Eventually I will print this journal off and put it in a scrap book, then in future, I can look back and see what to not worry about One thing Ive noticed in the last couple of weeks is the amount of CM… theres loads of it! Ive read somewhere that it is normal, cant think exactly why, maybe its to do with keeping clean? Anyway, pretty ick
I think Im pretty normal so far, sore and bigger bb's, I suppose 'average' m/s - not terrible, not absent heightened sense of smell, tired, more CM, a little bit of spotting… Now I look back over the last few weeks and see how much worrying Ive done… I know its natural and Im not done worrying by a LONG shot Im now trying to make a conscious decision to be calmer, Im sure me being calm feels better for the baby too.
He or she is about 4cm now and has toes too!
(My work colleague just drenched herself in perfume and my stomach is turning over chronically now )
Im seriously thinking about stopping going to the aug 05 board for a little while, just until my pregnancy is a bit more established. Its just that I think I wind myself up by going there, and another poor woman suffered a m/c yesterday, she saw on the u/s that she had a blighted ovum. I feel so sad for her. But now its added yet another worry to me. I know that I am very up and down, as my last post was very upbeat, but then it only takes me hearing about something like that on the board and Im back to square one.
On the other hand Ive gotten so much support and information and reasurance from ladies there… I have to weigh up in my mind whether Im benefitting more than worrying myself. But I also like to be there with the ladies there, they are so nice. I like being able to help too sometimes. *sigh*
I know im being very selfish, just thinking about my baby when I hear about another m/c… and I try not to be Oh well, no doubt tomorrow I'll feel fine again and able to cope with going back, such is the nature of hormones
On a brighter note I feel ok, normal today. Just all the normal symptoms so that’s reasuring. Im now over 9 and a half weeks, nearly into double figures, which means just 2 weeks from Saturday until my u/s. Im trying not to get too excited in case we get bad news, but its pretty difficult!
Today got the first lie-in for ages, so nice, i didnt even get out of bed until 11.45! How lazy LOL oh well, best make the most of it Dh even brought me toast and a cup of hot squash awwww
I was a bit worried when i first got up as my bb's werent tender/sore at all, in fact just like they were before i got pg, so that worried me a bit, and i realised i wasnt really feeling that sick, but then ive noticed i havent felt too bad recently, but i think that might be more to do with me managing it a bit better. Anyway, my bb's are sore again, and i felt so sick for a while before eating, so thats ok
10 weeks wow... Im nearly at the end of the 1st Trimester My u/s is only 2 weeks and 3 days away...
I had a dream on Saturday night and it was so strange. I had the baby and brought her home (it was a girl) but I had nothing there, no nappies (diapers), cleaning things, clothes, nothing! So odd, I was panicing in my dream because I couldn’t clean her up, only feed her (v strange). But the wierdest part was looking at her and thinking she was the most beautiful thing Id ever seen. I woke up and was just think she is so beautiful…
Its quite odd, and now, I feel so much more like this is actually happening! Like, wow, theres a real baby in there!
Last night had some cramps in my lower abdomen, not overly painful, but 'enough'. However they seemed to go away after i got dh to rub my back, so i think it should be ok. Ive had a few of the same today though not as bad, but i now im uh, bunged up right now which doesnt help, so that might be contributing.
Ive broken out in spots, and i think its largely due to my diet as well which is not good AT ALL, its very bad, i just dont seem to want 'good' food.... I really need to make an effort, and not just for my sake.
I spoke to mum a bit yesterday about childbirth and she was very reassuring, its good to speak to someone with plenty of experience (Im one of 5) so that was good, she didnt dramatise it, she just explained how her 1st labour and delivery went (7 hours 'medium pain' labour (in comparison to subsequent births) and one push! Lucky her!) In fact she had more or less the same experience with all of us, except the last one, my sister who was 10lb2oz and she took two pushes
So anyway, i am really starting to feel so much better about CB. After all millions of women do it safely every year, and if it was so unbearable, my mum wouldnt have had 5 of us. She says her recent operation was worse that all 5 births.
Only two days until 11 weeks. I dont suppose I'll notice that day much as we have the sponsored fast and disney watch with the youth group forthe Tsunami appeal. As far as the kids know, i wont be eating either, and i feel a bit mean that i wont be as hungry as them, but needs must huh?
I feel good today I dont feel sick, my bb's dont hurt, but are a little tender and feel quite heavy. Im still... stuck... LOL and hormonal?? Poor dh this evening I try to be aware of how Im behaving and for the most part i think i've been ok, but i got so mad with him tonight and over nothing, in fact i cant even think why i got mad He is so patient with me *sigh of relief*
Im a bit annoyed with myself right now though because I forgot to re-order my contact lenses. So I'll have to call specsavers in the mornign and see if they'll send me my new pack. I must have ignored a notice for an appointment for check up, thats generally the only reason they dont mail out the new pack. grrrr
I was looking on the net recently for a pg chat room, but theres nowhere else but pg.org and im never on when theres people in there Its quite frustrating, but at least i have the aug 05 and Questions boards...
Well dh should be back from church soon, so I'll go put the kettle on, 'see' you later
I can hardly believe that I am in my 11th week! I am very apprehensive now about the scan next Tuesday. I'll get to finally find out for certain whether this is really happening or, well, the other option.
When I feel my lower abdomen, I can feel that there is something quite big and harder than just my squashy belly its just behind and poking up above my pelvic bone, which I guess would be about right as in the next couple of weeks, all being well, it will start to pop up above as the area wont be big enough to hold it. So that is one thing which makes me feel quite confident.
My bb's are not so tender anymore, though they tingle a bit sometimes, so that’s a little painful. Also Ive started noticing in the morning, theres a tiny bit of white stuff on them I thought it was waaaaaay too early for that!? Its dry and rubs off, but v strange, and has happened for the last 3 or 4 days. The m/s is not even half as bad, in fact my apetite is practically normal now and I only get queasy when im hungry or very tired.
One thing, and maybe it is a coincidence…. But I havent had m/s since I stopped taking the pregnacare (multi-vitamin) so maybe that had something to do with it? I saw quite a few girls on the Aug 05 board had probs taking a prenatal multi vitamin and that it made m/s worse, so maybe that’s the same with me? Mine ran out, so now I just take Folic acid, and the occasional regular multi-vit. Im eating quite a bit of green vegetables, and I drink fruit juices too, so Im hoping the Im taking in what we need. Im also making myself have some milk, I don’t usually have cereal, milk leaves such a nasty taste in my mouth, so ive started flavouring it, and its ok now. What price love huh?
I've started getting a bit light headed occasionally too, but I think that’s all part and parcel.
That was a bit of a long one! But really, I feel very good, much more confident, most of the time I don’t worry about the u/s, and I try not to worry dh, as me worrying worries him, so while im not particularly cheilding him from my anxiety, I try to blurb onto here rather than send him into an unnecessary spin!
I went to my slimming class last night to get weighed as I havent been for ages. I was kind of holding off because i thought i would have to explain away why id put on so much weight (i have a pouch ) and I got on the scales and Ive LOST 1lb since the last time i weighed!!!!
So i checked back on my records and since 6th November (LMP) Ive lost 3lbs! - I put on 3lbs over Christmas, but lost 6 between 6th Nov and 24th Jan
How strange, so one more thing to think about, though a lady on the Aug 05 board says its nothing to worry about. and quite normal!
Nothing really to update other than Im now more than 11 and a half weeks pg
I'm feeling a bit more relaxed about the u/s now than i did, LOL, we'll see how im am next tuesday morning
I rang the hospital to see where i needed to go and they didnt have my name down!! Thankfully, after a HUGE run around, it turned out they had inputted my name into the pc with the wrong first letter And this is where I'll be having my baby?!?!?!?
Anyway, sorted now, she told me to drink water before i go, not to feel uncomfortable, after all they can make me drink more water if needs be. Its a different section of the hospital than the maternity wards, the other side of Brighton even.
My bb's are sore today and no I havent been prodding them