I got my first BFP a few days ago, June 17, at 11 dpo, and even though the lines have gotten darker, and I am still in disbelief. It hasn't really sunk in yet. Over the past year or so, I have suffered numerous "false alarms," a.k.a., chemical pregnancies, where i would get a very faint line, then have the line get lighter, then turn into a bfn, then have AF show. I went through a lot of heartache getting my hopes up, only to be disappointed. But then one day I decided just to put it all in God's hands and totally trust him, and believe Him that it would happen, and here I am.
Well as you can see I never came back to finish that first post, LOL. I was either too tired, too busy, or too forgetful.
It has been an eventful pregnancy so far, compared to my DD. With her everything went along pretty smoothly with hardly a bump in the road. With this one, however, well.... let me start with this past Thursday...
Thurs, June 25, in the evening ~ I began to have some strong cramps, in the lower middle part of my abdomen. This concerned me greatly as I had read that is where you have cramps when you are about to miscarry. The cramps began to lessen some in intensity, but were definitely constant. I was very nervous. We went to dh's parents house for our weekly visit, and not long before we were to leave, I went to the bathroom and (Warning: possibly TMI to follow) when I wiped, I saw pinkish/red. I gasped, whispering, "Noooo," and felt a flood of panic wash over me. Maybe it's just a little, I thought, and wiped again. More pinkish/red. Again, and more still. And a fourth time. "Please God, no...." I whispered, putting my head down.
When I went back into the living room, I gave dh that "look" and he knew something was wrong. He whispered if everything was okay and I said, "No, not really. I'll tell you when we get home." We decided to take a short drive after leaving, and he tried to reassure me that everything would be okay.
Later that night, when I wiped it was pinkish/red, but this time there was a tiny bit of dark red. I was really gettng nervous now, but at the same time, decided to put it in God's hands and trust Him with the outcome.
Friday, June 26 ~ the spotting continued, but it was mostly brownish now. The cramping was gone. By the end of the day, it had tapered off more, and had changed to light brown in color. I was still a little nervous. by Fri night, the spotting seemed to be stopping, and I breathed a sigh of relief.
Saturday, June 27 ~ no more spotting. But that morning, I began to have a very intense pressure-type pain. At first I thought it was gas, but it didn't go away after a couple of hours, and then became localized on my left side. DH wasn't home, so I decided to drive myself to the E.R. and called dh to tell him to meet me there. After a very long wait, they did an u/s and found a large cyst (2.8 cm). They also saw a sac, but nothing else, which is what is expected at 5 weeks. They also did a beta, and the number was 956. The E.R. doctor told me he thought that was low, and that they expected to see the number in the 1,000's at 5 weeks. Not very reassuring, but I did some research online and found it to be within normal range. After returning home, I took some Tylenol, which helped the pain.
Sunday, June 28 ~ the pain was gone. However, periodically though the day I had a "tight" and "pressure" type feeling in my abdomen. Still no more spotting.
Monday, June 29 (today) ~ I called my OB and the doctor wants me to go in tomorrow morning at 8:30 for a 2nd beta. The tight/pressure feeling has gotten a bit worse. It is constant now. I talked to some other women and they said they also had that tight feeling early on in their pregnancy and that they thought it was normal, so I was reassured. Tonight, however, it has gotten even worse and now it feels like I'm having mild AF-like cramps that are pretty constant. It looks like this pregnancy is going to require a lot of faith on my part.
I have also had a LOT of cramping in my cervix with this pregnancy so far. It concerns me every time I have it, and I keep having to remind myself to trust in God. He will get me through this.