and it's all going to my stomach. I hate those jokes. Jeeze....people think that just cause you are pregnant, they can make jokes about how chubby you are. Grr.. it gets on my nerves.
The party lasted really late, so when we got home it was past midnight, and DH said he had a surprise for me. I was like, "what for?" and he said, "It's past midnight, so it's your half birthday!" I know, it may seem weird, but growing up, my sister's and I always celebrated our half-birthdays (like my bday is May 7th, so my halfbirthday is November 7th). So, he had thoughtfully thought of me, and bought me a new hair straightener since mine broke! YAY! I love my DH! Anyways...I'm gonna get going.

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27 weeks. 6 days.

I have a crazy baby. I was all worried yesterday because Natalia is usually so active, at least for a couple hours every day, but yesterday she was SOOO quiet. I was a little worried because she has never been so quiet. I guess she must have been sleeping or having a growth spurt because this morning she started going nuts. I was sitting there watching my stomach contort into all these weird shapes. I think she was trying to flip over or turn or something. Anyways, she's been active all day long, so I guess she's okay.

I am having some MAJOR leg cramps though. It hurts so bad. It makes me wonder how I am going to handle labor pains. Yikes!! So...anyways. Ouch. So far I am NOT liking third trimester. Natalia, I hope you are enjoying yourself, cause I'm not!!

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28 weeks. 0 days.

Another week gone by!! Only 12 weeks left. Yikes!!!

Ugh... I've been such a bum today. I have been sitting around all day, and I have been doing schoolwork, but these days off from the pharmacy make me feel so lazy. I mean, I've been working all day, on schoolwork, but since I'm not running around the pharmacy like a crazy chicken, I feel like I'm being lazy. Am I being lazy?? Tell me I'm not being lazy! I did do a load of laundry (actually, it's only halfway done...I still have to put them in the dryer). I just feel like there is so much I need to do to get ready for Natalia, but there isn't really anything I can do right now. Nick doesn't want to buy anything for the nursery until after my shower, so I can't get the nursery ready or anything...
Grr..I just feel so bummy today.
On the bright side, I tried out my new hair straightener today, and it worked really well for my big fat thick hair. Yay!

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28 weeks. 1 day.

I am soooo tired. Geeze. I know the books say 3rd trimester brings back the tiredness, but I didn't realize it would come this soon in 3rd trimester. ERGH. Another thing to complain about. HUNGER! I will admit, after seeing the picture of myself at the wedding reception, I have hunkered down and started eating really healthy this week. The craziest thing is I am SOOO hungry!! I was back to a normal eating schedule for several months there...just breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Now, my stomach is growling ALL THE TIME! I can't get enough food, and NOTHING seems to satisfy. What is wrong with me? Is it the baby growing? Is that why I'm so hungry?? I can't even sleep through the night sometimes because my stomach is growling so bad. I haven't had this problem since I was 12 weeks. HELP!! Feed me!! (But don't let me gain any more weight!! 24 pounds is ENOUGH!)

That was my vent for the day. I need to go find something to much on before I try to sleep with this annoying stomach growl.

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28 weeks. 2 days.

I'm sooo sad. Today I was at my little sister's Veteran's Day program (she had a solo!), and my finger looked a little purple. So, I took my wedding ring off...and then....I couldn't get it back on! I am so depressed!! My mom started mooshing on my hands and feet, and they aren't swollen or anything, so I guess I'm just gaining weight. YUCK! I am ready to stop gaining!! I am SOO ready to start running on my treadmill again....I just hope I remember this day after Natalia is born so I won't end up being all fat and flabby. I need discipline!!

My mom went to Wal-Mart with me today to help me register for a few more things. I have had lots of experience with babies, but when it comes to having one of my own, I wanted to make sure I had registered for everything that I needed. So we registered for EVERYTHING! I mean stuff on every aisle! Diapers, wipes, baby shampoo, Dreft, receiving blankets, burp cloths, bottles, toys, clothes. It was fun! Then we went to Sonic and I got a slushie. MM. I like slushies. If I've been craving anything lately, it's been ice. I could just sit and chew on ice all day. My favorite is crushed ice. That's a weird craving, huh?

Well....I am going to go to bed now. Nite nite.

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28 weeks. 5 days.

I'm tired, and I don't feel like writing, but I haven't written in a few days...so I guess I should. I haven't found much else about my "surprise shower" except for my DH told me that there are some weird names on the list...like people I don't know very well. I hope that this shower isn't awkward having people I don't know. Hmm.

I hope I sleep better tonight than I did last nite. Natalia kept me up at least half the night kicking and punching. She must have been really uncomfortable or something because she wouldn't stop moving ALL NITE!

I have a headache. Grr. I'm not in the mood.

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29 weeks. 0 days.

Happy pre-birthday again Natalia!! Wow. Only 11 weeks left!!! That's not too much time!

I'm getting a little nervous about my baby shower. I know that sounds ridiculous, but if you only understood. My MIL is very, very...umm...how do I say it? She's a sanguine! Very excited and woo hoo and nosy and huggy and kissy and loud and boisterous. She kind of reminds me of the mom on "Everybody Loves Raymond." Anyways... my mom is very quiet and shy and funny in her own way, but DH's mom doesn't think my mom is funny. DH's parent's are pretty well-off, and my parent's are not. Dh's parents live in a deed-restricted subdivision, and my parents live in a mobile home park. ANYWAYS...so there is a little tension when the two families get together. My mom just doesn't feel comfortable, and Nick's mom is oblivious to that fact. Anyways, they are apparently planning a "surprise" baby shower for me..and they are planning it together. I just found out that originally, there were going to be 2 showers. One hosted by Nick's mom, and one hosted by my mom, but I guess because the holidays are so busy, they thought that if they combined them, then it would put less stress on everyone, including the people that would be going to them. I still don't know much about the shower...just a few slips from DH here and there, but I will be interested to see the mixture of the 2 different crowds of people. I know DH's mom is going to invite a whole bunch of her friends that I probably have only met once, and then combine that with all my friends and close family from my side...and it will be interesting. I just want everyone to have a good time so we can celebrate together!! I hope it's a happy day! I just found out that DH wants to come to the shower. Isn't that cute?? I was like, why do you want to go? There won't be any guys there! And he said, cause it's my baby too! So, YAY! At least I won't have to endure the tension alone, and maybe DH can keep his mom on a leash or something.

I'm feeling pretty good today. I've just been sooo tired. I had to get up this morning and drive out to Wesley Chapel (like any of you know where that is..lol) and show our townhome. We own a townhome in the back of DH's mom's subdivision, and we rent it out for extra income. Our renter of 2 years just told us she is getting married and moving out, so now we are in a rush to find a new renter because with my quitting my job in a couple of weeks, we might be tight on money without that rent coming in to help pay the mortgage on the townhome. The lady said she liked the townhome and took a rental app. so I hope it works out.

I was going to get my eyebrows waxed today, but I was too tired. I guess I'll do it on Friday. I have to wait around for awhile after work before my infant CPR class starts.

I have been having a hard time sleeping. Not really because I can't get comfy, but for some reason, I get really queasy when I lay down at night. I wonder why? I've tried eating right before bed, and NOT eating right before bed and it doesn't seem to make a difference. It's just like this constant churning. Not as bad as first trimester m/s, but a yucky feeling still.

Oh well. Hurry up and grow Natalia. I want to meet you! 11 weeks is so soon, yet so far away!!

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29 weeks. 1 day.

My belly seems bigger today. And it's sore...it must be the muscles stretching. It was so hard at work today. My back was killing me and my feet were so sore...and it was just tough. It just keeps getting harder and harder. I can't believe I only have 5 official days left. I'm so hyped and dreading every single one of those 5 days. I just wish I were done now. DH says that if I want to, I can be done next Wednesday, but I can't do that to the people at my work, because they don't have anyone else to cover my shifts the following week.
I need to decide what I'm making for Thanksgiving. I'm in charge of desserts. I know that I'm going to make Pumpkin Cheesecake...but I don't know what else to make. Grr.
LOL!! I forgot. I got home today, and I was wanting something sweet. We don't have anything sweet in our house because of DH's diet, but I did find a bag of oatmeal cookie mix stuffed in the back of the closet, and the date said it was good until Feb 05, so I made them. I ate 3 cookies!! Yikes!! But now there is a whole plate sitting on the counter. I feel bad, because I obviously can't eat them all, but I don't want to throw them away. But, I will feel even worse if DH eats one and then gets mad at himself for eating one. OH well. I can hide them somehow.
I'm sleepy. Again. It never ends. Thank God I get to sleep in tomorrow.
OH yeah, I forgot. I was talking to Natalia today. Just saying her name to her, and she kept kicking everytime I'd say her name. It was cute.

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29 weeks. 5 days.

So. Hmm.. I haven't written in a few days. I'm finding out that a lot of people can't go to my "surprise" shower, because it's on a holiday weekend. I wonder why my mom didn't think of that ahead of time. Oh well, it'll be a smaller, more intimate crowd.

I went to my friend's wedding on Saturday. It was nice, but I got a little sunburnt. The wedding was on the beach, but I guess I didn't realize we would be sitting out there so long. The wedding started late, so I guess that's why. After it was over, I ran into the ocean and splashed around. It felt SOO good on my feet. I saw so many people from high school. It made me feel like a loser. They are all so seasoned and they all live in like New York and California and stuff, and here I am, living in the same town I graduated in. OH well. I'm having a baby. YAY!

We went to DH's parent's house today. IN-laws. Grr. She immediately started asking me when I was quitting work, as if I don't want to leave. I told her I had 4 days left of work, and she was like "and you're not going to change your mind?" CHANGE MY MIND?!?! I can't stand my job! Where the heck is she getting the idea that I would change my mind? And why does it matter to her anyway how long I work? A lot of people work right up until their due date! I'm quitting 2 months early, and she's having a cow that I'm still working. It drives me nuts.

ANYWAYS..DH wants to use the computer, so I better get off.

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29 weeks. 6 days.

I'm hungry. So, I'm not sure how long I'll post for. What to eat for dinner? Hmm....

Anyways...BIG NEWS! I had my very first Braxton-Hicks contraction today!! Actually, I had quite a few of them. I wasn't sure I would recognize them, but then all of a sudden, it felt like I was flexing my tummy really tight, for about 30 seconds, and then it was gone!! It happened a few more times throughout the day. They are kind of annoying, but they don't hurt. I'm just so excited!! That means we are getting closer to having Natalia on the outside instead of on the inside!! Yahoo!!

I have SOO much cleaning to do tomorrow. I wonder if I'll get to it all. For some reason, I got out my knitting needles and yarn today, and started making a beanie. Maybe I'll give it to someone for Christmas. The problem is...knitting to me is like reading a good book. I can't put it down until I'm finished, which could hinder my cleaning tomorrow. I'll have to be good.

About being good...I cheated and looked on my baby registry to see if anyone had gotten anything yet for my shower. So far, the only things that have been bought are the Pack N Play and the Bedding set (I'm so bad!!!) I wonder if a lot of people aren't coming to the shower because of the holiday weekend. OH well. At least the 2 things that were bought were BIG items...so that's less money DH and I will have to spend. I will be grateful for anything I get.

I bought a turkey today for Thanksgiving today. We are going to go to my nana's. I'm in charge of the turkey, and desserts. I'm still thinking of what to make. So far, I know I'll be making pumpkin cheesecake. I found some other dessert recipes on the Oprah website that I might try. Yum. I was so proud of myself, I got a 16 pound turkey for $8!! I thought that was a pretty good deal!!

OH! and I have to brag. I officially have 3 days of work left!!! YAYAYAYAYYAAYAYY!! It's spread out..but still. Only 3 days. WOO HOO!
Ok...I'm going now...I'm hungry.

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30 weeks. 1 day.

Despite being completely and utterly exhausted and SOOOOO sore, I just want to say that I am SOOO proud of myself. I hunkered down and CLEANED MY HOUSE yesterday! I scrubbed floors and toilets and bathtubs and counters and did 4 loads of laundry and made a big dinner and did schoolwork and WOW! I did so much! BUT, I am paying for it today. After having to go to work today and deal with the business of "the day before a holiday", I am now home, and I'm so tired. My legs are killing me!! But, at least my house is clean, so i don't have that irking me.

Another thing is, I can't believe that Natalia coule come in 8 weeks and be full-term. My mom doesn't think she will come on time. She thinks she'll at least be a week late. I HOPE NOT! I'm already ready for my body back...I don't want to wait extra!!

anyways...i have to go cook for tomorrow.

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30 weeks. 3 days.

Thankgiving was SOO yummy! We had smoked turkey, smoked ham, green bean casserole, sweet potato casserole, shrimp salad, stuffing, cornbread casserole, fruit salad, bread rolls, mashed potatoes and gravy, pumpkin cheesecake, cherry cobbler, peach cobbler, pumpkin pie, apple pie, ice cream....mmmmm......makes me want to go into the fridge and get some leftovers right now!

Despite the sadness of missing my Papa, yesterday was a good day for family. We did take a trip as a family down to the gravesite to put some fall flowers on the grave. It was the first time we've been there since he died. It was sad, but I was surprised at how much closure there was. I feel bad for my Nana because it is obvious she misses him a lot. I can't imagine how it would feel.

On the bright side...my parents FINALLY got to feel Natalia move!! She was going crazy last night, and was rolling all around. My parents were fighting over who got to have their hand on my belly, and then they realized that she is so big that they could both have their hands on my belly and still feel her rolling around. They couldn't believe how big she was. I had to remind them that I only have 8-10 weeks left!!

DH got up at 4:30 this morning to go the sales, and he bought us a new computer and a new printer and a new cordless phone. He also got the new carpet for Natalia's room and DH and my dad will be installing the carpet tonite. I'm so excited!! The room will be ready to hold all the stuff I get at my shower tomorrow. HOORAY!! well, I'm hungry. So bye bye!

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30 weeks. 6 days.

Well, my shower wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be. It was sort of awkward at the beginning, but everyone seemed to get along. It was so awesome that DH decided to stay at the shower with me. Then I didn't feel like I was the center of attention and everyone was staring at me. He even helped me open presents!! I was amazed at how much stuff we got!! Three days ago, our nursery was completely empty! No bed, no nothing. Now, Natalia has everything except for her swing!! We got a crib and mattress, the bedding set, the pack n play, the travel system, a bassinet, a chest of drawers, clothes, receiving blankets, bathtub, bath towels and washcloths, burp cloths, diapers, wipes, booties, baby hats, a memory book. I couldn't believe it!! The only thing I really need to get now is a breast pump, a swing, and maybe some more bottles and diapers. But we have plenty to get her started!! YAY!

Christmas shopping is going to be a whole 'nother ordeal! First of all, I have NO IDEA what I'm going to get anyone!! I haven't even started to make a list, and I am really dreading going out in all the holiday traffic and trying to walk the mall for hours. Maybe I'll just do a bunch of online shopping this year so I don't have to go out as much.

Natalia sure is getting big! She doesn't even have room to kick anymore. She is constantly adjusting her position, which feels weird, especially when she gets her butt or knees or something stuck all up in my ribs. I feel like I'm carrying really high and it's really hard to breathe! I can't wait until she drops so I will have some relief in that department. On the bright side, I only have ONE MORE DAY at Walgreens!! I can't believe it! I'll actually be done with that place!! Wednesday is my VERY last day! I'm so excited! I want to go out and do the happy dance, but I'm afraid I'd hurt myself. I already feel like I waddle really widely. LOL!!

I also have my 31 week appointment tomorrow. I'm really afraid that the doctor might say something about my weight since I am POSITIVE I have gained more than 4 lbs this month!! Maybe if my appointment had been BEFORE Thanksgiving weekend, things might be different, but to have it the Tuesday after was a mistake on my part. Maybe I'll remind the doctor that this weekend was not the norm...then maybe she won't go hard on me. (The sad part is...I didn't really eat THAT much, but I did eat more than I normally do...especially in the dessert category! Yum!)

DH and I just put our townhome on the market today. Anyone want to buy? LOL! We were renting it out for a long time, but DH thinks it is time to sell. The realtor says he can get a really good price for it...so we'll see Smile I hope it sells soon. One less thing to worry about!

Well...I better go for the night. I hope I can sleep better tonight than I did last night. I've gotten into this nightly ritual of waking up every hour on the dot. I have no clue why. I just can't sleep. Maybe my body is preparing me for Natalia's nightly feedings. Who knows. All I know is that I want my sleep!!! Let me sleep tonite Lord!!

OH yeah...LOL! I told my MIL on Saturday that I didn't want her in the delivery room. I hope she took it okay. Oh well, I don't care. Me and Nick made the baby in privacy and I think we'll have the baby in privacy. That's my reasoning. Plus, I don't want her in there trying to tell me how to breathe or any craziness like that! It's been 27 years since she had a baby! If I wanted to know about having kids, I'd ask my mom, who had one 10 years ago, or ask a friend of mine who just had a baby. Things have changed a lot since MIL was in labor!!

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31 weeks. 0 days.

HAPPY PRE-BIRTHDAY AGAIN NATALIA!! 9 weeks until D-DAY!!! or estimated D-day at least Smile
Well, I had my 31 week appointment today!! I can't believe only 9 more weeks to go!! I was SOOOO nervous about stepping on the scale today since we just had Thanksgiving. I was SOO sure I had gone over my allotted 1 lb a week, BUT, when I jumped on the scale, I had only gained 1.5 lbs in 4 weeks. DH couldn't believe it!! He was guessing I had gained about 6 lbs this month! LOL! Anyways, so now I'm up 25.5 lbs since the start of this whole preggo thing. I mentioned to my doc that I thought that was a lot of weight, but she said I am doing great and normal weight gain is 25-35 lbs in a pregnancy...so I guess I'm okay w/ only 9 weeks left! Anyways, so I was SOO psyched about my weight, and then they went and took my BP. It was HIGH!! 142/78 or something!! The nurse was surprised b/c mine is usually so low, so I told her I had been really worked up about being weighed. Needless to say, when the doc came in she went over all the pre-eclampsia stuff with me, but she said there was no protein in my urine, and I wasn't swelling at all. I am measuring perfect size and Natalia's heart rate is good, so she asked the nurse to come back in and take my BP at the end of the appointment. It was back down to 110/69. PHEW! I was worried there for a minute!! The doc said to watch for swelling just in case, but she thinks it was just a fluke because I had been so nervous about the weight! So...now I'm on 2 week appointments! It's gonna go by so fast!! Oh yeah, and as of today, baby is HEAD DOWN!! The doctor said she could still flip at any time, but things are looking good right now Smile OH yeah, I forgot, I passed my 1hr GD test and anemia test too!! YAY! Just wanted to share about my good appointment! If you made it this far without getting bored, thanks for reading!!

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31 weeks. 1 day.

Today is the best day EVER!!! It was my VERY LAST DAY of work at Walgreens!! I know that I won't even miss it!! HOORAY!!! It wasn't even a tough day at all. All the customers were nice, and my back didn't hurt..that bad Smile

After work, I went to my old pharmacist's house because she said she had something for me. She just had a baby 6 months ago, and she gave me some onesies and diapers that her baby has outgrown, and three maternity tops from Motherhood that are so cute. AND...the best thing yet!! She gave me her $250 Medela breastpump! I was SOO surprised and excited. SHe already sterilized the whole thing so it's all ready to use!! WOW! The breastpump I registered for was only like $40...now I'll be traveling fancy with this fancy pump she gave me. Wowee!! Anyways, I was so happy.

Now I just need to get a swing and a diaper bag, and some bottles and breastmilk storage containers. YAY! What a good day!!

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31 weeks. 2 days.

Well, today was my first day as a SAHPL (that's stay at home pregnant lady), until I have Natalia, then I'll be a SAHM.

It was so nice to know that when I got up this morning, the only thing I had to worry about was the house, and me, and DH. Instead of the house, and me, and DH, and WALGREENS. Hooray!
I did SOO much schoolwork today. I had to tell myself to stop. I have plenty of time now...I don't need to freak out anymore. Whew. So, then I got up and cleaned the house, and sat down and did more schoolwork (and then I had to tell myself to stop again). Then, I took a walk for some fresh air, because it wasn't too hot outside today. And came back, and did MORE schoolwork. I just now told myself to stop again. Am I a workaholic??? LOL! I have to learn to pace myself better. Well, I'm gonna go. Natalia doesn't like the position I'm in. She's squirming like a greased pig Smile

BYe BYe!

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32 weeks. 0 days.

HAPPY WEEKAVERSARY AGAIN NATALIA!! Wow. 8 weeks left. Hopefully, less than that! 37 weeks is only 5 weeks away!!

I got like NO sleep last nite, OR the nite before. On Sunday nite, I had a Pizza Hut personal pan pizza and the heartburn kept me UP all nite!! THEN, last nite, Natalia was going nuts ALL nite! It felt like she was doing jumping jacks all nite! I even took Nick's hand in the middle of the nite , and put it on my stomach, and she woke him up because she was going so crazy!! So, now, even though I'm not working anymore, I'm SO exhausted. Everytime I lay down to try to take a nap, she goes nuts again! Settle down, baby!! I have so much to do today, and I'm just feeling so bummy. I just want to go to sleep, and I can't! Grr.

On Sunday nite, we went and got our Christmas tree. We picked out a beautiful blue spruce, and then brought it home and it was DH's turn to decorate. We take turns each year because we like the lights on the tree to look completely different, so last year, I got to decorate the tree however I want. Well, get this. LAst year, DH threw a fit because I used blue and white lights on the tree, and he didn't like it (supposedly). Well, he gets done decorating, and turns on the tree on Sunday nite, and the lights were blue and white!! LOL! MEN! I was happy, because I love the lights, but he didn't have to be so pouty last year if he really liked my lights!!

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32 weeks. 2 days.

I'm so proud of myself! I finally figured out how to post pics on here, now all I need is a digital camera!!

Yesterday was ROUGH!! I was SOO tired. After not sleeping on Monday nite, I tried to sleep on Tuesday nite, which again didn't work. I finally came out into the living room and tried to sleep, but I just couldn't get comfy. My neck and my shoulders were hurting so bad, and my legs are hurting now too, which makes it worse. So around 12, I finally had to get up off the couch, after having NO sleep because I had errands to run. I went to my mom's house and picked up my sister, April, and we went out to eat at Red Lobster. At least that was a bonus. I got the mix and match shrimp, and boy was it yummy. The waitress had seated us against the wall, and she commented that I could move the table out if it was squeezing my stomach. Jeeze! Am I that big?!? I didn't think I was humongous yet! Just huge. But ANYWAYS..so, then we went to the mall, and after only ONE store, I could barely breathe, and I was getting some BH contractions, so we went to customer service and got a wheelchair! How fun! My sister pushed me around the whole mall. Granted, I got some funny looks, and she is not the most coordinated person, so I was pushed into several clothes racks, but at least I got to enjoy shopping without all the pregnancy side effects. Then we had to go to the post office to send some stuff out certified for DH. We got there, and UH OH! The post office had closed at 2:30!! It's the Christmas season! What post office closes that early? Craziness!! So now, I have to go back to the post office today. I had to go to Walmart too, to get some mix for making sugar cookies.
I went back to my parent's house to drop off April, and I saw their Christmas tree. It's so sad!! My little sister Hannah picked it out, because she "felt sorry for it." LOL!! It is all funny shaped, and has lots of bare spots and scraggly limbs. Poor thing!! Oh well, at least it's got a good home. My mom's dog is having a problem peeing on it. As soon as I sat on the couch, here comes Indiana..up to the tree, goes underneath it, lifts his leg, and lets loose. My mom was so mad at that dumb dog!!
So, I went home, and watched TV some, and then it was time to go to bed. I almost dread going to bed now, because I know that I won't be able to sleep for some reason or another. I eventually did fall asleep, but then I woke up at 2 am. I was determined to go back to sleep, so I tossed and turned for about an hour, and somehow, I fell back to sleep!! It was then that I had SUCH a crazy dream. It's kind of long. But I'm going to post it anyway, because it's MY journal. Hee hee.
It all started that I was in a hospital bed, and I was preggo (of course). The doctor's and nurses kept coming in and bringing me starfruit to eat. They would bring it all kinds of ways, like fried, grilled, boiled, heated in the microwave. Finally, Dr Messina (not my OB! This was the dr who did heart surgery on my Papa in October!! LOL!) came in and he said it was time to have Natalia. So, he felt around for her, and said she was breech. He said, "Let's try and turn her and then you can have her real quick." Well, everytime he turned her, she would just flip back around real quick. He kept doing this for a LONG time, and I finally said that he should stop, because she liked being breech and he was bothering my baby. So, then, he decided to do a c-section. I guess he numbed me, and cut me open, and they pulled her out, but come to find out, she wasn't even breech! Anyways, when she came out, it was a boy instead of a girl, but for some reason, no one seemed to notice. BTW, DH was not in the room. I don't know where he was. Well, they were spanking him and flicking his heels and he wouldn't cry, so they stopped, and the dr said "I think he's dead." But, then the baby hiccuped. I said, "He's not dead. He's just not a crying baby." Then they took the baby away, who I had named Samuel, since it was a boy (even though that is not my choice for a boy if Natalia somehow ends up being one..) Well, the doctor was about to start stitching me up from the c/s, when the phone rings in the room. Dr. Messina answers it and told me it was my mom who wants me to come home right away if possible. The Dr said I couldn't so I asked to speak with my mom. He gives me the phone, and I told my mom to hang on, because I wanted to make sure that the surgical team didn't accidentally leave any sponges or scalpels inside of me when the sewed me up. So, when they were done, my mom says my dad is really sick, and I need to come home. So, I told the dr, who said, "whatever." Then all of a sudden, I am all alone in the room. I am stitched up, and baby Samuel is with me. I tried breastfeeding, but he wasn't hungry. So, I put him down on the bed, and I start walking down the hall to go home and see how my dad is doing. When I got to the waiting area for families, my Nana was working the front desk. She said that she will let people in to visit me even if it wasn't visiting hours. I told her that was nice. My mom and dad were waiting in the waiting area. I asked my mom why she was there, and she said she felt bad that no one was coming to visit me at the hospital, so she and dad came. I told her that I thought dad was sick, and she said he was, but he was feeling better. An aloe plant had poisoned him (don't know where that came from!) Then my dad's cellphone rings, and it was DH. He said he would be at the hospital in about an hour. He was putting up some wallpaper at my in-laws house, and needed to finish that first. I was mad at him!! So, finally, I told my parents I would go back to my room, and they could come in and visit, but I told them to wait 15 minutes so it would be more of a surprise. Well, when I got to the room, the baby was still all alone on the bed, and he was all blue and his back was arched. I picked him up, and he felt hard (like a BH contraction). So, I started rubbing his back, and he went back to normal, but it scared me. I pushed a button so a doctor would come and check him out. Finally, my parents came, and then they realized that the baby was a boy and not a girl. I still had him dressed in pink clothes, so they were confused at first. Then I went outside and DH was lying on a cot. He said he didn't feel good. THe doctor came in to evaluate the baby and listened to his heart, and said "We need to see the father of this baby immediately." So, I showed her DH, and she said that he was very sick and had passed it on to the baby. He needed to take a 30 minute long very hot bath and relax in it, and he would feel better. I told him he better stay in the whole time because the baby needed his daddy. Then, it was time for me to breastfeed again. I was trying to find a room to do it in, but they were all full, so I just did it out in the hallway. Then I woke up.

Wasn't that crazy?? I thought so. Hopefully, it means I am nearing the end. Even now, Natalia is doing some sort of acrobatics in there, and it's REALLY uncomfortable. ACK! Ok...well, I have to go get ready to have fun at the post office again.

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32 weeks. 6 days.

WHAT A LONG WEEKEND! Man, I am SOO exhausted. It all started on Friday nite, when I couldn't sleep AT ALL!! I mean, literally, I was sitting up bawling my eyes out because I was SOO tired and there was nothing I could do to help myself go to sleep. I was so uncomfortable. DH even made me my own little bed out of the big chair and ottoman, and he slept on the couch, so I wouldn't be in the living room alone, but it didn't help any. I was still up all nite. The worst part was that we ended up having to get up at 5:45 in the morning to start our LONG DAY on Saturday. First, we had to go up to the church and DH had to set up his drumset because we had to go straight from childbirth class to practice. Well, then we went down to the Women's Center, and we got there about 10 minutes before the childbirth class started. It was then that we realized that everyone in the class had pillows and a blanket. I felt like such I doofus! I don't remember reading anything that said to bring that stuff. Someone said it was in their confirmation letter, but I never got a confirmation letter, so maybe that's why I didn't know. Needless to say, DH and I hightailed it across the street to Target and bought two cheapo pillows and this beautiful velour blankie that I want to keep so bad. But DH says we have to take everything back since we didn't end up using it for the first class, so we can bring our own stuff next week. Oh well Sad Anyways, so we go to the class, and the teacher starts picking on me!! Well, I don't think she meant it in a bad way, but we watched this childbirth video which was very traumatic. It DID kinda freak me out a little. So, after it's over, she asks if there are any questions, and I'm still kind of freaking out after the movie. So, out loud, I'm questioning myself. Can I do this? I'm not good with pain? What if I can't do this? What if I tear? What if...
So, I guess she took that to mean that I wasn't even going to try. So anytime she started talking about pain relief and epidurals and stuff she would direct the information toward me (in front of the whole class). So she is just assuming that because the whole birthing situation does not look very appealing to me, that I'm going to take the easy route. THat's not true. I really am going to try. I don't WANT to have an epidural...and I AM aware of all the risks and side effects that come along with it, but I WILL keep my options open. Grr. Oh well. I guess she can pick on me if she wants. It would just be funny if I was one of the women who went all natural. LOL!!
SO...after that was over, we went up to church and had practice, and I was literally falling asleep in my chair. I was SOO tired. My back was hurting from sitting in the childbirth class all day, and Natalia was kicking me in the ribs. So, then we had church, and afterward was a meeting for all the leadership. Then we finally got to go home. I tried to sleep again...to no avail. BLAH.
ON Sunday, thank God I got to sleep in..or at least try to, so I wasn't AS tired. We went to Phantom of the Opera. We had really good seats. The sad part is that my eyes are so messed up from this pregnancy that everything was blurry to me. I just saw shapes moving around on the stage. Nothing was clear. So, that made it kind of not worth the $70 a ticket that we paid. DH enjoyed it though. I guess that's what matters, since it was HIS birthday present. Smile So, then I had to go to a Christmas party. I got a new purse at the gift exchange. I needed one really bad. After it was over....I was falling asleep again. Dh came and got me and we went home and I CRASHED. I was SOOO tired. THank God I got some sleep last nite. DH said I must've been having good dreams, because I woke him up in the middle of the nite saying his name and moaning. I don't think that's true! I don't talk in my sleep....but he pinky promised me that he wasn't lying. That's pretty crazy!
Anyways, so I have a feeling that today is going to be a lazy day. I think I'll try to go back to sleep now. Good nite.

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33 weeks. 0 days.

HAPPY PREBIRTHDAY TO NATALIA!! These weeks are going by SOO fast, and then again, SOOO slow.

Grr. I had my 33 week appt today. I have 4 doctors in my practice, and today I had the one doctor that I'm not too fond of. She is a talented doctor I'm sure...and very knowledgeable, but she is sort of snooty, and she acts like she is always looking down on me. I don't know why. It's annoying. Well, today, I go in and get weighed, and I had gained 4 lbs. Normally, I would have freaked about that, but the appointment before, I had only gained 1.5 lbs in 4 weeks, so I figured it all balanced out. Well, I go in the room, and she says "Amy, have you been eating too much?" And I said, "no...I don't eat any more than normal, and I can't eat that much anyways, because I'll get heartburn." So she says, "Well, you gained 4 lbs in 2 weeks." So she checks to see if I'm swelling, and I'm not, so again she says that I need to cut down on my food intake, that I'm gaining too much weight. THIS IS CRAZY!! First of all, I don't eat that much to start with, and second of all, I have gained 29 lbs so far. I could understand if maybe I had gained 50 lbs or something, but 29 lbs, compared to a lot of people isn't that much, and according to all my books, 25 to 35 lbs is normal weight gain. So...I don't know what to do now. I KNOW that I'm not eating too much, so I'm not going to cut down on that, or the baby won't get enough food, and plus I'll be really uncomfy if I don't eat when my stomach is growling. GRRR.. Anyways, I just wanted to vent about that dumb appointment. On the upside, I got to hear the thumping of the heart today with the doppler. Up until now, I only heard the swishing every appointment, but today, she found the actual thump, and said the swishing we had heard was the blood flow going to and from the heart, but now, the heart is big enough, that we can hear the actual thumping. How cute!! Natalia is getting big. I was measuring exactly 33 weeks at this appointment, so I guess that's good. AND baby is still HEAD DOWN. Yay. Now, I just have to figure out what to do about this weight.

Alright, Peace out.

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33 weeks. 3 days.

It's Friday, and there's really nothing new to report, but I thought I'd write, cause I miss my journal.
I was talking with my mom again last night about birth and everything. My Nana was telling me how badly she tore during labor, and my mom was talking about how wonderful epidurals were. So, here I go, telling them how I kind of want to at least TRY to go without the epidural, and I was giving all the risks and benefits, and my mom was treating me like I was a crazy person. It kind of upset me a little bit, but I just have to learn to ignore people. No one can tell you how to have your own baby.
I really need to get going. I have a lot of errands to run today, and I just woke up, and it's almost 1 pm!! At least I got some sleep. Well, I'm gonna get going. Sorry the post is so short. There's just not much going on.

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33 weeks. 6 days.

Uck. I just haven't been feeling that great the past few days. I NEVER miss church, and I opted to stay at my in-laws house and rest while DH went to church on Saturday Nite because I felt so horrible. That's gotta prove I wasn't feeling good. I don't know exactly what's wrong. I can't really pinpoint it. I just feel SOOO tired, but I'm not really tired. My skin on my stomach is burning because it's being stretched to the max right now. My stomach is upset and it's gurgling with this yucky unsettledness, and I've got this icky indigestion. Anytime I walk at all, I get all kinds of Braxton Hicks contractions, and I just can't breathe at all. I have like a dull headache, and I don't have cramps, but you know that dull achiness you get in your lower pelvis before you start your period? Well, I have that. Not constantly, but frequently. Even though I haven't seen AF in 8 months, I keep expecting to see blood everytime I go to the bathroom because it feels so much like AF. So...it's not like I'm sick or anything, but I just feel crummy. 6 weeks and I'll be at 40 weeks. Please come quickly. I'm just tired of this. I want my body back. And I know it takes 6 weeks after birth to get halfway back to normal, so even now, it's going to be at least 12 weeks before I feel like myself again. HELP!!
Plus, I don't feel like getting dressed right now, but I have to get up and get dressed because I have to go to the dentist and get my teeth cleaned today, and I know my gums are going to bleed, because they bleed everytime I floss. ERG! Ok..that was my vent.

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34 weeks. 0 days.

:party: It's another week gone by! Hooray! 3 weeks to full-term!! Woo hoo!! I know that doesn't necessarily mean that I'm going to have her at 37 weeks, but at least I don't have to worry about preterm labor after that. I just want to see her, AND have her out of my tummy! I'm miserable!!
I think she is going thru a growth spurt today, because usually, I don't eat very much, but today, no matter how much I ate, my stomach kept growling. I don't understand!! I spent the day at my mom's house and pigged out all day! Now I feel huge!!
Can you believe I can't do my Christmas shopping until Christmas Eve? That's crazy, huh? BUT, we didn't budget right this month, and so I have to wait for payday on Friday. I guess I'll just have to make a list and know exactly where I'm going to go on Friday so it won't be a day long event. I can't believe 2004 is almost gone! This year FLEW by!!
OK...bye bye for now!!

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34 weeks. 2 days.

Another sleepless night last night. At least I wasn't alone this time. DH is so sick and was up all night too. I feel bad for him. He has a super sore throat and swollen glands, and he is losing his voice and has a stuffy nose. He is too nice, and won't call in to work. He sounds horrible when I call him on his cellphone. I am trying to convince him to call in to work tomorrow. 1. Because it is Christmas Eve, and I want him home. 2. Because he needs to rest. 3. Because I WANT HIM HOME. He is afraid to call in sick because it's the busiest day of the year for UPS drivers, but how can they NOT understand!! He is sick!! GRR!!

Okay..on to me. I'm having pinching pains right under my boobs. I don't know if she has gotten herself stuck up in my ribs, but it hurts. It's not constant hurting, but every few minutes I get this sharp pinching pain and it's really annoying. I will be so glad when Natalia is OUT!

OKay..on to my sister. SHE GOT ENGAGED!! I can't believe it!! I really like the guy she has been dating, and I kinda knew he was the one, but I wasn't expecting it so soon. They are both still in college. But I am so happy for her!! YAY! Another wedding to plan!! I wonder if they are going to get married soon, or later. If it's in 2006, then Natalia can be the flower girl, but I have a feeling that they will probably get married this summer. I can't believe my little sister is getting married!! I feel so old!!

OK...tomorrow is the big day. I haven't done ANY Christmas shopping whatsoever and I have to go out into the psychoness of Christmas Eve and shop for like a million people. Will I survive? I hope the stress doesn't put me into labor!!

OK..I'm going now.

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34 weeks. 6 days.

Well....THANK GOD...Natalia did NOT live up to her name, and was NOT born on Christmas Day. I was worried about that. All day long on Christmas, my mom kept calling me to see if I was having contractions.

Let's see. Christmas was nice. On Christmas Eve, DH got off at a decent time...earlier than he has ever gotten off work for Christmas Eve. We went over to my parents house, where we ate pizza and Christmas cookies. YUM!! Everyone was there, my parents, my Nana, my Uncle Jeff, my brother, 3 sisters, and my sister's fiance. It took FOUR hours to open all the presents!! It was crazy!! I think that Natalia got more presents than anyone and she's not even born yet! That really worried me that she's going to be SUPER SPOILED next year. Nick and I got a digital camera from my parents and it's so nice. I'll have to post some pics soon. I also got some slippers and a super soft robe to wear in the hospital. I got a memory pillow and a back massager, and some giftcards for Motherhood Maternity. I really need to buy some nursing bras. I got a make-up set, and some nice lotions. I got giftcards to JCPenneys, Blockbuster, Walmart, and a cute penguin pillow. I think that there is more, but I don't feel like thinking right now.
Christmas Day, we slept in, and then we went over to Nick's parents house and ate chicken, green bean casserole, mashed potatoes (without gravy...how in the heck do you eat them without gravy??), biscuits...etc. It was okay. I just missed my family. It was so weird with it just being the four of us. I am so used to a full house on Christmas, and it was just me and Nick and his parents (who are in their 60s). So..it was very uneventful. Then we played a card game with his parents, and they came over to our house for dessert. We had apple pie. Actually, I didn't eat any. I wasn't feeling good and I was ready for the company to go home, but it's not easy to get Nick's mom to leave. So, then we opened gifts, and kept trying to drop the hint that we were ready for them to leave, and they finally did...about and HOUR later!!
So, we went to bed.
For the past 3 days, I've been having lots of BH contractions, but not real strong ones. Every once in a while, I'll have one that feels really tight, and almost makes me catch my breath. But, other times, I can't really tell if I'm having one or not. Sometimes, it feels as if only the top half of my uterus is contracting, and then it makes me wonder if the baby is maybe just balling up or something. So...I get confused a lot. The doctor said to count how many I have in an hour, but with a lot of them, I just can't tell if they are contractions or baby. What to do...

Yesterday, DH and I just bummed around all day. Nick put the letters up on the wall in the nursery. I slept for several hours and then walked around the house all day in my new robe. Comfy!! We watched some "Everybody Loves raymond" (Nick got the Season box set for Christmas) and we played cards.
I'm really tired again, so i think I'm going to go and lay in bed. Let's see if I can get some rest. Ta Ta!

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35 weeks. 2 days.

BLEH. I've kinda been in a funk the past few days. I don't know what's wrong with me. There is so much stuff to be done in my house, and all I feel like doing is sitting on the couch...or laying on the couch. Maybe it's because I haven't been able to sleep the past few nights. I've been up almost the whole night, or at least it seems that way.

I drove my mom, Nana, and Uncle Jeff to Orlando yesterday because my cousin from California was there. She is playing in a soccer tournament at Disney's Wide World of Sports Complex. So, we picked her up from her hotel and took her to Downtown Disney. We walked around for hours, and my back/right side was hurting SOOOO bad by the time it was over. I was getting a lot of BH contractions too. Thank God, I had my new back massager in the car. It is battery operated, so I put it behind my back on the drive home, and it felt so nice.

I went to the doctor's office today. It was my 35 wk and 2 day appt. I got swabbed for the Strep B test, which I will have the results for next week. I also got my first internal. It wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be. I'd much rather get an internal than a Pap Smear any day!! She also did a test with some kind of litmus paper to see if I was leaking amniotic fluid at all. I wasn't. Yay. But, the good news is, she said I am effacing already. She asked me if I had been getting a lot of BH contractions. I told her I had, and so she said that they had been doing their job, because they are starting to thin out my cervix. I talked to my mom, and she said she didn't start to efface until 2 weeks after she was due with me....so this gives me hope that I won't go past my due date. I asked my doctor about their procedures with induction, because I really don't want to be induced if I don't have to. I have heard that contractions from Pitocin are way worse than natural contractions. She said that they start planning it a week overdue, and they do NST's, but she said that I shouldn't worry. She said she is pretty confident that I might not even get to my due date. HOORAY! I was so glad to hear that. I know that there are no guarantees...but still, it made me happy. As for the rest of the appointment, Natalia's HB was strong at 150, and she is still head down. The doctor said she doesn't expect her to flip or anything. I gained 2 lbs in 2 weeks, which is exactly where I should be. And the doc said that at this rate, she thinks I will deliver with right around a 35 lb weight gain. That's not so bad, I said. And she said, no...that's great. She said that a lot of first time moms gain more weight the first time around...so that gives me hope for future babies. Maybe I'll gain less with them.
So...tomorrow is New Year's Eve. We were planning on going out to a nice fancy dinner with our friends. Well, I found out they are planning on going to the Columbia, which is down in Ybor. I told Nick, and he was like NO WAY! He said that going to dinner at 10pm on New Year's Eve in Ybor is a bad idea, because of all the crazies that will be around. I tend to agree. So, I called my friend, Lauren, today to tell her we wouldn't be going. Now I feel horrible, because they ended up cancelling their reservations and now they are going to eat at J. Alexander's instead!! All because of us!! I feel so bad! Now, the whole night, I'm going to be paranoid if someone doesn't like their food because it is our fault they didn't go to the Columbia.

Well...I better get going on some schoolwork. Maybe one day I will finish. Who knows? I'm sleepy. I want to take a nap...but that's not going to happen. Until next time...

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35 weeks. 4 days.

Last night we went out to eat at J Alexanders with a bunch of our friends. It was yummy. They all went to Channelside afterwards to watch the fireworks and stuff, but I was so tired. I felt like a party pooper, but they seemed to understand. I promised I would go next year. I don't even feel like writing in my journal. At least I got some good sleep last night....I think. I don't remember much. I think I passed out right after the ball dropped. I think DH was trying to get frisky, but I ignored him. I was too tired. Sleepy, sleepy, girl. Natalia is doing some weird dance in my belly right now. She pushes out on the right side with some body part and pushes up into my ribs at the same time...like she's stretching or something. I don't know. It feels funny. I'm tired. I'm going to lay down on the couch. Happy New Year! This is the year of Natalia's birth.

Oh yeah. Nick came home yesterday and told me that there is a girl that goes to our church that he used to go to college with. Well...she was preggo and due with a baby about the same time as me. She went into the hospital yesterday, and her blood pressure had skyrocketed. He said she just wasn't feeling right. Well, they wheeled her into the OR and she ended up having an emergency c-section b/c her BP was so high. The sad part is, she had a brain aneurysm that ruptured because of the blood pressure, and it was too late. She died. The baby is fine, but it's just so weird.... You think in times like those, what a miracle having a baby really is.

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36 weeks. 0 days.
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HAPPY PREBIRTHDAY AGAIN NATALIA!! 4 weeks to D-day. 1 week to full-term. This is nuts!!

Well, for those of you who have been wondering (MINDY!!!), I am alive and I have NOT gone into labor. I just haven't been feeling real good lately. I haven't been sleeping, due to my tummy hurting, and stretching, and peeing all the time. Then last night I was having some pretty weird AF-like cramps. I thought, at the time, that Natalia was finally deciding to "drop" or whatever they call it, but she wasn't. At least, I haven't noticed a difference in being able to breathe, and apparently, that's how you can tell. So, I've just been sleeping when I can, and lounging on my couch watching all my Friends DVD's. I'm almost done with Season 4, but then I'll have to take a break and go buy season 5 and 6, because for some reason, I got 7 & 8 for Christmas. I haven't gotten any schoolwork done either. But, I don't care. I don't get to be a lazy bum for much longer.

DH and I are planning a mini-weekend on January 22nd-24th. We aren't going to go far, but I figure it will kind of be like the last HURRAH before the baby comes. We'll never be alone again. That is weird to think. We are going to go stay at the Grand Hyatt in downtown Tampa. So...in a way, I almost hope that Natalia doesn't come until then. Or until after then.

DH's vacation starts on January 22nd. I can't wait. I miss him. He has been working such long hours. Yesterday he worked 14 hours. He came home, and went straight to bed. So sad.

So anyways...I have been feeling more and more and more pregnant. I am so ready....grrr.