Or at least I hope it is . I am starting this journal for many reasons, but mostly to keep an account of my first pregnancy(mostly b/c I have SUCH a bad memory). Hehehe, I just found out that I am pregnant (well I took a HPT yesterday morning and it was SO faint that if you looked at it at the right angle, a second line was very faintly there (I didn't tell anyone!). So this morning I took another and it came out darker .
Here is some background information on me and DH. We have been married for 5 years and together for 11. We had originally agreed in August of last year (2005) to wait exactly a year to begin talking about getting pregnant. As the new year approached, August seemed SO far away! So in preparation I started taking Folic Acid (right after xmas), just in case. In March, a dear friend got pg. Then in April, we discussed that maybe we would start in June. Well, as April past (as well as DH 30th bday) I was really itching to get pg. But I really wanted to wait. As May was going by, I really wanted to get pg, but knew I should wait. Hahaha. Well the weekend I was ovulating, I thought, well maybe we could try. I thought we wouldn't get pg, and that we would have just tried. HA! We had sex on Mothers Day and that was it. I either ovulated on Sunday or Monday. And that did the trick! Denial is still running through me!
For my notes: First day of my last period: 4/30/06 Bding: May 14 O: May 14 or 15 First Testing (First Response): Tuesday, May 23 ( BFN, nice try). Sick: Wednesday: Woke up very nauseus, dry heaving shortly later Second Testing: Thursday, May 25. Didn't feel as nauseus as on Wed. The test had the FAINTEST second line. So faint that the only way to see it was at an angle b/c if you looked at it straight on, you couldn't really see it. I didn't tell anyone. Saw my sister who was on bedrest. Third Testing: Friday, May 26. Darker than previous day and the line was there (although still faint). I woke DH up about 20 minutes later and told him (it was 6:20am, which is extremely early for us!). Then at 8am, I called my pg friend to tell her as she was waiting for my results. It seems that our children will be 2 months apart I hope this sticks.
EDD: February 5, 2007
Symptoms: nauseus, cramping (lower and upper abdomen), back aches, smaller appetite, I get up at 5:45am (and if you knew me, you would think that was weird! I usually sleep until 7:45 and you have to drag me out of bed) and I am tired at night. I usually can stay up and read, but lately, I just can't, I fall asleep after 2 pages. Not sure if that is b/c I wake up so early or because I am so exhausted.
One of the reasons that I really wanted to wait to get pg was because I am hosting my sisters shower in a week from tomorrow. I didn't want to be sick or nauseus, but things happen for a reason!
So much more to share, but I have to get going with my day. More later on my DH and how cute he has been!
Oh boy, what a weekend! I spent the entire weekend cleaning and getting ready for my sisters shower this Saturday. I truly can't believe it is here! I even get to take the rest of the week off (after today) to finish preparing. I have taken so much time off, when Monday rolls around, it is going to be so hard to come back to work for a full week! I will also find out today if we are going to have the shower at my house or my sisters. Since she is on bedrest, we are waiting for her drs ok today for her to come on Saturday. If she says no, we will have to have it at her house. I have a feeling she feels bad since I have been doing all this work, but I honestly don't care! She just won't believe me. Oh well. I just can't wait for my nephew/niece to arrive
Yesterday was a nightmare. I play sand volleyball and I took at least one huge dive on my stomach. I was so crampy last night and so worried. I know the baby is really protected in there, but I will be so upset with myself if I miscarry b/c of something stupid like that. I woke up this morning feeling fine (not good) and as I sit here thinking about it more, I am getting really crampy again. I need to be more careful. I want this baby so bad, that I will be heartbroken if I lost it right now. Honestly, I can't believe I am this attached after only a few days! I never would have thought I would feel this way so soon. Funny how things like that work.
I still don't think it has truly hit DH yet that I am pg. He seems excited but I think he is so worried I will mc that he hasn't let himself believe it yet. I hope he has nothing to worry about.
Well hopefully I can start keeping better notes that the baby shower is over! It went so well! My sister called on Wednesday that her doctor lessened her bed rest and allowed her to come to the shower! YEAH! The shower was a success! It took us a few days and a lot of hours to finally get everything ready, but I think everything turned out well and she got a lot of really good stuff! I got lots of compliments on the clothesline we hung up and the book idea (everybody was asked to bring a book and sign it instead of bringing a card). I am torn between being happy it is over and not. What will I do now to keep myself busy? I guess I get to concentrate on me and my baby. OH MY!!! I just keep imagining that the next 35 weeks are going to be so LONG! The days seem to drag on by and although I know it will probably come sooner than I think, it still seems SO FAR away!!!!
Can I say that it is really torture keeping this to myself and my husband??? All weekend I wanted to tell my sisters. There were so many great opportunities for me to tell them, but I just couldn't do it. I am so nervous that I can't stand it! And then yesterday was DH grandmothers 85th bday party and not telling his parents was torture as well. We are hosting Fathers Day in 2 weeks, so that should be interesting too! I wish there was a good day to tell them (like I was farther along on Fathers Day- I will only be starting my 7th week). I was thinking around the 4th of July- I will be about 10 weeks. Maybe that will be when I tell my sisters...And then tell everybody else around my birthday in August when I will be around 12-14 weeks depending on when we celebrate. I am so looking forward to telling people.
Did I mention how nervous I am to have a baby? I am so excited, but oh so nervous! Every once in awhile it will just hit me that I am going to be a mother! I wonder if I can consider myself a mother already since I am pg? I think with the nausea and the giving up of soda, caffeine, sugar substitute, etc that I feel like a mom already! Not quite sure it has hit DH quite yet. He will mention the baby though. And yesterday at the party I caught him smiling for no reason. I asked him why he was smiling, and he said no reason. I wonder if he was smiling for the same reason that I smile out of the blue when I think about it too. Like I have this great secret that nobody else in the room knows. Sometimes I just want to shout "I know something you don't know!!!" with a little giggle. I do think my boss knows though. She has been very suspicious lately. I am such a Diet Coke lover and I haven't had one since Mothers Day and I think she suspects. She even came out and asked me before. I said no, since technically it was before I had my BFP...And then since I stayed home today b/c I didn't feel well, it will be interesting to see what she says to me tomorrow. (DH and I stayed home- he has the stomach flu, and I stayed up most of the night feeling nausea. Hopefully I don't get my husbands stomach flu tonight. Everytime I go anywhere near him or anything he touches I use some hand sanitizer. Hope that works.
Alright, I have babbled on enough for today. I shall now try and get a pg ticker
Oh nausea! I have been getting so nauseus in the morning. YUCK! I need to think of it as good though. It is good that I am nauseus b/c that means the baby is hopefully doing well and growing.
Symptoms: Cramping (lower middle abdomen as well as the sides), nausea (if you couldn't guess from the statement above) although I was only sick that one time, very tired (although I am surprised I have been able to stay up late sometimes), indigestion, heartburn, constipation.
I am fascinated that I haven't really had any food cravings/aversions quite yet. There are things that used to appeal to me that I just am not hungry for (Doritos), but I think that is more b/c I haven't been feeling well yesterday and today. I was reading out of the What To Expect book the other day and my DH wanted me to read the list of symptoms (What you may be feeling) list. I think it gave him a taste of what is to come (moodiness, etc). Haha. I have a feeling he will be traveling as much as he can for the next 9 months.
I mentioned to him my concern about him traveling around the due date. I know it is really far off, but I thought I should give him some warning. The problem is, there is no way to know when I am going to go into labor (obviously) so what do I tell him? He should not plan on travelling 2 weeks before and 2 weeks after and hope it happens in that time frame? He asked me how long labor usually takes, he said if it was more than 6 hours, he should be good to get home to me. Ha! Considering I am due in February, and the HUGE potential for blizzards, I have a feeling we could be in trouble with him traveling. I then need to consider who I want in there with me if he can't be? I think my mom would drive me crazy (sorry mom). Obviously no one in his family. My one sister is a dula, which is nice but it just seems so awkward. The other sister will have a 7 month old that she probably can't just leave to come to the hospital. Oh I don't know what I will do. And what if he is traveling and I go into labor...who drives me to the hospital? My in-laws are 45 min away from my house. My sister is about 25 minutes, but again, she has the baby. He had just better be home!!!!! That would be so sad if he missed it and I had to do the whole thing without him. But I shouldn't dwell on that now, I have lots of time to worry about that.
Well, I have slacked off enough for the morning. Off to work!
Thanks Angela! Congrats to you too! Can you believe it??? Has it truly hit you yet? As for my DH, the traveling goes in waves. It was pretty bad for the first 3 months of this year he would travel approx 3 weeks out of every 4 (and typically that was 3 weeks straight, not coming home on weekends). Then it settled down a little so that now he usually travels during the week- so at least he is home on weekends, but he is gone about 2 weeks out of the month.
Congrats again and good luck on a healthy and happy 9 months! I will probably run into you on the February 07 board!!!!
I do think I have it in for myself. I am going to torture myself counting down the days until the baby arrives! Only 34 and half more weeks. Ha! Oh boy, can you imagine what it is like to live with me, my poor husband! My friend is having a good laugh at me when I make comments like that. As she is pregnant, I'm sure I am making her think of it too! I am such a bad friend! Good thing I have this to try and keep me sane.
Well, I was hanging out with her last night and she showed me her doppler and let me hear the babies heartbeat (she is 9 weeks ahead of me so she is currently in her 14th week)!!! That was so neat! After I left and was driving home, I called DH in VA to tell him that there is this cool thing we can rent for 6 months. He seemed excited about it, so hopefully we will get one. He didn't realize you could start hearing the heartbeat pretty early on in the pg, so he was really cute when I told him about that. I think it is becoming real to him too! He is so sweet and has so many questions for me. When we, you know, on Mothers Day, he reached down to touch my belly and asked me how long til we knew if it happened. Then when I started feeling nauseus and one morning I was over the toilet before he left for work. He didn't make a comment until the next night, something along the lines of- you've been feeling nausea, and then you are over the toilet...morning sickness??? He looked so hopeful. But at that point it was still too early. Plus did I mention, he thinks it is a girl. I am not quite sure why. Maybe b/c I am not that sick and I think he would think it was a boy if I was sicker (b/c my mom had really bad morning sickness). And all I have been able to come up with are girl names. So maybe it is a girl. I can tell he really wants to find out when we get to that point. And although I think it is fun to wait, I don't think I can. I think I want to know. It is torture not knowing and then we can be prepared and have everything ready. We will see as it gets closer. Most of my family and friends don't find out and I also think that this would probably be the only time I wouldn't find out, the next time around I would want to prepare my first child by finding out the gender, so many reasons to go either way. Whevever I ask my sister what the heartbeat rate is for her baby, she always asks what the range is for a boy and a girl and then tells us it is in the middle. She is sneaky. I think it is a boy though. Just the way she is carrying and I had a dream it was a boy. But then again, I am usually wrong, so it is probably a girl.
Also last night, my pg friend was showing me her pg books. I really don't like the What to Expect When You are Expecting...which is pretty surprising to me. I thought I would love it. I was looking through the Girlfriends Guide book and it seemed definitely more my pace. I wanted to go pick it up today but I forgot my gift certificates for B&N, but as I was typing this, I remembered and put them in my purse for tomorrow. Woohoo!
Chatted with my sister today. Her cervix is still doing well, it hasn't thinned at all since she has been on bedrest, so that is great! She was hoping to go back to work in the city but it looks like her BP is elevated now and she will have to stay home. The baby is already 5lb 11oz (I guess she said that the baby is measuring at 38 weeks but that his femur is measuring at 33 weeks. I think this Friday starts her 34th week. The dr also said they probably won't let her get to 40 weeks, more like 38ish. They are discussing inducing her on July 3rd. A July 4th baby! That will be nice since I have the 3 and 4 off and our other sister will be down around then as well. Can't wait!!!!
Yesterday was AWFUL! I woke up Thursday morning at 4:30am seriously nauseus. I sat next to the toilet for an hour until I felt better. I never got sick, but so much nausea! So I finally went back to bed and read for a little while (to try and get my mind off of it) and then finally fell back to sleep aroun 6ish. I was so nauseus all day! A couple people at work told me that I looked pretty bad (nice, huh?)
You know, for some weird reason, I thought being pregnant was going to be easy and great!! I had heard the horror stories (heck, my sister was sick 3 times a day for 4 months). I remember saying to my husband at one point that it would be so much better than having my period once a month and have to deal with cramps. HA! What a joke! I have had cramps everyday for WEEKS! I will take the one week back. And my boobs are so incredibly sore. They are so big already, I really can't believe that they are going to be any bigger. And it hurts to lay on my belly b/c they are so sore. I took my bra off tonight and did they hurt! I just need to keep telling myself that I was lucky to get pregnant and that this is good. Ok, I am done with my ranting.
DH has been pretty good through all this. I am quite impressed with him, I have to say. Until last night that is. We have a cat, and of course I can't touch the litter. So DH is traveling (of course) and the cat pooped a little on the floor. I called my DH to tell him the cat left him 'treats' for him (that is what we call them). And he told me to go pick them up. Of course I once again explained to him that I can't do that and I won't even take the chance. I don't drink coffee anymore, I stopped drinking Diet Coke, hot dogs, lunchmeat, etc. Why would I chance the cat litter when he is coming home so soon (not that I would chance it even if he wasn't). He pooped downstairs, I am rarely down there, it doesn't bother me to leave it. Well, he didn't like that, my response...too bad! It is still sitting down there for him to pick up tonight when he gets home from his trip. He also did something weird the other day that he has NEVER done before. On Sunday we were at his parents house for his grandmothers 85th bday party and I got up to get us coffee for dessert. I got some decaf for myself and regular for him. So I hand him his cup and he turns to me and says- Is that decaf? I said yes, and he said, good. Now he gets to check up on me? He doesn't believe I am really following this? Should be an interesting 9 months.
Well 5 weeks and 4 days. Woohoo! I am still debating about telling my sister. It is so tough to bite my tongue when I chat with her. I have to convince myself, it isn't much longer. Everyday seems to go by so slowly though!!! Lets see if we can get past Fathers Day without telling her as we are having it at my house.