I thought I'd start this journal after writing in my own journal for a few months. Plus this can be shared with others and is a good way to view my progress online!!

After miscarrying at 5 weeks 2 days a month prior, I found out that I became pregnant after only one month. Needless to say, I wasn't expecting it. I don't think either of us were.

12/23/06
4 weeks 0 days

I took a pg test this morning and it immediately showed positive. I actually was up at 4:45 in the morning and decided to take it since I had been charting my temperature. Plus I needed to pee and wanted to get it done!!

With my heart pounding, I made myself find something to do for three minutes. When I came back, it showed the same result. Needless to say, I had a myriad of emotions. Excitement, fear and anxiousness. I decided to wait until DH woke up to tell him instead of waking him up. I tossed and turned for an hour and somehow fell asleep for a few hours.

I woke up when DH was getting out of bed. When I asked him to turn on the light, he told me that he didn’t mean to wake me. I told him that I had an early Christmas present for him (it was the 23rd). He looked at me quizzically and I pulled the test out of the drawer and thrust it into his hands. He looked at me again and said “Really?”

I kinda shrugged and said yes but I think we both were feeling the same way – scared to be excited. We decided against telling anyone until we at least have our first appointment. I just don’t think I could deal with another disappointment like we had two months ago.