**~8 weeks~**

That's kind of how I feel right now. So many unexpected things have happened in my life over the past 2 years: dating Jeremy, falling in love with him, going through ALL of our "drama", getting pregnant with Kenlee, the on/off engagements, quitting my job at Pride, FINALLY getting married, starting a new job, and then realizing we're pregnant again...it's one thing after another. So...I'm affectionately calling this baby ('you') "Bucket". (I'm sure you'll thank me later...)

Initial reaction to finding out I was pregnant and Kenlee was barely 6 months old:
~Shock
~Embarrassment
~Fear (telling our parents- they're going to flip; still haven't lost baby weight from Kenlee- will Jeremy EVER be attracted to me again??; can we financially support a family of 4??)

From what I can gather from my calculations, you were conceived while Daddy and I were on our honeymoon at Disneyworld, and you can bet your buttons that we'll be going there as a whole huge family just as SOON as you're old enough to say "Hiya, Folks!" and go on "Peter Pan's Flight"!

I found out that I was pregnant on March 19, 2008. I hadn't skipped my period yet, but just...had one of "those" feelings. (I had the same one when I found out that I was having Kenlee.) I was about 3 weeks along when I tested. I took 5 tests, I think...Daddy and I both couldn't believe it. BUT...it's starting to sink in for me now. I had my first doctor's appointment on April 9th, where they confirmed that I AM having you, and the doctor did the first ultrasound, which I wasn't expecting at all. So I got to meet you and see your baby heart beat for the first time, and you had your first picture taken then, too! You're about the size of my thumbprint now (so the Books say...) but trust me, you could be the size of a canteloupe and still have room to grow, judging by the size of my stomach and the way my hips have widened. I know mamas are supposed to exhibit symptoms and "show" earlier in their second pregnancies, but this is ridiculous! I look like I'm 5 months along, not barely 2!

I've had some pretty bad morning sickness with you...not nearly as bad as I did with your big sister (she was ALL day, EVERY day), but it still isn't fun, and it makes Mama sleeeepy! Oh, and the headaches...the headaches are awful. Feels like someone is doing this to me all the time.

We still haven't told your grandparents about you yet...they were all hoping that Daddy and I would wait awhile to have you, buuuuut...I guess God had other plans for all of us! By the way...you're going to love your grandparents (and aunt and uncles) because they're going to ADORE you! You'll know my parents as "Hopie" and "Papa" and Daddy's parents as "Nay-Nay" and "Captain" ("Cappy" for short). Daddy has a brother, your Uncle Brandon, and a sister, your Aunt Kaylen (you might want to invest in some ear plugs now). My brother will be your Uncle Kyle, and if he's anything like he is with Kenlee when he's with you...you're sure to be a spoiled niece/nephew!

I'm not completely sure of your gender yet...we won't officially know until I'm about 20 weeks along, but I have a strong suspicion that you're a little boy. If that's the case, I'll be so excited! I've always wanted at least one little girl and one little boy. But don't get me wrong: if you're a little girl, I'll be thrilled too! We love the one we already have, and I'm sure you'll be just as precious!!

I sure do hope you decide to stick around...I've had this nagging feeling since I found out about you that you're going to try to leave me early, and that would be heart-breaking. So just hang out in there, get comfortable, and if you need anything, just "tug"!!

Love you lots already, my sweet Baby Bucket.