My name is Heather. I just found out was pregnant...for the first time. I keep a blog on blogspot and I've been anxiously waiting to write something, but can't do it there because we haven't told very many people and trying to wait until after we have gone to the doctor. The first prenatal visit is scheduled for February 12th. I don't know if I can wait that long.............
Everyone always speaks of what a blessing pregnancy is, but for some it's more than anyone can imagine. I just turned 30 on the 29th of December...and I have no children. I was married for 4 years (with him for 8 ) and in those 8 years we never used BC...and I never got pregnant. I left the ex in 2003. For the past 2 years and 3 months I have been dating an amazingly wonderful man. Leonard. We stopped using BC some time within the last year...and still nothing. So, we just figured, if it happened, it happened...otherwise we would be heading to the fertility doctor after we got married. And no, we aren't engaged yet...but it's something that we talk about often and just figured we do it at some point... (Some point may be sooner than later...)
10 years of NOTHING. My friend and I made this deal with ourselves when we were about 22 that if we weren't pregnant by 30, we were going to adopt. We just didn't want to be old Mom's like our mothers, who both had our youngest siblings when they were in their late 30s. Well, turning 30 wasn't the end of the world for me...as it is for some...but it sure got me thinking about our little deal. I wanted so badly to have had a baby by now and I didn't have that bundle of joy.
Around January 1st - the 7th I was having unbearable heartburn/indigestion. I just had this overwhelming feeling of needing to belch, but I couldn't. At some point, I think I even thought I was having a heart attack. I had the BF rub my back, as if I were a baby, to try to make me belch. It was damn near painful...
By the 8th, that had subsided some which was good because the 9th I was leaving for New Orleans with my Dad (and that same friend tagged along with us.) We had a blast! When I got back, on the 12th, I was deathly ill. I had the world's worse cold...(so I believed.) I was so congested...really no sore throat, but just stuffy and eventually lost my voice during the middle of my illness, which lasted 2 weeks...mainly because I wasn't getting any rest. I took 1 day off of work, but still worked from home that day and still attended 2 of my 3 evening classes. By the time I was well, on the 26th, it clicked to me that I hadn't gotten my period yet. I was SO sick, I really didn't even think about it.
So, I sat down with a calendar and started counting. I was late, nearly 2 weeks late. I've NEVER been late. Even times when I thought I may have been pregnant before, I took a test before I had missed. I probably counted the days about 5 times, laughing uncontrollably, before calling the friend and asking when the last time she was on (because our cycles are about a week off.) So, after my Saturday class, I took a PT. That thing read "Pregnant" before I even got off the toilet! I came downstairs with the test to show the BF and just couldn't stop laughing. He smiled at me and we were just shelled shocked for a couple of days.
So here I am, about 6 weeks and a day...with no morning sickness (yet some nausea set in today), mild cramping, heartburn, and tiredness. I pray every day that I will be able to keep this miracle...because a miracle it is indeed.
Today I went to lunch with a former co-worker of mine... But, this lady was WAY more than that to me. She was my "Work Mom"... She worked here for about 20 years which was about 10 longer than I have... From the moment I started working here in 1997, she took care of me... I can't even beginning to list all the things she did for me and the invaluable wisdom learned from her. Well, the company eliminated her position late 2005 and it just hasn't been the same around here.
So, I told her today that I am pregnant... She was so excited for us and I could see the joy in her watering eyes. It made me feel so good. As much as I want to wait to tell folks, it's an amazing thing to see the look on people's faces when you tell them. Especially in my circumstance...
One thing she told me was that she's heard that the baby comes when IT i is ready...not when YOU are ready. That was really nice to hear... I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason...there are no coincidences in life.
Nausea has set in...haven't thrown up...but really light-headed and queasy. Still have heartburn...need to learn how to eat differently. And not the TYPES of food, but literally how it goes in my mouth, how fast I eat it, etc. Keeping my fingers crossed that this is the worst it will get. Something tells me that's not true............
At the onset of my pregnancy, I discovered that I actually lost weight. However, before my discovery, I just figured it was because I was eating better in addition to making sure I made it to the gym, regardless of my school schedule. I believe I was the best shape in my life this past August and about 3 weeks ago I was just about there again...5 lbs from my ideal weight. ((SIGH)) I guess that's all about to change...
I hope to track my progression and take a picture every month, (which anyone who knows me knows that it shouldn't be too hard, as I am a picture-taking fool.) LOL
This is my 5wk6d picture, taken right after I got back from the gym:
(Obviously, no signs of pregnancy...the gut is pre-existing. LOL)
I hope to be one of those women who you can only tell that they're pregnant because of their bellies, but seeing that I'm 30, not sure how all that's going to work out. I just have to remember that being pregnant gives me even MORE of a reason to get my tail into the gym and watch the things I eat.
When I get home from work or school, I find myself heading straight for the bed...(B.K.A. "my sanctuary".) Leonard and I so named it recently as I have been spending a lot of time there. Oh, what I would give to be able to sleep whenever I want all day long! And I'm one of those people who literally feels as if the day is wasted away if I ever I sleep in on the weekends.
Right now with work and school I'm just down right exhausted. And just before I found out I was pregnant, I agreed to help a friend out with some choreography for this show he's directing...
I'm seriously considering not enrolling in school Spring Quarter. I want to be able to relax and take care of myself. This first trimester is going to be interesting, to say the least. 5 more weeks of school...4 more weeks of rehearsals...and I fly to Napa, CA at the end of the month for business. So glad my sanctuary remains a constant.
So the past few days I have been experiencing headaches off and on. Other days haven't been as bad as today. I ate something, thinking that would make me feel better, but actually did the opposite. I also did something stupid and let something at work stress me out. Since that incident the headache has progressively gotten worse.. The weather is so bad here in Ohio that the roads are HORRIBLE, literally lines of nearly parked cars outside of the office windows. (It's snowing, 10 degrees and the low was -3 this morning.) So, the bf decided that we're going to hang out at work until the traffic gets better....when all I want to do is run to my sanctuary. I'm so ready to go home... Man, I just wish this headache would go away!
Today was probably the worst day I have had to date! I wasn't necessarily sick, but spent the ENTIRE day just "not feeling right." It was horrible. It started out with me and the bf getting in a argument over something EXTREMELY insignificant just before leaving the house for work. There was some yelling and harsh words...and then me crying the entire 15 minutes to work. After that...it just didn't get any better. Not sure if it was particularly worse, but definitely no better. And then I found myself doing just out right bizarre things during the day. I was speaking on the phone with my friend/coworker and after the convo ended, remembered I needed to ask her something. So I called right back...and started talking before she even answered the phone!!! (I realized this as I heard the 2nd ring.) Later in the day, I was doing something fairly routine for my job (computer tech)...customizing a machine for a user...and realized pretty much after I had finished, (10 minutes later,) that I wasn't even logged in as the user, but as admin. (I've NEVER done that before.)
By the very end of the day, the bf stopped me in the hall and asked if I would prefer to go home, instead of to the gym after work so I could rest. I totally agreed. Especially since I have rehearsal at 7pm, in which I have to teach 2 dances. Man, the cast is going to think I'm crazy!
Sad thing is... I FEEL crazy. Just not right... I don't like feeling like this.
On another note, I'm totally starting to get a little belly and some times think that I'm further along than I calculated. (Will no for sure next week!) I wore a pair of pants yesterday that I ended up not buttoning the top button (mind you, they're already the pair that fits snuggly,) just to be comfortable. My 10 week picture is going to be interesting.....................
((SIGH)) I just ate and going to take a nap before rehearsal.
So after the horrible day I had yesterday...Leonard came home from the gym and proposed! It was the most unexpected thing! Had I not cried my eyes out that morning I would have cried then! The ring is unlike anything I have ever seen... Here are a couple of pictures of it, but they really don't do it justice.
I'm so happy!!!
Talk about an emotional rollercoaster..................
So today we told our parents about our engagement and the pregnancy. We decided we couldn't wait until after our appointment on Monday. I'm glad we told them...but at the same time I'm now even more paranoid about the next few weeks. I pray that everything continues to run smoothly...
Everyone is really happy for us. It's really such a good feeling. Tomorrow after mass, we are going to talk to our priest to see when we can set an appointment with him to work out the details. Being Catholic, we still need to go through Pre-Cana and then there is the issue of already being pregnant... So we'll see.
Leonard and I were talking about how we wished we could just fast forward ahead just to get it all over with. I'm so down for that...
It's going to be interesting, that's for sure...
I had my first appointment yesterday. It was everything I had expected. Lucky for me, I had just gone in for my annual check up on January 2nd, so the visit was actually a little abbreviated. Leonard and I were there for 2 hours...and really only in the waiting room for 10 minutes. (Shortest wait I have ever had there!)
We saw a nurse practioner who works as part of a team with my OB. They will alternate visits for the duration. She confirmed that I am pregnant... (LOL) And until I have an ultrasound done, my calculations are correct... I'm about 8 weeks along. So far everything looks good and I'm not at high risk for carrying the baby. (I will discuss with my OB later about delivery, in light of all the problems I have had with the HPV. ) Basically spent the time giving her our families' histories and Leonard asked A LOT of questions. It was cute. She did a pelvic exam and breast exam and they took about 7 vials of my blood! It was insane... We got a lot of information about numbers to call and a prenatal care book with healthy eating, dos and don'ts, etc. Also some free prenatal vitamins too!
My ultrasound is scheduled for March 9th with my OB. (Would've been the 2nd, but my job is sending me out to Napa, California for training and I'll be flying back that day... And they only do them on Fridays... At that time they will confirm EDD. (Estimated Due Date.)
I will have an appointment every 4 weeks up until my 28th week...(with the 2nd ultrasound around the 20th week.) After that, the appointments go to every 2 weeks until the last month when I will go every week.
I'm so excited!
The worst of my pregnancy symptoms seem to be fatigue and heartburn. I have actually gotten the heartburn thing under control as I've been eating smaller meals and started taking Pepcid-AC. So far I haven't had really any morning sickness...which I consider a total blessing. I do get nauseated at times, but not to the point of vomitting. Although, I've read and heard from folks that morning sickness is a sign of a healthy baby... At the same time, I know that it really depends on the woman. My sister told me she didn't have morning sickness with either one of her 2 kids and they were just fine. So, I have no worries... As I said, I'm considering it a blessing.
At this point I'm just really want to be able to sleep whenever I want... I'm a little too busy now with school, work and show. That will all slow down soon. I can't wait!
My sister sent me a journal and a baby name book, from which we have highlighted a few possiblities. We're pretty set on the name if it's a boy...but it's going to be a hard decision when it comes to a girls name.