I have always heard that the 3rd time is a charm, Well, I got my charm, he/she is going to be my Christmas Present this year. That is all I want for Christmas and I mean that. I want a tiny being, healthy and happy. I was told Friday that my progestrone came back as 1. The Dr. is convenced that it is a flub by the lab. So this morning had to go back and retest. I refuse to let them take my baby away this time. I know that everything is wonderful. I have had no problems till I woke up this morning with a bundle of nerves kicking my in the gut. I can't believe I have let them do this to me. I know my baby is fine. I have faith that God is going to bring me and my baby throught this pg just fine. I just wish everyone would quit tring to make me think other wise.
My bb are sore but not as sore as my nipples, I have had a quizzy tummy all weekend, my back hurts every once in a while. If I think of any others I will let you know. Don't have to pee so much unless I drink alot of water.
All the girls are rooting for me and I just can't say enough about them. They are my rock!!!!
T, I am so sorry that your finances are being a pain. I just don't understand why they don't just take care of James!!!! And sorry that you think AF is on her way. I am waiting on you to join me!!!!
Kelly, just know that Kevin is going to get that job!!! Everything is going to start looking up for you!!!!!
Nicky, so glad that you and roomies are getting along so well. That is really good. Hope the strike is over soon!!!
Tammy, didn't seem your post, hope everything is good with you and the princess!!
Newmama, Kerry, and Shari thank you so much for the well wishes, it really means alot to me.
Well, better get to work, will update you tomorrow!!! Cross you finger and pray really hard for me and the my little Charm!!!
Had to add. This computer is totally wacky. I checked Tammy's je and couldn't find an updated since Friday. Now I look and she has posted all weekend. What is wrong with this computer!!!! Well, anyway. I just hate to heard you down. Your day will come and I will be there to cheer you on and for those other people. I use to tell people, well when you see me spit on out you will know. That use to urg me too!!! Stay strong girl!!!!
Hey sweet baby, I was talking to you all night last night. I know that Momma is a nervous wreck right now, but as soon as they call her with the test results I will be back to ol self. I have decided that unless the test can help you in any way that I am not taking any more test. Of course I will go for the ultasounds and all of that, but these other test are just making me a nervous wreck. And my little charm doesn't need any more stress!!!! I just pray that you and God listened to me last night. All I need for you to do is stay put and mom will take care of the rest. I know you are there so just listen to mom!!!
Didn't see anyone post so I will come back later.
Tammy posted, Tammy hope you have a good day at school!!!
Melissa, you are just so sweet. I am thrilled to be here with you, there is no else I want to be right now!!!
T, Kelly, Nicky hope you girls have a great day.
Newmama, Kerry and Shari hope you guys are doig well with your little guys!!!
Wish me luck on my test!!!
OK I'm back girls, did you miss me!?!?
Get this 29.9
I am so happy I could just scream. I just don't why I let myself get so upset like that. I knew my little one was just fine!!!! But I do want to thank God. He has really come through for me!!!! With his help I am going to be a person that my baby can be proud of!!!
Kelly, you are just a doll. I can always count on you and the girls to check on me. Wow, it seems that now work is just pouring onto Kevin. Has he heard anything about the job at Chatt State? Shopping, wow you sound so much like me. I just hate to cloths shop, but I love to shop for other people!!!
Nicky, oh yea, how did last night go?!?!??
T, wondering where you are girl!
Really odd posting here. But I LOVE IT!!!!
I haven't gotten use to my je name. I have to look for my nick name. So far so good. I feel good. BB still sore, still have little sick feeling, back hurts every once in a while and tired at night. But that is all good. I just love it.
Charm, you listened to momma!!! Good baby!!!!! We are going to be a good pair. I have such good feelings about this time. I want so much for you, your dad and myself. We are going to be so happy!!! You just stay warm and I will take care of everything.
One of my old friends wants to go out for dinner. Really hope we get to meet up. She lives up north now and really don't get to hear much from her. She has a miricle baby too!!! Gracie is 2 years old now.
Well, better get to work.
Oh yea, told your dad's parents about you last night. Wasn't the crying and screaming like at my parents house, but what can you exspect. 7 grandchildren, and 3 great grandchildren. I don't mind. They will love you just as much!!!!
T, I am praying so hard that something comes up and you don't have to get another job. That just sucks so bad. You do so much now, I just hate the thought of you doing more. Can't wait to see your temps this morning!!!
Kelly, anything on the Kevin job front?!?!? That game was great, I have had the best time with all of you guys!!!
Nicky, I'm with you. Not sure about that couple. I am thinking that you are better off with people that aren't fair weather friends. You deserve friends that stand by you no matter what!!!!
Tammy, Doin the baby dance. You go girl!!!!
Melissa, I can't say it enough, you are just so sweet!! Love reading your je.
Kerry, I just love hearing from you . That is just the best pic of you and Connor. I would frame that one. Your boys are just going to be great!!!
Newmama, hope you and the little men are doing well!!
Got to go!!! Love you all!!!
Well we are exactly 5 weeks as of today!!!! My bb are so sore today. Which makes me very very happy. Yesterday, seems that they were on and off, kinda scared me, which that doesn't take much doing!!! I spoke to Jenny yesterday at the the dr office. She said that the 6th was fine. They say the with the machines that they can usually get a hb at 6 1/2 weeks. I will be a crazy person for a few days around the 6th. So I am going to say I am sorry right now!!! My bb are going to be huge. It will not be long before I prob have to move into a D. Wow, a D. I put a dress on this morning and it is very tight around the bb. But that is prefectly alright. I don't mind, as long as everything and everyone is growning like they should!!!!
Charm, you are doing so good. I love talking to you. Although sometimes feel really strange, I just remember who I am speaking too and it makes me happy!!! I know you are still so so small, but you are a fighter, I know it. You keep fighting, we will and can do this!!! That is with God's help and everyone's prayers!!!
T, I am praying so hard for you. I so wish we could be pg together. That would be just so awsome. I keep watching your chart, but I know you don't get up till 9-10. So I will keep watching!!!
Kelly, Don't lose faith, Kevin's job will come through. Tell him to bug the crap out of them. Show them how much he wants that job. I know it has worked for me in the past!!!
Nicky, Sorry the weather has been so crappy!!! Hope everything is good with you!!!
Newmama, good to hear from you this morning!!! Thanks for checking on me. You are just an inspiration to me!!!
Kerry, that was just so sweet you mentioning me in your baby's je. That Connor is just the best. I can see him playing cars on your belly!!! That is just so cute. I amlike you, this will be my last pg and I want to enjoy every minute I can of it!!!!
Melissa, hope you are ok girl, you haven't posting in a couple days.
Tammy, can't wait to start cheering you on again. You get those finals over, get that clomid flowing and go Tammy go!!!!
Well, check writing day, got to go!!! Love to you all!!
OH yeah, can you believe AI last night!?!? What is wrong with America!!!
You said it Kelly, TGIF!!! This has really been a long week!!! I have no motivation!!! Feeling really good this morning. I am thinking that the sickness that I have been having is prob nerves. But you never know. My bb still hurt, I am having to pee more, which tells me that my little Charm is growing!!! I keep wanting to wish it was the 6th, but I am trying so hard to enjoy every moment of this pg.
Charm you are being such a good baby. You Daddy's mom thinks you are a boy. She told your dad that yesterday. That would be just fine, I just want you to be a fighter!!! Healthy and happy!! I know you will be. Love ya baby!!!!
I had to run to the bank this morning and forgot my phone. By the time I made it back, my mom was in a panic. She just knew that I was at the dr. I just need for everyone to think positive. I need nothing but positivity around me and Charm!!!
T, I am hoping that yesterday was a fluke. I hope that your temp jumps back up!!! Hope you guys are doing well, Have been praying for the insurance and all of those people to do right by you and James!!!
Kelly, I know where you are coming from!! I could just feel you pain when I was reading your je. People just have no idea what we go through. I think it always hurts more when the couple wasn't trying, or that just kills me when they say, "We didn't even know we were pg"!!!! I hope you are feeling better this morning. You and Kevin have such a great relationship!!!!
Nicky, I just can't image what you have to go though everyday. It is just so easy for others, including me to say crap. But it is hard to stop your heart from loving. That I know. You hang in there girl. Someday there is going to be that someone that treats you the way you deserve and you are going to see how much better you are!!!!
Tammy, can't wait till you get to start ttcing again. Hope classes go well for you.
Melissa, hope that little one is causing too much discomfort. Maybe he/she will go the Olymipics one day!!!!!
Kerry, hope you all are doing well!!!
Newmama and Shari, hope those boys are doing well!!!
Well, better get going. Love to you all. Hope you have a great weekend!!!
Mondays, oh Mondays. What can I say, I think you know what I am thinking. It is raining and dreary, but yea, at least it is Monday and the rain isn't messing up a weekend!!! We need the rain anyway. The pollen is terrible. Can't tell wheather it is my sinuses or ms.
BB are really sore this morning, I have a yeast infection. I know TMI. But at least it doesn't seem like it is anywhere but the opening, if you know what I mean. Not to bad though.
Today is our 7th Anniversary. I just love Chris more and more. He actually made me a copper turtle himself!!! It is like one of those peices of yard art with the crystals in them. It is just so nice. I just love it and I love him so much. Really sucks that we can't bd, I can't really call it practice anymore can I. I don't want to take a chance of this yeast infections going anywhere. But I just want to say it one more time. I just love him and he is just the best husband in the world. I have no idea how I lucked up and found him. God sent him to me!!!!
Charm, you are such a special baby. Your Grandma and Granddad gave you the cutest outfits this weekend. They got you 2 nighties and a bath robe. It is just so sweet!!! We are all just waiting for you!!! You have brought new life to our family. Saturday was your Granny's Bday. I usually take flowers to her grave, but just couldn't stand the thought of taking you to the grave yard. You have given me new life and I don't want you anywhere near death!!! You stay put my little Charm and I will take care of the rest!!!! Love you so much!!!
T, sorry that your mom is at it again. It just makes me so mad. You have so much on your plate right now and she doesn't need to be any of it!!!! I hope you are feeling better!!!
Kelly, hope you and Kevin had a great weekend. Didn't see your post this morning.
Nicky, I didn't see a post for you either. I hope that thing with Earl didn't mess up your weekend!!!!
Melissa, hope you are feeling well.
Kerry you too girl!!!
Newmama, and Shari hope those little one are bringing so much joy!!!
Tammy, hope your exams get gone soon and I know you will do so well on them!!!! Ready to start cheering!!!
I woke up this morning feeling really bad. I prayed and prayed for God to take this feeling away and he did, man did he. I feel back asleep and I looked down and there was my little Charm. I am pretty sure Charm was a him, but didn't check. he he. He was beautiful. He was healthy and happy and beautiful. He had a head full of black hair, not long, just a head full and he was cuing and stretching. I was in total heaven. I know that was just a window of what I have to look forward too. I just feel so peaceful this morning. I haven't had this peace since I had to retake that test. I just feel so much better. I have to keep myself feeling this way!!! I just can't get my beautiful Charm's face out of my mind. I just pray that this dream comes true!!!! I really think God sent it to me to show just how powerful he really is!!!
On to the girls!!!
T, I am just mad at your family. Like I said they know you are so much better and they just can't stand it. You hold you head high.
Kelly and Nicky, didn't see your post, will talk to ya later.
Tammy, I was so happy to see you post on the 35+ board. I just can't wait till you come back. We miss you. If it weren't for your je, I would have totally Tammy withdraws!! You ace those test girl, I know you can!!
Newmama, Kerry, Melissa and Shari hope you gals are doing good.
Lisa, I still miss you girl!!!!
Not a good night. I started to go to bed, went to the bathroom and it looked like blood on my tp. I wasn't sure, but the more I looked I was sure it was there. Chris wanted to take me to the ER, but I said let's wait till morning. So I cried all night, got up first thing in the morning and called my dr. I went in for a us, of course all we could see was the sack, but it was there. I have no cramping and he said that was good. So here we go with the test again. I have to go back for the rest on Friday. So I will get the results on my Birthday. Don't know what to say about that. Right now I am holding on to that little bit of hope that Charm is listening to momma and staying put. I just have no idea what I am going to do if I lose my Charm!!!!! I need prayers girls!!!!
Charm, baby, you listen really close to Momma, you stay put. I am thinking good thoughts and hope you are holding on to them. Stay put baby stay put!!!! I love you more than life!!!!
T, hope you are feeling better today. It still burns me about your family.
Kelly, wow, you are going to jail!!!! Maybe I can help alittle!!!
Nicky, girl, where are you, now I am getting worried!!!
Melissa, you too, where are you girls!!!
Tammy, I will cheer for you anytime!!!
Love to Newmama, Kerry and Shari
Got to go, I am late today!!!
Ok, we are locked out of our journals right now. Oh well, price we pay for progress!
Still have spotting, brown and only when I go to the bathroom. Everyone thinks that brown is good, but in our trusty fertility bible, it says that is one of the first signs of mc. So I have no idea what to believe. I had been staying positive till I started cramping last night. Not bad, just enough to feel. Chris says that I need to relax. Well that is not going to happen. I called the dr about my blood work, nothing yet. Please God let the numbers be high, please. I have never prayed so much in my life. I just want God to realize just how much this baby means to me!!! I had to lie to my mom this morning. She called to check on me as usual and I had to tell her that I was fine and everything was fine. When all I wanted to do is cry. This will kill her and my dad if I lose this baby too. They are on cloud 9. I am thinking that maybe I should have not told them. I should have waited. But I was just so sure that this pg was going to be different, I just knew it. But of course what did I do, I though nothing about anyone else’s feelings and just had to tell them. That really doesn’t say much for me as a person. I could just kick myself. I will never forgive myself if I have to tell them that I lost my baby. Seems that it will just hit from every side.
I want this little charm more than anything. I need him/her. Right now I feel that I can’t breath with out my charm. He/she is a part of my soul. I just don’t know how to say it.
I need to stay positive, I keep telling myself over and over, this is not good for the baby!! But my heart is so afraid of feeling that pain again, I just can help it. I was doing so well until this happened. I think God is testing me and I am failing so badly. I know that he has control over everything, I just pray that he wants me to have this baby.
Well since we are all locked out, can’t respond to any postings.
Newmama, thank you so much for pming me. You always know how to make me feel better. I want to have your faith so bad. I guess I just have to keep working for it. I just hope God gives me that time!!! I am so glad you started a je. I just love hearing about you and those boys!!!
T, hope everything is going good for you today.
You too Kelly, I just hate that your appt got put off till next week, that still burns me!!!!
Nicky, girl, I was so glad to hear from you yesterday. I know you are going through a rough time but lean on us!!! That is what sisters are for!!!
Melissa, you too girl, I was about to come looking for you!!! Glad it was only that you were busy!!!
Tammy, hope those test aren't stressing you much!!!
Kerry, thanks for cheering me on too girl!!!
Shari, hope that Jacob is doing well!!!
Got the call from the dr. or should I say the dr assistant. Which is better. Because every time the Dr. calls it is bad news. I guess he doesn’t want the girls having to hear all the blubbering. She said that all my levels were up and in normal range and we will just have to wait till the test come back from tomorrow. I asked her if we could get a rush on them, because I didn’t think I could make it through the weekend. She said she would try. Oh my cow, please let the levels stay up there!!!!!
Need some extra prayers if anyone has any laying around.
Go to to go, will paste this on the je.
Love to you all!!!
Well took my blood test this morning. Girls I feel so much better. I feel so good about things that I told them not to send the test downstairs(what ever that means). They are the ones that messed up the last test. I told them Monday would be fine. I know my little Charm is doing just fine. And this time next week I will have a beautiful picture of my Charm. I just know everything is going to be ok, I just know it.
Charm my precious, you are such a good baby, I know you feel me and I know that you understand what I am saying. I am so sorry that I got so upset, I should have had more faith in you and the Lord. I will try not to have that happen again!!!! Momma loves you baby!!!
Kerry, wow a shower, that is just so cool. I can't believe that you didn't get to have a shower for Conner, You really racked up!!!
Tammy, you go girl, I know you are going to ace those test and then you can ace that HPT!!!!
Kelly, wow, sounds like you have a busy week ahead!!! When do you go to jail?!?!? I can't wait to see you on Jepardy!!!
T, I am so sorry that your grandmother is not doing well. I know just how special Grandmothers are. I still miss Granny so much it hurts. I know it hard, but treasure the time you have with her. Make a list of questions you can ask her. I wish I would have done that with my Granny. I know my Granny just loved telling me about her past!!! She is really lucky to have you as a Granddaughter!!!!
Shari, thank you so much for pming me, it means so much, you are such an inspiration, you and that beautiful Jacob!!!!
Newmama, I am so glad you started a journal. Can't wait to start reading again!!!
Melissa, hope you are working too much!!!
Lisa, I hope you are doing well!!! We still miss you!!!!
Nicky, oh my cow, I didn't forget you I was making notes and put it by another name. Please forgive me, I would never in a million years forget you. My brain just isn't working correctly. I am so glad you are feeling better. It is really good to hear you say that. I know what you are saying when you want to go home and go to bed. I'm with ya sister!!!
Got to go girls!!! Love you all and have just the best weekend!!!