Well I found out 8 days ago that I am pregnant! Tomorrow I will be 6 weeks! I am so incredibly excited and in complete disbelief at the same time. Everyday I pay attention when I go to the bathroom to make sure I'm not spotting, I pay attention to the "cramps" I get and wonder if they're not too severe. I am so paranoid that this is going to fizzle out on me! My husband still can't believe that I'm pregnant even though he's probably more excited than I am! He won't really be able to know the I am pregnant for sure until we go to the first doctor's visit and we can do a sonogram.
We weren't trying to get pregnant. We had specific plans set in place and we were going to hold off on trying for baby #1 for about another year. Well obviously nature didn't want to wait! lol I didn't even realise I was ovulating the night we had sex and he came in me. Almost every time we have sex he pulls out (yeah, not the most reliable method of birth control but it worked for us for 2 years). I thought I had another week until I started to ovulate so I wasn't really concerned about him coming in me. Then the week of 3/16 I should have been on my cycle. I realised on 3/17 that I was about a day or two late. Plus I had some major heartburn going on. I just figured it was what I was eating for breakfast and didn't think much of it. I told myself I'd give it til the end of the week before I would let myself jump to conclusions. I had been sick and on anti-biotics half of February so I just thought that was throwing me off.
Thursday, 3/20 my hubby and I were at the gym and I realised that I didn't have the same amount of energy as I did before I got the flu and a sinus infection and was really concerned why I wasn't lasting long. Then my husband told me that he had a really vivid dream of a pregnancy test a few nights ago and he really wanted me to take one. I just kind of laughed it off, but inside I was starting to suspect something myself!
I woke up at 9am on Friday and really had to pee. So I got up, got the pregnancy test, peed on the strip, put it down on the counter, finished peeing, and then looked at the test . . . I couldn't believe what I was seeing! All I could think was "Oh my god!" No way! We weren't planning on this yet! What would hubby think? A few hours later I went to the doctor's care down the road and peed in a cup there. They confirmed it; at that point I was 4 weeks, 5 days pregnant! I got a prescription for some prenatal vitamins, got that filled then went home to tell Dave. He was soooo happy! I've never seen him happier the whole time we've been together! I'm not that far along but we have told EVERYONE!
Now I'm just absolutely paranoid that I'm going to miscarry. I've been working out, eating as well as I can, taking the vitamins, but I'm still really nervous. Everyday I remind myself, "well I still haven't gotten any spotting or my period, so I'm still pregnant!" I think I'm going to have to remind myself of that everyday until I get the all clear from the doctor.
Well my husband dropped a bomb on me today. On Friday he lost his job! Exactly 1 week after finding out that we're expecting a baby, he loses his job! What are the odds?! Apparently with the way the economy is falling, my husband's boss had to cut costs and decided to let Dave go. It's a local business, so if the economy isn't hot there isn't much they can do but let people go. Now we have to decide if we want to move to Maryland sooner than 2ndly planned. (We were planning on moving to MD when our lease was up, but then once we found out that I'm pregnant we decided to bump it up to August so I'd only be 6 months during the move) I guess we'll give it a couple days to think about it before we really make up our minds. Cuz would it really be worth it for him to get a job somewhere here for 5 months just to move away? We're going to have to sell his car, my laptop, and possibly some of his records cuz we're already in a bit of a hole. Thank goodness for taxes (never thought I'd say that!) we'll probably get a decent return to help us get caught up. Hopefully. Life.
Some good news today . . . I finally got back in touch with one of my good friends. I had been really anxious to reconnect with her since I found out I was pregnant. I got her # from her mom and gave her a call today. She's doing really well and I'll actually get to see her when I'm in Maryland for another one of my good friends' wedding! yay! I'm excited about that!
I have been so stressed out today ! D and I went out yesterday evening and had dinner at Ruby Tuesday. When we got home I went upstairs to go to the bathroom and nearly freaked out! I had started spotting and there were brown flakes in the toilet. I kept telling myself that it didn't necessarily mean I was going to have a miscarriage, but it still worried me. Well the next time I went to the bathroom it seemed to have gone away so I was a little more relaxed. Also, I had talked to my mom and she had spotted around the same time and it lasted for like a week! I figured maybe I'm just following in her shoes.
This morning I got up and there was not spotting, but I felt like crap! I seriously contemplated calling out of work. I decided not to, and the first time I used the bathroom at work there was spotting again ! I asked a few of my coworkers if they had any spotting with their pregnancies and a few of them had and other hadn't. They all suggested that I see a doctor. So I called the number of my coworker's ob office and left a message telling them that I needed a blood test asap. A nurse called me back a little while later and talked with me about what I was experiencing. She talked to one of the doctors and called me back telling me they wanted me to have a blood test done that day.
I left work early and got to the diagnostic center around 4pm. Gave a vial of blood and will know something tomorrow morning. Ugh! I don't want to wait!!!! I want to know now that everything is alright!!! They did say that if my levels were high enough they'd be able to do a sonogram and check everything out. I'm hoping that's the news I get tomorrow when I call! I'm just so nervous!!! This is my first pregnancy and I just want eveything to go smoothly. Even though I'm only 6 weeks along and have only known for 11 days I just don't know what I'd do if I miscarried! My husband says I'm fine and I've been getting a lot of reassurance from others, but I'm still on edge. I won't relax until I get good news tomorrow.
On a lighter note, we finally got our taxes finished and we're getting a fair sized return . About the same as last year, so I'm happy. Also, I sold my Apple laptop last night - that put a little cash in our pockets. Now we can get my car checked out and see how much it will cost to fix the oil leak it has! Oy!
With D not working, the house has been really clean when I get home everyday! He seems to be doing alright too, considering.
I called the OB office yesterday morning. My hCG leve was at 25,034! Waaay above the 2,000 that they require to do a sonogram. That was great news! Then they scheduled me for a sonogram at 1:45pm. Had to leave work again but that was ok. It was a gorgeous day outside!
D wasn't able to meet me for the sonogram, but he was there to meet with the doctor. The sonogram was interesting! I had never had an internal one before! It was really cool though being able to "see" everything. When I got to see the baby's heartbeat that nearly made me tear up! The heart rate was 103 - the nurse didn't say anything about it being bad, so I'm assuming that's a good rate.
The spotting has seemed to let up today, so I'm very happy abou tthat! Now I just can't wait until my next sonogram/OB appt on the 15th! Can't wait to see how much baby has grown!
Well, the morning sickness has really started to set in! I really can't complain too much cuz I'm not throwing up at all, but nothing sits well in my stomach! Food that I liked last week, I can't stand now! It's taking me longer and longer to get ready in the mornings. The past two days I've gotten to work about 20 minutes late! Ugh! I hate being late! Crackers in the morning make me feel disgusting - donuts make me feel wonderful! lol
My husband has been great! He buys me whatever food I want even though we really shouldn't be eating out as much I've been. Yesterday after work I stopped at Chick-fil-a (my love) and got a milkshake that I had been craving. Since I enjoyed the milkshake, my hubby decided to go and buy me oreo icecream to surprise me with!
The hormones and moodswings are starting to kick in. I don't enjoy my job very much anymore, but it's just a job to me anyway. All day yesterday I wanted to cry over nothing! I was singing along with the radio yesterday morning and got all choked up and it happened again when I was driving home! I hate crying!
Anyway, I don't have a scale but I'm certain I've gained like 5 pounds from all the damn donuts and fast food I've been eating! Although I have started craving healthier food a little bit, so that makes me feel a little better. Haven't had any real cravings, but a lot of stuff has started to gross me out. If I keep going at this rate there won't be anything for me to eat at all!
Holy crap! I'm 10 weeks! I can't believe how quickly it seems to be going!
I've had 2 sonograms this month and both have turned out really well. It was amazing to see how much the baby grew between week 6 and week 8! I think he/she tripled in size! I go for another one on May 15 and I'm totally excited to see the changes!
It's really starting to hit me lately that I'm going to be having a baby before the end of the year! It's so surreal! Kinda scary too! It's also really frustrating because so many things are up in the air right now. I don't know when we'll be moving, where we'll be living, where we'll be working, etc. I have applied to one job this weekend, but who knows if I'll hear anything. I hope so, it's a job I've done before and I know I can do it well. I hate not knowing . . .
Some of my co-workers are going to bring in their old maternity clothes to see if anything fits me and what-not! That'll be nice to get some free clothes! I'm so ready to start looking for maternity clothes too! I only have one pair of jeans that fit me at the moment and they're fairly tight as it is.
I've had some really weird dreams lately. I had a dream one night that I had just had the baby and it was a girl! The next night I dreamt that I went for another sonogram and saw that it was a boy! I guess that gives us a 50/50 chance! lol! Hopefully, if the baby is in the right position at my next sonogram in 2 weeks we'll be able to find out!!!!
Well, I really haven't kept up with this very well! I am now 14 weeks! Woohoo! I am so glad to finally be starting the 2nd trimester! Mornings are getting easier but I'm still very tired. Food is still bothering me but not all as badly as before. Hormones kick in here and there and I tend to take it out on my hubby - poor guy! He deals with it all in stride tho.
My appointment on the 15th didn't result in a sonogram - boo. They said they weren't going to do one unless they felt it was medically necessary. We got to hear the heartbeat! And since all sounded well there, they had no need to do a sonogram. I wish they could have though, I wanted to see the changes! I'm finally starting to show a little too.
I had some time off work last week to go to my best friends wedding in Maryland. When I came back to work yesterday, one of my coworkers looked at my belly and commented that I was showing some. It's interesting that other people can notice it! I'm just feeling fat!
I still haven't started a registry or shopping for the baby yet. I want to wait until we know for sure whether it's a boy or girl. Plus we'll be getting tons of stuff just from my brothers!
This pregnancy has been pretty uneventful and I'm glad for that, but it's also making it a little harder to realise that I am in fact pregnant! I'm sure it will be really obvious once I start feeling movement which I am really looking forward to!
Well, I just spoke with a nurse from the doctor's office . . . my pap smear came back abnormal
Next week when I go again they're going to do a colposcopy(?) to double check. Oy! She did explain that it could just be a fluke and nothing is wrong, but it's still a little stressful to hear that! They're not going to do a sonogram next week either; bummer! I'm so anxious to see my baby again and see how he/she has grown! I have to wait for that for another 4 weeks
Anyway, I've finally put in my notice here at work for my last day to be June 30. We have a place lined up for us in Maryland which should be ready by July 1. I am soo excited to be moving back to my family!!! My best friend and her husband are freaking out too. We're going to be in Maryland in 1 month! I can' wait!!!!
Well, I went to the doctor's today for the Colposcopy. I was more stressed than I realized! When the nurse showed us to the room and started talking about what they would do, which had been explained to me last week over the phone, I just wanted to cry. Then the doctor came in and was incredibly friendly and nice and she started explaining what she would be doing and looking for and that made me want to cry even more! I really wasn't too worried about anything major, but man those hormones make even the slightest thing seem like the end of the world! Thankfully things looked normal enough that the doctor didn't feel the need to do a biopsy! I would have completely lost it if she had thought there was reason to do one! Dave was great though, he just stood there and petted my head which probably helped. I get to go back on Monday for the regular OB check up, cuz that got rescheduled due to one of the NP's having to go home early. Bah! Oh well, just more time I get to take out of work. Too bad I have to make it up! Anyway, things are still pretty uneventful in this pregnancy. That's good I know but I'm really anxious to be able to see my baby again and find out whether it's a boy or girl. I can't wait!!!!!
I went for my monthly check up today. I spoke with the nurse about my big 20 week scan and thankfully they're willing to do it a little early for me!!!! We're moving out of state on July 1 and I don't know when I'll get in with my new doctor to do the big scan. So my current OB is going to do it on June 30!!! I am soooo freaking excited! It totally made my day that they agreed to it!
Two more weeks and I'll be finding out if it's a girl or boy!!!!