nerves...

oops!

oops again!!

In the mornings, usually every morning if I am on my feet too much I begin to feel light-headed, and I feel the need to sit or lie down. I have been taking the anemic pills, figuring my blood is lower in the morning, but it doesn't help. Also lately I have been waking up extremely dry and thirsty. I try to stay well hydrated throughout the day, but who knows.

Madison today or rather first thing this morning seemed to me to shift from my left side to my right. I usually feel her big movements on the left but this morning and now I feel those movements on my right. I sure hope she is cozy in there.

31 weeks tomorrow... yeah another week closer to meeting my baby!

I am eating Girl Scout Cookie Mint choch. chip ice cream right now! It is sooo hitting the spot right now. Nicholas is napping..we got back from the little Gym a little bit ago. It is so fun to see him having a blast. He really enjoys himself. I am so glad I decided to join...it was a liitle expensive, which my husband had a wee bit of a problem with at first, but I don't care. Nicholas is soo worth it.

There is nothing as cute as when Nicholas talks to Madison. He tells me I want to talk to Madison, and the lifts my shirt and in his sweetest little voice he says hi Madison and rubs my belly. It is absolutely edible. He just started dong this after watching Michael Ryan do it for all the time. It make me soo emotional....it that's damn cute!

I went in for my appt. on Friday. The last of my monthly. She is head down and the fundal height was fine. I gained 5 lbs. All went well except the fact that I disliked my Doctor. She was on th rotation and I usually try to avoid her, but I Figure I might end up with her in the delivery room so I should give her another chance to redeem herself. Well, we did not click, yet again. She is very young, probably the youngest in the practice, and she is new. I do have a hard time adjusting to new people only because I love all the other doctors, and it is a little scary meeting a new one because you never know she could be full herself as well as rude.
So, I was having a pretty anxious morning. My appt. was at 9:15. I got up earlier than I usually do in order to feed the kids get them dressed and drive Mike to work all before 7:30. So I was rushing around and got extremely dizzy while driving the car. I had to literally pull over and take some deep breaths while closing my eyes. Mind you, Mike is yelling at me telling me he is going to be late for work to move out of the way so he cold drive. I could not move for at least a minute or two. After mumbling a few impolite words his way I moved. He stopped and got me a water, because at that point I think he could tell I wasn't joking. He then pulled to the side of the road let himself out and I just sat there with the kids in the back asking me questions and tried to breathe slowly and calmly before taking hold of the wheel again. So I then dropped Michael Ryan off and headed to my appt. I am feeling a lot better at this point, just still a little shaken up about what happen. I get Nicholas in the stroller and head to the waiting area. They call my name and I go, and I sit and wait for the Dr. to come in. In she comes, you should of seen my face. She's like we've met before...I was like yea. Anyway I was asking a lot of questions because I felt emotional and still a little uneasy. She tells me in a very condescending tone of voice. I don't undestand why your so emotional, there is no need for it, you are fine. Well, with that I grabbed my stuff and pretty much ended the visit, and I hope I sent a loud message. I will avoid her like the plague from now on! Don't like her once, don't her twice...no more chances. I don't like her!!!

So anyways....I needed to vent that out. I have another appt. in 2 weeks, with someone I do like, and hopefully all goes well.

Lower back pain, major, major pelvic pain, leg cramps at night, and the inability to move after sitting for any given amt. of time are all the things I am suffering from at this point in my pregnancy.

Aside from that no heart burn and no constipation, so yahoo for that!

I am going to rest a bit before Nicholas wakes up.


Oh, and by the way it is gorgeous outside...I love it!!!

I slept lakie a baby last night, in fact I woke up tp Nicholas calling for me. I usually am awake before him. I did have a long day yesterday. I wentto my sister's house and we took the babies out for breakfast and then walked around Babies R Us. I showed my sister all the things on my registry. Looking over it again there are things that I want to change, but we will see. Later that day My husband and I along with Nicholas went to Burlington Coat Factory before we had to pick Michael Ryan up from school. Too my surprise they had cuter things in there then Babies R Us. I may start a registry there online sometime today.

So I am feeling good, no real complaints this pregnancy despite all the concerns is going relatively good. The kids are downstairs watching Zathura, for like the hundreth time, what is weird is that I think Nicholas is into it more than Michael Ryan. Hey, whatever keeps them quiet and calm.

I need to go and blow my nose and then lay down for a bit before the kids come back up!

I had an awful week-end! I fought with my dh the whole time from Friday night to Sunday afternoon. It was a nightmare. I was supposed to go to a get- to- gether 10 mins. from my house at 7:00. My dh was not only late to come home, but he shows up with no car!!! I mean come on- how do you forget the car? This is what he told me....imagine!! He told me becuase I was rushing him he just forgot to get the car and drove home with his father instead. So needless to say I was pissed. I mean I never go anywhere, and I really felt like he did it on purpose. So I was a maniac toward him, I mean I said awful things! So anyway after him taking my verbal abuse for awhile he gave me the silent treatment and his father treated me like **** on Mike's behalf....but that's another story for another time. Mike called me Sunday morning...he was at the Mayor's breakfast, and told me he loved me and did not want to fight. So he came for me and we went shopping. I knew I had him when he called me to reconcile. I know, I am bad, always thinking about shopping. But what ever works, and I got everyting I needed w/o hestitation!!
Don't you just love making -up??

So now that I am feeling better I can talk about the fact that I am almost 33 weeks and my drs. appt. is 2 days away. I feel great! The baby seems sooo big inside me, she feels like she is everywhere. I am so excited I am getting close!!!

My Dh's uncle passed over a couple of days ago, so today we attended the brunch together with the kids. Last night was the wake. My dh was a pall bearer. I could not wait to get out of the house today. I do usually get like this whenever the weather starts to break. I never want to be home. I want to be out enjoying the sunshine, hearing the birds chirp, and the soft wind blowing toward me. It makes feel really good and plus you have to remember I have double the itch now because I am in the house sooooo much with the kids.

Yesterday I went and looked at baptismal outfits for Madison. My dh was getting a haircut and so I strolled Nicholas to this boutique where I bought Nicholas' baptismal outfit from. I found one I loved, of course I was just killing some time so I did not purchase anything. At least I know what I want when it is time. The girl outfits are so much more expensive than the boy outfits. Almost $300.oo for the dress and bonnet.

I am so excited that I am having a girl. I cannot wait to give birth.
It will be a lot of work with the three, but I am in love with my Madison already and cannot wait for her to meet her brothers.

I am making pork chops tonight. It is about 5:30 right now and still seems so early, so I will begin cooking around 6:00.

33 weeks tomorrow!!!

My dh ran over is foot with the lawn mower on the eve of Easter. We were all in the car geting ready to do some errands, when his father asked him to trim the areas that the tractor could not get. He was rushing and obviously not paying attenton. I heard the horrific soung of something being caught in a mower and then.....the screaming. It was completely crazy.

I haven't updated much because my dh has been out of work for spring vacation, and if it weren't for that he'd be out on injury. So, needless to say I have been taking are of him around the clock, as well as, my kids.
Madison's room was started over this past week. Mike had the art teacher come in for $25 an hour. I thought it was a little much, but oh well, it is almost done now. I painted the room a creamy purple, which looks like a soft pink, and then we put a darker, shiny stripe all the way around 6" apart. It looks really pretty. I was quite impressed. So, now of course I want to change my bedding and luckily I didn't hang the curtains yet because I have changed my mind on the original ones I wanted. So, we are supposed to go to Pottery Barn for Kids today. I love that store, and we will be getting a lot of things for our kids rooms from there. Nicholas' bed is supposed to be coming in today. Well a loaner twin bed, because the bunk beds will not be in until June, so dh's cousin said we can borrow a twin bed aquipped with matteress until then. I thought that was nice of him. So, things have been gettig done aroud here despite Mike's injury. It has actually been nice having him home. I don't get to see him much during the week when he works. By the time he comes home I'm too physically exhausted to appeciate him.
I went and got my haircut yeasterday. I chopped it off. I also got my eyebrows done, bought a new lipstick (impulse buy), I hate it! and then went to lunch all by myself. It was really nice. I put Nicholas down for a nap before I left and Michael Ryan was in school, so it really wasn't a big deal for Mike to stay home on crutches with Nicholas.
My shower is tomorrow! I will drop Mike and the kids off at my brothers and Melissa will pick me up from there. My brother will pick up the slack from Mike because he knows I need help and that is just the type of person he is. Both my brothers are so helpful and caring. I seriously could not have asked for better ones.
Well, I am going to watch some cartoons with Nicholas for a little while. Michael Ryan and dh are still sleeping and the painter is coming at 8:00 a.m. so I need to get going.
Oh by the way, I still feel great! Madison is always moving...it seems. It is funny as soon as I eat, no sooner I put the fork in my mouth and swallow she is moving away. She must be a hungry girl, or she just loves food like her momma.

I haven't posted in a while...it has been hard having my dh home with a busted up right foot. But, I do have lots to report.
Nicholas is sleeping in a twin bed, even as we speak. I put him it for the first time last friday night. I bundled up all kinds of blankets and pillows on the flor next to him, in case he fell off. I was totally expecting him too, because Michael Ryan fell off all the time. But not Nicholas, he is a trooper. He is a more restful sleeper than his brother, and now he is napping there. He doesn't climb out, he doesn't fuss, in fact I think he likes it better. I am a very happy mommy.

Madison's room is coming along great! It will be finished up by this Saturday. It looks beautiful already. Pink walls with shiny slivery strips. Then we had all the woodwork painted white. I am so excited!!!

I had my shower on Sunday. It was really nice, everyone showed. It was very quaint...about 20 people...some family and close friends. I just wanted people there who loved me and were happy for me and my growing family. I thank my brother and Holly sooo much for throwing the shower for me. It was really nice of them. Not having my mother here for these big events is not right, and they just tried to make it a little easier on me. Thank-you, thank-you!!!

Michael Ryan is doing great too. Can't leave here without mentioning my biggest boy. He is awesome! He is sooo big, Friday he goes for his yearly check-up.


Tomorrow is my 35 week appointment. I am anxious....as usual.
I am getting more and more anxious as the weeks go by. I want to meet and hold her and be her mom. But I can't help but to worry about her. Is she o.k.?, Is she healthy, will she be healthy? I am praying, and I do believe she is. I need to keep the faith and be optimistic. I want my baby girl so badly, I never wanted something sooo much as to have this third child and welcome a baby girl into this family. She needs to whip all these boys into shape!!

I have to go now, and wrap my dh's foot up so he can shower. Tootels!!