My name is Sara M., wife of Gary M., mom to Elise M. and soon to be mom of another M&M!
We found out we were pregnant with Elise on our 4th first date Anniversary and today, our 3rd Wedding Anniversary, we found out that we are expecting our second!
Our due date is December 26, 2003.
I have so many things to do today, but I wanted to start this journal as soon as I could. I'm just so excited!
Sara, Mom to Elise (10/01) & Luke (12/03)
I'm still a bit in shock. I know I saw the second line clear as day, but it just will not sink in. I'm excited and scared out of my mind. Yes, that sounds about right.
I had a "feeling" this past week that I was pregnant. I can't really put my finger on it, but it was this "strange" out of sorts feeling, not too strong mind you, but enough to know something was up. I thought it was just my mind playing tricks on me as I wanted to be pregnant so badly. I didn't feel all that different otherwise...a little crampy, sore back and constipation/bloating.
I called yesterday to set up an appt with my new doctor/NP and they said I would need to come in for confirmation (urine test) before they would set up an appt. I was a bit miffed about that since I tested postive at 11dpo and want to wait a few days before a mid day test (not sure about the levels of hormone in diluted urine). They said once it's confirmed that I can set up an appt at the 8-12 week mark. I am going to go to one of the Nurse Practicioners in the practice and hope that she functions like a midwife and doesn't merely "assist" the OBs. I always fear that I will have a health care provider that will harp on my weight. I won't tolerate it. If they start in, I will let them know that I will not put up with it for 9 months and that I will find another provider if it is a problem for them.
I weighed myself yesterday and found that I was just where I was before I got pregnant with Elise. I hope that this pregnancy will be as easy as it was with Elise and that I will gain minimal weight again.
As for this morning, I'm feeling okay. I'm still a bit crampy, a bit nauseous (gagging feeling), and of course the back pain and constipation.
My back is killing me!
I tried everything yesterday (heat, stretching, reg strength tylenol) and I woke up feeling like an old woman.
I wish I could say that the pain is due to the pg, but I think I injured it moving furniture and it isn't going away.
I could barely pick Elise up yesterday and almost collapsed and cried several times as the pain is so bad. I know I should make an appt with my new doctor...maybe I'll do it today. My back has been hurting long enough.
As for the pg, not much else going on yet. I know that will change soon, but basically I'm feeling fine.
Sara, Mom to Elise (10/01) & Luke (12/03)
Dial up stinks!
I just thought I would get that off my chest.
So much has happened the past few days. One of the best things is that we're living in our new house (even thought we still have a few things at our apartment). Our first night was Saturday and it was heavenly. The second best thing was getting our DSL up at the house...ahhhhh.
One of the worse things that has happened is the death of my FIL. He passed away early Easter morning. Gary left early this morning for Chicago and should be back tomorrow. I really wanted to go, but it would have been very difficult with Elise. HIs family understands, but I still feel bad about it.
As for the pregnancy, I'm feeling really good. It scares me a bit, but I felt this way when pg with Elise. I get twinges now and then and my bbs are achy, but that is about it. I get a bit gaggy in the morning, but am fine as soon as I have something to drink. I hope to get to the drs today to confirm this pregnancy so I can schedule my first appt.
My back is feeling SOOOOO much better. A few days ago my back cracked all the way up my spine and since then I felt like a new woman. I hope this lasts for good.
Sara, Mom to Elise (10/01) & Luke (12/03)
Can I just say that my health plan SUCKS ROCKS????!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ugh, after waiting for one hour to confirm my pregnancy so I could make an appointment, they inform me that I need to see all of the OBs and that I will be delivered by the one on call.
I can just hear the comments about my weight now and I am not ready to take it!
I would opt for a homebirth, but I am scared. The epi REALLY worked wonders for me. Also, I know my family is not thrilled about the idea.
I feel a bit better about the doctor thing after having some time to think about it. I need to remember to be persistent and strong and not to let them push me around or slack.
I am so tired this morning. Elise decided to have a freak-out last night at 1am. I wish I knew what caused these, but I don't. She starts crying and hyerventilating and nothing seems to calm her down. I was alone last night so it was a bit more difficult than usual, trying to get her back to bed. I ended up keeping the lights on low and returning her to her crib. She settled down after a few minutes and woke up two more times (she got herself back to sleep) before waking at 6:30am.
I ate a BIG meal at a Mexican restaurant last night and I paid for it most of the night as well. Ugh the bloating! It tasted SO good, but next time I need to be more careful.
I know I'm crazy, but I feel so much down in my belly. I didn't feel anything going on in my first pg until 18-20 weeks. I know I'm not feeling the baby, but I can feel the changes KWIM? It's so exciting.
On to another day. I hope Elise takes a big 'ole nap today. I need the sleep as I feel a cold coming on. It might just be my allergies as my eyes are KILLING me, but only time will tell. Lots of extra Vitamin C for me!
What a difference a night makes
Gary got home last night and just having him here makes everything better. He did have to go to work today, but just knowing he's home is enough to give me a silly grin. Unfortunately, Elise is still asleep so she didn't get to see her Daddy. She walked around the house yesterday calling him over and over. It breaks my heart.
Well, I'm still in the back/leg/butt pain club. It's not terrible, but lingering. I tried to do pelvic tilts this morning and it almost made me cry. What am I going to do in 9 months??????
The doula called last night. She seems so nice and only lives about 2 miles from our house. She had to put her kids to bed so our talk was short, but she promised to call back today so we could talk about my birth wishes and she promised to give me the nitty-gritty on the area. Maybe she knows some good babysitters too! I can always hope
Gary has "off" today so it looks like we might actually be able to order our couches and get a few house things done!
I'm feeling great! This appetite thing kind of sucks though, but I remember it being the same with Elise. I get real excited about food, but when it comes to eating it, I'm not interested.
I had some cramping last night. I must admit that it scares me although I know it is normal. I remember cramping a lot more constant with Elise so it was ongoing, but this comes out of the blue. I haven't had any bleeding of any sort, so I know that's a good sign.
The doula was supposed to call me yesterday. Unfortunately, I do not take kindly to people who say they are going to do things and don't do them. I know she has a life too, but she said she would make sure to call me. Oh well, she'll probably call today and I'll be gone .
We still didn't order the couches. Maybe we can do it on the way home from the apartment check out today.
I had a wonderful chat with our doula (at least I hope she will be) last night. We talked about my inability to deal with pain and things that I liked and didn't like about my labor and delivery with/of Elise. I felt so comfortable with her. We are going to meet with her this next Friday (hopefully).
I had a few more wierd dreams last night, but at least these were a bit more positive (no bleeding or m/c involved). I dreamt that we had a little girl and that Gary wasn't there. This dream invloved my fears about breastfeeding although it seemed like this baby got the hang of it. I woke up with a little smile on my face.
I'm feeling pretty good. I have awful cravings for tangy things. I cannot wait to get back and make my Ruebens! Yummy! No real cramping to speak and just minor breast tenderness. I fear that things will get worse when I reach 12 weeks as it did with Elise. Oh well!
Well, we're off to offically sign out of our apartment!
Still didn't get the couches.
We did manage to sign out of the apartment and should get 80% of our deposit back. I'm just glad that that chaper of our lives is CLOSED! No more storage unit and no more apartment!
I couldn't sleep for anything last night. Tossing and turning all night. Maybe it was because I stayed up until midnight to finish the scrapbook challenge layouts. They turned out okay, but the scans are terrible. I wish I could get the scans to look as good as my pages really do.
I'm feeling fine... a few twinges here and there. I'm still Ultra Mega *****! The doula suggested that I start taking Calcium supplements and that I would soon find that I am less irritable. I'm going to get them today so we'll see!