Well it is Monday morning...and I think I have finally gotten over the shock of the BFP we got on Friday. Travis and I were suspicous of me being pregnant when I got to the bed last week and accused him of eating banana peppers before coming to bed! How crazy is that? We were not trying to concieve, but we always take any pregnancy as a wonderful blesssing.
Just some history to get started here...I have 2 children from a previous marriage-Kaori 14 and Kamalu 13. Then I have my babies from Travis, Kaizen 4 and Kimie 9 months. I also should include my little angel in Heaven (also from my previous marriage) his name was Kapono and he was born on Oct 17, 1999 with hypoplastic left heart syndrome. He passed away 11 days later on Oct 28, 1999. So October is a very very emotional month for me. You'd think it gets easier as the years go by, but it does not. It is amazing how the feelings get stirred up all over again, the crying the sadness the guilt the why me questions...But I thank god for my husband Travis who has been such a pilar for me when I needed it in my life...
OK-so, according to all the baby charts it looks like this new little bean was conceived on September 12, 2006. That would give me an EDD of June 6, 2007. We live in South Carolina, but I am hoping that we can transfer back to Hawaii before the baby is due. It would be so much easier to give birth back home where family and friends can tend to the babies for me...Here in South Carolina I have noone, that is the frustrations of being a military family...Kimie was born here in South Carolina-and I did not have a very pleasant experience!
I am just tired...I usually try to nap with Kimie during her afternoon nap, which gets interupted at 1:50 pm because I have to pick Kaizen up from Pre-K. I am drinking lots of water, and cutting back on junkfood as much as I can.
I am waiting a bit before I call to make an appointment. I usually find that going to the doctor this early just causes me to worry more. They give you an ultrasound and at this stage-you can't see anything...and they tell you to come back and yadda yadda yadda-I just figured I would call next month sometime...I have not told family yet either! I am waiting on the 12 week mark. This is just something we have done as long as I remember. I have told my preg.org family in the January 06 board, just to have someone to talk about it all too. I have also started posting on the June 07 board.
So far, symptoms I have been experiencing would be the constant peeing and tenderness in the boobies...plus the tiredness. I don't usually get morning sickness. I am crossing my fingers and praying that I don't get sick with this pregnancy.
Travis is on cloud 9-He is so thrilled that I am "hapai" (pregnant in Hawaiian) He wants to tell the whole world! ha ha-ofcourse I said he could not! But I am glad he is happy. He had been asking me for another baby for a few months and I told him no. I told him he should atleast make 1st class in the Navy first. Oh' well-he did test for the E6 exam in Sept and I pray he has made it! I am so lucky to have such a great husband. I know somedays I will be here and I will not have anything nice to say about him...but It will probably be the hormones out of wack talking! He really is an awesome man that I am lucky to have!
Well here we go again...Pee-ing atleast 3 times a night! ha ha...and the Insomnia is back. I lay awake thinking about all sorts of things early in the wee morning! I tried to watch TV but got tired of the informercials! sigh...I lay in bed from 2 am until a little after 5 am. I tried to get Travis to get up with me, no such luck! lol...
I finally fell asleep and Trav's alarm for work went off...then Kimie was up at 7:30 am bright eyed and bushy-tailed!!!
And now I am anxiousy awaiting Kimie's mid-morning nap!
It's still early in the game, I am trying to take it easy...
Today,has been so stressful for me b/c of the school i go to and the stupid rules that u have to follow in order to get through the day :*(. All the pregnancy schools in St.Louis have been shut down
OK...I don't know why someone else would be adding notes to my journal ?!!
This weekend was very tiresome...tomorrow takes us up to 6 weeks. I am still tired for the most part and very emotional. Trav is such a god-send, he is patient with me and keeps saying "The 9 months of your emotional rollercoaster will be worth it honey" How can you top that?!
Kimie is taking to Trav a lot more, she usually will be at my ankles wherever I go! Now as soon as Travis walks in the room-it's C-YA mom!!! Which is wonderful!
Honestly-I am a little concerned about the pregnancy. Every pregnancy since Kapono has me really jittery and jumpy. I find myself praying to God and talking to God just speaking a healty happy 9 months. I still have not called the clinic to schedule my appointment. I see no reason too, not yet. I am going to wait a couple more weeks. The only reason is because if I go in before 8 weeks-they will do a sonogram anyway and tell me it's too early to see anything and then I will just wear myself out by worrying...so If I wait til' 8 weeks to go in, then the heartbeat is supposed to be detected by then and I can have definite answers. The clinic here sucks. The people at the NWS are not very patient friendly and I have trouble with medical staff who do not show any kindness or give you a sense of security...I will go in a couple weeks-I swear! Then they will send me to MUSC because I am a high risk pregnancy...
Well, I gave it a few days before I posted again. On Tuesday we hit the 6 week mark...I am probably going to try and schedule an appointment with the Naval clinic next week-which means my appointment will be the week after! Around the 8 week mark will be wonderful.
I had some light spotting when I wiped after pee-ing this morning. It was not much, and it has stopped, but I was worried...I am trying to take it easy and not be stressed out about it.
I am pee-ing so much at night, and not sleeping very well. I am feeling achy and tightening...Other than that I am doing okay. Trying to stay positive that things are perfectly fine! Nothing new to write...
Oh' Travis has hit his 1 year window-we can start talking to the detailer to get back to Hawaii...in 3 months we can be assigned orders. I pray that he gets a job that does not require him to go away...***crossing fingers & toes***
I have finally made it to the NWS clinic today to confirm the pregnancy! Blood test has made it official...POSITIVE! lol.
Now I just wait for the Naval Hospital to give me a call to start pre-natal care, they are most likely going to send me to MUSC.
I have been keeping busy and trying to keep Kapono's death out of my mind. On Saturday it will be 7 years that he has passed away. I am okay to think about it now, with all these hormones raging inside, it's kind of hard to keep them in check!
My BB's hurt, I am pee-ing up to 4 times a night...and in the morning-there are rare occassions that I feel like I need to throw up, but it usually passes. I am convinced that whenever I have to fry anything-I get queezy. Luckily I have not gotten sick to where I have to run to the bathroom...I have been lucky!
Just wanted to update this a bit...We are at the 8 week mark. Travis had to tell him Mom, being she is coming for a visit this weekend. I still have not told my parents back in Hawaii. I will wait until 1st sonograms are done...
Still no word from the OB/GYN clinic, waiting for my call about my appointment...I am so exhausted today...We spent all day Saturday and Sunday at the Baseball park. MIL was here for the day and now I have to fix the spoiling she did to the kids! sigh.....
I am luckily not experiencing any morning sickness, I feel queasy at times but its nothing that does not pass once I get out of bed and have something to drink. I don't remember getting morning sickness with any of the babies...My mom says I am very lucky because herself and my grandmother had it bad during their pregnancies. Speaking of my grandmother, I miss her so much-I just started crying yesterday out of the blue thinking about her. She used to take care of Kaori, Kamalu and Kaizen. When Kaizen was 1 month old we found out she had cancer...She passed away in May 2004...She was my best friend and she always helped me with the kids, she always told me what a good mother I was and I loved hearing stories of how "hard" she had it being young...I just enjoy hearing how she used to get things done that I sometimes take for granted...She would be so excited to hear I am expecting again, and I wish Kimie had the chance to meet her great grandmother.
Nothing else going on, no significant changes yet...Crossing my fingers things are okay, but I guess I will be quite worried until I get into a routine for my visits with the clinic.
Well we had our first U/S appt today at the Naval hospital. We did great, we heard our little beans heartbeat. The heartrate was at 172. We measured 9 w 6 d. According to my LMP we are at 9 w and 1d so the doctors said it is on track. I go back on the 9th of November to have my PAP done and the other cultures needed. The doctors are trying to figure out if they want to keep me within the Navy's care or refer me out to the doctors at MUSC, like with Kimie. I also had 8 vials of blood drawn today, thank goodness for my good veins!
Travis was overjoyed. I thought he was going to cry, I looked over and he and Kimie were sitting on the chair looking at the screen, and I swear he was getting teary eyed! He is such a proud Daddy. He took one of our pictures to work to show off, like he did with Kimie and Kaizen!!!
Just wanted to post about our visit today...Be back with more later.
I am at 10 weeks today...I had my second OB appt, we just did cultures and PAP. I don't go back for 5 weeks. I am feeling okay, Travis is being a sweetheart and letting me take naps after lunch when he is home. He has been very supportive of my moods, my cravings and my needs. I feel very lucky.
No changes really, well my jeans are getting tight, I had to bring out the maternity clothes I had packed away from Kimie. I am using the rubberband around the button trick with my jeans.
Just taking it easy, they had to re-take my blood pressure today at my appointment as it was a little higher than the doctor wanted to see...
Alrighty, the news is out! I called back home to Hawaii and told Kaori and Mom and Dad the news...They were all PLEASANTLY surprised. Ofcourse they are all feeling the urgent need for us to get back home to Hawaii. I told them to keep praying that orders open up for Travis so we can be closer to family. Mom and Dad want all the grandchildren close, I am relieved to have already told them...
Travis' mother already knows, she was excited as well...but she keeps saying how we will be so far away from her when we go west. I would understand how she feels, but she has only been here twice since Kimie was born, which is very disappointing to Travis, he brought the kids here to the East coast to be closer to his family...
I am feeling okay, those lunchtime naps help out a lot! I am not craving for anything in particular these past few days. I am sleeping better, except for waking up 3 times a night to pee...As I have passed the 10 week mark, I am feeling a little more secure about the pregnancy...