9 weeks today. It's amazing how fast time seems to be flying. When I started posting my ticker had "5 weeks" in it... Amazing.
So...so far, so good, but still been pretty tired. Seems like I can't get enough sleep and ont top of that, I have troubling sleeping at night. If I can fall asleep after work, it's a good nap... But, I toss and turn at night...have really odd dreams...and get up at least twice to run to the bathroom. It's unreal.
Some days I feel like I'm going crazy. Today was just one of those days. I left my portfolio in my Accounting class and I remembered shortly after I went to get a salad from the cafeteria, and when I went back it was gone! My life is in there...literally. (I'm hoping the girl who sits next to me picked it up.) I nearly cried when Leonard came to pick me up...and then started playing back my every move in my head. Even remembered one of the things that distracted me was that some chick in my class asked a really stupid question...(and my patience is thin) so I pretty much answered it kind of sarcastically...and then she got smart with me! Being the person that I am, I let the dialogue end there...but, it was enough to get me thinking about all the "stupid things" that people said or did today with which I had to deal.
So... A split second after I wanted to cry...I started to get irritated thinking of how I let stupid stuff distract me. And then I could feel myself getting stressed...
I really need to figure out a way to control some of this. I don't like feeling like I have no control... I can't stand being forgetful and absent-minded.
So here I am a day shy of 10 weeks. Where did the time go? I'm in Napa, California this week on business, but I remembered to take my camera so I could get this monthly shot:
(So I have to throw in this comparison shot...)
People must absolutely be smoking crack when they tell me they can't tell I have a belly going on. Do they think I always looked like this??? It's so funny to me. The folks out here in Cali, REALLY, don't know me...so they have a little excuse. But they say crap like, "But your belly is so flat..." I say, "Tell that to my jeans I can no longer button..."
As far as everything else, I feel fine. Almost as if I'm not pregnant. If it weren't for my gut I would be skeptical... The fatigue thing is my worst enemy right now, but other than that, feeling well. The u/s is scheduled for next Friday. I can't wait!
11 weeks today.
Everything is going well...aside from the raging hormones at this point! I've been a down right witch with a capital "B." Everything seems to be irritating me. I lost my mind on Sunday when Leonard got me a Sausage Biscuit instead of a Sausage McMuffin from McDonalds. (Mind you, I rarely eat fast food...but some days after mass I am so hungry it's the fastest way to make me feel better.) I was going to deal with it and had decided just to not eat it. Until he looks over and says, "Just eat it!" At that point, I just snapped. So, after about a 3 minute argument, unfortunately in front of his sister, he decides to take his sister home and go home instead of to my show (which was our next destination, as it started in 25 minutes.) By time we got back to our house, it was the exact time that my show was starting... As the garage door was coming back down...with Leonard on the inside... I pulled out and just started crying uncontrollably. I cried all the way to my show...(really don't remember driving there, obviously pretty dangerous) and talking to my sister on the phone about how I didn't think I could do this. She reassured me that the end result is worth it and that I'm much stronger than her...and she did it twice.
Well, the worst part for me is NOT being in control. I feel like I can't predict my reactions nor channel the energy that comes out in rage...and followed by a crying fit.
Other than that... Nausea isn't as bad (even if I don't eat before I leave the house,) heartburn is under control...but I am still pretty darn tired. My bras are uncomfortable and I have resorted to wearing camisoles with shelf bras in them to make it through the days. I guess I will have to go shopping soon.
My first u/s is Friday morning! I can't wait...
Friday, March 9th marked the day of our first ultrasound. It was the best doctor's visit I've ever had. Best part, I found out that the baby actually measured out at 12 weeks and 4 days (which is 1 week and 2 days further along than the original calculation.) Now my journal entries seem a little off but everything will start corresponding with my new ticker now. My EDD is now September 17th, which is my baby brother's birthday...(too funny, huh?)
She started out with just the scan on my belly and told me she wasn't going to have me do the vaginal... I said, "That's cool with me." I was surprised how much the baby was moving...it was surreal. The doctor even commented on how active it is. It was very, very cool. Watching Leonard's face as he was watching the monitor was pretty special, too. We got to hear the hearbeat too! It was at 159BPM.
While she's moving around, she comments on how tiny my ovaries are. (No wonder I had never gotten pregnant before!) So, she takes the measurement and says, "So when was you EDD again?" And I told her the 26th...but I was measuring to the 17th. So, she says, "Okay, I'm going to have to renege..." [on the 'no vaginal statement'] The vaginal scan was interesting to say the least. I couldn't see the screen on this one, but Leonard made me chuckle while he was watching and said, "Wow, that's a totally different angle..." Ya think? From what I understand, the view was mostly the head. That scan actually had me at 13 weeks...with due dates of 9/15 and 9/14. But, she decided to go with the 17th.
Everyone kept commenting on how having the ultrasound would make it all seem more "real." Boy were they ever right! Now I have an idea of what the baby is doing in there...and it's changed my perspective on it.
Can't get over what a wonderful miracle this is!!!
(the bottom is the section is the heartbeat)
So, I had to wear maternity jeans yesterday for the first time. Every Friday is jean day...as we pay a nonminal donation to a charity for the month. I totally had my clothes ironed and ready to go and went to put my regular jeans on and they simply did not fit. I could get them on...half zip them, but sure as heck couldn't button them...and then decided to not put myself through any more crap. I had bought a pair of maternity jeans at Target while shopping one day...not with any expectation of wearing them any time soon...but THANK GOODNESS I did. Otherwise, I wouldn't have been wearing jeans yesterday. Unbelieveable. I guess I need to go get some more. It's funny, the whole time I was thinking what my sister and mother had told me, "One day you'll wake up and nothing will fit anymore."
So, wedding plans are going well... Have an unfortunate situation with the church, though...but praying that all works out. Otherwise, I bought my dress the other day and the bridesmaids ordered theirs... I have an alteration appointment on April 19th...(we'll see how big I am then.) My dress is pleasantly big, though so all will be good in a couple of months.
Leonard and I walked around in Babies R Us today to try to get an idea of what we wanted. Made me want to forget about the wedding plans and start planning for the baby! We're not going to buy anything yet, as are friends have been telling us to wait because we should expect to get lots of stuff from the showers we will have. We are just anticipating buying the big stuff like the crib and all the nursery accessories, etc. It's all so exciting! Leonard was so funny...every five seconds asking, "What's that for?" "We don't need that..." "Babies are so spolied." And he's bound and determined to do the nursery in Cleveland Indians and/or Cleveland Browns crap, regardless of the sex. He's so confused. LOL
Well, I have another appointment in about 2 weeks now...things at work are really busy, but everything else has slowed (no school and no extra stuff.) Looking forwarded to being able to rest a little...
15 weeks and 1 day
Things have been really hectic for me...but have been doing my best to keep my sanity and to not get too stressed for the baby's sake. Way too much to write here...possibly later in my blog, if I have the time.
Right now... I'm feeling great, accept for the extreme exhaustion, (most of that is heavily contributed to by work.) I have been going to sleep pretty much right when I get home from work...most of last week that wasn't until 7pm or later, though. Yesterday I was in bed by 6pm...and I slept all night.
Anyway, my belly is continuing to grow... So here's my 15 week picture in comparison to my 7 week pic:
I actually think I may have lost some weight since my Napa trip. I hadn't been going to the gym with work, school and the show... And must've been awfully bloated on top of that. So glad my face doesn't look as fat! I was starting to get worried that I was gaining weight too fast.
16 weeks 1 day
So I was at the gym today and told this girl that I went to high school with that I was pregnant. (I've seen her at the gym a bunch of times before...) But, she asked me how far along I was (as I am sitting there in my sports bra and belly out after having weighed myself) and I told her, "16 weeks." She actually told me that I was barely showing and that my stomach was "flat" (for 4 months, I suppose?) It cracks me up when people tell me that because I know that my stomach was as close to flat without being totally flat...and I was getting my abs together too. I always think in the back of my mind, "Does this really look normal to you?" Amazing.
I can't wait until I actually look like I'm pregnant and not as if I have gained some weight...
17 weeks and 1 day...
17 weeks already? Insane. I actually feel great. I took a couple of days (Thursday and Friday) off work last week since we had our guy back from Napa. I had my 16 week appointment that Wednesday... Well, actually, it wasn't meant to be...it was scheduled for Friday, but they had a Colposcopy scheduled for me on the Wednesday, so they took care of everything then. (For those of you who don't know, a colposcopy is when they take a scope and look at your cervix for abnormalities.) I've had quite a few abonormal paps in my day and this is about the 3rd colpo I have had... My OB said everything looked normal and that she would just repeat it after I have the baby. They took blood for the "triple test" (AFP) screening which was also normal. I also got to listen to the baby's heart again...which was totally confirmation to me that I really have a baby in there! (I'm telling you...aside from the fatigue, I feel the "same.")
Lord knows I don't look the same... While we were leaving the gym yesterday, Leonard was gloating about how he's 192lbs. Apparently he hadn't weighed himself in a month and was REALLY surprised that he lost 10 more pounds. Since about January, he changed his eating habits...now eats 5-6 times a day and mostly "good for you" stuff. After about the 20th "I'm 192..." I started hating on him. Mainly because he's going to be looking really, really good...when I'm looking fat. Especially on our wedidng day. ((sigh)) So far I've gained about 10 lbs... I'm now about 172, which is the weight I was running from just last February. I got down to 160 this past summer and looked great... Leonard is sweet and is reassuring me that this is a different kind of weight and I will loose it just fine after the baby... We'll see.....................
Another thing I have noticed... I've started urinating more frequently. The first day I stayed home, I went to the bathroom 4 times in 2 hours. And at night... I wake up at least 2 times to go to the bathroom. It's not fun. And I know this is TMI, but how about peeing on your hand, because you think you are finished...and go to wipe...but not quite??? I've done that now 3 times in the past 2 weeks. Disgusting.
I haven't had any really bad emotional outburts lately...so hopefully I'll be able to have a little more control. Wish me luck!
May 11th will be the anatomy ultrasound day! I can't wait. I had a dream that I am having a boy. I really want a boy (as does Leonard)...but obviously, would be happy either way. But, I geuninely feel like we're going to have a boy...
19 weeks today...
Yesterday I was ill the entire day. It was the first time I'd ever truly been "sick" during this pregnancy. I woke up around 2am Sunday morning with unbearable pains in my stomach...as if I needed to go to the bathroom. More accurately, as if I were about to have diarrhea. I tossed in turn for hours and kept running to the bathroom...and each time, nothing. I got up to take a shower around 7am to attend mass...only to return to bed and have Leonard tell me we weren't going... Which was fine with me because I was feeling worse by the moment. I ended up eating a PB&J sandwich around 9am and was finally able to relieve myself. I was in bed all day. Miserable.
By the evening I finally was able to get through to my sister...who acts as my advisor. (She has 2 children and we couldn't be any more alike than we already are... So, most of what she has told me has been true and I trust her experience thoroughly. Who better to be my consultant?) Needles to say, I called her and said I was sick...that I was having diarrhea. She instantly tells me exactly what I just described in this post, without me telling her...and that it happened to her...oh, and that she was waiting for me to call her! Classic. Well, she said it would all pass in a day...and it would happen to me once a month. Sure enough, after the ENTIRE day of being miserable, I woke up feeling fine.
The coolest thing about yesterday was that I finally was able to make a distinction between the baby moving and gas...and/or other pains/rumblings in my tummy. So, I'm pretty sure I've been feeling the baby sporadically for the past week or two and just realized what it was yesterday. It's very cool. Yea!!
Anyway, here's the 19 week shot:
And comparison shot:
The angle is a little different...but still not much difference. Maybe a little wider.
IT'S A BOY! No doubt...
22 weeks 1 day...
So, yeah... I've been MIA lately. With the wedding coming up in less than 2 weeks, I have been pretty busy...and tired. But, I have great news to share! We found out that we're having a boy. I was 90% sure it was boy... For the longest I was 100% sure...then I had a dream, and it gave me a margin of doubt. The ultrasound was the coolest thing I had ever seen. Unbelieveable.
Introducing Alexander Lee Campanelli...
Here he is posing with his hand under his chin… (Already taking after his daddy!)
He has all of parts... We looked at everything... It was so cool! (Which I think I said about 20 times...) The baby is so transparent...we could see all of the individual bones, fingers, toes, spine... He was even doing tricks! LOL He flipped a couple of times, was sucking his thumb, moving his lips/mouth as if he were chewing, swallowing (we could see the tongue move,) saw the heart beat through his body... I could go on and on.
Generally, I feel great...although the fatigue creeps up on me from time to time. I feel him moving all the time. I'm almost to the point where I have to block it out some times so I don't get distracted! It's really interesting...
We are all doing well...and very happy!