Wow...I can't believe that I am even starting this journal. Today is Wedneday, November 19, 2003. Yesterday morning, I got my first BFP!!!!
This is only my second month charting but I had pretty high temperatures after my ovulation date. I had a good feeling about this month...also I've had a lot of post-O CM and I have been absolutely RAVENOUS!!
Even though I had an intuition that I was pregnant, I doubted myself because I wanted it so badly, and I thought that my desire was colouring my intuition. Anyways...it appears that that is not the case!
So, this is the story. Usually I temp at 5:30 am but yesterday I woke up around 4:00am. I got up to pee and decided to take a test. Well, the test showed a faint positive pretty quickly!! I couldn't believe it! At first, I thought I should wait until the line was darker before telling anyone (even Eric) but then I had to pee again 45 minutes later and I took another test. That one also showed a second line.
I decided to wake up Eric (with a Simpsons line, of course). I whispered to him "hey Eric, congratulations on the new job". He said "huh?" I repeated myself. He was very confused. So I said, "hey eric, way to get mindy pregnant". Then he figured it out! He refused to accept it though, because he thinks we need confirmation from the doctor before getting too excited.
So, this morning, I woke up at 4:00 am again. I had told eric that I was going to do another test and we were planning to get up at the same time so he was going to wake up with me so we could see the test together. But I awoke at 4 and had to pee. I held it until 4:50 and then I woke him up and told him that I had to go to the bathroom. He said to go ahead. I took the test. It was positive. I took another one...it was also positive!!!
At this point I am pretty sure. But, I went to the doctor today and they took blood. I get the results tomorrow. Until I get those results, I won't be fully able to celebrate this amazing event.
One more note...I had always been planning to have a midwife at my birth. I also really want to give birth at Mount Sinai hospital. It turns out that I can't have both, because the medwives that have priviliges at Mount Sinai have a downtown cachment area. I live out of their area. So my options are midwife at North York General or Doctor at Mount Sinai.
I guess I will talk about that again later....