Today I am 4 weeks 2 days. I a really fighting the m/c paranoia today. I am praying so hard that this one will last. It took us 11 cycles to get here. Cycle #1 was a success initially but that pgcy failed at 6 wks. We tried for 9 more cycles until I went in to the OB to discuss a problem of midcycle spotting I was having. She suggested it might be uterine polyps. She scheduled me for an ultrasound. The u/s showed my uterine lining was way too thick, as it was probably not shedding the way it should. I brought in my BBT charts too. She said it looked like that although I was O'ing, I wasn't O'ing very good. My temps rose gradually instead of a nice sharp temp shift at O time. She said that both these problems could be corrected with Clomid. She said we would have to consider the possibility of twins. Of course I'll certainly take a 3-10% chance of twins over no baby at all! Told DH about the risk of twins and he (being a twin himself) said "Why would you call that a RISK?"
So my AF came on 11/13 and I went and filled the Clomid 50 mg prescription. Because of the messed up lining and Clomid helping to fix my goofy hormones, I had my AF for 10 days! On 11/24, I began feeling moderately bloated. I checked on the Clomid board and found out that's a definite symptom of O'ing on Clomid. My BBT jumped the next morning even though I had been using OPKs all the way through and never got a + or even close really. Someone convinced me to keep using OPKs so when on 11/26 I notice my CP was very high and open I ran to the store and bought another box of them. It was positive that night. SO exciting to finally see a + OPK. I never had seen one before. So we BD'd that night again. The next day - Thanksgiving Day after a big turkey dinner (really bad timing!), the bloating became extremely uncomfortable. When we got home, we BD'd again although it was nearly impossible for me being so bloated. The fatigue set in almost immediately afterwards. I have noticed some fatigue in the first few days after O before but it usually was very mild and ended about 4-5 DPO. This time it was not mild nor did it let up. Over the 2 week wait, I noticed more and more symptoms.... exhaustion - getting winded with any exhertion at all, nipples sensitive and breasts sore occasionally, frequent urination, and high body temp waking me up at night, and at 12 DPO I noticed I could no longer run up or down the stairs without a bra on or I had to hold them.
After months and months of unsuccessful TTC, I swore off all early testing. I held out until CD 28 which was 13 DPO from the definite O on Thanksgiving. My previous 5 cycles were 27 or 28 days. Finally after not going to the bathroom for 3-1/2 hours that night and knowing that I can hardly ever hold it that long during the night, I went ahead and tested using a Clearblue Easy Digital. It took about 45 seconds to show up "Pregnant" in the result window. Even feeling very confident I was pg because of the symptoms, my breath caught when I saw the result. I grabbed the test, ejected the stick, and ran up stairs motioning to Dave to come with me. I showed it to him and he said, "That's great Honey. I'm so happy." He's so calm and matter-of-fact about things. Later, he said something about already telling his friend/coworker Dave about me being pg. I just took the test an hour before so he was convinced enough by my symptoms that he told before I even tested.
When I look back over all the months of TTC, I can laugh now at how I overanalyzed every little twinge and upset tummy. The truth is that I have now become pg 4 times in my life and I've always been totally aware I was pg before I took the test. Oh, I tried to convince myself that some people get pg and don't have symptoms but deep down I knew I wasn't one of those people. I always know!
Well I'm running out of energy. Going to bed after praying for a healthy baby. G'night!