My 9 Month Assignment
I took a HPT one morning in early April. I figured it would be negative and I could just wait for my period to come (it was about five days late). Well after I brushed my teeth I looked at the test and I saw two very bold pink lines. The first words out of my mouth were not nice and therefore probably shouldn't be repeated, but here I am. My mom has been supportive since day one, my boyfriend wanted me to get rid of it, and he's slowly getting used to it. I'm moody and at times unsure if I made the right decision.
I'm worried that my boyfriend wont be there for me when I need him, yeah he's around now, but what about the birth of the baby?? What about afterward. I don't know if I could stand to look at him if he missed out on that. Sometimes I just have to imagine it's just me and my baby. I have to prepare myself for single motherhood. Sometimes I feel like I'm ruining his life, but then I have to remind myself that I didn't get myself pregnant.
I wish I waited until after I was married, but that doesn't mean I regret keeping my baby. MY BABY it sound wierd when I say it. I can't wait till it gets here. I'm going to be a mom about a month before my 20th birthday and way before I graduate from college. What am I really in for?
Twelve Weeks Two Days
My boyfriend is finally getting used to the fact that I'm having a baby. He told some people in his family. I feel better knowing that he has some support on his side of the family.
The bad news is, he's thinking about moving away if some of these job opportunities don't come through. He says it's best to do it while the baby is young. I guess he plans to move away and go to school. I guess all I can do is try to support him, but I couldn't hide my disappointement. I really wanted him to be here for us, but oh well.
Thirteen Weeks, One Day
Well I heard the heartbeat on May 23. The doc said it was normal, I guess he would know right? I was so excited to hear it that I didn't have time to get mad at the fact that he only get the monitor there for a few seconds.
My b/f is adjusting more, and it makes me more comfortable. My mom is so excited, she has the baby shower set for the end of September and I'm only three months pg LOL
Here's my 9 week u/s, I have to wait until July 18 (20 weeks) to find out
the sex :(
15 weeks 2 days
I just got some amazing news. This morning one of my close cousins told me that she just found out she's pregnant. I'm so excited!! If all goes well we should be having our babies about two months apart. I can't imagine how surprised our family is gonna be. We're the last two people they expected this to happen to (they thought we would've finished college first).
I saw my CNM for the first time a week ago, and she asked me if I wanted to have that test that would tell me if my baby could possibly have down syndrome or a spinal disorder. I was skeptical about it, but I'm going to have it. I've decided that I'm going to have the baby anyway, and that if it's positive I'll have some time to mentally prepare. I'll be getting that test done at 16 weeks.
I can't wait to start my yoga classes, I'm in need of some relaxation techniques and I've been feeling really stiff. Yoga will be my main form of excercise. I also want to learn how to swim before the baby comes. I've also decided that I'm gonna start the hynobirth relaxation program at 28 weeks.
So much preparation, so little time, but it feels like it's taking forever.