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    Feeling a bit better after the antibiotics have kicked in. My sinuses are still stuffy but not pounding in my head like Monday.

    I had quite a few contractions/cramping yesterday - makes me worry. This little dude better do what his Mama says and stay put until the 21st!!!

    DH and I argued about how much help we're going to need. We so have issues we need to work through. I'm such an a$$ for not getting a counselor yet. I need to get on that. Overall we have a lot of love - a LOT of love. We just have some competition and communication syle issues to work through. Plus DH is a hot head and Im analytical. Can be a combutable (albeit occasionally fun) mix.

    Appt this pm with crazy doc and a u/s. No internal (thank goodness). I actually sort of hope he'll make me go on like modified bed rest and I can request to work from home like 2 days a week or something. A girl can dream, right???

    Update later - stay put Mason or you'll have Mom to deal with!
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    Appt went well but had to wait 2 1/2 hours - those (insert cuss word here).

    Anyway, crazy doc was basically dismissive as usual "you'll be fine Miss, no drama, you can't screw this up, it will be easy" blah blah blah. Sometimes I really don't like that guy.

    But, he's supposed to be so great and I'm down to my last 3 weeks with him so there you have it.

    Got Mason's last u/s pics - his boy parts were, um, rediculously huge on the screen. It was almost embarrassing!

    The kids are getting excited and asking lots of questions which I think is so neat. My DD wanted to know how big the circle in my belly will be from the cutting during surgery I explained that it won't be a circle. Kids are so funny.

    DS just wants to feed him. DSS keeps trying to avoid telling me how "fat" my belly is (his birth mother is pretty overweight so he's sensative to weight issues). I tell him it's ok because there's a baby in there which makes my belly big.

    Mason's has dropped. His head was so low that the u/s tech had a hard tie measuring his head. He was "practice" breathing the whole time so she also had a tough time getting a belly measurement. But her best guess is 6.5 lbs right now - awesome! So I'm guessing - ok, here's the official Mommy guess - 8 lbs 2 oz at birth.

    I'll probably be so off. DD was 7 lbs 12 oz and DS was 8 lbs 7 oz. So I'm going with something in the middle. But that's about the size I bake 'em!
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    Wow did we have a miserable weekend. DH and I fought - constantly. This kind of stress can't be good for Mason.

    DSS#1 was a wreck Saturday - talking back, not listening, being nasty. DSS#2 wasn't much better. I know part of it is that their birth mother keeps them up late the night before they come but it really sucks - bad. Part of it is they need to adjust to our house.

    DD was great and DS was fine until the afternoon. He had total melt down's both afternoons. We took the kids to their favorite rest. and to build a bear to make a bear for Mason. DH was so pissy I didn't have a nice time at all. It sucked really. I was so disappointed. All I wanted was a nice weekend with the kids before Mason comes. We'll have one more chance next weekend - I hope DH doesn't screw it up again.

    I got to spend the morning with DS My Mom is away visiting family so I took the morning off. We had such a nice time together - I rarely get to spend alone time with my biological children. We laughed so much he commented, "Mommy, why are you laughing so much today - you don't usually really laugh that much". I almost cried - he's right, I don't laugh much. I need to find a way to change that. It really made me feel a bit depressed at what my children must go through when I am upset, poor little sweethearts.

    I love my DSS's, but with our difficult situation, DH's volitile temper and a biological mother who tries her best to make the rest of us "evil" in her son's eyes it's really tough to smile sometimes. I admit, there is a part of me that regrets falling in love again. There is a part of me that regrets falling in love with someone who has children and a really nasty ex. It's just so hard I wish it could be easier.

    DH knew he messed up. He spent all night last night trying to make up to me. That's our pattern. He acts like an a$$ and then has to back peddle. I have trouble letting go. Either way things that hurt are said and I cry. Then the kids cry then life just sucks for a while.

    I know DH loves me. I know we need some help. I admit my procrastination at getting help. But I think my DS's comment to me today might give me the balls I need to make that counseling phone call tomorrow.

    As for Mason, I must have had him all stressed out too. He barely moved yesterday. I almost went to the ER to get him checked out. But after I calmed down and ate something and poked him a fair bit he responded. Plus I had an NST scheduled for today - which went great - Mason looks really good. As they always say when I go "maybe too happy" haha.

    Anyway, DH's buddy and wife are coming to visit this weekend. I am not looking forward to it but I had already committed - stupid me. But maybe we'll have fun. And if not I'll just say I'm tired and go to bed and read a book. Either way is ok with me.

    Then a loooong week begins. But, a day at a time. Mason's still cooking and looking good. I am feeling counselor bound and determined to get DH and I the communication help we need because we do love each other - faults and all.

    And it's a gorgeous day today and I have 3 more hours of sunlight to gaze at so gaze I shall with good intent in my heart.
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    The NST went fine, as usual. We spent some time outside last night which felt really good. I've been so uncomfortable that just sitting in the sun was nice.

    I had some pretty painful contrax last night while lying in bed I started to get worried that Mason was going to do his own thing - that little buggar! But they settled down. Mason however did not. He was like a jumping bean and he stretched his butt up so far along my left belly I thought he was trying to poke his way out that way!!! It really hurt. DH couldn't believe his eyes - I wish I had gotten a pic of that one -wow.

    I feel terrible today. Just worn out and not in the mood for anything. I have a full day at work and I so don't want to be here. But, I gotta get through it.

    I'm almost done and I'm trying so hard to keep positive right now. It's hard with all the emotional stress I face and the fact that I'm not sleeping well and physically feel a bit beat up. But I'm super excited to meet Mason. I think he's going to be beautiful.

    It's so weird to think he's from me and DH - but a good weird. I'm getting weird now. I'll stop before I get out of control weird which I've been prone to these days. Yeah, I'm weird now? Just wait till those pp hormones start kicking in - man, I feel really bad for my DH in a few weeks - ah well, comes with the territory.
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    Had my appt this morning. I was contracting a lot last night but apparently it didn't really do anything - which I'm fine with.

    Mason looks good and I even had 2 contrax while on the NST machine. But as crazy doc said, "no promises, but enjoy your last 2 weeks of pregnancy". He thinks Mason will stay put.

    So, no more worrying about that for now. But...DSS#2 is really sick. High fever, cough, congestion. I want to stay FAR away. There are several people here at work with the same thing. The last thing I need is to get sick during my last 2 weeks of pg!!!

    So, I think my kids and I will stay away from home tonight until bed time. I hate doing that but, and I repeat, I don't want to get sick right now. I just don't know what to do for 4 hours!

    We'll see. DH is trying so hard to be supportive and understanding. But his kids don't wash their hands and he has a hard time remembering too. We'll have to wipe everything down after the kids go to bed. Erg, why now?????
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    It's funny - I read back through some of my posts - I'm so up and down! Funny little hormones, funny little life
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    Got a little sleep last night thanks to benedryl. DSS#2 is still pretty sick. DH is trying so hard to not get me sick he's offered to the ex to keep them tonight. They are supposed to be flying to FL tomorrow anyway. I feel bad for the kids as I'm sure DSS#1 will get this nasty thing too.

    MIL took DSS#2 to the doc so hopefully they can help.

    At any rate I'll be keeping my distance until they are out of the house tonight. I just don't want to be sick for the last 2 weeks of my last pg.

    Mason is moving around today but only small amounts. He's either so powerful it hurts or so lame I worry. Silly little guy.

    Had a thing at DD & DS's school this morning. Each grade did a little song. It was totally cute. I love this part of school!

    So officially 2 weeks from today is the big day. I'm going to really try to enjoy these last 2 weeks. Chill, that's what I want to do. If I feel angry at DH I'm going to go do something else until I feel better.

    So here's to a good weekend ahead (even though the weather is going to stink)!
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    Had a bit of a rough night. Started with discovering the chest freezer had stopped working - with about $300 worth of food it in!!!!!! DH and I were soooooo upset. Don't know how we'll afford to replace it all. We had so much in it to prepare for Mason. Sometimes life just deals you some really big blows.

    Then we got some other things done - after spending an insane amount of time cleaning out rotten food. Then I had really bad contrax. Ever time I would contract Mason would kick like he wanted to come out NOW - it hurt a lot. I just never went through anything like that with my other 2.

    By 9:30 I was just so uncomfortable and in so much pain I decided to go to bed. After a bit the contrax stopped but I didn't sleep much last night. Mason needs to stay put until next Friday. Hopefully I can convince him of that.

    So today isn't the greatest but it could be worse I guess. I'm just so upset about the food. Like why did I bother with all that prep and planning???? So now I need to waste some more time going to the store to at least replace some meat products - erg.

    Anyway I'm a bit bummed today.

    I'm going to try to make it through my work day but I admit, I so want to go home and work from my beddie-by.
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    Ok, ok okokok. NST was fine and got to skip the cervical check - I mean who really needs those anyway?

    I feel pretty good today as I got a little sleep last night and I'm working from home - nothing bad about that!

    This'll be our last weekend with the other kids before our family grows by one. Hoping to have some fun and avoid fighting. If things get ugly I'll be taking off to keep the sanity.

    Back to work. I'm hoping to have a pencil party for myself before next Friday - 2500 here I come!!!
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    So into the last week

    I'm going to try to do a little documentation each day of this the last days of my last pregnancy - bittersweet.

    Mason moves around great - from 9-11 pm!!! Then from 4 am on!!! I guess that's just how it's gonna be, silly boy.

    I feel more and more uncomfortable. I'm muddling thru. I still hope he stays put until next Friday. I like my plan and don't want to abandon it.

    I want to do a couple of fun things with the other kids this weekend. I refuse to fight with DH and if he exhibits unfair behavior I'll just go somewhere else for a while.

    My Mom's b-day is tomorrow so we'll have her over for pizza or something. Maybe I can get the kids to make some cookies with me for her or something.

    Well - 2 NTS's and 1 doc appt to go next week and we are done! I am getting a little terrified of the whoel surgery thing. But people do it all the time, I'll be just fine. Like crazy doc says, "no drama".
    Christina + Rory = a grand total of:
    Amelia, Anthony, Andon, Noah, Mason, & Trinity-woof


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